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push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.

push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.

get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.

stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.

buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.

buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.

strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.

organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.

have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.

push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.

message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.

think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.

become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.

lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.

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You will find a friend with a similar soul You will get that job that you applied for You will get that good grade in your class You will make it through your loneliness

Speak it into existence.

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SHOUT OUT TO EVERYONE WHO STILL TRIES TO GET BACK INTO THE SWING OF THINGS AFTER DEPRESSION HIT THEM HARD. THERE ISN’T ENOUGH RECOGNITION FOR THOSE PEOPLE WHO KNOW THAT THEY’RE GOING TO LOSE INTEREST AND MOTIVATION AGAIN BUT PUSH THEMSELVES TO DO STUFF ANYWAYS. YOU ARE FIGHTING A DAILY BATTLE WITH YOUR OWN THOUGHTS AND YOU’RE STILL COMING OUT ON TOP, YOU’RE ALL BRAVE AS FUCK 

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me: wants to play multiple instruments, create art, speak multiple languages, etc.

me: lays on the floor face down for an hour instead

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#relatable

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The Good Place was inside The Bad Place all along.

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female awesome meme ♡ (3/10) LGBT characters → Elena Alvarez “I took the makeup off after first period because people were staring at me and all these boys were talking to me, which is the last thing I want.”

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Gotta have mountains! 

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My doggo, Ezri, who rarely barks and mostly borks.

When I got her, she’d been abused and would cower and pee at almost everything, and had been mistreated when she’d barked, so she never would. One day months after I had her she got excited on a walk and borked at a bird, and then immediately cower-peed. I had to re-teach her to bark by gathering her whole human pack and having everyone bark and howl and feed her treats and pet her till she got excited enough to join in, and then got more treats. Took a while but I was able to teach her to bork on command (and she’s gotta be excited or she just stares at me like “Sorry, the bork system needs charging”) and she’ll do it happily when she’s excited to go for a walk or upon seeing a friend, and at birds. I love her croaky borking, especially when she started off terrified of making a joyful noise.

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Victims of the Douglas High School shooting (14 Feb. 2018)

‘‘… History remembers the killer’s name and rarely does history remember the name of the victim, … Everyone should read the names and look at the faces of the people who lost their lives that day… Take a moment to remember them…’’

Aaron Feis (37) | Alaina Petty (14) Alex Schachter (14) | Alyssa Al Hadeff (15) | Cara Loughran (14) Carmen Schentrup (16) | Chris Hixon (49) Gina Montalto (14) | Helena Ramsey (17) | Jaime Guttenberg (14) Joaquin Oliver (17) | Luke Hoyer (15) Martin Duque (14) | Meadow Pollack (18) | Nicholas Dworet (17) Peter Wang (15) | Scott Beigel (35)

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Canada: Has had only 3 mass shootings in the last 10 years thanks to gun control.

The UK: Has had 1 mass shooting since gun control was introduced in 1997.

Japan: Has never had a mass shooting, thanks to gun control.

Australia: Zero mass shootings since the port arthur massacre in 1996. 

The US: Had 383 mass shootings in 2016 and 273 so far in 2017. 

So take your “gun control doesn’t work!” bullshit and stick it up your ass.

“Mass shooting” in this context is defined, using the FBI’s definition, as a shooting where 4 or more people are killed, not including the gunman. 

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Just introduced a kid to her adoptive parents. They brought her a dozen roses. We met at a restaurant. I arrived early to get a private booth and told the waitstaff what was up. So all the servers were having a cry in the corner. I’m at a coffee shop a few miles away, giving them space and having my own cry.

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choking on water is the worst because how do you stop choking? drink something? well ive got some bad news for you

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💭🐟🦀🐳 (at Boston Harbor)