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WHAT I CAN TAKE FROM THIS QUARTER

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REFLECTION WEEK 9

Right now when someone asks me where I am in life it is difficult to say exactly what I am feeling. The straight answer I really feel right now is that I am over school, and just want to go home. I say this because I am definitely more homesick than I thought I would be and for around 9 months I have not been home. I know that is not an extremely long time but it was long enough, especially while doing school, I do not like school. So at this point I am just really tired from studying, tasks, and work. I miss the comfort of my home and being able to leave my house. I realised I have been stuck at UCLA for around 8 months. It has been the only thing I have seen, breathed and lived. Other than that, in terms of goals and my future, I would describe myself as being in a place of cruising. I am not even sure if that makes sense but by that I mean I am letting every day go by and that is what I make use of. My mood changes a lot so in terms of goals, it depends on the day. Additionally, in terms of my career goals, I am ‘floating’ in the sense that I am not sure but do not mind what happens next. I will continue to take the classes I need for both my major and pre med but in the bigger scheme of things, whatever happens happens. I am just really easy going right now (and stress about grades) and content in the life I am living. The most emotion I feel right now is towards going home, and I am unbelievably excited and it does not feel real. I know it is going to be a good time and make me a little more jolly than now.

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DAY 38 - 23/5/2024

Hi guys. Another late night! I am currently studying for my maths midterm and ahhhh. That’s all I have to say. I had around 5 hours of sleep last night because I stayed up studying. I then went down to campus for my classes and I was really tired I won’t lie. After my classes I met up with some friends and went to the ucla store when it opened to get food. I was really hungry because it was the first thing I ate at 4pm. I got a ham and cheese croissant and a milk tea. It was nice. I throughly enjoyed it. Since then I have been trying my best to study and ye it’s okay I guess. A little better than chem. I ate Thai food tonight and got the pad see ew. Yum. However it was very oily. Anyways. Got to go guys. I rate my day a 4/10 because I’m stressed. (2:07am)

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DAY 36 + 37

This is me making up for the two days I have missed. I have just been so swamped with work and I’m battling demons which are in the form of midterms. They just can’t get enough and keep beating me down while a soldier is already down you know? I’ve been sleeping like 4 hours which is a little too much because I be falling asleep while studying. Big no no. I’m stressed out. I had my chem midterm yesterday and it cooked me. I got burnt. Fried. All of the above. I’ve been eating things like the study, snacks form the UCLA store and ice cream. I had a rende shift last night but I was so tired I asked to leave early at 9 instead of 10. Ahhhhh things are crazy right now because I have a maths midterm tomorrow and it’s not looking too hot guys. Anyways. Pray for me. I’m sorry I didn’t do these posts and have been keeping you guys in the dark. I rate the past two days a 3/10. (1:19pm)

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DAY 35 - 20/5/2024

Hi guys. Damn I’ve been doing this for a long time. I slept around 6 hours last night. I guess it isn’t bad. But I haven’t studied at all and I have my midterms this week. I’m really really worried idk. I went to my early class and then sat at kerckhoff for a long time. I didn’t do much. I got a chai tea latte and an everything bagel with butter. After a while of having good conversation I headed back to my dorm to try and do some work because I haven’t been productive. I did a big chunk of my musicology essay but ahhh it took way longer than it should have. Anyways. I met up with friends and did some work with them but ye haven’t even finished it yet. I really need to lock in tonight so I hope that goes well. I rate my day a 4/10. (9:27pm)

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DAY 34 - 19/5/2024

Hi guys. So I had another long long day. I slept around 8 hours which is such an achievement. I worked 10 hours today at Rende and it was really frustrating at first I won’t lie. There’s a little bit of Rende drama rn or at least I feel like it so I was trying to deal with that. Anyways so I worked my lunch shift and ate a cheese quesadilla. I then went to in n out with some coworkers and got a milk shake! I had the one mixed with strawberry, chocolate and vanilla. It was pretty good. And a good way to make me feel a little better lol. I then went straight to my next shift. Another very very long shift. I saw a lot of friends during it which was fun too. I ate rende east and it was alright. I finished at 10pm and then I actually just got back from a spontaneous trip to Malibu. I went with a group of friends and it was a lot of fun. We go McDonald’s too. So big backed of me. I am now heading back to my dorm to hopefully get some sleep. I rate my day a 4/10. (1:48am)

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DAY 33 - 18/5/2024

Hi everyone. So I know my other time that was a little blunt but that was exactly how I was feeling yesterday. So I basically didn’t get proper sleep last night and got back to my dorm at 6 am after an event I had. Then went to the beach at 7 am with the family that I stayed with during spring break. We went that early because we went to surf I was kind of feeling sick so I laid back for a couple hours. After that I actually was feeling better and I went into water and surfed and even like road waves. That really woke me up and made me feel better we had all sorts of snacks on the beach including chocolate pretzels popcorn a study sandwich and I brought wheat thins. It was very fun to sleep on the beach however I have realised that while I was sleeping the sun came out and cooked me. My leg is so red from the sun. Also half my face is more burned than the other because I had my Hoodie on. Around 3 pm we headed home from Malibu Beach and I got back to my room at four. My day did not end. I had work from 5 to 10:30 pm can you believe it. So I went and I was really tired and exhausted but the shift was not too bad. I ate a steak burrito bowl. I’m really tired and hope to sleep soon. I rate my day a 6/10. (00:24am)

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DAY 32 - 17/5/2024

Honestly. No comment

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DAY 31 - 16/5/2024

Hey guys. Another late night tonight. I am really exhausted idk. I slept like 3 hours before having to take my AoL group phase and go to campus today. Absolutely cooked. The AoL wasn’t amazing but I guess it is what it is. When I went to campus I sat at Kerckhoff a bit and just tried to relax I guess. I even got the tomato soup and grilled cheese from the cafe for the first time and it was pretty good. I also got a carrot looking pen from the carrot man. I was so tired so I headed up the hill to take a nap before my work shift at 5. I knocked out so deeply that I overslept and woke up at 4:58pm! Oh shoot. I literally got changed so quickly I was so disoriented when I got to work at 5:05pm. My head hurt and I felt dizzy. After a bit I felt better but ye my body is kind of messed right now. During my break I tried the Pinoy night food at Feast and it was alright. There was a savoury dish with various meats and then an ube pancake. They were both pretty good but it was definitely a lot of food. I sadly forgot my leftovers at rende after the shift. After that I met up with friends and had good conversation until around now where I am finally in my bed. Doing work but I guess it’s okay. I’m really stressed right now but ye what can I do. I would rate my day a 3/10. My wonderful JP Chloe survived the day without her phone because her roommate had to use it. She was super busy as she has so many plans with people because she’s just so social! (2:18am)

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DAY 30 - 15/5/2024

Hiiiii. I’m a little late today. But it’s okay I’m still getting it done. Today I slept like 5 hours and went to kerckhoff really early. I spent a lot of time there and it was quite relaxing. I finished my maths homework, well at least one of them. Why do I have two assignments due!! Ughhh. But I’ve done one so thank goodness. I headed up the hill and then had lunch with a friend and had suuuuuch good conversation. I really enjoyed it. We ate bplate and I ate chicken and salad etc. after that I headed back to my dorm and did some assignments and read a bit of my book. I then had to take my AoL and I hope it went well lol. After that I had a BRIDGE dinner and it was actually a lot of fun and we ate subway! I then had great conversation again with cafe 1919. After that I went to target to collect an online order. Now I’m just trying to do a lot of work. I’m really tired. I rate my day a 5/10. (3:35am)

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Self care! This week I picked up the book I was reading in spring break but didn’t finish! I still haven’t finished it but it was refreshing to just leave the room and read a little bit to clear my head.

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WHY I AM THANKFUL FOR MY CLASS

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DAY 29 - 14/5/2024

Hello fellow tumblrs. So here we are again writing this. I slept around 6 hours last night and honestly I’m dead right now. The first thing I did was head to campus and sat by kerckhoff. I chilled with a lot of my friends and had great conversations. I then got a strawberry matcha and grilled cheese from kerckhoff and it was so good you know. I shared it with a friend though, before you call me big backed! I wrote a looooot of emails today it’s kind of crazy. My typing skills are much better than before now. I then went to my LS7A and it felt pretty long because my Mac died and I couldn’t really do anything while the lecture was going. You know, to keep my mind occupied. After that I headed back to kerckhoff and then went to the store with friends and got snacks. I got a strawberry milk tear which was nice and like cheese sticks. When I got back to the hill I head to meet up with friends again and sproul and we just relaxed together. After that I went to bplate and had great conversation! Right after that we went to a friends apartment and had great conversation once again!! Now I’ve been studying since and kind of being big backed loooool. Let’s not talk about it. I rate my day a 5/10. (0:57am)

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WEEK 7 ESSAY

When it comes to my group of friends there are definitely a lot of different characters that really make the group a whole. We have a variety of people ranging from introverts to extroverts, from highly energetic to very nonchalant aura. I am very happy with my friend group and the dynamic really works well. If I were to say which friend I am, I would say I am the mom or just someone  who ‘floats’. When I say I am the mom, I would not say I am AS motherly as some people of the group, but more in the sense that I take charge or just check up on people during hangouts. I make sure the plan gets through the day and that everyone enjoys it. The ‘motherly’ that I am not involves the ‘nurturing’ and loving towards the other friends but I would not say I am a very affectionate person. I am basically only the practical aspects of a mom. Additionally, I say I am a ‘floater’ because I honestly am an introvert sometimes and just go with whatever the group wants to do. I like to just be there for the ride but if really needed I will step in and steer the boat. Between the two I do not mind either role but I think I prefer being a floater because it is obviously less for me to stress about on the day. I would say before I would be much more proactive to become the mom of the group but nowadays I have really given myself more space to be a floater and I will take it any day. I have the same amount of fun with less stress and I mean who does not want that. Overall I do not mind which role I end up taking, I would honestly do anything for this group of friends and I love them all dearly. I can not wait to hangout with them more and discover everyone else’s preferred role in the group!

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DAY 28 - 13/5/2024

Hi! Monday, the start of the week. I do not really like Mondays because my class is relatively early. So I went to bed late and woke up early and only slept around 5 hours. After class I went to kerckhoff and enjoyed sometime with friends. I ate a chopped salad from epicuria at ackerman and it was actually really good. I kind of have picked up weight and lowkey its getting bad. My pbros can vouch as they tell me everyday. So gotta watch what im eating! Lol. Anyways, I headed back up the hill relatively early because I needed to actually do some work. To be honest I am kind of torn between saying it was productive or not but i dont know. I did my life science reading guides and thats probably it. I did watch a movie though and it did relax me a little. It was called 'idea of you'. very sweet movie. Anyways, I got ready for my meeting at night and had to practice a dance beforee so that was a big chunk of my evening. The meeting I had was kind of terrifying, idk. Not sure what to think of it. I ended up eating my leftover ramen last night and it was actually SO GOOD. i am glad I ate something. Additionally. My beautiful Chloe caught up with her roomies since they left her to go home last week. She also had a great meal with them! Anyways, I NEED to sleep. so goodnight guys. I rate my day a 4/10. (2:50am)

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DAY 27 - 12/5/2025

Hi. So like you know I was meant to have a double shift. So I went to bed really late doing my laundry because I needed my uniform. Well it was a lot more work than my uniform. I put my bedding and blankets in and it didn’t spin dry. It was full of water like just completely soaked. So I had to put it in the dryer twice for 100 minutes each. I honestly just went to bed and woke up early to get it. I slept 4 hours. And all that for nothing because I went to work and felt SICK. I left after one hour which I feel terrible about because I never leave work. But today I missed two shifts. I’m not sure how I can catch up with hours this week. But my stomach was really in pain so I just couldn’t. So I left and fell asleep for the rest of the day. I only ate crackers and apple because I needed to give my stomach plain food. I felt bad. But nonetheless I did my homework and some other work but ye my head was sore throughout. Anyways I feel like I’m complaining a lot but I promise this is the worst I’ve felt physically. I got tired from folding my laundry. I hope it gets better. I rate my day a 3/10. (1:19pm)

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DAY 26 - 11/5/2024

Omg I have not slept. Absolutely 0 hours of sleep last night. And like I’m still kinda sick so I’m feeling kind of all over the place. I kind of just laid around trying to recover but of course had fun with my friends in Irvine. We didn’t sleep so we were all pretty drained but we had really great conversation which I’m really happy about. We also made cheese and chicken quesadillas at like 4am which were soooo good. I also ate strawberries which tasted so fresh and relaxing on my stomach…lol. I also had a lot of saltine crackers, apples, plain popcorn, because yk…pretty sure it was food poisoning so ye. Anyways I was feeling good and bad in different waves but hopefully that means I’m doing better because I still have to do laundry tonight and work a double shift tomorrow. Low-key worried I won’t feel good tomorrow because work will not be great otherwise. I am currently getting food with some friends because I can never refuse an offer for food. But ye let’s hope it goes down good. I rate my day a 5/10. (11:00pm)