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PERIOD!

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Here's to the mentally ill queers

Here's to the disabled queers

Here's to the chronically ill queers

Here's to the queers who (for any reason) can't make it to pride events or queer spaces

You aren't forgotten, not by me

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A gentle reminder 🌈🤍

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This is it y'all. This is... The Official John Winchester's A+ Parenting post.

HE"S A SCAM ARTIST AND I RAISED HIM RIGHT, NO NEED TO WORRY ABOUT SCREWING HIM UP!! MY SON IS JUST FINE!!

the other one though... something's very wrong with him. he wants to go to college and pick up gainful employment instead of stealing and ripping people off for a living. no idea what to do with him, he might be a lost cause.

Oh, John. Ohhhhh John what do we even do with your scumbag ass, you're fucking hopeless. So loud, and so, so wrong...

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HAPPY PRIDE EVERYONE!

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

I also wanted to thank you guys for all the support and kind words in the reblogs and comments recently, its much appreciated!

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You are loved.

Reference here

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I’m starting to think some of y’all haven’t actually felt the rain on your skin… which is crazy because no one else can feel it for you

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HATE when a character seems intentionally designed for me to be obsessed with and it succeeds

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It's a gang and what you're gonna find in it!

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it's a gang!

Please meet my debut novel!!

Summary:

Follow the new generation of a crime family proving itself and getting over years of abuse.

This is a story about found family and making connections, choosing your people and fighting for them. It's about persevering and making things work against all odds. It's about waking up every morning when you don't want to because you have people depending on you.

Nothing I do will ever pay for the atrocities of my life. It'll never be enough. The punishment is that I have to go to sleep every night and then wake up.

“I don’t want you to be good to me, Sim. I want you to be free.”

It's about love.

What you will find inside, AO3-style:

Asexual Protagonist, Mafia AU, Bisexual Romantic Interest, Found Family, Siblings, Graphic violence (it is a mafia setting) , Best friend banter and shenanigans

From the Author:

This is my debut novel and after 3 very long years of editing, I have finally decided to self-publish. Writing this story was my everything in a pretty dark time of my life and I was a very different person when I finished it. It's incredibly important to me that Mercy, the protagonist, is ace and that she is still loved in every possible way. She is adored.

This is a story about killing your abusers. About making your own family and trusting them to get you through anything. It's about finding your own self-worth through the love of others and your love for them.

I don't know if @korakos will see this. I just wanted to say that AFTG kept me alive for a very long time and showed me aces can be protagonists and have their happy endings. You have a copy if you ever want it.

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so here is my melkor hot take of the day. i dont think melkor is more evil than sauron.

like yes, tolkien said sauron is less evil than melkor bc he is devoted and obedient to him, i.e. catholic theological legalese, since love and obedience are the catholic virtue things that dont originate from evil. cool. ASIDE FROM THAT.

and like, melkor is totally MORE POWERFUL than sauron by like orders of magnitude. sure. melkor is the evil soup that suffuses the world like original sin and the fall do in catholic theology.

but like if in looking at intent and what they do, i dont think you can say that for sauron's relative power, i hesitate to say he is more evil, but he is evil in a more insidious and dangerous way common to our age.

like i see melkor very much representing the evil of the natural world (and to some degree part of the universal plan of eru iluvatar). he is volcanoes. he is the blight of winter. he is disease and pestilence and decay. he is the coming of darkness, the destruction of creation. the entropy of the universe. he desires the spark or life but can only subdivide endlessly like bacteria.

but that is part of the fallen world in theological terms even if it shouldn't be part of a healed world of immortal quasi spiritual (or actually spiritual) beings. it is imperfection if the goal is deathlessness. but it is part of the world.

and to a degree i see valar as having this sort of impersonal force of nature quality about them. not just melkor. they all do. tolkien describes them like heavenly bureaucrats. they arent tied to the world and dont understand the world in a tangible personal way that even the maiar do.

sauron is different and i think there is a reason sauron is the villain in the books in the second and third age and specifically in the main book he published. he is the evil of our modern world.

because most mythologies dont have two dark lords. one representing chaos and destruction and one representing order and coercion and industry.

it represents a fundamental swing in how cultures started to conceptualize evil. we mastered science and thus a lot of the things that were a curse from the gods were being solved. and yet. the world wasn't becoming less evil. we still want to control each other, to subjugate others. we want to tame nature so much it kills her and makes her barren. we covet power because we are afraid of the lack of it.

so yeah. sauron and melkor are both evil. but sauron was subject to melkor (or natural evils) until we subdued and chained him. and then sauron's evils were dominant.

(is this character analysis or fictional theology? idk.)

i love these characters because they are symbolic of how we conceptualize evil in the world, as well as being stand-ins for a certain character archetype. i dont have to write them just as them being evil. but they are great for writing about difficult subjects because of their symbolic nature.

(and maybe like sauron i too love volcanoes and snow and mushrooms and thus am a bit enchanted with the force of nature that is melkor. i used to study a LOT of catholic theology, and now as an outsider looking in im like, maybe i can play with these myths and tropes. at the same time, the ultimate plan of eru iluvatar is meant to be a mystery.)

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"Who needs the devil when people can create a hell like this themselves?"

-Light From Uncommon Stars by Ryka Aoki

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Wdym "fantasy" and "horror"? My favorite genre is weird woke chaos

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link to the carrd with more info and a sign up link (graphics are by @transrightsreadathon on instagram)

Trans Rights Readathon 2025 - March 21st-31st

I learned about this last year and I'm happy it's happening again this year! let's read some books by trans & genderqueer authors together!

apart from reading you can participate by

donating to an organisation who push fot trans rights (especially small local groups!) or individual fundraisers to support a local trans/genderqueer person

amplifying trans & genderqueer voices by posting about which books by trans & genderqueer authors you read and leaving reviews (and positive comments on publisher's posts about releases)

buying your books by trans & genderqueer authors from queer indie bookshops or directly from the authors

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No cuz let’s talk about it. When it comes to the book community, y’all are some of thee most anti-intellectual people I have ever seen. We say address problematic writers and the themes they put in their books and y’all say “It’s just a book! Let people read what they want!” Y’all get on the internet complaining about long paragraphs and saying y’all skip paragraphs and dialogue as if that makes any sense. Y’all can barely grab ahold of the themes of racism, grief, generational trauma, or the experience of being Black at a white institution in LegendBorn because you’d rather focus on the 5% of romance as if romance can’t also be political. Yet somehow you refuse to read books by Black and Brown authors cuz they’re “too political.” It can be right there in your face and you’d still use the excuse that reading is your escape so you don’t have to pay attention to those things when those things literally drive the book along with the characters. Percy Jackson is about a boy trying to dismantle the system of the gods cuz they got a bit too much dip on they chip and it literally almost always leads to their own children dying. Not to mention they suck as parents too. I’ve yet to read The Poppy War but it’s based off of an actual war. It’s historical freaking fiction. Rin literally sees a chance to have control over her body and takes it. Don’t think I don’t remember y’all being mad about that either. Y’all love The Song of Achilles as if it’s also not about war, touches on the romantic relationship between Patroclus and Achilles after historians have tried so hard to deny that they were in fact lovers, and let’s not forget the misogyny littered throughout the text that’s either there purposefully or the fault of the authors own biases. Like y’all are dumb and you don’t care.

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do you guys ever get annoyed that like. we have bodily needs.

like, sure, I don't mind eating a lil snack or drinking something tasty, BUT it annoys me that I have to do that in order to live.

like, I can't have little treats all the time, no, I have to eat regular meals, because otherwise the body will get upset. and most of the times, the body will also get upset if you eat something in particular, because it's dramatic like that

I like sweet fizzy drinks, but I gotta drink way more than I would like to in order to stay hydrated. and best way to do so is to drink water & that does NOT spark joy, the flavor usually is off, boring and annoying. not to mention if you drink enough, you gotta go to the bathroom so often, such an annoyance

like. do you guys get me.

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Since the Paralympics are happening and I’m seeing all sorts of people saying “See? This person doesn’t let their disability stop them!”

I would like you to remember that Paralympions are OLYMPIC LEVEL ATHLETES.

How would it feel if I compared your output to that of a literal olympic athlete and used that to justify not helping you or giving you what you need?

Oh, well Michael Phelps and Simone Biles can do it - why can’t you?

Thats how you sound.