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writing is so fun

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I still can’t believe how many people think helluva boss is bad. It has one of the most compelling slow burns between two men I’ve ever seen, and it’s not subtext, or something we need to write a 2000 word tumblr post to prove. It’s canon. Proof is on the paper.

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omg, Jax from TADC, Susie from Deltarune and Blitz from Helluva Boss

Like idk if a single room could contain those three

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Just going to put my thoughts out here now in case I turn out to be prophetic like I do with Helluva Boss

I do not personally ship Jax with anybody else because I firmly believe he is the youngest member of the cast. Seeing other people ship him doesn't bother me like y'all see him differently obviously that's completely fine, but I personally suspect him to be a minor and therefore I don't feel comfortable thinking about him that way.

Everything about his behaviour screams edgy teenager to me.

A theory people have been floating around that I really fuck with is the abandoned building conversion point. Kinger and his wife came to the circus early while C&A was still running, but by the time Pomni arrived it was because the C&A building had been long abandoned and she was exploring it.

If Jax is a kid, it's very easy to see a bunch of asshole teens dare or even bully Jax into going into a spooky closed off building by himself.

I've also long suspected that he's a HUGE wimp. The fear of corn and really overt personal deflection & projection one two punch in episode 5 all but confirm this for me. My man is afraid of everything, and he terrorizes others to feel like he's in control in some way.

I have some thoughts about Ribbit but I think until we know more I'm just gonna wait. But I think we shouldn't forget Goose telling us that Jax is not a good person.

I still firmly believe that if anybody is going to abstract, it's either going to be Ragatha (things aren't looking good for her rn honestly) MAYBE Jax, or...... Pomni herself, giving us the audience a first hand POV on what abstraction is actually like and what it means. Honestly that would be the most interesting outcome, though Pomni is hitting her stride rn and I don't know how she hits a breaking point from here.

Kay that's where I'm at for the time being if I think of more gems I'll drop em in a reblog later

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Btw I stand by my original feelings about Jax.

I think he's an asshole, and I don't think his deflection and lashing out as a coping mechanism makes him less of an ass. And I love him for it. I don't need him to be redeemed or something, he could have literally thrown Ribbit into the cellar himself and I'd still love him. Y'all making excuses for him are WEAK, I support all of Jax's rights and especially his wrongs lmao

OMG

COMPLETELY MISSED THIS ON MY FIRST WATCH

THERE SHE IS!!!!!!!!

A FROGGY FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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He is aiming at Moxxie

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THIS MADE ME LAUGH SO FUCKING HARD YOU HAVE NO IDEA

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OMG

COMPLETELY MISSED THIS ON MY FIRST WATCH

THERE SHE IS!!!!!!!!

A FROGGY FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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This is such a sweet and thoughtful post, thank you.

And my heart also goes out there to the people who are right beside Blitzø where he's at right now. For me, I see a lot of my past self in Blitzø. My broken, 20 something, traumatized and self destructive self. My constantly inflicting harm upon my self however I can self.

There are parts of me that are still like this sometimes, but I have a brilliant support system and chosen family to support me (and hold me accountable) when I stumble, so I have come very far in healing and have a little bit of distance.

I find Blitzø so compelling because I see my old self in him, and I want for him what I have now. I want to watch him grow, and heal, and learn to forgive and love himself. There's something very cathartic about seeing a character in a very popular show that resonates with me on such a deep level, that thousands of people get to see his pain and suffering and how destructive he is and how you can come back from it. It makes my own story feel valid and seen. Sometimes the fans can be incredibly cruel and unfair to him, continue to hate him and say horrible things about him, and that can be hard not to take personally. But on the flip side, I see so many people who GET it, you know? So many discussions about how he's trying, how he deserves grace now that we understand him better. There's something soothing about that.

Fiction reflects life. It gives me hope that people can see this asshole lizard man and his arc and take away a bit of empathy for the people around them in the real world.

Honestly, my heart goes out to all the people who identify with Blitzø.

Because like. On the one hand, here is this comfort character who makes you feel seen and understood. And it makes you naturally reach out to sort of half compare yourself to and try to measure up to them. It's like wearing a mask of your own face. It feels safer that way. If people hate you, it's really the Blitzø mask they hate, not actually you. So maybe you want to be even more like him. Maybe you sometimes look at him as the cooler version of you, and you try to be more like him. Like maybe you could gain Blitzø's approval the same way he gained yours and maybe that could kinda make you understand what it's like to actually love yourself.

But then on the other hand, there are all these moments to go back to in the canon and be like. That was kinda fucked up of him. That was even more fucked up of him. That was... hmm. I don't exactly want to emulate that part. And then you even have Blitzø himself saying "I don't want to be this way, " in canon. And like. How do you argue with that? You don't want to be this way forever, either.

But the mask of your own face is so comfortable and safe. And what does that even make you, identifying with a character that doesn't even want to be himself? Does it make you less like him if you kinda do want to be like him (at least in some ways)? You can try to grow and change in the sort of ways you think suit your idea of this character who reminds you of yourself, but where does that leave you? Are you even wearing the mask at that point, or is it just you? Who even are you if the character you relate to doesn't want to be themselves?

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Late for work!!

My wonderful work setup under the cut

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asoiaf reddit: here’s a statement grrm made 17 years ago as of today. he actually thought he would be finished by now😂 WHAT AN IDIOT

asoiaf tumblr: POLL—which kingsguard member, living or dead, had the tightest hole?

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things you DO NOT need to be a man

a dick

he/him pronouns

XY chromosomes

things you DO need to be a man

the swiftness of a coursing river

the force of a great typhoon

the strength of a raging fire

the mysteriousness of the dark side of the moon

^this post was brought to you by LGBT^

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To defeat the huns

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man with loophole fetish facing criminal charges gets off on a technicality

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Zira outfits