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Khari had to fight back the urge to break down even more as soon as he saw Nate. He was relieved that the other boy was there, ready to comfort him. He had friends here, something he never really, truly realized. But it made the loss of his mother sting, a fresh wound. She would be proud to here, that he had someone who he trusted enough to go to over something like this. But he would never be able to talk to her, tell her about his life, about school, about his friends. His teeth sank into his bottom lip and he tried to stop the whimpers coming from his throat.

Finally, he collected himself enough to explain why he showed up a teary mess. "My mum died," he murmured quietly, pulling one of his hands out of Nate's grip to wipe at his eyes. "She's always been sick, but no one told me she was getting worse, and now she's dead. I just- Nate, I don't know what to do," and he was breaking down again. Just talking about it solidified what just happened even more. She was gone, thousands of miles away, and he was going to die the same as her in a few years. It was a miracle she held on this long, and Khari probably wasn't going to be that lucky. "I'm sick too, Nate, same as her. I'm gonna die, and leave the people I love, and I don't wanna die Nate. I don't wanna die, and I want my mom back, I just wanna say goodbye."

Lost and a Little Broken // Nathan & Khari

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Lost and a Little Broken // Nathan & Khari

With a shuddering sob, Khari sat down on his bed, pulling his knees up to his chest. No one had told him his mom was doing worse, no one told her she was sicker. They only told him when it was too late, and now she was gone. It came out of nowhere, like a sucker punch to the gut. He was so focused on school, on doing well to make his parents proud, that he wasn't really thinking of home. Then he got a text from his dad, a little out of the ordinary, but nothing that would concern him. When he Skyped him though, and saw the hollow look in his eyes, he knew something was wrong. His mom was dead. The conversation was short, his dad just apologizing over and over, and telling him how much he wished he was here, and that his mum loved him. But at the time, Khari wasn't really processing it. Last time he saw her, she was full of life. No one would ever guess she was so sick, not when her laugh was so bright, her eyes shining, her features full. Even Khari sometimes forgot that she was suffering from the same disease he was. Or, suffered. 

It hadn't hit him until he hung up, his laptop screen going black and he was left alone with his thoughts. His mom was gone, forever. He would never see her smile, he would never get to hold her, he never even got the chance to tell her he loved her one more time. And that was when he broke down, heavy sobs wracking his body. He just couldn't be alone right now, not like this. He needed to go talk to someone. Nessa immediately popped into his head, but she was so far away. But Nate, Nate was only a few doors down, and he was kind and gentle. Khari pushed off his bed, his entire body shaking as he left his room. The hallways were empty, everyone mostly buckled down doing homework. He carefully walked down the hall until he found Nate's room. He knocked without hesitation, wiping at the tears falling steadily from his eyes.

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Hopefully!

You look like you’re about half way there!

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No one ever does, I just don't speak English the way most of you do, sorry. It is for me as well, I just don't get it. Oh? What's Bob's Burgers about? 

No, no…you’re fine; I just didn’t realize what you were talking about. Family Guy is too vulgar for me, personally. I think Bob’s Burgers is hilarious though — it’s certainly less rude than Family Guy.

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That sounds... wonderful.

You know what would be useful? Having someone on hand at all times of the day just for snuggles. Like — a big fluffy teddybear that hugs back.

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I want hair like that.

I like Finn’s hair, aha.

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She's funny! I like Finn best, even though he's the main character.

I like that one too! I like Lumpy Space Princess best!

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I stopped, but it's just upsetting. Um, I really like that show Adventure Time. It's cute and funny.

Aha. Then don’t watch it, love muffin. Do you have shows you do like?

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Erm, cartoon, sorry.

Drawing show?

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It is, it's very dirty and rude and I don't like it.

Yeah? Cause I don’t watch that cartoon!

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It's very inappropriate... 

Why do you say that, pumpkin?

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There's... a path...

I wasn’t running from anything! I was just running. Just some exercise, like.

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Family Guy is not a normal drawing show.

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You missed me, right?

I was gone for a while. Did I miss anything?

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What... is that? Why do pumpkins need to be spicy? Why do lattes need to be spicy? That sounds like a mess.

You know what I crave? Pumpkin spice lattes.

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What were you running from?

Running through the woods is fun but a lot more challenging than I would’ve thought. I had to vault myself over at least three fallen branches.

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He sounds like a bad guy.

Yeah, its a tv show.. About a mom whos becomes a drug dealer.