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Let us honor and respect our bodies for what they do instead of despising them for how they appear. Focus on living healthy and active lives, let our weight fall where it may, and consign our body hatred in the past where it belongs. - Kasey Edwards

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THE COLOR RUN CAPE TOWN, DOING THE HARLEM SHAKE, Hahaha, twas so much FUN!!! courtesy of HEART104.9FM

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Non-being

As it approaches stealthily... We remain oblivious It seems unreal We are invincible! Blissfully ignorant- or pretending to be ignorant Of the inevitable, That great big full stop to life - Non-being.

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#StrongWomen #strength #NeverBackDown #fearless #quote

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My Last Love (2012)

People love going on about their first loves,

Am I weird for wondering what my LAST love will be like?...I think not.

I don’t get what the fascination with first loves is all about…

I’d much rather look forward to my last love!

It was a first love for a reason wasn’t it?

To serve a purpose if you will...I don’t know, perhaps to introduce you to the world of dating, boyfriends and girlfriends and all that jazz…

So their job is done, well done to them…

  But wouldn’t you rather want to find your true love than pine over something that wasn’t meant to be?

  Sentimental reasons you say?...

Emotions are playing with your heart hun, the memories are coloured by emotion rather than reason…so no, any memory appealing to sentiment is no real reason…feelings of nostalgia are to be expected- does not mean that you should press replay though.

  Oh, you never know, he might have been the one you say?

Chances are that you are wasting your time reliving the past, perhaps even closing the door for someone great to enter your life,

Scared of closing the chapter of your life which contained him…

When you first experienced that most wondrous emotion called love…uh-huh…

  Well…you see, I see love as something that can be experienced over and over again, in varying degrees ofintensity

It doesn’t mean you never loved the person by moving on, no of course not !!

It just means that something much more powerful and more meaningful awaits…

Ultimately, a greater love…

  I've only written poems to two of my 'greatest loves'

 -of course, not counting the many lurve letters that have been exchanged , including that time when i wassixteen and thought i was the very first person on this planet to ever ‘be truly in love’!! Hahaha…

Oh yes I’d write him sweet little love letters and spritz them with my favourite scent so that he’d always think of me and imagine me being right next to him and each time he read those young words his thoughts would be saturated with me and…and ...and…

And those were the DAYS!!

Aahhh, if only  love would have remained that simple…

  But then again without love’s sweet confusion we would never learn to appreciate its beauty…

The beauty in forgiveness when he tells that first lie,

The beauty of trust,

And the beauty of the moments you share with each love…

Your first kiss…

The first time you say you love him…

Your first argument…

The making up…

…and finally, that moment you realize that you’re simply not meant for one another… (or more realistically, not good for one another!)

  Yes, the break up that hurts so bad you wish you could have ignored your feelings that something  wasnot right in order to prevent this pain from swelling up inside you…constricting your throat…you can’t breathe…the tears are stinging your eyes…

You feel them coming and try to fight them at first,

You will NOT Cry.

You. Will. Not. Cry.

Will. Not. Cry…

Not. Cry…

CAN’T CRY over this!…

But the first tear escapes and runs down your cheek- and you wish he was there to catch it…

Because that is what you’ve been taught he’s supposed to do…

But he does not come.

He doesn’t come to tell you he that forgives you

and to tell you that he could never stay mad at you.

Or that he knows that everyone makes mistakes and he loves you so much he does not care about what you did…and…and…and...

And fact is that you’ve broken someone’s heart!

…and in the process broken your own.

  How, you ask yourself, can so much pain stem from the joy you both once shared?

How can so much hatred have been disguised,

sugar- coated and…

presented as ‘love’ ?!!

your thoughts dance around your head, you wish you’d never met him…

YES , ‘cause then…

then it ALL wouldn’t matter,

YES, then it all would not exist…then…then…

…then the pain would vanish and you’d believe in love…again.

  …but when you really  think about it, even if you’d never met HIM, you’d surely have met someone else…sweetheart! Chances are good that the very same scenario would have played out.

  and if you had not WOKEN UP it would have happened again

and again …

and again …

until EVENTUALLY !!

you would have begun to see the pattern…

and realized the lesson that love was desperately trying to teach you all along…

  it was all preparation for your last love,

the love you’ll find when all have come and gone…

the one love who’ll never be ‘succeeded’ by anyone,

the one you’ll be READY for…

whom years of silly mistakes and games and playing hard to get..and…and…

and heartache and lost love prepared you for

your one

and only

- your LAST love.

    So i've been inspired to write a poem to my last love...it will consist of the many wonderful qualities those who have come and gone possessed.

Gone, since they were good in their own ways but not meant for me...a wish I suppose he'll fulfil...to be ‘the one for me’.

  I’m not looking for perfection...just someone real,

Someone who doesn't feel the need to hide behind a mask,

Afraid of showing who he really is to me…someone who knows who he is.

Someone who says what he means and is not afraid of telling me what he TRULY thinks about me,

About my decisions...

Someone i can bare my HEART to with no fear of being judged,

with NO doubt in my mind that we're on the same wave length, that we want the same thing...

to give selflessly and not want anything in return...

for our LOVE to suffice...

someone who  after seeing me at my worst still sticks around, saying “you’re not getting rid of me that easily”…

who doesn’t feel the need to perform grand gestures of ‘love’ to prove their feelings for me are true but who does the little special things…things that REALLY matter…

  we will be able to sit in perfect silence and stay in harmony…with no verbosity necessary to show that simple truth…true, unconditional, LOVE…

a love which accepts me at any size or shade.

Love which is the closest thing to the love my Father has for me.

And most importantly, someone who possesses a love for the Lord.

  I pray that God will bless me with him one day, but until i meet him I'd rather remain single...I'm no longer 'dating' just for the sake of dating... No more settling for less and wasting my time and that of somebody else just so that I'm not 'alone'.

so yes, It turns out i AM a romantic after all...

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Just a Thought...

I often wonder what life would have been like to the African child had European ideologies not been forced down the throats of our forefathers, had colonialism simply been a nightmare and they’d woken up to the familiarity of their cultures, had our people never been taken to foreign lands ngaphesheya kwamalwandle under inhumane circumstances and eventually made into submissiveS...servants...slaves!

I wonder what the present youth lifestyle would look like had Western culture and values not been sold to us each and every day from generation to generation, in the media, in popular music so much so most of us turned our backs on our own cultures in exchange for foreign ones…would a principle like obedience for elders and concepts like Ubuntu be held in more esteem than a value system based on materialism and instant gratification?...I wonder

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You're A Queen

By Lena Hovanesian

  If he's the one, he will move into your heart like a gentle sea breeze,

invading your mind with Love's essence while setting your soul at ease.

He will see you as a priceless treasure and not a useless trophy,

encouraging you to grow into the divine woman you are meant to be.

He will accept your flaws and imperfections with open arms,

but will love you too much to let you stay the way that you are.

If he's the one, he will be patient in winning your love and affection,

knowing the way to your heart is through Godly dedication.

He will touch your heart and not your body,

and in his eyes, your dignity will be undeniably sexy.

If he's the one, he will be strong where you are weak,

and build you up when you're on the ground in defeat.

His word will be his honor and he will keep his promises,

while leading you into a place of trusted bliss.

He will feel honored to be loved by you so unconditionally­,

for he will know that in his hands lies a genuine rarity.

He will be God's agent on a divine mission to heal your heart,

leading you out of the dark while preparing you for a brand new start.

Wait for the man who will pray with you and for all that concerns you,

Don't let anyone tell you that this is dream that will never come true.

Don't put your hope in fairytales and prince charmings,

Put your hope in the LORD and he will lead you to a KING.

(You Are A Queen)

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My Xhosa Poem

“Yiva ndikubalisele  Ndikunike indyebo yentliziyo Mamela ndikuxelele Ndikuxelele iimfihlo zentliziyo Intliziyo yam….”

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"If we wait for the moment when everything, absolutely everything is ready, we shall never begin." - Ivan Turgenev

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#religion

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“The quality of a person’s life is in direct proportion to their commitment to excellence, regardless of their chosen field of endeavor."