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I’m not the person that I used to be. None of my exes would be able to identify me. I’ve grown flowers in a garden once filled with tainted soil. I think differently, I love differently, I fuck differently, I express myself differently. And I drink a hell of a lot more. I am more courageous about taking risks with my time and my future. I am softer to strangers and those I hold dearest. I am more optimistic even though I know I will always be a realist at heart. Despite all of the growth, I am not yet the person I want to be. I will plant many more seeds in my garden of growth. I will embrace compassion. I will strive for empathy. I will take more time to be understanding. I will allow myself moments of reflection on the ways I have grown, but only long enough to grant myself the inspiration to become who I want to be.

the garden of my being (via classicallyfreshh)

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We've had Better Days!

This generation is so effed up... we are all 15 and 16 year olds acting like we're 21 and going out drinking, smoking and having sex cause it's COOL. I hate that word too. COOL. It's COOL to be a f**kboy and flirt with girls when you already have one. It's COOL it call a girl a prude if she won't have sex but a slut if she kisses any other guy but you. We've had better days! We have ruined everything. Everything. We've ruined Netflix and Pizza. Why can't Netflix and Pizza just be "Hey, wanna come over for Netflix and Pizza?" without someone automatically thinking you want to hookup? Seriously though! We've had better days. This generation continuously uses words that we have changed the meaning from. Bitch was a female dog but now they're snakes. Snakes used to be an animal but now it's people who snitch. Fag means "to work hard at a tedious task" but now it's someone who is homosexual and shaming them. We've had better days. Everyone is judged on things we shouldn't be judged on. Our self concept is driven by the amount of instagram followers we have...and it's become so bad that some people even buy them to make themselves look, and feel better. We puke rainbows on Snapchat, but can't offer two kind words to strangers. We video tape anything like someone falling off a bridge because it's cooler if we got it on video than saving a life. We have a thousand emojis but zero emotions. We spend so much on concert tickets but watch them through a phone screen. We've had better days. There is more information out there than there ever was yet how much to we really know? We're exposed to too much these days and don't know how to absorb it. Finally, our egos are getting bigger but our hearts are getting smaller. When were the days where we cared more about others problems than ourselves? When we were selfless and involved in issues we could solve. When we loved people for not having plasters on they're butts or pounds of makeup, but for who they genuinely are. Where did those days go...the good days...the better days. -Kiki Pugh 2017