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“I used to dislike being sensitive. I thought it made me weak. But take away that single trait, and you take away the very essence of who I am. You take away my conscience, my ability to empathize, my intuition, my creativity, my deep appreciation for the little things, my vivid inner life, my deep awareness of others’ pain, and my passion for it all.”

— Unknown

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You know what I'd love, I'd love if you created a tumblr account just so you could see my posts about you. Fucking shit, I love you with my whole heart, but I don't ever wanna see you again. You make me sick, you disgust me, you are awful, tragic, pathetic, immature, fucking stupid cunt. I love you with my whole heart. You're the only one that can make me feel something. And I feel all those gross emotions just because you decided one day that I'm not good enough for you, but two days before that you were telling me how you're starting to like me more and more, stupid ass liar. I loved you. I love you. I will probably love you forever. But you are a disgrace in my eyes, you are gross, you are the worst you can imagine and even more. Fuck you. And fuck anything that reminds me of you. Please don't ever come into my life back again, please just disappear. You didn't leave me heartbroken, you left me fucking destroyed. I'm in pieces. Go fuck yourself, jackass. Get vanished.

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i wanna be loved……. like overwhelmingly loved….

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sext: I want to heal with you and build something better.

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“She didn’t need to be saved. She needed to be found and appreciated for exactly who she was.”

— j. iron word

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“no homo”? why the hell not???

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I just wish I had more time with you

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But if the world was ending you’d come over, right?

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“You are my home. I don’t see myself feeling safe anywhere else other than the arms you hold. You are my person, the one I want to travel the world with. The one I want to wake up next to at two in the morning and eat ice cream with. You are what my thoughts are about, and you are what my heart wants to desire. You are what I call special, because it’s only you who I want to hold hands with in years from now on an old porch while we talk about nothing yet everything at the same time.”

— A.M.// you are my one. (via tullipsink)

[kill-me-in-april]

“You left her there. She gave you everything, and you took your hint of guilt and left behind a goodbye and a broken girl. And maybe it didn’t hit you at first. Sure, you slept while she stayed up. Your pillows didn’t stain with tears. Your showers didn’t end in sobs. Your stomach didn’t cave in every morning, your heart didn’t ache every breathe. But maybe you run into her months down the line. Maybe you hear of her new love, the news spilling across the floor like a new stain on the carpet she used to tread on. Maybe you meet her in a coffee shop, and she stopped cutting her hair, and it trails down her back like the past she left you behind in. And the heart ache isn’t hers anymore. Her smile reaches her eyes now and her laugh lights up the room. You forgot, didn’t you? You forgot the way she held you the night you couldn’t fall asleep. You forgot the way she covers her mouth when she laughs, the way she cups her hands over mugs to keep her fingers warm, the way her hands were always a little bit cold. You forgot the way it felt to know that despite all the flaws that ran through your veins there was someone there to kiss your forehead and brew you tea. Oh, but you’ll remember. And maybe if you’re lucky, you won’t be holding something fragile when you hear the news. Maybe if you’re lucky your heart will only ache for a fraction as long as hers did. Maybe if you’re lucky, she’ll pick up when you call. But even if she still has all the tenderness for you in the world, her voice is not the same. She doesn’t love you anymore. You lost her. You lost her. And you can’t ever get her back.”

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~Meriam BHT, Delayed heartache

Dedicated to moonlyaffairs <3

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“You don’t know how it feels like when the person you’ve fought the hardest for gives you up without a fight.”

— R.R.

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“I will never forget the way you looked at me.”

— I swear, I never will // R.R.

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“I like drinking coffee alone and reading alone. I like riding the bus alone and walking home alone. It gives me time to think and set my mind free. I like eating alone and listening to music alone. But when i see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their bestfriend, I realize that even though i like being alone, i don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who wont run away.”

— Hannah Nelson (via help-n-quotes)

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“I don’t ask anyone to stay Not anymore The phone may tremble in my hand But never again Will I beg for someone to love me”

— (via melindacarolinee)

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I want to kiss you in a way that makes you not want to kiss anyone else ever again

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watch me manifest everything I want

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“Auf der suche nach Wärme, wurde es unglaublich kalt.”

— verbautezukunft (via verbautezukunft)