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Um excuse me?!

seven sentence sunday

i have no idea how many sentences this actually is. oh well. thank you to @alrightbuckaroo @sznofthesticks @strandnreyes @carlos-in-glasses @cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut and @im-overstimulated-and-im-sad for tagging me!

Carlos looks down at the gun, sweaty between his hands. He almost forgot he was holding it. It’s getting hard to think in here; thoughts form slowly and most fade to black before they’re fully formed. It’s possible that he’s making everything worse. Still, Carlos feels surprisingly calm, although it could just be that the heat has him lightheaded. He’s still picturing his would-be morning with TK. Playing hooky in their big, sweaty bed, in their big, beautiful loft where the A/C is still just as useless as it is here. No air, no matter where he goes. “I’ll drop it if you will,” he says, only halfway joking. “Ha. Not happening, man.” “Maybe you could just put him down, then.” TK is slumped in Dennis’s arms, his eyes half-lidded as though he’s about to doze off, sticky and f*cked-out in an alternate universe where Carlos is petting his bedroom hair. “He’s innocent in all this. And you know how it is. I have to make sure nothing happens to him.”

i haven't edited this so if you see any errors NO YOU DON'T!!! tagging @reyesstrand and @tailoredshirt <33

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our love will guide us home

rating: T

word count: 30k

“That's the thing about love. Most of the time, it's beautiful. It's a feeling unlike any other, and even when it got complicated it was almost always worth it. Sometimes, it also sucks. It brings pain and heartache, and every now and then the bad memories begin to overpower whatever love that once existed between two people until it ultimately tears them apart in the end." Carlos has been lost these past couple of months without TK by his side. To his friends and his family, every day is simply just another day. He figures that as long as he keeps his pain locked away, the hurt will eventually dull. It's his shield. It's the only way he's ever known how to grieve. The universe has a different plan for him this time. All it takes is one frozen lake, one fateful radio call, and the possibility of losing TK forever that forces him to confront it all.

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Live To Tell

In 2019, TK Strand is struggling. Reeling from his most recent relapse, an encounter with an eerie stranger alters the course of his life forever. He spends a harrowing eighteen hours as a missing person, and what happens that night creates a domino effect that follows him years into the future.

In 2023, as TK settles into a beautiful life — sober and healthy — with his soulmate, Carlos Reyes, the monster from his past comes back out of nowhere.

And this time, he’s coming for both of them…

Chapter One

Chapter Two (Coming Soon)...

Heed the tags

💛

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Missing Moments

Season Three

A series of canon compliant tags and a continuing storyline that follows along with the show but digs deeper into TK and Carlos’s relationship, their individual struggles, and the love they build together.

Find links to individual stories below, or read the whole collection at the link above.

3x1 - Imperfect pieces pulling at the glue (T)

3x2 - Up in smoke (E)

3x3 - Wayfaring stranger (T)

3x4 - Homeward bound (T)

3x5 - Reconstruction (M)

3x6 - All these sacred melodies (E)

3x7 - Everest to Mariana (E)

3x8 - "You have one new message..." (E)

season one fics season two fics

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I definitely missed this because I was working but please take this as your opportunity to ask me any airplane related questions as I’m trying to be your friendly neighborhood airline pilot!

Episode 3x08 In the Unlikely Event of an Emergency Discussion Thread

Please feel free to use the comment thread and tags of this post throughout the week as a place to liveblog while watching the episode, discuss with friends, post your metas and thoughts etc. Anything you’d like to discuss while watching the episode is welcome!!

Please reblog this post for visibility!! 

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Hi hi!! It's unfair of me to ask you to actually write the full essay on the rwrb red room kiss scene, but I saw your tags and am very interested in at least what the main thesis would be, if you feel like sharing!! No worries if not 😊 Have a good night/day/whatever time it is where you are!

The last few weeks have been, well. They've Been™ and I'm going to use this wonderful ask to dust off my overthinking tag and write a meta post on this movie, these boys, and then hope more than three people care what I have to say.

The Red Room kiss scene is Iconic™ and Important™ and in this essay I (really) will discuss agency, framing, and why it always had to be Alex to be the one to make the move.

While book!Alex takes book!Henry to the Red Room, here he's waiting. Bundle of nervous energy. He doesn't know what to do with himself, how to hold himself, how to present himself when Henry turns up. He's backlit in this (which is a theatre technique, I see you Matthew) but it also adds to the drama and tension of the scene.

The (in)famous painting of Hamilton, about to bear witness to things.

We jump cut between Alex trying to find... something. Here he is realising his shirt has come slightly undone and he wants to try and be somewhat presentable. At least for the moment. But it speaks to Alex's physicality in this scene because he is shifting and moving so much that his clothing is shifting. There's also an interpretation that this suit represents the formality of the situation - the Prime Minister's dinner, at which he (the First Son) and the boy he wants to kiss (the actual Prinec) are supposed to be front and centre and the picture of formality.

He's coming undone in this moment because he's the First Son and he's waiting for the Prince, but he's also Alex and he's waiting for Henry.

Ah, yes. The casual lean against the wall. Fancy seeing you here, your Royal Highness, what do you think of the menu? But there's grounding here too. When you're spiralling focusing on a physical point of contact between you and and something can help ground you.

It's also a defensive stance in a way. You shall not pass, I'm not moving. Alex is claiming space and territory and he's controlling it.

"How dare you fucking kiss me, run away, ghost me, then walk into the White House like nothing changed." This is closed off, defensive, protective - probably why it's the quickest of the poses to be dismissed. He's got his back against the wall like he's scared or ready to come out fighting. And, in a way, both of those are true.

Book!Alex is mid-crisis on his bisexuality and while he logically knows he is very much into Henry, he's not gotten to the point of turning theory into reality.

Movie!Alex is more chill about being into guys, but this attraction to Henry is confusing him. He hates the guy. He wants to punch him in the mouth. With his mouth.

(What? That's literally book canon: and if he weren’t already hell-bent on destroying Henry’s infuriating idiot face with his mouth right now, he would consider doing it with his fist.)

Casual lean against the table, less staged and jarring than the extended arm against the wall.

But then Henry walks in and Alex stands to attention and he is... rapt. He is calm and composed and he is focused. We're back to the back-lit position which helps frame him with a near-halo effect.

And you can see that he is relaxed. There's a slight drop in the jaw, his shoulders are sloped and rounded. Because none on what he was trying to convey before matters. Henry is here.

"Look" he starts with - he's expecting a fight. He's expecting Alex to go off on one for the kiss, for the liberty taken. Even if Alex is willing to forget that it ever happened, take Henry's secret to the grave, Henry gets one thing right in this.

"my behaviour was appalling"

Because it was. Look, Hen, I love you and I'm with Alex in the feeling that I will go to war for you to see you happy and safe. But you did kinda kiss him without consent (harsh reading) and you did ghost him without apology (soft reading) and for a boy raised in the Royal Household that... well... it's pretty much top items on the Very Bad Behaviour list. He did not act with decorum or dignity, he did not act in the way that his status and position demands.

(That's OK, Hen. Because the boy under the linden tree wasn't the Prince. It's OK to not be him, and Alex is going to spend the rest of his life loudly loving the man, not the prince.)

"Shut up, stop talking." // “Shut up, shut all the way up, oh my God,” Alex hisses

Because even though both versions of Alex said he wanted to talk to Henry, in the moment that's the last thing he wants to do. And actions speak louder than words, right?

Why it had to be Alex

Henry needed to make the first move, that New Year's kiss, because there needed to be something to make Alex realise that this thing he's feeling is very much reciprocated, and that Henry wants it too. If Alex had kissed Henry for the first time on New Year's Eve/Day then it would have been too much of a leap. Alex, at whatever stage of his bisexual journey, has no clear idea of Henry's orientation at that party. It's only with retrospective viewing that he realises that Henry was low-key flirting, and that the sharing of these deeply personal moments wasn't just a "two bros in a hot tub" thing.

So Henry had to kiss Alex first but then he had to run because there was no way that the mostly-closeted, private Prince could accept that a) he fucking kissed a boy, b) said boy is the one he's been dreaming of since Rio/Melbourne, and c) the boy kinda?? kissed him back?? Henry will have been having a low-grade anxiety attack all through January (and trying to reclaim some control with the date he went on in the book).

In this moment, Alex knows all the pieces. He's played this logic game to its conclusion and he knows all the facts. 1) Henry is gay. 2) Henry is into him. 3) He's into Henry. That last fact is something Henry isn't fully aware of (or at least can't bring himself to believe it to be true) and so it has to be Alex.

He doesn't want Henry to say something that would get in the way of this, doesn't want to hear any kind of pre-prepared speech of "yeah, we're better off as friends" that always happens when the couple get too close to getting together too early in the run time. Alex is full on shutting that down, shutting Henry up, and he gives as good as he got.

"Wait a minute" // Henry’s too shocked to respond, mouth falling open slackly in a way that’s more surprise than invitation, and for a horrified moment Alex thinks he calculated all wrong, but then Henry’s kissing him back, and it’s everything.

And this time it's both of them. Framed between Hamilton and the books. The American political trailblazer and the literary. In the space between? There's our boys.

Alex's hand is on the wall again and he's controlling the space but Henry is very much in it. He's protective but in a different way.

In one frantic motion, Alex knocks the candelabra off the table next to them and pushes Henry onto it so he’s sitting with his back against—Alex looks up and almost breaks into deranged laughter—a portrait of Alexander Hamilton. Henry’s legs fall open readily and Alex crowds up between them, wrenching Henry’s head back into another searing kiss. They’re really moving now, wrecking each other’s suits, Henry’s lip caught between Alex’s teeth, the portrait’s frame rattling against the wall when Henry’s head drops back and bangs into it. Alex is at his throat, and he’s somewhere between angry and giddy, caught up in the space between years of sworn hate and something else he’s begun to suspect has always been there. It’s white-hot, and he feels crazy with it, lit up from the inside. Henry gives as good as he gets, hooking one knee around the back of Alex’s thigh for leverage, delicate royal sensibilities nowhere in the cut of his teeth. Alex has been learning for a while Henry isn’t what he thought, but it’s something else to feel it this close up, the quiet burn in him, the pent-up person under the perfect veneer who tries and pushes and wants. He drops a hand onto Henry’s thigh, feeling the electrical pulse there, the smooth fabric over hard muscle. He pushes up, up, and Henry’s hand slams down over his, digging his nails in.

The sensibility of the suits is on its way out, they're not the First Son and the Prince. And Alex is taking the lead.

Agency

Henry is somewhat passive in this - although he is fully engaged - but it's Alex who set this in motion. Pun intended. Alex who pushed him against the wall. Alex who pushed him up onto the table and hiked his leg up around his hip, Alex who is driving in. Because Alex needs Henry to know that third fact. The one he's worked out, the one that Henry is just catching up with. This isn't payback, it's not some prank. Alex Wants™.

There's a scene I'm writing in my current FirstPrince WiP in which Alex and Henry have a charged moment. And Henry wants to act on it but those princely sensibilities get in the way and he can't let himself be led into doing something that could be used against him. If Henry made all the moves then the accusation of him taking advantage, of the inherant imbalance that comes with status and titles and positions of power. So in the scene, and here, Alex takes the lead. There's no way anyone could accuse Henry of forcing Alex into doing this.

(Good luck getting Alex to do ANYTHING he doesn't want to.)

So Alex gives and Henry takes and he gets the memo very quickly.

Fact number three. Alex wants this too.

Then Movie!Amy walks in on them (which IMO is way funnier than Book!Amy hissing through a crack in the door) and these idiots try to act like they weren't redefining International Relations a second ago. Alex is by the painting, Henry is by the books. They've gone back to their sides and they're playing at being interested in what they find there. But they're not, it's all for show, someone who gives a passing glance at this point sees this part of them, this side of them The First Son and the Prince: the politician and the literary.

They're both backlit, they're in line even if it doesn't look like it, Alex is no longer on Henry's right, and they're both trying to act like the people that others could see them as.

But we - and they - know better. 1) Henry is gay. 2) Henry is into Alex. 3) Alex is into Henry.

4) Everyone is on the same page now.

(Also I know Casey talked about seeing the Red Room on a White House tour and so that's why they included a scene in that room in their book, but I cannot ignore the fact that red = love and passion and danger and fire [the counter to the water motif] and it's a warm colour designed to excite.)

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This episode fucking broke me. It’s my favorite for sure (and not just because I’m a pilot and it involves planes lol)

I’ll always be with you.

TK STRAND & GWYNETH MORGAN in 9-1-1: Lone Star | 3.08 “In the Unlikely Event of an Emergency”

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30 Days of The West Wing: Day 25 Favourite cast photo

Every photo of this cast is my favourite. But look at little Donnatella pretending to be busy, and Abbey appreciating her shoes. Toby’s really smug because he’s finally sitting down, and Sam’s standing up. And Josh and CJ are looking at Bartlet like he’s their favourite parent. Leo and Charlie look like things aren’t going their way. They prefer it when they’re with Jed on their own, I guess.

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I WOULD NOW LIKE TO SHARE WITH YOU MY TK’S TOP 10 HOTTEST MOMENTS LIST

1. THE SOFTBALL OUTFIT - changed my life, who was i before the softball outfit????

2. The way he kisses Carlos when he’s up against the wall in episode 2, u know the shot (sorry to be horny on the main but pro tip- NO MUSIC)

3. “Maybe don’t make us do your job for you next time.” “You love it”

4. “Its not that she didn’t see you, its that she didn’t like what she saw.”

5. Shoving Carlos up against the door in episode 3 like…. Ok ok ok. And the shirt rip? OK OKAY OKAY

6. The way he says yes to Carlos asking him to dance , can’t explain it

7. Leaning on the door frame with his ‘too nice for the Y’ sweater and his watch with his hands in his pockets when Carlos pissed and eating without him

8. “Well I think we should come here more often,” AND LOOKING AT CARLOS’ MOUTH CONTROL YOURSELF SIR

9. ‘Its delicious blobs of snot’ with the eyebrow and sucking on the straw???? Get out of here

10. I’m sorry I know he’s going Through It in the police station scene but …. Yeah wow

HONERABLE MENTION - when he says “yeah Paul! You stud! pow pow pow” and does the hip thing. listen I can’t explain it so don’t ask me to. I think its like when a guy is so funny u want to fuck him?….Yeah thats what’s going on here

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I’m reblogging this because of Måneskin and I love that band so much

Meet me there where it never closes Meet me there where it's never hopeless All is fair in love

For @tommy-evan ♡

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see I like this because if they’re standing next to one another it’s like the hummingbird is sipping from the flower

LEMON for Nice Ask Week -

Give Carlos and TK a new tattoo each!

Aww I love this. Okay I think Carlos gets a bushel of Texas bluebonnets for TK’s bee to pollinate and TK gets a hummingbird to sip from Carlos’s flowers. I think they get them on their hips because Carlos would want it to be something special and intimate and just for them.

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For anyone who ever wanted to look at this scene without the credits obstructing their view.

(As such, I've also omitted dialogue text from the gifs.)

911 Lone Star: Riddle of the Sphynx (3x13)

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“Remember me” - original poem

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✍️ more fic writer asks!

reblog & your followers can send asks with the questions they’d like you to answer!

the last sentence you wrote

a character whose POV you’re currently exploring

how you feel about your current WIP

a story idea you haven’t written yet

first sentence of the fifth paragraph of an unpublished WIP

the word that appears the most in your current draft (wordcounter.net can tell you)

your preferred writing fonts

if you had to write a sequel to a fic, you’d write one for…

start to finish, how long did it take you to write the last fic you posted?

what is the longest amount of time you’ve let a draft rest before you finished it?

a WIP you’d like to finish someday

a trope you’re really into right now

a fandom you’re thinking about writing for

where do you get your inspiration?

favorite weather for writing

favorite place to write

talk about your writing and editing process

if you keep them, share a deleted sentence or paragraph from a published fic

the most interesting topic you’ve researched for a fic

in what year did you publish your first fic?

when did you publish your most recent fic?

do you ever worry about public reaction to what you’re writing? how do you get past that?

pick three keywords that describe your writing

how do you recharge when you’re not feeling creative?

besides writing, what are your other hobbies?

are you able to write with other people around?

your favorite part of the writing process

your least favorite part of the writing process

how easy is it for you to come up with titles?

share a fic you’re especially proud of

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It’s part of growing up like getting braces or throwing rocks at cars. Cars wouldn’t even come down my street after a while ‘cause they knew Linda would get ‘em.

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using this fic as an excuse to reread how i linger

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Bestie is back. We love a break for mental health!

A check-in and announcement

Hey everyone! I know it's been a minute since I've been around and longer since I've posted prompts. I want to first say I am so sorry for just stopping without any warning. Grad school got rough and my job is even more rough than that, I didn't have the mental energy needed to keep up with this blog the last few months. I also had feelings that I couldn't post the prompts that I wanted to and there was some negative talk that just impacted me and I needed a break. It was a good break and allowed me time to distance myself from fandom spaces in a way that I needed and helped me realize somethings and I was able to deal with some complicated emotions surrounding fandom in general. Everything is good now.

That being said, I am back and planning some fun things. I've decided that I am going to go back to how I was doing the blog in the beginning with only one prompt being posted each week. I tried to hard to cater to everyone who was pushing me to post more than one, to have fun themes every week, and I burnt myself out trying to do what everyone wanted me to do. So, it's going to be one prompt a week unless it's a special occasion.

I will start posting weekly prompts again starting in June when I go on summer break (I'm a teacher so it's easier for me to start this up again when I'm not working 40+ hours a week). In the meantime I would love to hear from you guys!

There will be a special wedding event happening in May to celebrate Tarlos being married for a year!

What kind of prompts are you hoping to see? What events do you want to see on the blog? What do you want me to do that I haven't, or what's something I did in the past that you'd like to see again? Let me know via asks!

I'm excited to be back doing this again!

You can also find me over @chaotictarlos!

Love, T

(P.S. just a small reminder that I run a discord server for this blog and general tarlos/lonestar stuff and if you're over the age of 18, message me and we can see about you joining!)