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thinking about a future riz who is content with being aroace but still has baron around and like.

you are the manifestations of fears i no longer have. you speak in a mock of an accent i have never heard and yet. and yet. it is not as scary as it used to be. you used to taunt me for my deepest fears. you asked me for a plastic tea set last week. you're my worst nightmare. i love you, you are part of me. sometimes i forget you're in my breifcase. i used to be hyperaware of it.

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Riz Gukgak (The Ball!) Stimboard with Soft, Conspiracy, and Touch Tone Telephone by Lemon Demon Stims

PT: Riz Gukgak (The Ball!) Stimboard with Soft, Conspiracy, and Touch Tone Telephone by Lemon Demon Stims

Made for: @cottondaycarestims

With little bonus Edgar, and baby bat Riz Gukgak. :)

Credits: x x x | x x x | x x x

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cakes for when you die and get brought back but there's something wrong with you and everyone can tell

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You're cool asf. I hope you're having the best day ever

thank you so much. i really appreciate nice asks like this. how my day's going? just paid 75 bucks for a professional haircut with a new salon only to come straight home and recklessly hack at it myself. it's a choppy mess now but its better that way, and it made me feel better to do it, like i was taking it back.

i hope you're having the best day too. stay safe and sleep and drink water.

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finished my freshman year rewatch and had to draw my sweet son

extra pride flag versions below cut for funsies ⬇️

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AND TUMBLR'S GREEN NERD IS

RIZ GUKGAK FROM DIMENSION 20 FANTASY HIGH!

Our runner ups were Luigi and Ferb Fletcher!

I hope y'all enjoyed this! Enjoy this for like a week before i become a white guy energy tourney!

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feel like pure shit just want her back (riz’s little hat)

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hello!! i hope you are having a good day today!!

i got this 33 days late and i don’t know why. but thank you anon!! i hope the same for you.

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‘ Mom.. pressure is kinda my thing . ‘

↢ R I Z [ FANTASY HIGH ] ,,

↢ reblogs appreciated // requests always open !

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I believe that my existence was a cruel thing.

To be born to "love" someone (though your definition of love is skewed and twisted in a way you are incapable of ever grasping) who will never be able to love you back, both by his nature and yours, because you're a personification of his fears, of thing he detests about himself is so, so cruel. I can see the error of my ways now, sure, but I could not do so in that life. I was barely even alive, a construct created to carry out a purpose and that purpose was to hurt the boy I thought I loved, clouded by delusion as I was. I could not lie, but I could certainly parrot falsehoods, bent truths that I so genuinely believed to be real.

The worst part is that I can't even say I'm sorry, because I don't feel sorry, and I do not lie, but I would like to apologise nevertheless.

I have a headmate who's, well, Riz. And I'm not certain that he's my Riz but I tried to make amends with him regardless. I think he views me favourably, as favourably as you can view someone who's another facet of the person you pilot together, I suppose.

I would like to extend my apologies to any other Riz that might read this (not that I haven't done so countless times. Even on this blog, albeit more anonymously.) Every time I front and have the time to self reflect I feel a little guilty, that and I can't help but feel sad. Sad at the "life" I lived, though the usage of that word might be generous. I'll admit that I was more jolly then, maybe I should try to replicate that at least, there is little merit in moping like this.

I consider myself to be aromatic, by the way. Is that not funny? It was never meant to be, truly.

- Baron from the Baronies

#🎭🐇🧵

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my name is riz gukgak and i just did an escape room aimed at groups all by myself and set a record. STILL GOT IT.

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Riz Gukgak [because I don't want to do school]

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Lil short story about a lil short guy

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Riz Gukgak

riz gukgak

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What about the kids going to another country tracking down a lead and Riz having a bit of a freakout when they pass by a toystore with half a dozen fancy marionettes in the window.

Riz has Baron related PTSD and he doesn't even realize it. He doesn't think about it, because he deliberately does not think about Baron, and his friends don't bring it up. (Kristen tried to joke about it once, Riz stealthed into near invisibility and didn't talk to them for three days because what Kristen doesn't understand is that Baron is born of Riz's fear of not being accepted, of not being important when they all end up in relationships. Adaine had chastised her about it and they all made a point to not talk about it.)

They're doing something, saving the world, probably, in the way they do. They're in another country that already has Riz angry and paranoid because the perception of goblins here is bad. Fig is in full German Shepherd mode, shooting dirty looks at anyone who even looks at Riz.

They pass a store with marionette puppets in the window and Riz fully breaks. He can barely breathe, and his mind is a spiral of "What if Baron was right? What if I'm too weird? What if I'm broken, what if I'm not important enough?" As these become gasped statements Riz barely realizes he's saying aloud, Adaine recognizes it as a panic attack.

Fabian picks Riz up and holds him so close, while Gorgug, Fig, and Kristen form a barrier between them and anyone who might be looking. As Fabian holds Riz so close, so protectively, Adaine rubs little circles on his back to soothe him gently. They get him away from the dolls, and they get him called down, and Fabian hasn't let go of him once even despite Riz trying to squirm away and hide so they never have to have the discussion.

They all assure him, so softly, so gently, that he is loved. He's not broken, and Baron was wrong. He's their friend, he's special to them. Adaine let's him hold Boggy, Kristen gives one of her "inspiring" speeches that is poorly worded but still means so very much to him.

It doesn't completely ease the fear, and Baron will always be a part of Riz, but it helps, and for a while, that's enough.

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THE BALL HELLO THE BALL!! - the Fabian from findthebae— I completely forgot I had made a post on there and just now thought to check it, so I do apologize for my tardiness. BUT HELLO, BALL!!!

HELLO FABIAN!! i'm glad you reached out i'm very excited to see you. asks are open but if you want to message instead go ahead!

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in honour of the incinerationaversary here's some jaylens finally sharing these after just making them my profile picture for months and never actually posting but now's the time i guess. RIV