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November 29, 2018

It’s really difficult for me to talk about what my favorite part of this quarter has been without talking about the people because in a way, they’ve made this quarter. I guess what I liked best, in hindsight, is seeing how many things I can handle. I took on a lot this quarter extracurricular wise and I’m pretty proud of the fact that I’ve made it this far without completely crashing and burning (knock on wood). I think I’ve learned a lot about myself and my own strength and I think that’s what’s really valuable in the long run. This isn’t a specific moment or anything but I guess second to the people, this is what’s significant to me. Can’t believe this is my last post— sorry it’s not the best but see ya 😬

[kirisyang]

November 28, 2018

Ms. Tom--

My favorite thing about Ms. Tom is how levelheaded she is. Although there were times where she definitely was very stern and obviously intimidating, it was later apparent that she is very kind and rational in her thinking. I think her maturity is what stood out to me and definitely makes her someone I can look up to. 

My least favorite thing about Ms. Tom is that she was very difficult to read at first. While she looked calm she was also able to project very well and that switch confused me. 

Mr. Hashimoto--

My favorite thing about Mr. Hashimoto is his laugh. I felt like he had such a genuine laugh and while we were talking it seemed he was obviously amused, even by his own stories. I also loved how he was a very good listener and was always very engaged throughout. 

My least favorite thing about Mr. Hashimoto is that he could really get up in some people’s faces at times. Not that it was necessarily a bad thing while trying to prove a point but it could be a little bit off-putting.  

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November 27, 2018

My goal for next quarter is to really prioritize my schoolwork. I think I get really caught up in the extracurriculars that I’m a part of and I forget how important my academics are to my future as well. Sometimes I think my experiences are what’s significant but if I can’t discipline myself enough now to focus on my academics, how will I be able to do so if and when I get into medical school? I know this is hella basic but I feel like it’s definitely really important and often times overlooked.

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This is my boy Vardaan Bal. I’m sorry my drawing skills can’t do this beautiful man justice. This picture was inspired by the first time I hung out with Vardaan in a smaller setting. I was so glad that I actually got to talk to him more that time and I realized just how funny and how thoughtful he is as a person. Vardaan always has such a great attitude towards everything and I honestly feel so calm every time around him cause his aura his just so soft and warm. I’m sorry I couldn’t really pronounce your name when we first met, Vardaan :-( you’re honestly such a homie now and I can’t wait to hang with you more hehehe. 

[kirisyang]

November 25, 2018

wenting is cute.

adrienne is cute.

ashley is cute.

anne is cute.

grace is cute.

i love my sisterrrssss 💗💗💗

[kirisyang]

November 24, 2018

a few realizations:

1. i never learn

2. i don’t listen to reason

3. i’m a complete pushover

4. i’m actually self-destructive

5. i’m extremely broke

🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

[kirisyang]

another VLOG

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zyXdwGNpE_8&feature=youtu.be

I'm bad with words but I learned a lot and I appreciate everyone I've met more :-)

[kirisyang]

November 22, 2018

i feel so fat. i ate hot pot and a million desserts and ten chicken nuggets. i’m boutta take this nyquil and knock tf out until tomorrow. i literally slept all day today. is this what relaxation feels like ?

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November 21, 2018

As many of you probably know by now, I’m a part of the Mobile Clinic Project at UCLA and so the issue of homelessness, especially in the greater Los Angeles area, is especially important to me. It saddens me to hear about how the people who come to clinic are mistreated, not only by the rest of society, but specifically, by medical professionals and our healthcare system. When the very people who have the power and ability to help such a large group of people fail to do their duty, I personally feel disheartened and I wonder what I can do to help improve their quality of life, even if it just means listening to their personal concerns or their story. I think the stigma surrounding homelessness is the driving force behind this issue and I think that is where we would need to focus our efforts-- reducing the stigmatization of homelessness. For now though (low-key plug) if you all have any XL sweatshirts, or sweatpants, or blankets that you’d be willing to donate please bring them back from home because Mobile Clinic is hosting Sponsor a Home where we’re collecting donations to provide high priority items to our clients and also attempting to bring the issues of the homeless into light. Anyway, there’s a lot to be done but it’s really inspiring to be working with a group of people who are so passionate about this issue!

[kirisyang]

November 20, 2018

whack. whack. WHACK. i knew that the saga would continue— michelle and i both knew this would happen. it always does when you’re least expecting it. i gotta give it to him, he has major balls reaching out to me again.....i’m still shook that this happened and that i ripped my pants right after too.....maybe Thanksgiving break will be more eventful than i thought 😗

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November 19, 2018

i think this is the most number of times i almost cried ever since my birth probably. literally the only word i can describe it as is being overwhelmed. i can’t believe how much my voice was shaking in front of one of the last people i wanted to seem weak in front of earlier today. i think my brain has just mentally shut down because i feel like there’s so much going on at once that i want to block out everything i have to do. SORRY FOR BEING SO STRESSED AND FRAZZLED ALL THE TIME. i’ma be better for sure :-)

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November 17, 2018

Today I literally laid on my friend’s couch for so long in the fetal position I felt like I was gonna waste the day. I got pho with some really great people after though so I felt like it was worth it. I also think I needed the sleep so napping for most of the day I think was actually good for me. I’m honestly kind of excited for these next two weeks. On the final stretch ya’lllllll.

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November 16, 2018

ily guys <3 much thanks for errything

https://youtu.be/47PRfLrQj0U

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November 15, 2018

I really meant it when I said that I felt it when yg said “soon as I came out the womb, I was big headed.” I look at pictures of myself and I realize my head is actually extremely large. and ROUND. I look like the fkn moon emoji. It’s honestly fine. Everything’s fine. 

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November 14, 2018

All I want for Christmas is youuuuuu hehe.......

Dear Santa, 

I can’t believe it’s almost holiday season again. I’ve literally been so excited since last Christmas for this time of year. It’s been a while since I’ve written a letter to you but I’m back and I think I’ve become a better person since I’ve written to you last. This year especially I’ve grown to become more empathetic and compassionate. Although there is a lot more for me to improve on, being surrounded by selfless people everyday has really helped me to reflect on myself and I’ve noticed that I work a lot harder and make an extra effort to reach out to the people I really care about. 

There’s not a lot of tangible things that I really want, I’ma be honest. A lot of the times I want to have things like memorable experiences, or opportunities to meet more people, or a good GPA.....But I guess here are the things that I can think of: 

1. Low Top Nike Air Force Ones

I am an absolute fiend for white shoes cause that shit is honestly SO clean. Every time I’ve gone shopping, every outfit I visualize would be complete with white Air Force Ones. I was about to order them online over the summer but I haven’t been able to bring myself to actually follow through, I’m not sure why. 

2. Air pods

I’ma be honest, I thought air pods looked so ridiculous when my friend first got them. The idea of just the earbud was such trash to me but I realize now how convenient it is especially since I just got a new phone without the earphone jack so I can’t charge my phone and listen to music at the same time SMH an actual struggle.

3. Coachella tickets

I’m really trying to go to Coachella this year especially with all the people I’ve met and now absolutely love this quarter. I think this falls under the whole I really want to make a lot of memories this year and throughout the rest of my life. I think this would be such a great opportunity especially since some people are graduating and I don’t know if we’d ever really get this chance again. 

4. Windbreaker

My friend, Khoi, has this hella nice black Palace windbreaker that I’ve been obsessed with since he’s gotten it. It’s black and lightweight with the Palace logo across the back. I honestly think they just look super cute and I really want to wear more when I’m back home in the Bay. 

5. Baked yams.

This is pretty self explanatory. If you know, you know. 

I haven’t made a list of things that I want like this in a while, so this was kind of cute. I’m really, really looking forward to the actual holidays though, especially when we go to tree lightings and ice skating in Union Square, or blasting Mariah Carey’s classic piece All I Want For Christmas is You (that’s my childhood right there). Aight, ty Santa! I’ma make you proud out here and continue to be a better person. 

Love,

Kaileigh Yang

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November 13, 2018

i’m pretty sure caffeine is permanently running through my veins. i can’t remember the last time i went a day without drinking coffee or yerba mate or green tea. right now i just finished a thing of black coffee and i just bought a can of yerba smh. time to grind for my physics exam. is it weird that early 2000’s r&b helps me study? anyway, big yikes. wish me luck.

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November 12, 2018

I think it’s crazy how close you can feel to a group of people within only a few weeks, even after one night. I would have never guessed that I would have continued to develop these relationships with such a diverse group of people well into my second year. I am excited to grow even closer to these people throughout this year and I’m excited to hang out with them over Thanksgiving break. I hope some people feel as close to me as I feel to them cause sometimes it can be one sided. Anyway, school is still stressful but honestly these people make it worth it.