kiritila

[kiritila]

I don't want to pressure you, but is the next episode of no1sm coming any time soon? I miss it!!! (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠)

hi! sorry for inactivity… no an update wont be coming any time soon, aka within the next month, im neck deep in deadlines and commissions at the minute unfortunately. i must put my schoolwork and monetary work before no1sm.

[kiritila]

hiiiii! i am opening commissions to help with money while my car is getting repaired. all the info is below!!

dm me if you’re interested as well as details!!

[kiritila]

hiiiii! i am opening commissions to help with money while my car is getting repaired. all the info is below!!

dm me if you’re interested as well as details!!

[kiritila]

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[kiritila]

heyyyy… so if hypothetically i needed to open commissions……..

[kiritila]

my heart is so full of love for them (referenced the new mitsuaya art)

[kiritila]

I can't explain with words how much i truly love your fic bro. U can't imagine my face everytime u plublished a new chapter.

Ur drawings too1 I feel like ur art is kind of cozy and unique, and thats amazinggg.

I'm eagerly awaiting the next chapter!!!! <333

thank you sooo much ahh its so motivating to hear what you guys have to say after so long of me being gone <3 i will do my best to make sure you all get as much content from me as possible this year

[kiritila]

I'm just wondering what are u studying right now

i study technical support engineering and i also work fulltime as a product designer in the fenestration industry! meaning i largely design components revolving around windows, doors, cladding, and other outdoor stuff!

[kiritila]

u're so cool please dont go bald

i genuinely just rebleached my hair last week

[kiritila]

so kyman is a no i suppose?

nope sorry i am really autistic about who i ship romantically with stan and kyle so i fear its Just stankyle for me😭

[kiritila]

no1sm will have NSFW?

[kiritila]

I'm curious, what other ships do you like? (PS: i love ur fic!!)

in south park i LOVE kenjorine so much and creek! its been a while honestly since i engaged with south park so my opinions are very very tame. i love all variations of stankyle but i have the softest spot in my heart for ranger stanley marshwalker and the high elf king kyle. and when i finally played tfbw i understood the toolkite hype and now theyre my next favourite stankyle variant.

platonically i LOVE k2, stenny, stylenny. genuinely such a good trio. stendy, kybe, stolkien, stanchole. i love a lot of the fourth graders and all of their dynamics, its especially fun to imagine how theyd all interact as they grow up

outside of south park i still love klance from many years ago. i love boyf riends from be more chill, jegulus, buddie, gelphie, gwen and miles, hitokita (bocchi the rock) and the love square from miraculous. and julerose and marcaniel.

bang dream i love kasuari, yukilisa, misakoko, tomoran, tomotaki, tomosaki, ansy, mutsuraana

love live i love chikariko. noone comes close. fear idgaf about nijigasaki and i havent gotten to liella yet but i think ill like them. i just liked umi from μ’s 😭 but chikariko make me ill

icl i indulge in rpf. i love charles leclerc and max verstappen. also love a bit of maxiel and norstappen. BC IM WEIRD AND AUTISTIC AND OBJECTIFY RICH MEN!

[kiritila]

Could u share with us... your style headcanons... please...

ohhhh i have so many…

kyle fell first, stan fell harder

stan electric/acoustic guitar player, kyle bass guitar player

kyle bpd and ocd, stan clinical depression. BOTH AUTISTIC!

kyle transmasc he/him, stan he/they nonbinary/demiboy, both bisexual

stan likes trashy rock and nu metal. he loves the smiths, radiohead, fountains of wayne, bowling for soup, beck, oasis, sum 41, jimmy eat world, fleetwood mac,etc. also loves music like dmx, cypress hill, mcfly is his guilty pleasure

kyle likes rock too but also more electro inspired music. kyle likes weezer, stan has a complex about hating them. loves the smiths, radiohead, omd, abba, queen, the cure, the strokes, the beatles

kyle very tall and lanky, obviously muscular from figure skating. very very freckled. stan shorter and with a stockier build. has many moles

stan has piercings and loves cutting his own hair

stan has mexican/peruvian-american heritage, kyle has roots across europe. sheila is still from jersey but he has roots in ukraine and poland!!

stan is very sociable but clammers up easily. he does more of the talking for kyle generally but when hes feeling down or quieter kyle is the authoritative figure in their dynamic. kyle is also extremely persuasive and stan will do anything for him

both enjoy physical media, stan loves records and cds particularly.

stan collects hockey trading cards and has some slight hoarder tendencies. his bedroom is a testament to everything hes ever loved. sharon looks into it and closes the door. kyle’s bedroom is his calm space and is extremely tidy and clean. he has a couple of decorations relating to marine life and some family photos, aftdr the fallout every trace of stan was hidden in a box and shoved under his bed

stan and kyle both get very easily lost in video games

there is no talker/listener in their dynamic, theyll just talk over and over each other

sharon has a very soft spot for kyle but as they grow older and get closer again sleepovers only seem to happen at kyles. sheila is also incredibly overprotective of stan😭

ike teases kyle a lot and stan has to diffuse them

stan is dyslexic

stan goes to community college and kyle had ambitions of ivy league, but ends up staying closer to home after the events of no1sm. stan joins a college hockey team while kyle studies psychology

theyve both had multiple attempts at starting a band. their longest stint came with kenny on drums and marjorine on rhythm guitar, stan on lead/vocals and kyle on bass

stan loves dr pepper

kyle is very easy to make blush

stan likes trashy graphic tees

if kyle were a teen in the 2010’s and not a slowly adjusting adult he would be a secret love live fan and stan would piss himself laughing when he finds out kyle accidentally got hyperfixated on it. HES A RIKO OSHI❤️

self indulgent but stan hates driving but loves motorsports. he watches nascar with kenny and loves formula 1 too. hes excited to see what lewis hamilton does in the future and thinks jenson button is cute on the dl. he dgaf about sebastian vettel he doesnt know how much of my latest stan inspiration is pulled from bmw sauber seb and his early red bull days

stan hugs tight and hard, sometimes kyle is icked out by touch but is okay with it being from stan

stan is poor asf but his love language is gift giving

kyle is slightly neurotic about many things hes not normal

kyle LIKES YOGHURT

stan is almost impossible to wake up and sleeps like hes wanting to take over the whole bed

kyle is an incredibly light sleeper

ok oomf distraxted me i ran out of juice ill edit this if i think of more

kyle has a super deep connection with judaism and while he is a logical person he is incredibly faithful too

stan however was raised on loosely christian values

[kiritila]

Hiiii!!!

It's been a while since you were alive lol. I just wanted to know if we're going to have any no1sm content anytime soon? (drawings, chapters...) I don't want to pressure you or anything, really (I know how stressful college can be), but I'm really exciteddd

I missed you a lot!!!

hii! yes im so sorry about that lol ive been in a depressive slump and havent been drawing at all. at the start of the year i made the executive decision to go on antidepressants, and i am only starting to come out of the other side of the initial adjustment period.

i have a long post here that you can read for answers concerning no1sms future, but i will do a summarised version here too.

YES i will still be updating no1sm.

NO it will no longer have an upload schedule, and it may be months between chapters. the story has finally come together in my head and i feel like i have moved past my long burnout period.

YES i have been drawing tbem again. im super slowly been getting back into drawing.

I AM INSANELY BUSY i have huge deadlines coming up soon all the way up until july, which is when i am planning on finally focusing some of my free time on writing again. ive just had such a creative boost, ive also been working on merch that i really would like to sell when i move out next year.

i stress all these things a lot but i promise i do not mind being asked when im updating things, my schedule is just so packed that i’ll just update accordingly.

NO1SM’S 3 YEAR ANNIVERSARY IS ALSO APPROACHING IN JULY!!!!! How very exciting. everything i do to celebrate it will be so underwhelming its unreal😭😭😭

thats all from me anywayyyyy keep talking to me!! i miss talking about this fic so much

[kiritila]

why is no1sm on 99k hits

[kiritila]

hiya !!! i LOVE no1sm , the writing the concept your art and EVERYTHING . i wanted to ask if i can make fanart for it ? and if so am i allowed to post it on tt or something? (ill tag you and give you full credit for the concept of course ^_^) much love !!

hello! thank you for your kind words :)

yes please omg?!?!?!!!! i genuinely lovr and appreciate fanart so much, i love getting to see your guys’ styles and interpretations of scenes. please if you ever get to posting it, tag my tiktok (@traumacoremutual) so that i can see it!!!! much love back to you!!

[kiritila]

Are you still gonna be updating no one saw me?

this is such a long time overdue, but since ive been away so long i figured this would be a good way to address everything, like whats been happening in my life and my future plans for no1sm for everyones clarity.

to put it shortly, i work full-time, and have done for nearly 2 years now. i am a product designer and i work monday-friday, 9-5. i attend a full day of college classes once a week, this day being even longer than a work day, and on top of that i have a personal work-based tutor that i have to complete work for as well. so in terms of professional obligations, im extremely busy. in my personal life, ive been seeing friends a lot, running errands, planning for weddings, parties, buying a car, SO MANY THINGS. my life has been so hectic.

ive also been suffering some health problems recently. my earliest or readers that are close friends probably know i began writing no1sm to vent my feelings about trauma i underwent, and this obviously still affects me quite greatly alongside depression and anxiety. ive also been suffering quite badly with insomnia and fatigue problems, as well as, embarrassingly, moderately bad eczema.

perhaps the most ridiculous development of all: I AM NOT CURRENTLY HYPERFIXATED ON SOUTH PARK. SHOCK HORROR. BUT PLEASE DONT PANIC: it is still my spin, stan and kyle are still my most favourite characters ever, and most of all i still ENJOY south park and enjoy thinking about, planning, and writing no1sm (when im not completely utterly knackered). ive actually recently gotten majorly into formula 1 as a result of my friends, so if there are any f1 fans following me PLEASE SAY HI!!!!! i plan to do art for it but i have been busy and im also very much a perfectionist. (FYI: my favourite driver is max verstappen. no questions asked. i also love charles daniel lando oscar and honestly most drivers on the grid. i love niki lauda james hunt seb vettel and jenson button. i had a brief mclaren tooned hyperfixation. I AM CURRENTLY INCREDIBLY DEPRESSED OVER DANIEL RICCIARDO LOSING HIS SEAT)

anyway.. getting back on track.

AM I STILL GOING TO BE UPDATING NO1SM?

YES. YES YES A MILLION TIMES YES. i dont know when, but this story is something i have to complete for myself and for you guys. i realised i was putting myself under so much pressure for it to be perfect that it sapped the love i felt for it from me. now that i no longer have visible eyes on me waiting for updates on twitter, i feel much freer and relaxed with it. i dont know how or when, but yes, the story will be completed. do not ask me about the kyle prequel ive planned though DONT DO IT.

i also dont plan on posting about updates anywhere other than tumblr going forwards. ive since moved on from the twitter south park fandom where i was most active, as i felt like i was too old to be in a fandom of minors and the discourse was simply too much. so i decided to move to a fan space and sport that is a million times worse but still somehow has been better for me. so if you still want to follow me on twitter even though i dont south park post anymore, you can follow me at @vrstappns :)

WILL NO1SM HAVE AN UPDATE SCHEDULE?

NO. sorry, my mental health and my career comes first. i want to try and find a better balance that leaves me time to write but im afraid i need time to ease myself back in after so long off and theres no guarantee how long that will take me.

WILL YOU STILL BE MAKING ART FOR NO1SM?

YES. I HOPE. who knows when though cause i havent been able to draw in a long time and im still pissed off that i cant draw max verstappen as easily as i could ever draw kyle broflovski.

AM I ALLOWED TO USE YOUR STORY AND WRITE THE ENDING FOR MYSELF?

NO. PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS. as much as other authors may encourage this I REALLY DO NOT LIKE THIS. you dont know how much work i have put into this fic as well as how much of my own life and traumas are embedded between the lines of writing. this fic is practically half of me in the same way my parents’ DNA is a part of my make-up. not to sound rude but to even think you could possibly imagine how i intend for this fic to resolve and end when you dont even know me is laughable.

HOW WILL THE INTENSE HOMOSEXUAL RIVALRIES OF FORMULA ONE INFLUENCE THE INTENSE HOMOSEXUAL RIVALRY OF STAN AND KYLE GOING FORWARDS?

im sure 2019 charles leclerc and max verstappen guided carefully by brocedes and james hunt and niki lauda will figure something out. maybe not brocedes actually i am unsure if i want stan marsh to end up like nico rosberg. but i guess he is a good youtuber too and has great hair which is two things stan is NOT. gay loser. also david coulthard and sebastian vettel are there somewhere. GAY RED BULL RACING WILL LEAD US TO WORLD PEACE

thank you so much for reading, i know youve all probably moved on with your life but its a weight off my chest to finally write this out. i love this fic and i love that you all love this fic, if you are still here. i can only apologise for how long ive made you all wait.

please just have patience with me,

thanks muchly,

mike (formerly marshplaylist) vrstappns