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ramble

It’s been a few years since I’ve been on tumblr. I’ve been meaning to for awhile, but school got in the way, etc etc. There are times when I can’t really express my thoughts to people that I start building shit up inside. It’s not healthy at all...but idc. It’s gotten to the point where I want to fucking scream at the world and drown myself in tears. I’ve been stressed TF out  because life always gets the best of me. I’ve changed over the past few years for a better version of myself and learned not to depend on anyone. I finally had the courage to say “no” and stand up for MYSELF. I’ve always been hiding in a shell that it feels so fucking good to be out and free. It’s hard to let the people I love and care about how I really feel because the last thing I’d want to do is hurt them or bring shit into their life. They don’t deserve any of it so it would be stupid and unfair for me to drag them into my mess. Tbh, typing how I’m feeling right now is making me feel a lot better. Anyways.. I got into a stupid argument today with somebody that I really care about & it was the most pointless thing ever. I could’ve probably went another route and done things differently, but I can’t always be blaming myself for shit that is not my fault. THAT’S ALWAYS MY PROBLEM. I ALWAYS CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE THAT I PUT THE FAULT ON ME. EVERY. DAMN. TIME. I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of holding things inside. I wish social media didn’t exist so that people are able to have those face-to-face conversations again with absolutely no distractions. I admit that even I get caught up with other people’s lives that I forget about the people around me and what’s really important in my life. It’s another part of me that’s telling myself that I need to get my shit together once again and not take people that I love and care about for granted. I don’t even know if this shit makes sense but w/e. I’m a mess.

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Last 🍟-day with @janineds. #BffDate #Ootd #FashionDiaries #LookBook

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Melrose w/ @janineds👯

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Ending our fabulous day w/ Guppy's👫👫 @mandappp @charlesguinto @janineds #FaveDoubleDateGroup

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Bubz & I enjoying our stay in Palm Springs 👫💘 @mandappp

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Realizing how we both have so many things in common and understand each other completely 💗 @janineds

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The love of my life 💑

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Roaming around Dowtown SD with this gorgeous gal👯💕 @janineds #GirlDate

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Please check out my bb's clothing site, which was launched earlier today. Super adorable pieces! Love your site @janineds 💕 www.candidla.com #CandidLA

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Gracias mi amiga @janineds 👯💗

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Happy St. Patty's Day 🍀

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Had the honor to shoot for @janineds new site💗 Please check out my bb's Lookbook! It's definitely worth it. Super adorable spring clothing for Candid L.A that will be launched March 20! Stay tuned & look out for beaut pieces! http://candidla.us/

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Photo credz to my 🐝, Paul.

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Here's a better shot from last night. 📷 Thanks bb😘 #Ootd #Ootn #FashionDiaries #LookBook #InstaFashion #InstaStyle #WhatIWore #Wiwt #Wywt #Fashion #OutfitOfTheDay

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Thank you so much for letting me be apart of this photoshoot love @janineds! Definitely look out for her new site coming soon💗

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This is our fourth Valentine's Day together❤ #CheesecakeFactory #MyValentine #Love #Boyfriend #Blessed #Loml @mandappp

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Start of my Valentines morning 😻 #ValentinesDay #BreakfastInBed #ILoveHim @mandappp