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Being a yandere without a darling is a bit like hell in a sense. It's like the relationship between angel and god. Hell in its fundamental sense in Christian concepts (forgive me for going to the predominant religion for this one) is to be absent from god. The torment for angels in Paradise Lost were not the adamantine chains, the pools of boiling sulfur... They could break the unbreakable chains and they were beings of light after all; they could not truly be scarred for there were no bodies to wound.

The film series, The Prophecy, truly captures an angel's perspective in this separation for an angel's singular purpose, their one desire, their drive... Is to serve their god. It drives angels to insanity, to terrifying extremes when deprived of even just the voice of their god.

Do you understand this pain that I feel? To be seraphim without one to praise. To be ophanim without one to serve. To not have that voice that feeds every aspect of your being... To crave the unadulterated love and devotion you give, for once just having passion for passion, word for word, heart in their hands and theirs in your own.

It's that green light I always reach for... Do you reach for a green light?

Call me Gatsby, a yandere lost in Gehenna. A fallen angel seeking answers in the wilderness. What's an angel if not a yandere? What's a darling if not a god? Can angels worship angels? Because gods always seem to abandon, never just quite capture that devotion that's craved. Does this make sense to you?

- Gatsby

i understand exactly what you mean Gatsby!! i am a doll, made to love and praise the people around me, but when they dont want that, when there is nothing left to praise... it's like i become nothing. an empty doll with no core to power it. it would be nice to have someone understand what it's like, for the first time in my life.

we may be angels cursed to walk forever with no true gods to worship, but we have each other, even if it drives us both insane <3

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If you kidnap me, I'll take that as a marriage proposal btw

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normalize having favorites. in fact, normalize me being your favorite. normalize loving me more than you’ve ever loved anyone else. please please please please please please

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oh my god i want you under my skin. i can't take it. i feel so empty i could rip myself open and show you the holes underneath. i want you to fill them. i want you to fill me. i want to feel you in every crevice. want to taste you when i swallow. see you when i blink. i want you in my veins. i want you in my ribcage. locked up forever where i can keep you safe. what are you waiting for?

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Your hair would look beautiful clutched in my fists while the walls drip red around us. I don’t want flowers or dates or gentle words—I want the sound of your ribs breaking beneath my embrace. I want the whimper you make when you realize there’s no escaping me. I’ll hurt you just enough to make you stay.

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Microdosing love is lame, I just want to have a twisted codependent relationship with someone

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i don’t want anyone else looking at you. i don’t want anyone else touching you, either. not with their repulsive hands. you belong to me, don’t you? you’re mine. friends of yours, strangers— they need to know that you’re off limits. they need to know that they can’t ever have you.

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i was born fucked up.

i remember seeing movies and what not about someone being a stalker and obsessive lover and being genuinely confused as to why the mc wouldn’t want that, which made it hard to relate to said media <\3

i just don’t understand how that would be unpleasant (then again im an affection deprived attention whore with suicidal tendencies) it would be fun at worst^^

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It’s not stalking if we are meant to be, it’s just manufactured fate. They say love is patient but I’m not. You need to be mine. Now.

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there’s nothing you can hide from me. i’ll go to any and all lengths to find everything out about you i don’t care about the consequences. im starving for you

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let’s carve our names into each other… make it deep. make it last <3

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stalking isn’t enough i need to drug you and watch you sleep

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Skin to skin isn't close enough, my little doll. i need you to melt into me. press your chest against mine until our hearts merge into one. intertwine our minds until we can read one another with just a look to the eyes. let me learn the bruises on your heart and scars on your skin until i can understand every ache you've had & show me your soul so i can prove to you mine is made of the same stardust as yours.

blur your lines into mine until nobody can tell we were ever separate.