kittyymew

[kittyymew]

if you’re pro life fuck off & go ahead and unfollow me right now. roe v wade being overturned is a MAJOR setback for not only women but people assigned female at birth as well. they aren’t going to just stop getting abortions, they’re just going to find ways to do it in an unsafe or risky way. cis men shouldn’t have a say in our bodies and im fucking SICK of it!!!!

[kittyymew]

@slut-manifesto reminded me of you and Pepe✨

Armand Doré (French, 1824-1882) - Der kleine Liebling (1860)

[kittyymew]

🥺

boy n his doggies wip

[kittyymew]

My Toji obsession just sky rocketed😀

Baby One More Time . ִָˑ ⊹ ٬ ✦

my piece for the Oops! ...I Did it Again Collab <3

⊱ pimp!Toji x escort!reader

⊱ Summary: you find yourself in a situation where you would do anything for money, including become an escort, and even though your boss makes it clear that he doesn’t fuck his girls you can’t help yourself when you notice how lonely he is.

⊱ Warnings: dom!Toji, f!reader, oral (f -> m), hand-job, facial, one spank, dacryphilia, slutty school girl outfit, boss x employee relationship, semi-public setting, pet names: baby, sweetheart, reader calls him sir a couple of times, Nobara plays a small part here, every character is 20+, 3k words.

༺♡︎ JJK M.List ♡︎ Main M.List ♡︎༻

Being convinced by your boyfriend to move into this expensive city didn’t seem like a bad decision at first knowing he had a good income to keep both of you living there and attending college.

Although being dumped by him was not in your plans.

After a few months struggling, the only thing you knew for sure was that you couldn’t keep going the way you were, bills were accumulating to the point you started to second guess if those gigs you were doing would be enough to keep you in college.

They wouldn’t.

You had to drop out in order to find a day job, which was heartbreaking since your college program was the best in the country.

About three months in as a gym receptionist, you found a former classmate that started to go to the gym you worked at and she asked about you, noticing you were not attending any classes, so you told all about the failed relationship and financial struggle story. You talked for about an hour until she told you as a joke you should get a nightly job, which you joked back saying if it paid well you would take it just so you could keep studying during the day.

The conversation seemed to get more serious when she said she knew a girl that got paid very well.

At first you thought she meant stripper.

But once you actually got to meet the said girl you realized it was way more than dancing on a pole.

Keep reading

[kittyymew]

Me trying to leave a comment on a fic I love but not knowing what to say

[kittyymew]

Plz make more Dating Dad! Toji drabbles when you can, they’re super adorable🥺

You made my day, kind stranger~🥺😭❤️ I will continue to put out as much as I can :)

Thank you for reading my work :)

[kittyymew]

Dating Dad! Toji- Part 5.

Baby ‘Gumi calls Y/N “Mama” for the first time.

Tagging @hypnocountrymusicfunnyfan bc I made this just because of you.

I had two plots in my mind but I went ahead with this one. I apologize if this isn’t something that you had in your mind. Although I might write another similar drabble someday down the line. Hope you liked it!

This is a continuation of Dating Dad! Toji Part 4.

Warning: OOC characters and it is not proof read.

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Link to previous parts- Part 1. Part 2. Part 3. Part 4.

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Ever since Gojo moved in, in the same apartment complex as you and Toji, he spends almost every single day with Baby ‘Gumi. He even stopped taking up on big missions that would require him to go away for more than a day.

Gojo managed to convince you and Toji to go out on a date. Toji wasn’t thrilled about it because he was convinced that this was Gojo’s ploy to send you two away and then run away with Baby ‘Gumi.

Toji thinks he’s gonna kidnap Baby ‘Gumi any day that you two are gone, but you’re thankful for your big brother babysitting ‘Gumi for free since your work and college has been sucking the life out of you.

You’re annoyed, to say the least, when Toji drags you home not even an hour in, to catch Gojo “red-handed”.

“You think you know him, but I’ll prove it. You’ll see when we walk through the front door. You’ll see him halfway out the door with Megumi. I’m telling you. It’s what my gut is telling me. It’s a dad thing.”

“My assassin gut combined with my dad-intuition will never be wrong”

When he finally barges through the front door of your shared apartment, you two are met with an eerie silence. A silence that none of you are used to bc a literal toddler lives in that apartment.

Toji glares at you over his shoulder with an “I FUCKING TOLD YOU SO” look and pulls out his phone.

“Deploy Plan A. I want him dea-”

Before Toji could finish his sentence, you two hear a giggle followed by incoherent babbles from ‘Gumi’s room and you glare at Toji with the same, “I fucking told you so” look and you land a hard smack on his arm before pushing him out of your way and making your way towards the bedroom.

“Hey ow….” Toji says with a pout, even though you both know that Toji didn’t even feel the smack. He knew he was in knee-deep shit of trouble with you so he just quietly followed you through the house towards the source of the sounds.

As you push the door open, you’re met with the sight of Gojo sprawled out, fast asleep on the floor, with scribbles marks all over his face, and Baby ‘Gumi with a permanent marker in his tiny chubby hands. You hear Toji sigh loudly behind you.

Baby ‘Gumi’s attention is drawing towards you and he tosses the marker away, his face lighting up and he immediately crawls towards you.

Toji is yet again, so close to strangling Gojo. Is this how he babysat his little Megumi? What if something happened to Megumi but this clown was too busy dozing off?

Toji is about to murder Gojo, AGAIN. This time because he fell asleep instead of looking after Megumi.

But before Toji could do anything, Gojo chokes on air while snoring and he jolts awake, sitting upright. Lord knows that Toji and Gojo are about to rip each other’s throats out.

Gojo and Toji are sitting on the couch, their heads bowed down as you are scolding them for acting like literal toddlers on crack who want to pull each other’s heads off their necks.

You’re holding Baby ‘Gumi while bringing down hell on these two clowns.

“What kind of example are you setting for Megumi here?”

“No, don’t interrupt me. Even an actual toddler is well behaved than the two of you grown-ass adults combined”

“But Y/N-chan! Why are you scolding me? It’s Toji Fushiguro here who is mentally quack.”

Before you could scold Gojo, or before Toji could throw a punch at him, Baby ‘Gumi grabs a chunk of your hair in his tiny little hands and tugs on it and mumbles, “Mama”.

Both you and Toji are like deer in headlights, while Gojo has the biggest shit-eating grin on his face. Although this isn’t Megumi’s first word and he babbles out random words incoherently at times, you were still gobsmacked.

Toji is overjoyed but offended at the same time because he always told you how he just knew that Megumi’s first word is going to be “Daddy” but, Toji was heartbroken when his son’s first word was “shit” or something like that, even though it was unclear. (Referred to Dating Dad! Toji- Part 2). Soon after, Toji would tell you how Megumi’s first coherent word is going to be “Daddy”.

“I- you- but… he’s known me longer!” Toji whines. Toji is so close to crying, for the second time now.

But yeah, you yourself are on the verge of a mental breakdown.

“You can thank me later Y/N-chan” Gojo states proudly.

Yeah, thanks to his overuse of the word “Mama” while referring you to Baby ‘Gumi that Megumi babbled out “Mama” as his first word. Gojo’s sole intention behind this was to annoy Toji.

You are going to have a long, long conversation with Gojo for the stunt he just pulled with Baby ‘Gumi. I mean, you’re not technically his mom.

Also, Toji is going to spend hours saying “Okay, good boy. Now, say ‘Daddy!’” in all kinds of silly, baby voices to make Baby ‘Gumi call him ‘Daddy’ only to have Baby ‘Gumi babble out ‘Goo’ or ‘Gloop’ at him and bonk him with one of his toys.

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This man makes me Horny. Dad! Toji is everything and I worship him. Thank you.

[kittyymew]

Happy birthday Yuuji!!

[kittyymew]

[kittyymew]

😩✋

Attractive things they do

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Fandom: jujutsu kaisen

Characters: gojo satoru, geto suguru, nanami kento, sukuna, toji fushiguro

Things I headcanon they do that are hot

Tw: suggestive content

An: I’m having so much jjk brainrot, enjoy this piece of garbage💀

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Gojo Satoru

Likes to kiss you when you least expect it

Like you’ll be talking on the phone with your mom and he just *mwa* on the lips gives you hickeys

Teases you non.stop.

Calls you pet names in private and in public that he knows make you blush, he dgaf if others can hear it or find it weird

Always leans closer or tilts his head in your direction when you talk to him

Says it’s because he can’t hear you but that’s a fucking lie, he likes the way you get a little flustered because of it

When you’re sitting on the couch, his arm always rests on the back of the couch, behind your neck

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Geto Suguru

THAT DEEP, HUSKY MORNING VOICE AWOOGA

He already has such a nice and satisfying voice on a daily basis, but imagine it when he just wakes up from a peaceful slumber😩😩

His sweats always hang just a little under his hips, leaving a bit of skin visible

Smacks your butt whenever he gets the chance and winks at you after impact yes that’s hot to me stfu

Pulls your hair behind your ears or ties it in a pony tail (if you have long hair) when it gets in the way

Eye contact.

Like he just stares at you for prolonged periods of time

Always wears a smile or a sort of grin on his face when staring

Not to tease you or anything, but just because looking at you makes him smile :)

Hums and moans softly when you play with his long, luscious locks

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Nanami Kento

Puts his hand on your waist or back

Like when you’re in the way, he’ll hold you by your waist while passing through SOMEONE DO THIS TO ME PLS

Also whispers “excuse me” in your ear in a really low voice so only you can hear it

Instinctively guides you through busy crowds by putting his hand on the small of your back, to keep you in sight

He cooks and bakes. That’s it, that’s the hottest thing this man can do.

No but seriously, imagine Nanami in an APRON!!!

Or like when he’s mixing all the ingredients in a bowl, he has his sleeves rolled up and those arm muscles are activated and clearly visible HELLO SAILOR

When driving, definitely puts his hand on the back of your seat as he looks back while going in reverse ⭕️💢⭕️💢

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Sukuna

This mf

When you’re having a conversation, he randomly holds your chin between his fingers and makes you look up at him

Does this because he knows it makes you a flustered mess

Just likes to make you feel small and helpless

Listen, he’s mean so in short, expect a lot of degrading and yes it’s hot coming from sukuna

Walks around shirtless most of the time

Talks passionately about his opinions and beliefs they may be a little controversial but it’s okay because again, it’s sukuna

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Toji Fushiguro

After a shower, he’s never completely dry

He’d have his towel clinging to his hips, wet hair and water droplets spread across his skin

Runs his hands through his hair and flexes his arms ‘accidentally’ in the proces he totally knows what he’s doing

Lots of licking his lips.

You’re telling him a funny story about what happened today and he just starts licking his lips excessively

You’re just standing there like🧍‍♀️

Hugs you from behind and whispers dirty things in your ear 😏

When he reaches for something high up on a shelf or whatever, his shirt lifts a bit and you can see his abs and his lil happy trail and omfg

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[kittyymew]

okay first of all, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to come across as super rude or blaming only you, it's just that I often see art being reposted and even the watermark cropped/edited out.

the original artist is @/octomahk on Instagram and I was wrong, they don't explicitly state that you can't repost their art. however their watermark is visible in the screenshot you posted but the person who reposted it seemed to have added their own username on it as well.

No, it’s completely fine and 100% understandable. Thanks for bringing this to my attention and I’ve mentioned their username now. I’ll try and upload a picture which would show their watermark too.

[kittyymew]

saying "credit to the artist" is so useless, it's like if I took your writing and said "credit to the author" ?? sorry but I can't stand when people do it, especially because I saw the tiktok you used in the post and that was already stolen from instagram and the artist does not allow reposts as far as I know

next time please credit properly or just don't repost art

I'm sorry...? I didn't find any other post with a watermark and I didn't know that the tiktok user had stolen the art. Since I didn't find any post with a proper watermark, I assumed it's the tiktoker's art. Can you provide me with name of the artist that the art belongs to and if they don't want their art reposted, even with credits, for eg how @/banana.banshee works with their art, then I will take it down.

Know that in no way am I trying to steal or take credit etc from artists who put in hours of hard work, and neither do I do these things on purpose.

I am pretty new on tumblr, wattpad etc and am new to the whole writing fanfiction process. I just used that art to show people who are kind enough to read my work, what inspired me to write that specific part/ plot. There are a lot of things that go on in all online communities that I am still unaware of. In no way am I trying to discredit anyone.

[kittyymew]

Winter Baby😭

Please, I considered your and @slut-manifesto ‘s work as top tier when I first came up here😩 viewed y’all as literal goddesses lmao.

I also really love and admire works from @saintobio @suna-reversed @tojisfangs and @cafeinthemoon :)

Hey, I heard you read ff sometimes who are some of your favourite writers on here? Any recommendations?

hi angel! here are just a few of my favorites writers <333

@jawllines @moonchildstyles @faeaura @erodasfishtacos @bfharry @iconicharry @dadplease @harryhoney-bee @lovecanyon @robiedreamland @pinkandblueblurbs @gxtitobxby @letterstotheflre @onsunnyside @starsvck @honeystevie @boldlyvoid @misskathcake @finelinevogue @strawbeariefaerie

[kittyymew]

Dating Dad! Toji- Part 4

Meeting Uncle Gojo

Note: This fanart inspired this part. Credits to the artist: @/octomahk on ig :)

This part turned out to be really underwhelming. I had something else in my mind but I ended up writing something else. So, sorry if this was a bleh chapter.

Link to Previous Parts- Part 1. Part 2. Part 3.

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Toji would be out shopping for some groceries with Baby ‘Gumi. The only reason he even took this responsibility upon himself is that he was bored, at least that’s what he said. He’d be commuting home from the store and meet this crackhead white-haired stranger on the bus.

Even though he is an assassin and used to a lot of weird things, watching this lanky 6 feet something giant making silly faces at Baby ‘Gumi was probably the most disturbing thing he had ever witnessed.

“Babe. You are not going to believe what happened! I think I am traumatised for the rest of my life” He yells out as soon as he is through the front door.

You waltz up to him and quickly undo the straps across his chest and take Baby ‘Gumi in your hands.

“What are you talking about? What happened?”

“There was this weird dude on the bus. He kept making faces at Megumi and-” and before he could continue, you hear a loud shriek from behind you.

“IS THAT HIM?! IS THAT MEGUMI??” Gojo yells strutting down the hallway.

“I MET HIM ON THE BUS”

Yeah, Gojo is having a mental breakdown right about now.

He takes Baby ‘Gumi from your hands and disappears down the hall, cooing and gushing over the little squish of sweetness, without sparing a glance at you or Toji.

You look back at Toji and this is the first time you think this man is about to cry.

“WHO- WHAT THE FUCK?! THAT’S THE CRACKHEAD I SAW ON THE BUS! I-... DID HE FOLLOW US HERE?!” He whisper-yells at you. Poor thing is more confused than ever.

“Calm down. He’s my brother. Besides, if he followed you here then how would he reach here way before you?” You point out, leaning up to kiss him on the cheek and taking the bags from his hands.

He stands there dumbfounded for the next 2 minutes. He is not used to having people over at his house. I mean, what was he supposed to do? Talk?

Gojo hasn’t left Baby ‘Gumi alone since he took him in his arms, and Baby ‘Gumi seemed to enjoy Gojo’s company. More than Toji would like.

You and Toji were sitting on the couch, with Gojo and Megumi across the room on the floor, playing.

Toji’s gaze hadn’t left Gojo and every time Gojo did something to make Baby ‘Gumi laugh, you could feel Toji twitch beside you.

“Y/N-chan, I have to say, he is cuter than you when you were a baby!”

Amidst all this, Baby ‘Gumi turns and crawls to where you were with the toy that Gojo just gave him, which basically shatters Gojo’s heart.

After a long day of Gojo entertaining Baby ‘Gumi and Toji on the verge of strangling Gojo in his living room, you finally put a tired Megumi to sleep in his cradle.

You walk into the living room to see Gojo and Toji in a death stare contest with each other. You don’t know who looks more intimidating.

“The only reason I’m not killing you is that you’re Y/N’s brother and Megumi seemed to like you.” Toji states.

“The only reason I’M not killing you is because Y/N likes you for some bizarre reason… and maybe because of Megumi”

I think it’d be safe to assume that Gojo and Toji will not hesitate each other’s throats out.

But, at least these two clowns are trying to be civil for your and Baby ‘Gumi’s sake.

Best believe, Gojo will probably buy an apartment just down the hall because HE. DOES. NOT. LIKE. TOJI. Or trust him one bit.

He’d claim that he didn’t know the apartment his agent sold him just happened to be in the same building and on the same floor as where Toji and you live. But all three of you know that it’s nothing but big stinkin’ bullshit.

Toji has a stronger urge to strangle Gojo now lmao.

Big Brother Gojo has my heart.

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[kittyymew]

THIS!

I know this is Hashirama x Madara, but I highkey imagine this scene playing out with Y/N x Madara in ‘Where I Belong’ series😭

out of spite.

/ Madara will do anything just to piss Tobirama off /

[kittyymew]

And mine turn out to be bots😭

[kittyymew]

Where I Belong

Chapter 3- “The Fallen”

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Hello Lovelies! I am sorry I took forever to come back from my hiatus. A lot of stuff happened in my life and I found myself in a place where I wish no one finds themselves in.

I tried my best to complete this chapter, but I kept getting distracted which might have jeopradised the delivery of this chapter. I apologise for that.

And I thank you all for reading my stuff.

Note: It is not proof read, so there will be a few errors.

WC: 3107

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Link to previous parts- Part 1. Part 2.

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Tobirama’s PoV-

“Please be fine. Please be fine… Please…���

That’s the only phrase that has been playing in my head on loop ever since we got an alert of the Uchiha cornering my baby brother, Itama. He’s too young to die.

Big brother and I were already ambushed by a few of the Uchiha men, taking us longer than expected to reach Itama. I just… hope we’re not too late.

Third PoV-

It feels like you are floating in nothing but darkness and quiet for what seems like an eternity. Is this what there is after you die? Nothing but loneliness and darkness consuming you? Is this it though? Is this as far as you went? Your dreams of achieving peace left behind. Dreams of stopping the war. Well, at least it is peaceful here, devoid of all the war, violence, and bloodshed. Pretty ironic coming from you at this point, because you just slaughtered a lot of people tonight.

“Y/N!?” You hear someone call out your name. Are they trying to shake you awake?

“What the hell happened?!”

You hear the same voice again. It sounded so familiar, yet so foreign. Are you still laying on the battleground? Are you even alive at this point?

You hear your name being called again, and it takes every goddamned fiber in your body to bring yourself to open your eyes. Everything’s so blurry.

“I-Ita-…”

You cannot even form a word. Is Itama even alive?

“Y/N?!”

“Oh,” you think when you realize someone’s almost… trying to shake you awake? You look up, trying to make out who it was. Your blurred vision combined with the darkness of the night was not helping you. Yet, you could almost see the outline of a dark spiky-haired head. Well, at least his eyes are not glowing red. And before you know it, you’re pulled back into the darkness. Well, if this is the end of the road for you, you pray that at least Itama is still alive.

Tobirama’s PoV-

“ITAMA!” I almost yelled out, making a bee-line towards his body. There were bodies and pools of blood I stepped into, I didn’t care. My heart dropped when I saw him covered in blood. God, I hope that he’s still alive.

“Itama!” I quickly kneel beside him, checking his pulse. It was faint, but it was there. He looked pale, probably from all that blood loss. I call out to big brother.

“He’s alive! Hurt, but alive! We need to get help!” I vociferate, looking over my shoulder to see big brother standing a few feet away over a body… I could recognize her anywhere in a heartbeat. He looked… puzzled. Why is he just standing over her? Why isn’t he helping her? What the hell was Y/N doing all the way to the Northside? She was supposed to be down South.

“Big Brother! HELP HER!” I yell at him. I’m usually not the one to lose my calm, but heck, what was he even doing, just standing there, doing nothing.

I quickly hoist Itama's body over my shoulder and walk over to where Y/N was laying.

“Is she alive?!” I ask big brother Hashirama. He seemed to be staring from the spot where Itama was laying.

“What are you looking at?” I turn around, noticing the boulder for the first time, which was clearly cut in half.

“Just… snap out of it and check on Y/N!” I intended to shout, but my voice came out barely over a whisper.

He quickly bends down, checking Y/N’s pulse, sighing in relief as he feels one. I let out a breath I didn’t know I was holding in. He picks her up and we quickly make our way back to the base, hoping we’d make it in time.

“Who do you think did that?” big brother says after a few minutes.

I stay silent. There could be a lot of possibilities. But if it was some sort of animal, or perhaps an unknown entity, why were Itama and Y/N still alive? Barely alive, but still.

“You don’t think….” Big brother trails off hesitantly after receiving no response from me.

“Don’t be absurd. Let us just focus on getting both of them the help they need before it’s too late for either of them” I snap at big brother. There is no way Y/N could’ve done that back there.

--Timeskip--

Third PoV-

After the two Senju brothers brought your and Itama’s body to the medical campsite, Butsuma Senju had both of you brought back to the Senju residence instead of the local hospital. The battle had ended two days after it had begun, neither side winning. Your father visited the Senju residence every day, but not once did he ask about you.

You and Itama were still unconscious. While Itama’s condition seemed to be getting worse, your vitals were improving.

Day Three-

It had been three days since they found you and Itama.

“Had I not been so reckless on our mission, the Uchiha never would’ve figured out that someone had infiltrated their base and the attack would’ve never happened,” Tobirama says in a hushed tone. He had cursed himself every day since the attack.

Hashirama tried to tell him that the war and attacks on each other’s bases are inevitable. But, even he failed.

Day Five-

Tobirama and Hashirama are out in the village, helping escort a Feudal Lord when Imachi and Kamura come rushing to where the Senju brothers were. The two brothers glanced at each other at the unexpected appearance.

“It’s Itama…” Imachi says, looking at Hashirama.

“Go… we’ll take over this mission…” Kamura says.

Hashirama gives them a nod, as both he and Tobirama rush home.

Day Eight-

The Senju head family was done carrying out the funeral rituals for Itama, burying his body in their family grave. They were still amidst the war, so they followed the same, short ritual for Itama as the countless other fallen soldiers. Soldiers dying was a given. Still, it hurts when it is someone you know.

Hashirama and Tobirama stayed back at the cemetery after they buried Itama. The two boys were standing over Itama’s grave, the sun was already starting to set.

“Do you think Y/N is going to die too?” Tobirama asked.

“I… don’t know. I hope not. Father said that the doctors said that she seems to be in a better condition than Itama was in.” Hashirama says, placing a hand on his little brother’s shoulder.

“Let’s go home. It’s getting late.” Hashirama says.

Just as the two turn around, they see Butsuma standing at the entrance of the cemetery with his hands folded over his chest.

“What is father doing here?” Hashirama says, surprised to see his father, hours after the ceremony had ended.

“Probably here to scold us for missing out on some practice or something…” Tobirama states, knowing all too well how tough Butsuma is.

“Only one way to find out…” Hashirama says. The two of them walk over to Butsuma.

“Is there something you wanted to talk to us about? It is strange to see you lingering around here” Hashirama says.

“It’s Y/N. She-..” before Butsuma could even finish his sentence, Tobirama disappears as he rushes home as fast as he could.

“Tobirama!” Hashirama yells, quickly apologizing to his father before following Tobirama.

“You didn’t even let father finish his sentence!” Hashirama scolds him.

“I lost Kawarama. I lost Itama. I cannot lose Y/N too.” Tobirama says, not slowing down.

“You’re not the only one who lost Kawaram and Itama. You need to learn to keep a level head. Father didn’t say that Y/N died.” Hashirama says.

“He didn’t say she’s alive either,” Tobirama says, his voice cracking a tiny bit and if it wasn’t Hashirama who was listening to him, it would’ve gone unnoticed.

Hashirama falls silent, scared at the thought of losing yet another person, let alone someone who is like family to him. Silence takes over the two of them as they approach the Senju residence. Both of them prayed that at least you made it out of death’s grasp.

Day Ten-

You were devastated when they broke Itama’s news. All your efforts, everything, all of the bloodshed, only to lose Itama. The two brothers have not left your side ever since you gained consciousness. If you thought they were unbearable before, you were in for a whole nother level of protectiveness. You felt a change in the atmosphere around them. As if they are trying to ask you something but wouldn't. Or maybe it's just them coping.

They did say that they were the ones to rescue you and Itama. That means, the say what kind of distruction your Jutsu did. And they did say that no one was there when they got there. So then, who was the person who was calling out your name? If it was someone you knew, why didn't they try to save you?

Day Twelve-

The village held a memorial for Itama. You were barely able to walk, but you couldn’t, not go. You saw your father at the memorial for the first time since the night of the attack. It hurt knowing that your father didn’t love you. Hell, he probably doesn’t even think you deserve a basic human decency level of respect.

“I am gonna go take a breather” you whisper to Tobirama.

“I am coming with you,” Tobirama announces.

“God, no! You need to stay here. Besides, I want to be alone at the moment.” you say as you rub your temples. You barely had time to recover and you were weak and exhausted at the moment.

Tobirama frowns at your statement and opens his mouth to protest when you raise your hand in front of him.

“Please. I’ll be fine. I’ll be nearby and I’ll be careful. I just need some time… alone.” You say.

Tobirama contemplates for a moment before giving you a weak nod.

“Thank you,” you say, sighing as you turn around and wobble out of the venue and towards the one place where your mind finds peace.

Tobirama is about to take off and follow you when he is stopped with a hand on his shoulder.

“Give her some time to grieve on her own” Hashirama says

“But… If you say so, Big Brother.” Tobirama says as he watches you walk out of sight.

“We still don’t know what exactly happened that night. And I have a hunch that it wasn’t a random entity or an animal…” Hashirama says, almost in a whisper in an attempt to calm Tobirama’s nerves of letting you go alone.

“Even if Y/N is strong enough to do something like that, she is in no condition to fight if she’s attacked” Tobirama protests.

“You need to put in a little more faith in her than that, Little Brother. Now, come. Father was summoning you earlier.” Hashirama says as he pulls Tobirama in the opposite direction.

--Brief Timeskip--

You let out a groan as you finally reach the riverbank, and sit at the edge of the river. You removed your footwear and dipped your toes in the cold water. This was the first time you were truly alone. The first time you started to feel the overwhelming emotions. The first time you let everything; your exhaustion, your emotions; everything, take over, letting out a loud sob.

You could be hit by a thousand blades and that would still feel less painful than what you were feeling right now.

“Come on now. You can’t cry. You’re not weak.” you say to yourself, gasping for air in between sobs as you hastily try to wipe the never-ending stream of tears rolling down your face.

You quickly manage to calm yourself down. “You’re not the only one who lost people, Y/N,” you say to yourself, over and over again in a pathetic attempt to not feel the grief of losing, of hurting.

You pick up a pebble from the ground and toss it in the river.

“It wasn’t just Itama. A lot of people died that night,” you say.

You pick up another pebble and toss it in the river.

“On both sides…”

You say, trying to reason with yourself. Picking up another pebble, you toss it again, with much more force this time.

“Hashirama and Tobirama lost their own brother! Who am I to cry like this? Itama wasn’t my own bro-” you stop mid-sentence, realizing what kind of absurd bs you were about to say.

“Who am I kidding? He was my family too…” you whisper, weakly tossing a pebble in the river.

“Hey” you hear a voice behind you. Your heart drops and you’re ready to get up and attack, just when he continues speaking. “Long time no see…”

You recognize that voice. It was Madara. The boy you met before this war.

“So.. umm…”

“It’s Y/N”

“Y/N. This time you look like someone killed your cat. What happened?”

Madara says in a slightly humorous tone.

“What do you mean? I’m fine!” you say, still facing the river.

“Tch, liar. Wanna talk to me? I’ll listen.”

“It’s nothing,” you say, trying to sound convincing.

“Come on!! Just spill it!” Madara presses you a little.

“No... There isn’t anything..”

“Hey, stop dragging this out! I promise. I’ll listen.” Madara says as he walks to stand beside you and bend down a little.

“It’s nothing at all…” you say, tears streaming down your face again.

As Madara gets beside you, you instinctively move your head to face him while talking, only to reveal your snot-covered nose, wet cheeks, and reddened eyes and nose.

You could swear you heard him shriek before he yells out, “Out with it already!”

“What’s the matter?” he asks, softly this time.

You could see he seemed genuinely concerned.

“My… well, someone I considered as my little brother, died…” you say, wiping your eyes.

“I come to the river because I feel like all the haziness in my heart gets washed away as I stare at the water” you continue.

You hear him shuffle again, his feet against the pebbles. He sighs and sits down beside you.

“So, that’s what happened,” he says, staring at the river too.

“Your name’s Madara, right? Could it be the same for you too?” you ask, turning around to face him. You catch him staring at the river.

“Do you have siblings?” you ask.

Somewhere, deep down, you needed to hear that you aren’t the only one to lose someone. Someone you didn’t know. Perhaps, this is why you’re asking a stranger whether he has lost someone.

“I’m one of five…” Madara speaks up. He picks up a pebble, fiddling with it before continuing, “Well, there used to be five of us…”

You let out a soft gasp, realizing where his story is headed.

“Used to be…?” you ask softly. Even though the logical part of you tried to not ask that, the softer side of you did.

“Yes. Now, there's just my little brother and I. We are Shinobi after all. We never know when we might die.” Madara says, turning his head to look at you.

“If there’s a way where neither side has to die, it’d be where they revealed what’s inside them. Hid nothing. And they’d drink together like they were brothers. But then that’s impossible.” He says, turning around to face the river

“Cause one can’t really look deep inside someone and see who they really are...” He says.

You could hear the anger in his voice. The same kind of anger you had inside you.

“... In reality, they both can be seething inside.” he continues, tossing the pebble in his hand with enough force and the correct technique for it to bounce off the surface of the river and reach the other side.

“It’s impossible… to show what’s inside us to each other…?” you ask, still processing what he just told you.

“I don’t know. But, every time I come here, I make a wish that I’ll find some way to make it happen,” he says.

This time, it was Madara who had a proud grin on his face.

“By the way, look. Seems I finally got it to go in the right direction” Madara says, referring to the pebble he just threw. “It’s not just yours. Mine too reached the other side.”

You look at him, more like, stare at him. Could it be possible that there was someone out there who might have the same dreams as you? Someone who was sick of all the war and the bloodshed too. Someone who believed in peace, someone who wanted a peaceful world?

“If you keep staring, you might convince me that you’ve fallen for me!” Madara yells out to embarrass you.

“WHAT! EW!” You yell, pushing him away as he laughs. You couldn’t help but giggle. This was the first time you felt "good" in days.

You knew the following days are going to be filled with a lot of unpleasant scenarios.

I mean, you still have to confront Hashirama and Tobirama about what really happened that night and you knew it is not going to be easy to tell them. You knew the damage you had done when you used your Jutsu. You could feel both Senju brothers on the edge whenever they were around you. And your gut-feeling told you that they had seen the aftermath of your powerful Jutsu.

But, even with a million things going on in your head, you felt at ease here, with your unnatural acquaintance. You did not feel the need to hide a part of yourself or be worried about other things. It is the one place to let it all go, and he has become the one person you truly felt free and comfortable with.

“You know, maybe one day, we would not have to grieve like this. We would not have to worry about our siblings dying. Our family dying. Or think about strangers losing their life…” you say.

This time, it was Madara staring at you. He was shocked to see someone agreeing and thinking about the same ‘ideal world’ as him. Maybe, it was you who would help him get there. Or maybe, it would be him helping you.

“You told me what you wish for when you come here. I’ll tell you what I wish for whenever I come here,” you say, looking at him with a smile.

“I wish for a world where everyone would understand each other. A world where when someone dies; someone’s father, mother, siblings, cousins, or friends; they would not be considered as ‘The Fallen’....”

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