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After

It has been 6 months since T’s return. It is hard to believe he is home still as he is still gone a lot. I experienced my first long annual training and it brought me back to deployment. 3 weeks is nothing but the days are hard. I miss my best friend and the questionable things such as when will I talk to him arose again. Sometimes I love my man’s job and sometimes I hate it. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be more important...

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My every single day love

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The return

It has been a little over 3 months now. Return and what I call “reintegration” is hard. Down time, drill, that sleeping together feeling. It is all hard. If you are not in the service life you don’t understand it. We are home with normal lives. It is expected when they return things will be normal. They never are. Some days I wonder if I am enough. Other days I know I am. It is remembering what they go through. I love my man but service life is tough. We try to understand them but they don’t necessarily understand us.

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My number one

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Today

Today is the greatest day. Return from deployment day... #throughitall #love

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I have not been on in a while but I am so happy my man will (knock on wood) be stateside in 3 months. This has been a tough deployment. Just having wifi calls and texts (while so appreciative) are not the same. I miss the hugs, the kisses, the snuggles, the real body. ❤️

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Your boyfriend belongs to you, mine belongs to the military. You complain you haven’t seen him in a few hours, I will go months on end without seeing him. You haven’t heard from him in a couple hours, I will go weeks without hearing from him. You get mad and ignore his calls, I would do anything for just 5 minutes. You take him for granted, I don’t.

Military Girlfriend (via just-a-little-bit-of-me)

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#love

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Tough

Gotta get back on this regularly. I am struggling with this deployment right now. I like to share my feelings with my guy and let him know I miss him. Lately it has frustrated and stressed him. Now I question what I say and when. Being alone it also makes me self conscious. Just one of the hurdles I need to get over...

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When you accidentally miss their phone call from deployment:

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And when people ask me if the distance is the hardest part I will tell them that it’s not. I will tell them that the hardest part is not the time spent away from the one you love, but rather the time spent together. They will not understand. They will question why being together is harder than being apart,they will tell me that it makes no sense. And I will laugh. I will tell them that the two days or the two weeks or the two months you spend together are the cruelest part of a long distance love, because it only takes those two days to get into a routine. You become familiar with the way their smell lingers in your bed long after they’ve left it. You become familiar with the certainty that you won’t have to fall asleep alone tonight, or wake up to an empty bed tomorrow. You become familiar with their palm in yours, ready to tackle whatever today has to offer. You become familiar with the way they look all 24 hours of the day, whether it’s groggily smiling at 6am or messily playful at 2pm. You become familiar with a kiss that is planted on your lips, rather than being blown from a phone screen two countries away. But familiarity is a luxury that long distance love can’t afford. We don’t get to have routines and moments we’ve become ‘used to’. Instead we get laughs that echo long after they’ve disappeared and indents in our bed of a body that once held us and imprints on our hearts of smiles that moved us. Distance will never be easy, but they don’t know hard love until they are lying in bed at four in the morning reaching for someone whose scent is the only thing that remains. I will tell them all of this. They will not understand. I can only hope that they never have to.

it’s not something you want to learn (via ifnotformusicthenwhat)

The hardest part..

(via herpromise01)

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It has been about 125 plus since my love left. Thank god for Whatsapp for allowing me daily contact. Things have been scary and rough but we all survive. Love my man so much

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Missing him

It has been 106 days today that he has been deployed and I have so many months to go. I miss my best friend so much and love him with my whole heart.

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I can not wait for my day. It has been almost 100 days and I miss him immensely.

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💕truth