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*chinhands* Jehan telling Tiefer he loves him because that's what you're supposed to say, that's what you're supposed to feel if you're doing this (and he surely does feel love for Tiefer right? Tiefer surely loves him, right? he wouldn't be doing this to him otherwise...)

idk there's something very cute and very painfully heartbreaking about Jehan, blissed the fuck out and also terribly overstimulated and also a little scared, looking up at Tiefer and blurting out "I love you"

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Loving the AU where Annemarie is sent to wayward home and Fr.Tiefer meeting her again to "catch up" by repaying her the abuse she gave him. He doesn't believe this reform bit for one second, especially when he sees Ann teaching the children.

He remembers how well she would act the doting over worked older sister having to raise him in public, but out of sight she'd beat him or throw an empty whiskey bottle at him every time his crying got on her nerves. Until he catches sight of Ann alone with one of the kids when she thinks no one's around and she's actually sweet and nurturing. She's not yelling or smacking the brat when they're crying and clinging to her, she's actually comforting them, no inappropriate touching or anything either. Tiefer is shocked and furious. This can't be his sister, she's not a nurturing person! She can't be because if she was actually capable of it...if she could have really become patient and sweet with these kids why couldn't she have been like that with him? Next time he's alone with Annemarie he mocks and questions her about her being forced to take care of a bunch of bastard kids, and there's just something about his tone and expression that just chills Annemarie. He thinks he's right when he sees his sister genuinely scared, she really hasn't changed at all, until she starts pleading with him not to hurt any of the kids just to get back at her, she admits she deserves everything for what she did to Tiefer and she means it, for once in her miserable life Annemarie is actually worried about someone other than herself.

And Tiefer just snaps and he's extra vicious with Annemarie. He even accusing her of being a liar while he's fucking her ass so violently his cock is now slick with blood? Why she's acting like she cares about some snot nose brats?! Like she gave a damn about him when her boyfriends or their dad hurt and fucked him! Like she didn't do those same things to him! Maybe he's even crying afterwards while he's still buried inside of her asking why was she never that kind and sweet with him when he was little and needed her?

exquisite transcendent effervescent ~

and you know she doesn't have an answer -- not a satisfactory one, at least, not a single one that doesn't leave her hands clean -- and silence in the face of that question is just as damning, just as cutting.

"they're just kids..." she begs and tiefer has to laugh to keep from sobbing because she's still on about that -- she really doesn't care for him, she can't even face him, won't even look at him (and sure, he's had her face down on a work bench in an unused shed, splinters digging in her cheek, but she could at least try!), the awful realization settling in his chest that she could've cared, she could've, but apparently not for him.

"i was just a kid!"

"i know." and it's not cruel. it's not even sad. it's lifeless, a simple fact. "so was i."

later -- and maybe he helps clean her up, a rare gentleness (or possessiveness, an ownership, she's his), or maybe he chucks a damp cloth at her feet and tells her she reeks -- he asks whatever happened to...

and annemarie says he passed. premature. and there's something of a shakiness in her voice.

and neither of them can say their child. neither of them can bear the weight.

("i can make it up to you," she'd said, frantic, the way his tone twisted talking about the kid he'd found her with, sounding a little too like their daddy, "i can be sweet, i can be gentle, please, please, let me take care of you, just leave them out of it. they're just kids." and that fucking did it because so was he. so was she.)

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I should continue the AU where Annemarie was sent to a wayward girls home/asylum and joined the nunnery solely because the thought of her baby brother Fr. Tiefer abusing her (yes in that way) in her novitiate habit is uhhhhhh hot

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As much as we love Tiefer getting karma against Annemarie in the wayward home au, I could also see Tiefer being weirdly possessive/protective of Ann when he crosses paths with the other priests that abused her. Maybe one of the priests comes visit the school and he sees Ann visibly get anxious and scared, and for some reason he hates seeing her terrified when it's not because of him, possibly because it reminds him that as much as his sister is an awful cunt, she was also a victim, combined in with a twisted sense of that sibling entitlement of "the only one allowed to terrorize my sister is me!"

Or maybe while Teifer is listening to confession of another priest, they go into lurid details about committing their sins of "weakness of the flesh" with a certain blonde novice sister with a reputation. Before it never bothered him because hey he knows his sister is a huge slut, but he still doesn't like to here the details. Or maybe the other priest crossed a line with his sister Tiefer didn't realize he knew he had, like holding her down and gang raping her with several other men. And oh Tiefer dose not like being reminded of that experience or the fact he's now forced to empathize with her, and how fucking dare this piece of shit do that! How dare he fucking ruin Tiefer's revenge by having Ann suffer the worst abuse he's been through and not by his doing, and hearing it and knowing it's already happened...he doesn't feel any satisfaction...he just feels sick,and angry and sad...it's a good thing these confession booth are so secluded and sound proof.

yassss

One of the priests visits – he’s technically checking in on Tiefer, being this is his first assignment as a priest outside of seminary – and as he and Tiefer are chatting and walking through the main hall of the convent’s school, they pass Annemarie who is leading a group of children in from morning recess and when both men greet her in passing Tiefer watches his sister freeze up, unmistakable terror on her wan face, before she manages to collect herself and usher the children off without a word. Tiefer can’t help but stare after her: she never ever reacted like that when with him or even with their dad (“ah, I didn’t picture you as someone into older women, Emilein,” Fr. Boudreaux says in a conspiratorial low tone when Tiefer finally pulls his attention away from where Annemarie had been standing, “to be frank, that woman’s a slut with a taste for her brothers in Christ,” – and Tiefer nearly snorts at that – “so if you’re going to fool with her, wrap it up and be discreet.” Tiefer only manages a slight, “Understood, sir,” as they continue walking. Part of him is shocked – he knows that expression he saw on her face, he’s worn it too many times himself – and another part of him is livid. She’s his. He’s owed her fear. Her obedience. Her.)

later, Tiefer approaches Annemarie about what happened earlier – she of course tries to deny it and gets rather huffy and defensive the more he presses, almost like a child trying to hide a cut that needs to be cleaned, until he pulls out a knife and presses it to the front of her skirt where her thighs meet and asks – “and I won’t ask nicely again – what the fuck was that about?”

“He hurt me,” is the reply, soft and childish, and no matter how Tiefer decides to toy with her that evening, she never expands upon that (she even offers her mouth, her ass, anything he wants if he’ll just please, stop asking…)

When Tiefer finds out what happened, it’s during Fr. Boudreaux’s confession. The priest confessed to carnal knowledge. Not uncommon. Priests were still men, after all. Oh but it wasn’t the one time. It was again and again. He’d committed sodomy too, with a woman. The same woman. Her mouth. Her cunt. Her ass. Her cunt again. And not alone – himself and some of the other priests had decided to use her all at once, breaking her open over and over, three at a time even – “forgive me, I know it wasn’t right, but…she’d been a slut, before she came here.”

And that really caught Tiefer’s attention. “What do you mean here?”

“That novitiate. Gaunt, blonde. She’d been a looker – still is, especially under those skirts.”

“You gang-raped a nun?!”

“…She’s not a nun yet, Emilein.”

And there’s a sort of petulance, as if he were a child with his hand in the cookie jar, and Tiefer–Father Tiefer, 25 and vengeful and shocked as he sits on one side of the confessional – was dumbfounded, processing that his sister had suffered just as he had, his sister had suffered and been a victim just as he had in the exact way he had, and that worst of all it was not at his hand.

(It was the perfect crime, really: he couldn’t rat the disgusting old bastard or any of his friends out to the cops (not to mention how fast the church would close rank – Tiefer wasn’t stupid, he’d seen enough blind eyes turned) and, as he’d often reminded Annemarie as he came inside her bleeding hole, “who’d believe a slut like you?”)

“And it wasn’t a gangrape. She wanted it.”

And Tiefer laughs. It’s cold and devoid of any humor, but he can’t help but laugh. And when Fr. Boudreaux asks what’s so funny, Tiefer stands and exits his side of the confessional, only to open the door to Fr. Boudreaux’s side, his pocket knife in hand.

“What’s funny, Father, is how you are going to recommend I take a permanent position here for the foreseeable future and you and all your fucking friends are never going to lay a hand on my sister ever again…”

“Your sister?!”

“…unless you’d prefer spending the rest of your days with a big gaping hole where your cock used to be. Your choice. I ain’t picky.”

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nunnery AU art

payback is a b...

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her brother's so...charitable...

(full version with 💦 on marquisdeclaude dot com / @ marquisdeclaude on twitter)

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29. “She told me you were alone.”

"Mother Superior--she--she told me you were alone."

"Yeah well Mother Superior ain't as all knowing as she likes to think--that or she's got a great blind eye. Now, we done?"

Annemarie tried to push past her brother but he didn't move from the door frame.

"Father Ignatius had his hand down your skirt."

"I was there, yeah."

"And you just let him?"

Annemarie didn't meet Tiefer's eye. "He's not my type. I'd prefer seminarians and fresh puppies like you"--her eyes flitted up to his clerical collar, still not quite to his face.

"If he or anyone else here tries anything with you again, say no."

"Ah right. How stupid of me not to think of that, yeah, and uh, how'd that work for you?"

Tiefer grabbed her face, pulling her close, nails digging in her cheeks. "Anyone who tries to fuck with you will have to deal with me. You're mine, Anne. Mine. Mine to fuck or beat or even kill if I fucking want. No one else gets to touch you but me. Clear?"

She nodded.

He released her and stepped to the side so she could pass.

"I'll see you tonight."

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large, wax-covered candlestick forced into annemarie’s pussy by tiefer 👍

"Relax, Sister."

It was an order. Soft, almost reassuring, but still an order. Tiefer loomed over his novitiate and blood sister where she laid, habit skirts pushed up to her breasts, on the sparse bed in his quarters. One hand rested on her lower stomach, right above where the soft downy hair of her belly became coarse on her mound. The other barely closed around the girth of a large candlestick that was pressed against her slit.

"Ain't for lack of trying, Father,"--Annemarie all but spat the title at her baby brother--"that thing is too big."

"You pushed a baby out of here. I think you can take this." He pushed, watching the base slide between her folds. It caught -- her face scrunched up -- but it had some purchase at least. "See?"

"It won't fit."

A sneer. "Have some faith, Anne."

He twisted the candle some, watching as it slowly slid in.

She jerked under him.

"It won't--Emi, stop, it's too much!"

He could feel it resisting. Made sense -- it wasn't lubricated and there was not much in the way of effort made to make her wet. He twisted the candle, angling it better, and shoved again, hard.

Annemarie thrashed against him, kicking out, as the large candle slowly, painfully, inch by waxy inch sunk deeper inside of her until it could not go any further, the base pressed against her cervix.

"See?" Tiefer said, patting her stomach. He could see a slight bulge. The candle stuck out a good six inches or so. "All things are possible with God."

"Take it out."

"In time." He pulled a matchbox from his pocket, took out a match, and struck it. "I'd hold my legs open if I were you. Shouldn't be too hard, you're a natural..." He brought the flame down between her thighs, letting the match get close to her skin, before lighting the candle wick.

Annemarie sniffled. "It hurts."

"Offer it up to Jesus."

"Oh fuck you."

Tiefer pulled on the candle some, watching it stretch her as he guided an inch out, before ramming it back in, the most pathetic sound escaping her in a strangled cry.

"We've got some time before it burns out. Why don't you put that mouth of yours to some good use, hm?"

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sketch from stream

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【sacrament】 

 an illustration feat. jehan from my obscene sacraments zines

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Janked from bsky, throwing it up here as an ask meme

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I know I finished the meme but 1. folks should keep calling and 2. the eroticism of annemarie touching her brother's dick thru his pants has me feral

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how we feeling about wee short story zines in the mail? we vibing with that? bc if so... 👀

Been doing some writing mainly of Annemarie as a very fucked up predator (which she is but yanno...rent lowering gunshot reminder), maybe to make another illustrated chapbook, this time as a zine

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Reposting some art I still like

Now that bluesky has tagging maybe things will pick up there...

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what if Agnes and Tiefer kissed once bc they're doing their annual get tipsy and commiserate over the dead man they love and Agnes gets a little ballsy and feels so bad but Tiefer kisses her back and is pretty chill about it which shocks her until he drops a "you're neither the first woman nor family member to kiss me" bomb all nonchalant and then she has an "oh..." moment because Nathan had told her Tiefer had a hard upbringing, Tiefer had issues with his sister that's why he was so prickly with her at first (its the misogyny...and well their secret relationship), and connects some dots and has an "oh shit oh god I'm so gross" minispiral while Tiefer is like "you can just ask next time hon"

(Meanwhile Tiefer has been fucking her son so he cannot judge)

(I don't think Tiefer would fuck her. Even out of like pity. Maybe a handy tho? To have something to hold over her since it would be cheating on her dead husband. Maybe not. I think he knows he has to play very chaste--at least with the collar on his throat, she expects it of the priesthood (and she should)--and very much a victim to be pitied or risk suspicion. But i wouldnt put it past him to pry with her--questions like "so how long have you wanted to do that?" that turn into "did you think about that often? Did you touch yourself?" Basically probing for a confession.)

I am never sure how cruel Tiefer should be. His relationship with Agnes is one of lies and loathing but also he genuinely does grow to like her and love her because she treats him with kindness despite how unkind he started out towards her. I think he also sees her as essentially an easy fucking mark: he can carry on with her husband and then later rape her kid and she's too nice and naive to realize. But also God she is so kind to him and a bit mothering to him and sweet on him and he likes that, he never had that. I think he sees her (affectionately) as a dog.

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Been doing some writing mainly of Annemarie as a very fucked up predator (which she is but yanno...rent lowering gunshot reminder), maybe to make another illustrated chapbook, this time as a zine

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the finale of the strip for stripe (tungle safe version): a little comic as a reminder of what we'll all lose if censorship wins

a huge thank you to everyone who wrote and called 💖 sincerely

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