knhawk

[knhawk]

i want to die and never wake

i pray the lord my soul to take

[knhawk]

There’s so many girls who deserve the world but too many guys who think the world deserves them

[knhawk]

i feel so soft and i feel so safe

i guess I’ve made my happy place

[knhawk]

i’m grateful for when people show their true colors.  if you become the worst version of yourself after I confront you about a way that you wronged me, then I don’t want anything to do with you, especially if you acknowledge that I have never done you wrong and that my only “error” was failing to confront you earlier.  I was always watching and when I saw you keep getting worse, I saw this coming and knew I couldn’t change something that is fundamental in who you are; I just exposed what I knew all along without even trying.  I did this to a “friend” once and asked her if I had ever done her anything wrong.  she stuttered for a response, because she knew there was none, then started screaming about how I should have told her.  but everything I said she denied.  how she made a joke about the guy who sexually assaulted me, how she made fun of my appearance, how she would verbally degrade me, even making a scene in public on occasion because she found it hilarious how I was so even-toned in all my interactions.  

[knhawk]

“with friends like that, who needs enemies?”

[knhawk]

forest fungi

[knhawk]

People only wanna share when what they’re getting is better than what they have to give

[knhawk]

you hug me when I cry

like you’re not the reason why

[knhawk]

How is it fucking fair

That I have so many things carved into my mind

That I still have flashbacks

Still wake up feeling your hands on me

Have so many repressed memories

And you get to keep going like nothing happened

Why do you get to move on and forget and I don’t

[knhawk]

I can see my breath in the air and the bus isn’t coming

[knhawk]

if the night was so good that you want it back, the night was good

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and you will always have what lasts forever in your head

[knhawk]

My freshman year of high school, my math teacher told me that I would never get anywhere and that I “was a failure in math.”

No, the twist isn’t that I became a PhD in mathematics, but I *did* get an A+ in everything up through Calc 1/2/3 after that point and I’m now I’m in an honors program as one of the top 150 selected in my class of almost 10,000 students at university.

[knhawk]

When I was in high school I thought college kids were so cool.

I called my mom freaking out today because I had walked by a squirrel that was so close to me it let me touch it and I was freaking out over that because I was so dang excited 🙃🙃

[knhawk]

What if everyone truly hates me and I will never find true love

[knhawk]

And now I feel like I am walking in to Eden

[knhawk]

When breathing starts to hurt and all the lights go dark

[knhawk]

I don’t believe there is anything very good left much in life, it is all just time passing along in different ways