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I belive ive walked in this circle for too long and need to find my way out.

My stomach hurts like never before and i think im experiencing the ulcers people are talking about.

Ive been trying to unfriend Mia for the couple months weve been hanging out

Shes taking my money and bound me to a lifestyle i am not proud of and want to get out.

I was experiencing a bad stomach pain last night and its carried onto the morning

I took tylonol and slept through the uncomfort.

What got me here was an edible, i lost control and now my stomach hurts like never before

Im worried for my health

To the point of confiding in a doctor

Im not one to admit that ive dug a hole i cant get out of

But the pain is so severe i worry i need to seek a professional problem solver

Ive read that ulcers can heal on their own, except it may take months and ill be enduring pain for a while

It might be good to have a constant reminder

That i must injest food wisely or else the pain will get worse

My health might decline and i might actually need to admit my faults.

I might actually need to go to the hospital and be admitted to get some help

Which is the last thing i want to do

Admit that my decisions have brought a consequence i thought i could avoid

I thought that i could keep doing what i was doing and my body would adapt

It adapted alright with an outcome i did not expect

It was very ignorant of me its all ive seen on the internet

Mia is quite detrimental to your health

Im experiencing it first hand, belive me when i say

Mia is not your friend she will cause harm and bring you pain

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the day i get to 115lbs im going to have the craziest shopping spree ever. if i could just never eat again.

legspo to kick off this fast

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things i wish i knew sooner part 2

-dont be lazy. dont ask ppl to fetch things for you, dont order in, dont eat in bed, clean your house. dont just sit around doing fuck all all day, move around often, if you want something get up and fetch it yourself, dont order groceries if you can walk to the store and buy them in person, do your own dishes and clean often. if you're able-bodied you need to be moving around as much as possible. being lazy and sitting around makes so much difference in your body and it shows, and its such an ugly feature anyway

-coffee and diet coke are friends until theyre enemies. too much coffee can lead to binges because they can drive up your anxiety and then you'll look for soothing and comfort in food (energy drinks too) and diet coke can lead to binges because the sweet taste can make ur brain crave sugar. if you have a lot of water in between doses of coffee and diet coke you will be fine tho but dont overdo either

-DO. NOT. PURGE. this is coming from someone who became mia at 11yo and my god do i regret it. first of all it rarely works towards wl if youre constantly binging anyway, it just creates a vicious addictive cycle where the body keeps demanding more and more food while you fuck up your entire body. it's disgusting and addictive and completely fucking useless and it makes you smell awful and your hair breaks and your teeth darken and weaken and your nails fall off and your face looks old and haggard and it takes yearssss to recover and be normal again. i'm still not fully recovered even after quitting for 2 years so take my tip and dont even start that shit

part 1. part 3.

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𝔧𝔞𝔡𝔢 𝔪𝔬𝔬𝔡𝔟𝔬𝔞𝔯𝔡

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What to do instead of eating 🦋✨

Cleaning session ✨

Clean your bathroom. Really scrub your toilet.

If you have a yard, clean it

Organize your wardrobe

Do the dishes

Take out the trash

Sweep

Take the dust off your desks, bookshelfs or whatever you have in your home

Organize the food shelf

Clean your fridge

Organize your kitchen utensils

Do laundry. Probably you been wearing the same shirt for some days.

Selfcare session ✨

Deep condish your hair. You have split ends.

Do your nails.

Fix your eyebrows.

Take a long hot shower and exfoliate.

Skincare.

SLEEP.

Fun things to do ✨

Play videogames.

Read a good book.

Study.

Message a friend, or even call.

Watch a movie. Or binge watch your favorite Netflix show.

Did I already say sleep?

Create a visionboard on Pinterest.

Set goals, not talking about weight. Set career goals, for example.

Take a fun class, learn pottery or knitting.

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Name moodboard for Daniella Requested by anonymous

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I quit nicotine when i was 18 and that was the most self control ive had in a long time, i thought to myself: why cant i control my binges? I go all day without food then at the end of the night i cave and eat the whole fridge. Not really but it feels like it. Then i thought about how nicotine is just like food. I have the ability to control the urge and not follow through. Anyways now im on day two, i feel great i think ill do this more often than i think. I didnt intend to feel so content but here i am at peace in a state of ZEN😘

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Day 2 of only water fasting: i feel great. I feel i have all the control in the world. I OWN MY THOUGHTS THEY DO NOT OWN ME AHAHAHAHA🤪

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𝔰𝔢𝔞𝔰𝔦𝔡𝔢 𝔠𝔬𝔣𝔣𝔢𝔢

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I just want a pure body & a pure soul. I want to be cleansed of the greed and gluttony that suffocates my bones. I want to be pure, I need to be pure. This is no longer a desire but a need, an obsession.

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When I go to bed hungry and don’t wake up skinny

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lost in a world of forgotten books

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