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13. (Story) How Inc3st family cycles start - Jasmine and Aiden & The Calf Care (C0CS@/!nc3st edition)

In today’s episode, we revisit Jasmine (age 4) & The Calf Care… As we explore her connection with a new character Aiden (age 4) Showcasing the complexities of C0CS@ in inc3stral families and how the cycle begins.

Another story. Enjoy💓

This day.. Jasmine walks into The Calf Care.. and she sees someone she’s never seen before. Aiden… He was alone.. Isolating himself.. Turned a whole 90 degree angle from everyone else. She grew more curious.. and felt a new feeling.. A familirity in his presence.. although she’d never seen him before. .. Hmm.. I just want to be near him, I can’t stop looking.. She felt very drawn to him… like he had a glow inside of him. …I wonder what’s his thinking about… why is he not playing with anyone… maybe his shy, like me… ..he looks so different.. everyone here looks the same.. but he looks so different.. in a nice way…. Without much thought, she kneels down right next to Aiden.. “I know your not going to say anything.. buttttt my name is Jasmine.. I am four years old… I just started reception.. it’s ok.. You can just listen to me talk.. Because I think you don’t want to talk.. And that’s ok…I never seen you before, I wanted to say hi…”

Aiden doesn’t flinch, he ignores her …Everyone else is leaving me alone.. Go away. She’s them look at me, leave me alone..

Jasmine sensing his reluctance and slight change of body language.. She smiles at him and keeps talking softly.. “…I know you can hear me…” she smiles and points down at the shiny floorboards “ These look like tiny brown boxes.. with sticks going through them..and they turn to magic broomsticks when we go to bed..”

Aiden.. Still ignoring her.. relaxes ever so slightly and starts to listen.. His thoughts switch to her…She talks a lot. Not in the annoying way though.. I think she thinks a lot and she likes to tell me. But why me? Doesn’t she see that I don’t care?..

Jasmine filled with hope.. A new sense of inner knowing and a pending anxious attachment style.. Wasn’t scared of Aiden’s silence. She had already decided—he was her friend, someone she was meant to meet today.

..He listens.. Even when he doesn’t answer. ..He feels special to me.. He knows things.. His smart.. Like me.. I can tell… When I look at him I want to smile.. I feel… calm when he’s near. I want to stay close…But now I think he wants quiet time… She gives him some space…

Jasmine now gathers the toys she wanted to play with for the morning.. Bratz.. Building block pieces.. The Bop It.. Coloring pencils… She looooved to playing and having fun.. It was the perfect escape.. There was no limits what she could do.

She starts to play with her toys.. Glancing at Aiden..every now again.. not too much.. She’d look at him.. ..First he wasn’t looking.. So I looked again.. And he looked at me.. I think he wants to smile.. Jasmine was subtly looking Aiden.. Giving him a sweet and unsure smile.. ..As if she was testing the waters of their unsolidified friendship.. With Aiden locking eyes with her then looking away.. His body language appearing more relaxed and open.. They we’re now playing their own secret game.. All of a sudden.. Jasmine she looks up at the big yellow clock. And yayyyyyy! It’s lunch time.

All the other calves in the centre come up for lunch. There was a wide range of ages and dynamics at the centre.. The relationships dynamics in the centre were influenced by not only herd bloodline connections but also by hidden, unspoken dynamics… As a result… the center was divided into different social circles..where belonging depended on unspoken rules and underlying bonds… making it very ‘clicky’ environment.

After, all the other calves had ate and went to their own devices .. the Matriach called over Aiden and Jasmine as the last ones to eat lunch.. They sat down together, quietly. Jasmine, biting into her dinosaur chicken.. Looks over at Aiden whose looking down his plate.. …He then looks up, his eye meet with hers.. She starts an important conversation “Do you dream.. What do you see in your dreams.??. I see mountains.. forest.. houses.. I think I fly sometimes… I feel myself flying and flapping like a bird” As usual.. she babbles on..

Aiden looks into her eyes as she speaks.. Feeling both fascinated and connected .. He starts to feel a gentle magnetic pull in his chest.. Associating her with a new feeling.. One of warmth and calmness. …She keeps coming back.. Other kids don’t do that…They ask once…maybe twice…and then they leave. But she doesn’t leave… Maybe she won’t. Maybe she’s not like others..

They finish eating, Jasmine leaves the table, She gazes into Aiden eyes and smiles.. .Lets play King and Queens.. You can be the Great King Aiden.. she squeezes his arm and runs off into the front room.

Aiden.. ..She’s special. She thinks I’m special. Playing with her will be fun. We chose each-other… He gets up and joins her.

Jasmine saw Aiden as a protective figure, love interest and soul mate all at once.. with many parts of their dynamic mirroring unhealthy relationships she had with adult males in her home life. ..I love playing with him.. His my best friend .. I love him. His my favourite person ever… While Aiden saw Jasmine as someone who embodied unconditional, love and warmth that was missing in his life. .. Her smile makes me feel warm. She listens. She makes me feel good. I like her. This is very special to me…

Jasmine and Aiden formed an undeniable bond. Where adventure and imaginative play was their favourite pass time…

They were in their own world of imaginative play.. From Rulers Of An Imaginary Kingdom.. To Magic Scientist’s mixing dirt in the garden.. To just sitting silently together.. Jasmine.. Stimming away playing with her bratz doll.. While Aiden held her hand.. Sat next to her very Quietly.. Peacefully …”We don’t need to talk. Being close feels like enough”..

Although much of their connection were nurtured in serenity and stillness. There souls was recognising each- other and silently whispering..

“ I Know You.. I Loved You Before”

From Innocent Bond To Adult Exchange - Lunchbox Exchange (s3x)

Adults in the The Calf Care were victims of C0CS@, Inc3st.. Violence.. Baneful Magic.. with most Suffering from NPD and keen to repeat cycles.. For their own selfish gain. In the minds of the spiritual advance and spiritually manipulative Adults.. Jasmine and Aiden connection sparked up something profound.. They recognised their connection as Mystical.. Ancient.. Sacred.. They believe it needed to be manipulated.. controlled and exploited.

Back to Jasmine and Aiden.. Behind the scenes Jasmine was being fǒrc3d and gr00m3d into exchanging lunch boxes with an adult family member. Her relationship with lunch boxes exchange was complicated.. She viewed it as a something you do with someone special.. That you love and trust a lot.. ..It’s a big secret between you and someone special which is meant to make me feel nice and make us closer..

Unfortunately, Aiden was suffering similar fate in his home life.. However due to his gender and family dynamics.. He dealt with more aggressive, dominant and emotionally detached ábus3. …And due to their endless hours of unsupervised play… Aiden and Jasmine exchanged lunch boxes together.. This was how they were solidly their big feelings for each other.. Creating a connection neither of them were ready for.

Jasmine.. ..I feel so much for him. I wanted to show him how much I love him and it felt good. Everything feels good with him..

Aiden.. ..Wow she let me do that. I wonder if we were meant to do that? It means something. I know she loves me and she’s mine now, no one else can do that with her.

Lunchbox exchange then became part of their routine… with Jasmine linking it to new beginnings, love and happiness and Aiden linking it to feeling powerful, close and happy.

Sadly.. As they continued to visit the centre, their connection grew more.. Dominated by lunchbox exchange, unregulated emotions and power dynamics. With Aiden repeating patterns seen at home.. In terms of manipulation.. Dominance and Aggression. ..Resulting to taking her lunchbox when he felt emotionally disregulated/rejected or just felt ‘bored’ and wanted her validation. Jasmine.. developing signs of BPD.. Using Aiden as an emotional crutch.. Constantly seeking validation.. Emotionally overwhelming him then eventually devaluing him.. Creating a push pull dynamic built on instability.. Further causing Aiden to close off his emotions and feel unstable within the connection.

Jasmine began confusing his control and dominance.. With protection and love.. ..He does it because he loves me.. He just doesn’t want anyone else to have me.. And that makes me feel special.. He talks. I listen. When I don’t he hurts me or embarrasses me.. His eyes look different when we do it now.. I just want him to love me back. I’ll do anything to feel loved.. I don’t fit in here.. He makes me feel seen. I need this connection…

Aiden .. ..Seeing her cry confuses me. It makes me feel feelings I don’t want to feel. She’s making me feel bad. I don’t like that feeling. This happens to me at home… I don’t like it.. . But I take it and I don’t act like her… I act strong and powerful. Even though deep down.. I wish I could have more hugs at home.. Jasmine is too much. She lets me take her lunchbox. She keeps letting me do it. It’s fun. I like her a lot but I can’t say. Feelings are weak. This keeps us connected and makes me happy.. She liked it too. Now she’s making make me feel dirty. She’s hurting my feelings. So I’ll show her who’s in charge. I know how to make her talk to me again. She loves me, she’s never leaving…

Trauma Bond Set.. The Cycle Now Starts

This was created a trauma bond that meant no matter how much distance was between them.. They’d always remember. Their bodies will remember. ..Adults behind the scene were spiritually adding fuel to fire. ..They need to think this is normal. He needs to be dominant with her and she needs to submit. He has to r@p3 her over and over. Don’t let him feel anything. Tell him to push down any kind feelings he has for her. Teach him fear means love. She needs to need him even if it hurts. She keeps going back. Good. She’s dependant on him. He makes her feel small. Tell him needs to get her pregnant.. She’ll love that.. She’s already nurturing.. They’ll never let that dream go…

Jasmine & Aiden.. We’re continuing a cycle we don’t even understand. We’re just puppets. If they let us love and heal each other they cannot control us. They won’t be able to access our abundance, so they’ve trapped us.

To Be Continued…

..In part 2 we’ll explore how the adults role in shaping their relationship, Photographic evidence and much more...

Love y’all 💓

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HAPPY HEALING

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knowledgeoverknives · 7 days ago

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Gang râp3

Jasmine.. Desperately trying to remember her childhood trauma.. Finds shade under a beautiful tree and meditates..

Ok.. I’m outside.. It’s cold. On my knees, pebbles under my knees, it hurts. I am so anxious. Heart is racing. I feel sick. I am so scared. If I listen maybe they won’t hurt me. My stomach hurts, so badly. My heart is racing. Why is there so many of them? Don’t look at them. Just let them do whatever they want. Some of them are so much younger then me, this feels so wrong. They’re taking turns. His just watching. I have to be different will all of them. Please help me. I’m so nasty. I’m the nasty cousin.

Next scene. Curled up in a ball. In the dark. Outside. So cold. Empty. I can’t feel my body. Every part of my soul is broken, I will never be the same. I don’t even know where I am. I will never be clean.

In the car. Can’t relax. I’m scared of all over them. They tricked me. They don’t exist. Listen to music. Relax. I’m okay now. God you didn’t save me, you never do. I hate the world. I hate my life.

Next morning. My head hurts. I need water. My body feels like I’ve been in a fight. But I can’t remember it, just flash backs.. of lots of voices speaking around me.. Young voices.. Fighting.. My lower body was wet and cold. Smells bad. Feels bad. Back to normal. I feel tired. Sleepy at school. Can’t concentrate. I wish I wasn’t here anymore. I miss something or someone, but I can’t remember.

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knowledgeoverknives · 7 days ago

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14. Paternity Problems - How Many Children Have You Fathered With Your Family Members?(Inc3st /C0CS@ Edition)

Have you ever asked yourself.. I wonder how many of my children my mum has..? Well until a few days ago.. Me too.

So due to obvious reasons.. Such as.. Reliving our trauma.. Our trauma making us feel safe.. The complexities emotionally of C0CS@.. We be.. Getting it on with our family members..

*important* if you suspect your wife/gf/bm has the same Inc3st childhood as you.. You should get a DNA test.. In case they’re sleeping with their @bus3rs/family… Behind your back.

Why Would You Keep Your Dads Child?

Back in the days it was more simple.. There’s was no contraception.. It’s just what happened and then you lied about who the dad was.. It was the times.

But also.. Our families were spiritually sharp even thousands of years ago.. Probably even more so… They were looking into their bloodline and heritage.. And thinking.. Hmmm.. Will child will be child be successful.. Which child is anointed.. And can make me rich.. And will keep it in the family.. I’ll just lie about who dad… The family tree js fǔck3d up anyway.. Isn’t this what the Bible/Quran/Torah encourages..

We have a legacy.. Let’s complete it. This what our families do.. “This is what the royal family do and look how rich they.. “ I mean.. Who cares about the risk of our child having physical deformities.. Who cares.. We could s@crif!c3 it.. Or ignore it.. Let nannies deal with it.. Anything for legacy.. Although the more and more money we make .. And pass down.. Leaves us feeling empty within.. So not really sure what we’re maintaining wealth and legacy for?? Validation I think..

Why Int3rbrêęd!ng For Generational Wealth is Dumb

Most of us regardless of bloodline connection reincarnate together anyway.. Were a soul family from a different planet.. We do not need to interbreed to maintain wealth.

Solution To Stop Interbreeding - Letting Go Of The Inc3st Bond

if we stop interbreeding.. Next lifetime we may be born into separate families which both have wealth.. How about that.. Are your abandonment wounds being triggered? Do you feel you need them in your family every lifetime. Are you relying on your connection in some way? Is that why you keep them bond to you in this lifetime?

If no.. Then fine.. Just don’t procreate with them in this lifetime.. Because.. Just no. Have them as a family in this lifetime and nurture the bond in healthy ways. Love on them without procreating.

But I want them as more than siblings in each lifetime..

Ok fine. Still, don’t procreate this lifetime. Why.. Because we do not need to pass on generational curses and birth defects.. If you truely want them romantically. Break the curse, don’t have babies. Maybe next life time you won’t be related so it won’t be weird….

New Children.. New siblings.. New cousins.. How Do I Feel.

For me, it’s beautiful. In a weird fucked up way.. In one sense.. I’m able to understand the behaviour of my family members from a huge family tree and see repeated patterns.

What would change for you if you found out your sibling was your child? Or if a ‘cousin’ was actually your half sibling?.. It could be life changing. How many of you guys know how deep your family tree goes? ..Do you have an actual map somewhere or do you just know?

..On a deeper level it represents interconnectedness.. From family members I related to.. Or enjoyed their personality.. content etc.. Before I knew we were related… ..There’s always been pivotal moments or synchronicities which drew me to to them.. Confirming my my inner knowing.. Have you had similar experience.. Felt drawn to someone or even disliked someone strongly(but secretly liked them deep down)..

I’m Realistic Though.. Look At The Content Of This Series…

Most of our family members have npd if not traits.. Power hungry, competitive, abuse baneful magic, jealous etc. Most of them are weirdos. Most of you are weirdos. That’s fine.. But I do think.. We’re also multifaceted, complex and wonderful also dealing with our own sh!t irl. For me it does confirms. Greatness. I obviously come from a line of legends, *ego boost*

Inc3st is strange in its own way it’s honestly unexplainable..

Family Betrayals Make It Impossible To Trust

Also shout out to you if your the child that from young.. Everyone was doing witchcraft you.. It’s giving it main character energy.

So anyways.. Due to power.. Jealously.. Repeated patterns.. The secrecy of magic.. People in our families love to do magic on people. They love to back stab you, try to slow down your progress, keep you underneath them, treat you like sh!t or whatever else.

Making it hard to trust family or even think of trusting someone new. It all depends.. On how you truely.. feel. Family disrespect doesn’t slide with me, it shouldn’t with you either.. Depending on your relationship.. If they did you wrong.. How regretful and sorry they are.. Are they capable of change? Can I get over what they did? Am I ready for a new beginning? Do you think you can maintain a healthy bond preferably without sex? Then it’s up to you.. However you decide to navigate new connections or revisit old ones..

Growing up feeling.. like an orphan in your own family.. It gives me a little bit of excitement.. All the possibilities.. Like how similar your behaviour will be? Your genes.. Do they look like me? Can we get over our childhood wounds?Have they changed? How similar are we now? How did they grow up? Did they also feel like they were missing someone growing up? The spiritual bond.. Its all new.. Exciting.. And fun world really..

We’re All Jealous Of Each Other It’s Not Our Faults

Jealousy, competition, ageism.. Makes sense to us. We had to survive this way.. Being the prettiest.. The smartest.. The strongest.. The most successful.. This traits meant we’d be safe, and feel loved. So when we see someone with a similar gift AND their in our family.. We feel like we have to defend our spot. I need to be the most important. Get the praise. Feel the Loving and Powerful feeling.

But it’s all false. You are great because you said so. Not because of any of that. Who you are within. And your accolades. Things you’re proud of and love about yourself. Everyone’s answers will be different. Your path is different and you should celebrate your wins without comparing it to others.

Ask yourself.. What do they have that I want? What about them do I feel jealous about? Why do they make me feel insecure? Why do I feel in competition with them ? And instead of trying to take it.. Use their strengths to fix your weaknesses.. Use divination..

Ask yourself.. “ What strengths do they have that can combat my weakness and make me more successful” or “make me more happy “ “make me feel more fulfilled”.. And boom. No more competition or jealously. Haha not really. But try it.. It works. That way you stay in your own lane and stop focusing on others

Bonus.. Inner Child Healing For Inc3st Family Jealously

Inner child healing. What does your inner child need to hear about comparing themselves to others? . A lot of us didn’t have much of a childhood or time to enjoy our childhood.. We had to be grown and be seen, we didn’t have adults teaches us healthy ways to manage jealously.. Now we need to let our inner child know.. Our girlhood and boyhood is within us forever. We honour them by talking to them and nurturing them.. Reminding them they don’t need to compete because they are the best.

Affirmations For When You Feel Jealous Of Family Members

First.. can I be shallow for a minute?

Respectfully.. Some people in my family I look at them.. And I think yeah.. I defo understand why you’d do magic on me & be jealous of me. See your life. I could never be jealous of you.

Others.. Who I think.. Wow your something special.. I think yeah of course.. That make sense.. You represent the abundance and diversity in our bloodline. I don’t need to compete, it’s written in my dna, in our DNA. There’s room for everyone to shine, we’re all unique.

Onto the affirmations..

“There like me? Good that means we’re rising “

“Our ancestors gave each of us a unique blessing to carry forward.”

"There is enough space for all of our gifts to rise and shine."

“No one can replicate my success, beauty or energy. It’s divinely coded. “

“Their beauty or presence doesn’t dim me. It confirms my legacy “

“Legacy built by collective greatness, not competition”

“I come from a line of chosen ones, I’m at peace knowing I am already chosen too”

“We are branches of the same sacred tree, growing in different directions, but fed by the same holy roots”

“Success runs though out bloodline. It is our divine inheritance”

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HAPPY HEALING

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knowledgeoverknives · 11 days ago

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I don’t defend celebs because most of you are terrible people.. But seeing people talk about ye and j3ffrèy star and his uncle/cousin is just annoying me.. I don’t know him.. But they don’t know wtf people like us go through.. It triggers me too much I can’t even watch people’s takes on it.. Now my eyes are open… I have to practice selective empathy.. But I’m sooo sensitive.. I wish I could hold you guys and give you the biggest hug and transfer alllll my loving energy to you… we all need it 🥺💓

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knowledgeoverknives · 11 days ago

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The one flex about inc3st is…. My add mixture 🙂‍↔️ I’m exoticcccc mwahaha, I’ll identify with whatever culture I choose 😘 💃

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knowledgeoverknives · 11 days ago

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15. Treat People Around You Better Before You Get Hurt. (inc3st/C0CS@ edition)

So due to our childhood most of develop some type of personality disorder.. And me, myself I have BPD (borderline personality disorder) which is essentially a mood disorder…

So I am no stranger to treating people around me badly… Of course my height of this behaviour was teenage years undiagnosed and being a bully.. I was under a false sense of ‘ If they listen to me… And they’re scared of me… That means they like me and respect me ‘ and boy I was… wrong.

Fear And Compliance Meant = Power & Admiration To Me

I felt like I had more autonomy over myself if I was rude to them.. I felt more in control of the friendship and my emotions.. if they did what I said. Me.. disrespecting them & them laughing it off meant.. They respected me and got me. I felt.. So much power and enjoyment like… Yeah they listen to me.. I run this group. I run my year. I run everything LMAO. But.. Eventually they cut me off in the most painful way.. And I was so confused, like huh??? You don’t wanna be my friend anymore… No darling.. They were more than tired of your sh!t

If Theyre Scared Of You And Do Everything You Say They Probably Secretly Resent You…

..It’s important we look at how we treat the people closest to us. Power and Authority being praised and rewarded in our childhoods… Makes us think that if we treat our loved ones any any how & they still stay… That means they respect us and it’s a positive thing.

When in reality it breeds a groups of yes men.. Who deep down resent how you treat them… ESPECIALLY if you’re sleeping together.. Blending business and pleasure etc…

When your rich and/or famous.. There’s biggest risks involved.. They’re less likely to confront you about how they feel.. But the resentment.. Stays.. Strategising.. Plotting and scheming.. If they’re NPD like you.. Think of how they could be strategising while pretending everything’s okay.. Happens too often.. “How did this person get robbed?… ..Who set him up... How did they know he’d be there? “ Etc.. It’s always people closest to you.

Reflect On How You Treat Your Loved Ones

Look around at how you’re treating the people around you and reflect on how you’d feel if they left your life? Are you treating them fairly? Are you being understanding of their needs..

Don’t Become A People Pleaser - Have Boundaries

From what I can see the common issue is.. Money and emotions.. IMO If you have a lot of people around you.. No you don’t owe them shit… Even if they were there before you made as much money as you make now.. However.. Be honest with yourself about what you want from your connection & finances… Be upfront & tell them, whatever your boundaries are… I pay people who fulfill a role in my life.. I love you but I don’t owe you anything not money or a boost in your career.. And expect them to come up with a role that sees fit or you do it if you really do want to help them or nothing. But leaving it open, making empty promises or just being a shitty as friend isn’t going to end well..

S3x Brings Expectations… Remember My Previous Post?

Bonus if you’re sleeping together.. it’s a recipe for disaster. ..Maybe your rewarding them after with money after s3x… Or after an argument.. or just not paying people constituently… Because you feel their not working hard enough or don’t deserve it…? Think about it and be upfront. ..If these people are closest to you.. Know your home/finances/secrets.. That can be really bad. This also goes for females you’re sleeping with and you’ve hurt really badly..

If you ask me.. If you done someone DIRTY (like really really bad) and they forgiven you… Even if things seem fine… Becareful.. The universe will always force you to change… And treating people better is one of those ways… Unfortunately sometimes this comes at the cost of a big betrayal… Avoid it if you can! Love y’all xoxo

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