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BEHEE YOURE ALIVE?! OMG, IM SO HAPPY YOU CAME BACK, EVEN IF ITS JUST FOR A LITTLE MOMENT! I hope everything with you is fine, and seeing from your recent posts, everything is pretty alright with you, so I’m glad!!

AAAH YOU'RE SO PRECIOUS I WANT TO SCREAM—

Yes, haha! I am back and alive! Although not actively creating content on here anymore.

But I'm beyond happy to hear from you and I hope all's well with you too!! You're so sweet, seriously.

Aaaahh!!! I'm genuinely so happy to be talking with you, I truly hope life has been treating you well <33

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Just a question but this blog isn’t dead is it? I’m a really big fan of you!

Unfortunately, this blog is, in fact, dead.

I’ve grown since the last time I've logged on and I’m no longer interested in Danganronpa like I used to be.

However, it warms my heart to hear you've enjoyed my old writing! Know that your words mean so much to me, and that I'll be sure to keep your praise deep in my heart.

Thank you for your support!

I wish you a wonderful rest of your day.

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Hey, it's Anon XX, haven't heard from you in a long time on this blog. Is all okay? I hope you're okay.

Hello, XX, darling!

Yes, it’s definitely been a while, and I’m sorry to have vanished so suddenly.

I’m alright now, and I’ve been doing great this past years—and I’m truly grateful for your concern.

I hope you’ve been alright as well, and that life has been treating you well!

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kod it's been almost a year are you okay?

Thank you for your concern!

I’m alive and well, and I’m sincerely sorry for making you worry for so long.

It’s been two years now, but I’ve been well, and I hope you, too, have been doing well!

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im not sure if i even remember the pseudonym i had on this blog, nor if i want, but all i know was that it was on the emoji display of your regular anons wall. that might serve as some sort of identification

though it mightve been the purple pixel alien, i can't be sure

regardless, time moves on; we've all progressed in our lives, we've grown. yet i cannot help but think about you, and what happened to you. you remained one of the most impressionable authors to me thus far; your articulate prose was a contributing factor, yes, but you were just so... kind. and sweet to us. it stuck to me like honey, never of the saccharine likes-- only that which was unbearably hard to wash off my skins surface

i don't know what happened to you, and i wish i knew-- it might be a bit selfish, or intrusive, given how we don't actually know each other, but gods... sometimes, in the back of my mind, i recount all the people ive come to be estranged with and i know your vague visage one of them, one of those i worry for. i hope you're okay. i sorely wish you're okay and well and alive

and i really, really wish that the possibility you're dead is false-- i almost need it to be, you had come to feel like a friend to me; your disappearance happened in early 2021, when covid was still relatively rampant. if what i fear has presumably happened, then you mightve contracted covid and passed. you mightve had your life unfairly reaped by others, too soon. that's what i thought had happened-- it's the only conclusion i have at my disposal, how i not, being honest?

maybe you felt burdened, maybe you ran away because of an external cause. that mightve been better, knowing you're still out there, somewhere, with a chance at happiness

if you're reading this, if you're alive and well (i hope you are. i wish you are), just... hell, i don't even know what i want you to know.

just know i care for you-- undoubtedly so. many people who have come to know you care for you, and i can bet some people on this blog alike i, care for you dearly, and wish the best.

p. s. ive recently discovered my penchant for literature, and i sorely want to ask you for advice on prose. on writing. on everything there is you could provide an answer to. some days i return to your published works and i attempt to mimic your style; is it because i envy you? because i want to be as good as you are?

or because i want to preserve you in some way-- in the thing i use daily? in poetry and art, that which i love the most?

... sometimes i beat myself up for being no where near your level, but how can that be reasonable? i just recently started practicing, and it's clear your work has had years of effort dedicated to honing your craft.

and i think, "they seem around college age. they've so much infront of them; i hope they've successfully chased their aspirations"

and i think, "i can be good. i can grow to be good. it will be okay"

and i think, i want you to be okay. of all things, above all things.

i want you to be okay.

i wish you were here

First and foremost—thank you.

Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts. Thank you for your concern. And, of course, thank you for your kind words.

I’m truly blessed to have had such kind individuals to support me and my work two years ago. Please know, even in my absence, you’ve (all) been in my thoughts.

So, at the very least, I hope I can provide closure to you, in addition to my apology for leaving you with your worries for so long.

I am alive! Evidently.

Although a lot has happened since I left this blog—my mental decline culminating in an eventual breakdown and hospitalization—I’m better now than I’ve been in, well, ever.

So... Yeah! It’s been a bit of a ride on my end, and I’ve grown a lot since 2021.

The most obvious change being that I’m no longer the angsty fourteen-year-old I was when I used to run this blog—trying to grow up faster than I should’ve.

I still write (because without it, who am I?), and I still am present on Tumblr.

I’ve shifted my interests, I’ve been practicing diversifying my writing style, and it makes me beyond happy to hear you exploring literature as well!

I’m not sure how I can properly convey with words how thrilled I am to hear that I’ve been a source of inspiration for your pursuit of writing, but please do know that—from the bottom of my heart—I’m cheering for you!

Writing is hard.

It’s difficult, and it’s easy to feel like the expectations you set for yourself aren’t being met, and it’s so, so easy to give up.

But know that your words are true.

You can be good, better than good—you can be great.

And I hope, someday, I can be given the chance to read your work!

Truth be told, I struggle reading my older works, seeing as my style’s changed a lot since then. And, sometimes, it’s difficult to read my current writing.

We’re always looking for ways to become the best we can be. But isn’t that what’s so inspiring about creatives?

I remember our conversations!

(If you’re recalling correctly—then I do genuinely remember and hold dear the conversations I’d had with you, 👾 anon! I fondly look back on the drawings you’d send, and vividly recall how in awe of your talents I was).

I care for you. I’ve cared for you. And I will continue to care for you.

It’s a bit funny to think about, actually—how you look back on my writing and emulate it when, truthfully, I’ve always kept your drawings in mind and, too, have tried to emulate your talent in art!

I guess it goes both ways, our appreciation of one another, and it warms my heart to hear it.

Thank you for the fond memories.

Although I don’t plan on creating any new content for this blog, and I’ve passed from my interest in Danganronpa—you’ll forever hold a place in my heart!

I’ve decided against deactivating.

I’m too attached to completely sever the relation I have with this account and the people I’ve met (mutuals and anons alike).

So, if ever at any point you'd like to contact me, feel free!

Regardless of the reason, I’ll always be happy to hear from you. Even if we’re just friendly strangers online and don’t know each other beyond that, perhaps we can come to be close friends.

I’m sorry for vanishing, and I’m sorry for having worried you.

I hope, with every fiber of my being, that you’ve been alive, well, and happy. I hope you’ve been pursuing your passions, and that life has been treating you well.

If nothing else, know that—even in my absence—I’ve kept you in my thoughts.

Thank you for everything.

I hope we can meet again, my dear.

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AJRGEHDH I LOVE THIS SO MUCH AAAAHH!! MOD CHIA, I GENUINELY ADORE ALL YOUR WRITING SO MUCH, THIS IS AMAZING!!!

Mikan x Reader x Nagito SFW and NSFW hcs

request; Mikan x Reader x Nagito SFW and NSFW hcs, please!

warnings; fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, TW!!! Syringes and needles, NSFW, panty-gagging, bondage, minor blood play, fear play, knife play, kinda yandere territory?? Idk, just kinda dark content, taboo, reader has gender-neutral parts and pronouns\pet names, cussing, riding, thigh riding, minor dacryphillia, kinda all over the place

note; sorry it took so long! I had to play a bit sdr2 to get a better idea of Mikan’s character lmaoo- also, I feel like I focused more on Mikan rather than Nagito, and for that, I’m sorry T_T It’s just that, I had already written a Nagito NSFW hcs, so I didn’t have much to write? But don’t worry, I still wrote a lot for him, just not as much as Mikans. Hope you enjoy <3

Keep reading

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uwweehheheheh! i made an edit blog and im really proud of it so far!! here's a cute little miki icon i made that i got a request for ^^ thought sense you like her you'd like this! -👀

WAHH, THANK YOU FOR SHOWING THIS ADORABLE ICON OF THE PRECIOUS DARLING, MIKAN!!

AAAHH, I’M LITERALLY IN LOVE WITH THIS ICON, YOU’RE AN EDITOR—?! THAT’S GENUINELY SO AMAZING!!

I’M PROUD OF YOU TOO, AAAHH!! EDITING IS HONESTLY SUCH AN INCREDIBLE SKILL AND I’M SO HAPPY YOU’RE HAVING FUN WITH YOUR EDIT BLOG AND ARE PROUD OF IT!! YOU SHOULD BE PROUD, THIS ICON LOOKS SO CUTE!! <33

MY HEART LITERALLY MELTED AT THE FACT YOU THOUGHT OF ME IN RELATION TO MIKAN, UHM—!! MY HEART? A PUDDLE.

AJSBEHDHD I LOVE IT!!!

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Hi, sorry if this is kind of annoying but I would like to know if my ask did went through 🥺. I put a cow and a dance emoji in it. Thank you 💃🐄

It’s not annoying at all, love! But I did get it, thankfully! And I’m so excited to get working on your match-up, hehe!! <3

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haha now that i think about it, my match up application was pretty vague. it just feels too weird talking about my person and stuff. it seems that details really help so if you don’t mind, do you mind if i rewrite it? i feel like i should’ve add more traits or the bad ones or something. i totally understand if it’s not an option!!

-👾 anon, hh i know you said not to send more than one but everyone’s getting specific so i felt like i should’ve too

Ooh!!

Feel free to rewrite yours if that’s what you’d like, my love!! Aah, whatever makes you happiest is totally fine with me, hehe!

I don’t mind at all and I’m truly so grateful that you’d asked first, it means so much! Feel free to rewrite it, darling! I’m excited to see who you get paired with upon more details! <3

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Happy Valentine’s Day!!! 💖💕♥️💝🎊

AAH, HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY TO YOU TOO, BIG SIS!! I HOPE YOUR DAY HAS BEEN ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL!! ❤️

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HAPPY VALENTINES KODZZZZUUUUU ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I know I’ve been gone but I hope you have an absolutely amazing day my love!! You deserve it 100% ‼️‼️

VEGA, DARLING, HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!! <33

AAH, I HOPE YOU’VE HAD AN AMAZING DAY TOO AND THAT YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE AND ADORE YOU!! 🥺❤️

MUCH LOVE TO YOU, DEARIE!! I HOPE LIFE HAS BEEN TREATING YOU WELL!!

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The “Valentine’s Day: Ultimate Match-Ups” event is officially closed!

Thank you to everyone that has sent in their submission, and I can’t wait to find your matches, hehe! <3

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Phew, I'm glad you got it! Also can you be my second platonic valentine? 👉👈

But overall I haven't been doing exactly the best these days, I'm alright now tho. I got 4 hours of sleep today and I tried sleeping again but it doesn't seem to work. Me and my sister are planning on buying a Kokichi costume for cosplay and I really hope it looks okay at least! I'm hella excited since he is one of my highest kins and I love this boi so much like-

Also I'm not really excited for valentines day to be honest, I'm always lonely and yeah, I only got like one platonic valentine online, hehe.

How have you been? Hope you've been well! I also send some ideas on your dms and I'm kinda nervous if you like them mmmmm-

I hope your day has been amazing so far! I love you! Make sure you are not overworking yourself and are taking breaks! *hugs* ❤ /p

-🐍 anon~

WAHH, OF COURSE I’D BE YOUR SECOND PLATONIC VALENTINE, LOVE!!

You’re such a wonderful and sweet person with a heart of gold! Waahh, I adore you so much!! <3

But, ah, I’m sorry that these past few days haven’t been all that good. I truly hope that this next week is better and that you feel happier and that precious smile of yours returns, my dear!

Cosplaying Kokichi sounds super fun!! I hope you two have tons of fun trying the costume on, hehe!! Wahh..! Cosplaying is so cool, I’m amazed at all the work it takes, so I think it’s truly incredible that you’re cosplaying!!

Ah, Valentine’s Day can be quite lonely, but I hope you know that I care for you sincerely and hope you know how loved you are. Hhh..!! You’re truly so amazing, much love to you, dear!

I’ve been well! I finally finished my exams and now have some time to spare, hehe! But as for your dms—

AAHH, ACTUALLY, I JUST NOTICED YOUR DMS AND I’M SO SORRY FOR HOW LATE I’M SEEING THEM, AAAHH!!

I’LL RESPOND ASAP, OH MY—!! AAH, YOUR IDEAS ARE ALWAYS WONDERFUL TO HEAR, SO I TRULY WISH I’D SEEN THEM SOONER!!

Aahh..!! I hope your day has been great as well, darling! And same goes for you, ‘hun! Make sure to take care, drink water, and know that I love you so very much!! *Hugs* <33 /p

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you... remember my name? that's so sweet 🥺 and yes, you can call me jen ♡♡ how is the break going, I saw that you're doing matchups! (I might send one in in a bit if you aren't over worked already!) and oh yeah, it's valentine's day i forgot it changed over to midnight already here hehe. any fun plans on your side? for me, in afraid not really haha. good to hear from you again, I was actually thinking of you earlier! ♡ - jen/tsun tsun nagito anon

Uwahh..!! Of course I remember! How could I forget the name of my beloved friend? 🥺 <3

My break’s been going surprisingly well! Aah, I’m glad I was able to have time to do the match-ups, hehe!

Also, I did get your match-up and, let me just say, I’m sO EXCITED TO DO YOURS!!

Like, I’m seriously so eager to see who you match with!! Uwaahh..! I hope the end result turns out to be alright, hehe!

But nope! No exciting plans either, hehe! Though talking with you is always so delightful, aaah!!

You were thinking of me—?! Gaahh, my heart is genuinely melting!! I love every moment we chat and any time you cross my mind, I get so happy!!

Much love to you, darling! You’re amazing!! 🥺 <3

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Hi love, I hope you had a good valentines day! I hope my asks haven't been eaten either, lmk if they have and ill fix it. Ilyyyyy -tsun tsun nagito anon

Waahh..!!

Hello, darling!! I hope you’ve had a wonderful Valentine’s Day as well!

Ah, they haven’t been eaten, thankfully! Sorry it took a bit to get to them, but I’ll answer them right now, hehe!

I love you too, dearie!! Muah! <3

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YES YES ID LOVE TOO!!

uuu it was so real i got so happy!! heheheh i scripted too.. saw kaede.. gave her cuddles.. girls <3

SHES SO PRETTY OH MY GOODNESS!! it isnt 2d or anything its like an ACTUAL HUMAN BEING, she had REAL FACIAL FEATURES AND REAL HAIR

i gave her lots of pets and i talked abt u and my gf heheheheh

she said you sounded wonderful btw!! -👀

THAT’S LITERALLY SO ADORABLE, WAHHH!!

REALISTIC..!! LIKE, REAL-LIFE KAEDE, AAHH!! I’M SO HAPPY THAT YOUR SHIFTING MADE YOU HAPPY!! IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU HAD TONS OF FUN!!

Hhh..!! Cuddles with Kaede, and with how realisitic she looked, gahh—!!

THAT SOUNDS LIKE SUCH A DELIGHT, I’M GENUINELY SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!

Uwahh..!! Lots of pets for Kaede..!! 🥺 <3

bUT AAH—! MY HEART IS LITERALLY A PUDDLE, AHEHWJD..!!

I’M HONESTLY SO HONORED THAT YOU EVEN MENTIONED ME, LIKE, LITERAL TEARS, AAHH 😭

This is literally the cutest shifting story I’ve ever heard, aah..!! I’m so happy you had such a great time last night and got to cuddle with Kaede, uwahh—!!

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hi i hope this isn’t annoying considering how many of these youve answered but tonglr has the tendency to eat my asks on this blog so i was wondering if you got my matchup event request..? if not that’s ok!! anyways thank u for doing this event in general ur very cool and swag - k

It’s not annoying at all, I promise, my love! But I did get it, and I’m so happy I did, wahhh!! I can’t wait to get started on it and find a match for ‘ya!

Aah..!! No, thank you for even participating! It means the world and more and I’m truly so excited to work on yours! You’re even cooler and I hope you know I adore you! Muah! <3