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6/26/23

Take notes

When everyone’s abandoned you

What do you do?

How do you think inside your head?

Will you ever get out of bed?

In my eyes the moon is red

Sidewalk cracked, forgot my meds

Why would i listen to you, if I don’t listen to myself?

I think I’m wise, I don’t need help.

just let me cry, sometimes the drugs help

The sun bleeds poison, feel like Buffy in the morning

Criss cross my intentions I’ll probably never finish mourning

watch the grass grow over me once I remember how to whore it

Tip toe through the tulips, looking for my lime-green forest

Passing days a wasted shame…. why even bother saying my name?

If you ever loved me….

I think the rain would

stop inside my brain and

tomorrow wouldn’t bury what’s left of my sane.

Yesterday was different,

today forget the pain but

lately it’s harder wanting to be here everyday.

Why have you made me feel like l can never come home?

Ok I’ll vocalize my feelings DO U HEAR ME FOR ONCE?

I’m your daughter, real big baller

u wanted an investment, pops they pay top dollar

Pops they eat at my feet

Play my cards honest, shoes never stink

I can really be a hustler without being a thief

Shame on your name, shame on me

I received crumbs and taught myself to eat

Oprah on the tele, textbook picture bellies

Don’t give it up if u don’t think you’re ready

Demand respect, act like a lady

Go to school get married and then make a baby

Accept neglect, believe im crazy

Take notes from my family deja vu when I’m 80

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1/16/20

it is hard to determine the overall plight of a seemingly kind-hearted series that is only seemingly kind-hearted when

you sketch yourself into an eyeball of blind vision guided by a misinterpreted idleness of words. the weariness rests inside your throat and you try-

you try to cough it up

but there are words that cant be said

please hear me in my seclusion

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Poem with a beat :)

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Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals

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mood tbh

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om3lette

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https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/xGKetTHmZMEwLFqB8

Song I made :)

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11/20/21

Hey

It’s been a minute. As of right now, I feel absolutely empty

That’s probably why I am able to write. For awhile, I have felt every single fiber of my anatomy flooding with extensive emotion that any human body is capable of pertaining in a massive gulf of waves over and

Over

And over

apathy

It has finally stopped.

To be numb is to feel nothing

But being an empath? I believe I am more than an empath. The feelings I feel are miserable. It never ends. I’m always going on emotion. This is no way to live. No way at all. I’d rather feel nothing. Do as I wish without concerns of those who might have my “best interest”. I am here to destroy. Cause chaos. Advocate for what I know I believe in, but am too pussy to speak up when i feel I feel I feel

I won’t feel

I have a purpose

and If I piss a few people off along

the way….

Not my business

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This is where I surrender

My deepest thoughts

Go in the blender.

At once writing my peace now to be a hold on every part of me

Wanting to word how I feel with every letter hoping it heals me

The only healing I receive turns to evil now I’m back wondering how I came to be

This empty space of me

Nothing

Between

The grass is never green

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Often people have said to

U R so pretty!

Maybe that’s true

Maybe not

There’s always that one I can’t have

So mysterious

I love that

I shouldn’t trust you

I don’t

Knowing I could never is what derives me

That’s when it gets fun

I’m sick

I will ruin myself trying to get the attention of those who won’t give it to me

I’m selfish

I want u to give me control

I don’t want to be controlled

I’m twisted

I will drain everything in me to prove my worth to them just because they allow it

If they didn’t I would walk all over them

Continuously belittle me

Make me question myself

All of U are birthing an artist

I like to chase

It’s so fun

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Meeting people is cool

U get to enrich your lives vicariously through the stories of others

Pretend u care

There are so many people

So many stories

Only one of me

How to not be an empath?

I feel my empathy stripping away

Being selfish doesn’t cause anything but loneliness

Caring for everyone but yourself is self destructive

There is no in between

How do I live



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How To Become a Myth

- Nikita Gill

1.

Fly into the sun, defy anyone who tells you that you cannot love Him.

The ocean will break your fall. even if it is by drowning you.

(You knew he would burn you, Icarus you simply thought he was worth the risk)

2.

Get stolen by a God away from the meadows you once knew, wood nymph.

Become Queen of the Underworld. Turn the land of the dead into home.

(You knew didn’t you, Kore? How to survive you would become Persephone?)

3.

Turn yourself into an echo of the person you used to be, then fall in love with him.

And when he doesn’t notice you Instead falls in love with himself, pine away.

(Narcissus could never love you, dear Echo. Not the way he loved himself.)

4.

Become an indestructible monster. Become the thing that warriors speak of in hushed breaths in terror.

When you finally do die at someone’s hands make sure it is glorious.

(Theseus was the only end worthy of you, Minotaur.)

5.

When the Sea God assaults you, turn people into stone. Turn Gods into stone.

Turn anything that threatens you ever again into stone.

(Medusa, Athena turned you monster to protect you. She took your beauty to give you power.)

6.

Adore her so much that the world grieves with your broken heart’s song.

Almost save her from the Underworld. Almost.

(Orpheus, all you had to do was not turn to look at her.)

7.

Marry a God King.

Watch him betray you over and over again. Become bitter and cruel.

Recognise he will never respect you. Promise to make him suffer till he does.

(Hera, I know why you couldn’t leave him, it was all for love, it was all for love)

8.

Become an undefeated warrior in a war where you lose everything you love.

Even the one you love most of all. Don’t realise it. Keep fighting.

(Achilles, Patroclus’ love would have made you immortal anyway.)

9.

Be unhappy in your marriage. Find a dangerous Prince who promises you a real love.

Run away with him

Do not think of the consequences.

(Helen, you didn’t just launch a thousand ships you set kingdoms ablaze.)

10.

Destroy everyone you love in a murderous rage.

Go on a journey hoping it will kill you

(Hercules tell the truth, you hoped those tasks would be your destruction didn’t you?)

Addendum:

Don’t become a myth. Stay human.

Stay mortal.

It is less wounds.

I promise. It is less wounds.

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1/16/20

it is hard to determine the overall plight of a seemingly kind-hearted series that is only seemingly kind-hearted when

you sketch yourself into an eyeball of blind vision guided by a misinterpreted idleness of words. the weariness rests inside your throat and you try-

you try to cough it up

but there are words that cant be said

please hear me in my seclusion

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Meditation has become a lot harder

Please can my brain turn off.

There are nights I sleep into the next

... and then nights like this

What the fuck is going on

Don’t talk to me I’ll fucking kill you