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do you think toby ever got inspiration from his fans

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Unreliable narrators are one hell of an idea. You can just write whatever, and if a reader points out "hey the way this scene happened should not be physically possible if it's done the way this character described it", you can just be like "yeah I don't trust that fucker either."

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AU where berdly's gaming knowledge allows him to instantly recognize what's going on with kris but no one listens cause he's annoying

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took the day off from work to let my knee recover and get my hair done.. it's finally over but like damn bro i'm STARVING and so fucking lightheaded i can't wait for my food to get here 😭

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Do you play any games nowadays?

mmh, aside from hyv games? yeah a few! i've talked about it a few times, but i'm currently on a div 2 splatoon team for my school, but i've been slacking on my practice due to work..

but there's also story-based games like jedi survivor and final fantasy 7 or others like animal crossing... oh and i've recently been obsessed with phoenix wright because i finished the original trilogy! i gotta buy the other games though; haven't gotten around to it yet.

most important game is splatoon, though. because i'm a competitive player with a very specific role, i'm not exactly an expert but i could talk about the game for AGES lmao

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...lmfao? just cause you said that, now i'm not doing it. who do you think i am? put a /j or something idk, but you ain't getting shit outta me now

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it's really hard for me to write about emotional readers sometimes because i tend to type the way i speak, and i have a very noticeable brooklyn accent 😭 and i don't mean that italian "aye i'm walkin' hea!" accent, i mean like 90s hip-hop type shit mixed with the words used by people my age.

i also put myself in the reader's shoes in order to make the responses a little more realistic, but i know damn well every reader doesn't respond to certain conversational prompts the way i do.

for example, if someone asks what's wrong, my sentences sometimes start out like: "yo son." (mind you, no one says "son" these days.)

or when someone is talking to me and asks me to elaborate on something i said, i could sometimes say: "nahh nah nah, cause like..." and the rest of the sentence continues from there.

like if you know pop smoke and what he sounds like on his tracks, i can say with confidence that we sound pretty similar. he's from a different part of brooklyn so our accents differ just a little, but like.. yeah. that's my accent.

the point i'm trying to make is that dialogue is so difficult for me to write. always has been.

i'll never forget when my twitter mutuals asked me to screen record myself saying some words to see if i had an accent and i was like "?? i don't have an accent?" because i code switch so frequently. plus, the only way you'll hear it is when i'm really passionate about something, around people who are close to me, or super angry. but after doing it, almost 50 people were like "you have a fucking accent 🙄" LMFKKSKD

there's also a hint of jamaican patois in everything i say. i can't speak it fluently anymore bc i haven't done it in such a long time, but other caribbeans notice me right away 😭

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hyperfixation please stay with me long enough to complete the project. hyperfixation do not fade. hyperfixation finish what you started for the love of god

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i think you're really cool! i've been following your blog(s) for a while now; i was a middle schooler when i first found kazewhara, and the blog really served as a comforting place for me during the pandemic. i was probably really insufferable back then, but i'm glad that i got to find your blog. you served as a really big inspiration for me in my writing journey (and still are). i'm super sorry if this came across as awkward, haha

- 🐛 anon

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"just write a little every day" ok but what if i write nothing for 3 weeks and then suddenly type like i’m being hunted by god

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god, i think i'm in the same place i was in 2021. functionally depressed as fuck. i don't like this at all. i want to change it but holy fuck, this is so hard. existing is so fucking hard.

i'm tired as fuck, sad as all hell, and my insecurity has reached a point where i'm isolating from everyone in my life. what the fuck is going on. ughhhh

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ANONYMOUSLY (OR NOT) TELL ME YOUR HONEST OPINION ABOUT ME. I CAN’T REPLY, JUST PUBLISH.

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thatbemeqq

video is mildly funny but this comment killed me

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getting a tattoo for my grandmother today 💕

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the bts comeback is so funny bc it wasn't on my bingo card despite me knowing full well it would happen. like i was a full-blown army when they all enlisted, i was active on armytwt when we were all like "how old will you be when they come back in 2025??"

i still remember thinking "omg i'm gonna be 23?? gross" and now i'm 23 years old, they're back, and i... do not care. which is jarring because bts took up a decent portion of my life up until 2021.

i went to citi field and metlife, planned to go to metlife again but got refunded bc of covid, stayed up for that 24 hour bangbangcon, waited for mots:7 at 4 am, etc. like i was IN IT... and now look at me 😭

i dunno if i'd go to a comeback concert. maybe.

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how do you do, fellow Creatives™