kowaindar0u

[kowaindar0u]

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I SIGNED MY JOB OFFERRRRR YEEEAAAA BOIIIIYEEEEE

start date was listed as july 2 aka next wednesday so ... no promises but i'd like to try and at least get some replies queued by then ....

aaaaaaaaaaaa i'm excited

somewhat disappointed that it's only part-time (at least to start) but tbh after not working for so long, and then working remotely before that, it's probably good to start with less hours anyway lol

[kowaindar0u]

what cycle do you keep repeating?

the ghost of you

You’ve learned how to disappear in plain sight. You avoid conflict. You numb out. You scroll, deflect, joke. You disconnect from your own feelings before anyone else can see them. It's not that you don't care — you just don't want to feel it all. Because once you do, what if it floods you? There’s a version of you that feels so distant now — more vibrant, more alive, maybe even more chaotic. You didn’t mean to lose them. You just kept choosing safety, and somewhere along the way, safety became silence.

tagged by @nxmelessfighter

tagging: u!

[kowaindar0u]

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GUESS WHAT BITCHESSSSSS

UR BOY GOT A JOB OFFERRRRRR

technically i don't have the job Yet because i have 2 interviews next Wednesday but essentially as soon as i contact them by the 27th i'm Golden HEEEHEHEHEE

I've been fucking jobless pretty much the whole time some of yall have known me lol

(also i think when i was active here the first time some years ago i was also unemployed lol)

BUT YAAAYYYYY

Fucking finally

[kowaindar0u]

[kowaindar0u]

i will apologize for being insufferable but i will not stop. you all know this.

[kowaindar0u]

Imagine a vampire OC but like he gets caught by vampire hunters in their bat form but like they're tiny and pathetic so then they can't even kill them because they're like oh God this creature is so kiwi shaped.

[kowaindar0u]

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we are indeed beings beholden to our fickle brains...

meaning i will be back to replies soon enough i just must wait for the drive to get those replies going again !

i am trying to be more active on my OW blog and a little on my general multimuse just because i can't seem to get things going there as easily (i know i have asks i've sent and replies i've done that haven't been answered WHICH OBV IS FINE) but since these are like early (or sometimes first) ic interactions i have no idea how i stand with these people adkfhsjfkd so it feels kinda stressful

anyway ... yeah !

idk why i'm making this post it's the same drill as usual adksjfjsjf i'll be slow for a while and then go ham and get shit done etc, but idk i like yammering and keeping updated 😔

[kowaindar0u]

(so many things i could submit for Saseki but here's one)

@kowaindar0u

Send “Naughty Wardrobe” along with an Outfit and My Muse will wear it, no matter what it is.

Ehek 👀

He feels a bit bare and thinks Sunao might've miscalculated in his choice of fabric lmao

[kowaindar0u]

mind if I come over and behave somewhat like a scared animal before I adjust

[kowaindar0u]

[kowaindar0u]

Send 🧠 + an intrusive thought for my muse to have, and they'll react to having it!

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[kowaindar0u]

DEAR  DIARY          .    .    .

[  *  ]      writing prompt      )         :           send a number  1 - 20  to take a closer look inside this characters mind and life.        /        below you will find a series of various prompts offering a look inside what would be diary    /    journal entries from different moments throughout their life;       the good,       the bad,      and the ugly        these are meant to invoke character development     &     can also be altered as seen fit to better suit the character in question.         

01.     the first entry they ever made. 02.     entry made on the best night of their life. 03.     entry made on the worst night of their life. 04.     entry made after experiencing a nightmare. 05.     entry made after experiencing heartbreak. 06.     entry made discussing travel they’ve done or hope to do. 07.     entry made featuring an important moment in their life. 08.     entry made featuring their day    /    night at work. 09.     entry made discussing their school day(s). 10.     entry made featuring mention of death. 11.     entry made discussing their fears and anxieties.  12.     entry made discussing their hopes and dreams. 13.     entry made featuring mention of (sender’s) muse.  14.     entry made featuring mention of their parents. 15.     entry made featuring desire. 16.     entry made featuring anger. 17.     entry made featuring joy. 18.     entry made featuring sadness. 18.     entry made featuring pain. 18.     entry made discussing a childhood memory. 19.     entry made talking about a simple    /   normal day. 20.     the last entry they ever made.

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every time there's a post for asking risque questions and a muse with a pp the immature teenage boy in me always wants to say "how big is it"

[kowaindar0u]

My muse will be accepting NSFW questions, and they HAVE to answer with 100% honesty!

[kowaindar0u]

Indeed, it doesn't take long for Yuichi to get tense, especially walking around the upper floors. On this difficulty, he's got to conserve his inventory space, his ammo, and his health. He's been walking around with the yellow 'caution' health signal for a while already, so he's not sure he can survive getting caught by Mr. X even once, and--

He gasps-- even though he knows the huge Tyrant in a trench coat shows up here, he's so stressed it still gets to him.

"Run! Fuck, Leon, run!" he hisses as he hauls ass away. He's frantically checking the map in between juking and, miraculously, makes it to the nearest safe room without further harm.

"Oh my god," he breathes finally, setting the controller down for the moment and clinging onto Saseki's arm, burying his face against his shoulder. Meanwhile, the heavy, rapid footsteps of Mr. X still sound at various intervals around the map. "I don't know if I'm gonna make it through this run. I might wind up probably the first vampire in history to die of a heart attack..."

He just boops his nose with a finger (covered in powdered sugar). "You'll be fine. I'm not going anywhere, now that I got my coffee and donut ❤️"

Saseki then notices that Yuichi has the skirt that Nagasone bought him last he went to Ginza. Gods he looks cute in them--but then his "horny lil shit" brain already starts racking as to what he can ask for his boyfriend in return. Any and all, huh...

--15 minutes later--

"Babe I'm having second-hand nerves just watching this what the hell, swear to god if Mr. X doesn't barge through that wall any time soon with all that noise I'm gonna--"

Cue Mr. X crashing through the room in perfect timing.

"--AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!"

[kowaindar0u]

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had to take my kitty to the vet and wound up waiting for like 4 hours 💀 finally home but man i am Exhausted