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Well….

Here I am thinking, “life can’t be THAT unfair, can it?” like really, can it? 

How can it take one of the most important person in my life, kill a friend and now give my grandfather cancer? in a matter of a two months?!

No ways it can do that, right? 

To take all my memories from Tahiti (which i’ll probably never go again) on my phone and just totally erase them..

Like it can’t do that? There has to be a slim chance of hope. 

Credit cards maxed out because i’m too careless with my money. Trying to cater to others because that’s just how i am. But then not get paid enough to pay it off…and the interest keeping rising. 

The school work keeps piling up, not stopping for whatever bullshit life has to throw at me.

life never stops, doesn’t even slow down. 

I’ve grown so numb to the bullshit yet i’m still thinking something good will happen because it can’t be THAT unfair, right? 

I was going to accomplish a few dreams this year..go travel, graduate, move. Wonderful wonderful things and I guess because of that, shit literally hits the fan. “Ha you think everything is going to be wonderful, watch this”

My mom is still at the hospital; she’s been there since 2:30pm…it’s 12:11am

She’s been with my grandpa, being there for his CT scan and such and finally figuring out what kind of cancer it is. They THINK it’s lung cancer. THINK. After a few weeks of “We’ll see on this date” “We’re waiting for this approval” 

Seeing this with him and my second dad it’s like they’re waiting for them to die. It’s easier right? Less work. More money in their pocket. How can they just let him suffer?! Pumping him with morphine that can't help the pain. His body is literally deteriorating in front of our eyes, he’s like a skeleton and they’re like “we have to wait for this” SERIOUSLY!? He can’t even stand to brush his teeth and you’re just going to wait on whatever treatment he needs. What the fuck is wrong with this world? This is so many levels of fucked up i can’t even comprehend. 

And like I said, life doesn’t stop.

People giving me shit left and right. Bridges being burned because i don’t have the patience or the strength to deal with anymore shit. This guy had the NERVE to tell me off about my ex “You just drop him like he doesn’t mean shit, i see how you are, heartless” wait….the person who's falling apart due to the immense amount of shit is heartless? Got it….fucking cunt. 

UPDATE: they don’t know if it’s cancer anymore.

What the fuck. I can’t even comprehend…they know something and they’re not speaking up. How can you take a million years of fucking school to not know the difference between an infection and cancer? You’re kidding me right? My aunty found her lump in her breast and told the doctors about it WHICH they denied that it was. She was right. They said it wasn’t anything, can you believe that? Kill um’, that’s what is literally what i think goes through some doctors heads. I’m getting so tired of them always planning something for the future like a scan or a test that happens next week or next month when a day is like literally killing a person. Every day is precious and so valuable but they treat it like it’s nothing. I don’t get it.

Life cant be THAT unfair…..really…can it? 

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2 boules, s'il vous plaît🍦 (at Lollipop)

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We are not islands in the sea, but a sea of islands. The ocean is not an obstacle but a highway to travel all throughout Oceania. We are the ocean, we are the sea🌊 (at Taha'a Haamene)

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First night in Moʻorea💙 (at Moorea Pearl Resort & Spa)

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Let the adventure begin.... (at Honolulu International Airport)

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OH HAI👋🏼 fellow Aquarians and Pisceans, dis our month🙌🏽💕 #januarywasatrialrun

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"he was healthy the whole time, all throughout my breast cancer, my treatments, chemo.. He was healthy and then less than a week after my last chemo he got sick and it was so fast" A man that kept together as much strength as he could so he could be strong for his suffering wife. You are so so so amazing! And I'm never going to forget you and your beautiful soul. #resteasy

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🎼 "I'm dreaming of a white Christmas"🎼 Shot taken outside my once upon a time home❄️💕💕💕 #bham #tbt (at Western Washington University)

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Hyatt Christmas Masquerade Ball💜 (at Grand Hyatt Kauai Resort & Spa)

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Happy thanksgiving everyone! There's so much to be grateful for. My life has never been perfect and I've gone through a lot as a younger adult BUT regardless of that chaos and mayhem, I found amazing friends, got close to family, taught by amazing teachers, and accepted the person I have become.. Thank you everyone who has touched my life for the better, and thanks for the "lessons" along the way. May you all find peace and happiness on this holiday✌🏼aloha wau iā kākou! #tbt #bellinghamleaves #happythanksgiving

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Happy 25th Birthday my once upon a time friend🎉🎂 • 📍SkyTower | Auckland, NZ Nov. 9th, 2013 (at Memory Lane)

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Happy Halloween Bitches 👻💀🎃 #1997

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reblog if u a lil ugly

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1. You must let the pain visit. 2. You must allow it to teach you 3. You must not allow it to overstay.

Ijeoma Umebinyuo, three routes to healing   (via davidmgallo)

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