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long haired boys🥺 (they definitely did this in the gallus quarters at one point. johan puts joshua's hair in space buns.)

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skorts 🤔

tell me im not the only one trying to figure out if this is a skirt or just flowy shorts or what (im settling with flowing pants for now)

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tell me my king why is your waist so snatched here

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[ID from ALT: A fullbody digital drawing of my OC, Millenium, standing in front of a mirror that is reflecting her form after her death, Mimi. Millenium's hands are clutched in front of her, insecure, her back turned to the camera. Mimi is posing with confidence, smirking with her arms up and hands pressed against the mirror's surface. Millenium has her blonde hair down, wearing a simple sweater and pleated skirt. Mimi is wearing a flashy outfit, with a dress that fades into a transparent skirt, a seethrough bodysuit underneath, and unattached sleeves. Her hair is pink and pulled into high twintails, with her short bangs dyed black. She's wearing cat ear headphones, with a cat tail peeking out from her skirt. The room reflected in the mirror behind Mimi is glitchy, while the room outside the mirror is dark and dreary. End ID]

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About Raligon...

What if I told you he's not gonna be a cleric? 👀

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I think paleolithic people would be delighted to learn that we to this day are still studying and researching the things they left behind. Not for any material benefit, we're just curious. They're people and we like snooping on other people just to know what they're up to. Imagine being able to contact one just for one conversation to ask them about their stuff.

"Hey yeah there's this cave that that got painted around the same time that your people were around the area, it's insanely cool but I just wanted to ask, what's the deal with all the horses? We love them and they're beautiful but we want to know the thought process behind them." "Yeah that was cousin Gabi, and we don't really know either. She doesn't talk, but damn if she isn't good at painting horses. We don't know why it's important, but she cannot be stopped." "Ah okay, understandable."

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W Vanessa with my heroes

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An aro meme for myself

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elf yuri except one of them is high fantasy and the other is one of santa's

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One thing that's vitally important to remember is that feeling ''weirded out'' is not a form of harm. It is a completely normal part of socializing. It is the feeling of encountering something unfamiliar. In order to be a kind person, you must learn to how to distinguish between "harmful" and "weird." And then you must accept the weird.

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obsessed with stories where you can never go home

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Criminal Psychology (犯罪心理) | Chang'er (长洱)

Links: Novelupdates | Kinky Translations

Tags: Drama, Mystery, Psychological, Romance, Yaoi

Chapters: 310

Read on: 12/13/2023-12/21/2023

This novel has left me with conflicting emotions. Its both fast and slow, hot and cold, shows the dark sides of society while supporting humanity's morality as a whole. While this novel has its flaws, its incredibly good at directing the reader's emotions. Its also incredibly heavy, and deals with highly sensitive topics.

This novel is not for everyone.

Lin Chen is embroiled in a set of overarching criminal plots when he is implicated in a serial murder case. Xing Conglian, the chief police officer in charge of the case, finds himself paying more attention to Lin Chen as the first case develops. He sees that the top four families in country seem to have it out for this young psychologist for unknown reasons, and his superiors are angry about Lin Chen's continued involvement. But they continue regardless.

Lin Chen and Xing Conglian slowly unravel an entire plot regarding the innate construction of the human mind, culminating in a tense situation involving millions of civilians. As those who are taking a stand continue to meet gristly ends, a dark web of connections forms. That's all I'll say about the plot for now.

Lin Chen is quite an interesting character. He's both mysterious and charming, ruthless towards himself and incredibly soft towards others. Most of my drive for reading this novel came from feeling his emotions with him- he's both rational and incredibly sympathetic towards those put in his care. He's determined to make decisions that hurt- and for good reasons. The growth he has through the novel feels organic. For a good portion of the novel I was quite concerned about his mental state, especially after things started culminating in the fourth and fifth arcs. A lot of foreshadowing of his mental state is shown even in earlier arcs, and despite the author admitting that the first few arcs were written as short stories the effort made to link things together didn't feel too odd to me personally. The ending does feel a bit rushed, but the author mentioned they were going to write another arc if their health hadn't failed them.

Xing Conglian is three things: a police officer, a retired secret military unit, and a rich heir. While having these three titles, he doesn't feel overbearing- he's very down to earth, but decisive and a capable leader. He's used to holding the sky up, has a tendency to control, but also knows himself well and is a capable leader. This reminds me to tell you that yes, this is a cop drama- I would day it isn't too bad honestly? But considering censorship, the police department is not thrown in a bad light despite things.

Also, their first sexual encounter together is.. weird. Its frantic and bordering on nonconsensual, Lin Chen is not in the right frame of mind, and literally no one was here was happy about it (me included). I'm deciding to ignore it, as the rest of the scene was quite good about the result of all of the little actions they were taking towards each other (and the translator had to go find the smut because it got censored), but man. Xing Conglian. I don't think that was the best time to fuck him.

This novel deals with criminal psychology and references many complicated and painful subjects. The author uses actual psychology and real papers as research references. This book was written in 2015-2016. The 'good guys' don't always win and those who need saving are not always saved.

I would recommend that if you want to read this book, to carefully go over the triggers and make sure you're in a good frame of mind before reading. Especially if you have trouble with depictions of suicide, or detailed depictions of rape, please keep yourself safe.

That being said, if you are in the mood for an interesting story full of twists and turns, give this novel a try. I quite liked it despite the few things I have issues with.

How was the translation? Good! I love Kinky and their translations because they go out of their way to make sure their readers get what is going on! They also translate Nian Zhong's novels and that alone makes them my beloved.

Would I recommend this novel? Yes, But again make sure you're okay with the content.

Would I reread this novel? No. The fourth arc alone means I'll probably never consider this novel for a reread. It was good, but its too heavy.

Trigger Warnings: Gore, Suicide, Major vehicle accidents, Drowning, Use of "retard" to indicate someone is braindead in one situation, MLM/Cult control tactics, Animal death, Graphic depictions of rape*, Victim blaming, Homophobia, Prostitution, Human trafficking**, Human experimentation**, Pharmecutical fraud, Child sexual assault, Epidemics

*Some of these depictions come directly from the mouth of the perpetrator while gloating about it, and the fourth arc in general is very! distressing! Please proceed with caution.

**Part of this novel references 2015 material about the Republic of Congo, and using the rainforests there as a backdrop for human trafficking, virus and drug development, etc. There are depictions of some of the tribes living in the rainforest itself, and some disparaging comments from side characters about religion and beliefs there.

Arc names and detailed trigger warnings under the cut:

1) One Sand (Oedipus Complex)

Gore, Suicide

2) Two-Way (Stockholme Syndrome)

Major vehicle/car accidents, Drowning

3) Three Graves (Collective Unconsciousness)

Suicide, Use of the word 'retarded' to equal braindead, MLM/Cult control tactics

With this arc I'm little sad at the depiction of how Tor works, as live broadcasting something like this would be impossible to do anonymously on a dark web browser. Especially in 2016.

4) Four Tones (Histronic/Antisocial Personality Disorder)

Gore, Animal death, Rape (And descriptions of, from the perpetrator), "False accusations of rape", Victim blaming, Car Accident, Suicide, Homophobia, Prostitution

Very fucking distressing. holy fucking shit

5) Five Floats (Introjection, Blind Arbiter)

Human trafficking and experimentation, animal testing, drugs, weird racial stuff, brief suicidal thoughts, Gore, Pharmecutical fraud, Child Sexual Assault, Suicide, Epidemics

Thank you all for once again supporting Mara Reviews~ I need to read something happy after this.

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Sendoff (送神) | Nian Zhong (年终)

Links: Novelupdates | Kinky Translations

Tags: Xuanhuan, Horror, Mystery, Romance, Yaoi

Chapters: 166

Read on: 01/31/2024 to 02/05/2024

A great milestone is set today! The first review for a Nian Zhong novel~ It is no joke when I say that Nian Zhong is currently my favourite author of all time, and I desperately hope they continue to write more novels in the future! This novel stands out quite a bit- despite the shorter length of the novel, it compares to Stray (another of Nian Zhong's) and may end up being my favourite of their novels...

Yin Ci is an immortal, and he desperately wants to die. For the last two hundred years he has been searching for the right method. Neither poison nor physical trauma can do him in, and even if burned to ashes his flesh regenerates.

Shi Jingzhi is mortal, and he desperately wants to live. His health has been poor since he was a child, and this may be his last year. He has set out into the world to find a way to extend his short life.

The Ghost Tomb, burial place for the notorious Yan Budu, has recently resurfaced in the world. Yan Budu was the a violent and cunning man, stealing many treasures to line his tomb. There are rumors that the Shirou, a substance that could be a devilish poison or divine medicine, was among the treasures placed in Yan Budu's tomb.

Yin Ci needs someone to help him mix into the Sects entering the Ghost Tomb, and Shi Jingzhi needs an extra body to form a Sect capable of entering as well. "Successfully" decieving each other, the new Sect Master Shi of the Kushan Sect and his head disciple Yin Ci set off for the Ghost Tomb to obtain the Shirou.

These two, who initially use the other for their convenience, end up with their lives becoming intertwined irreversably.

I absolutely adore this novel, from start to finish there is a ton of foreshadowing and readers are slowly fed clues to piece the plot together on their own. Once everything comes to light, its explained in full, but the! Slowly dawning horror of just how big this situation is, how every character is connected to each other, and the entanglement of Yin Ci and Shi Jingzhi versus the adversary they face is really compelling! Everything! Leads back to one! Thing!

I feel like even though Yin Ci dodges the 'every Nian Zhong MC gets grievously injured chapter one' curse, he ends up being the main character whose gone through the most pain out of all of them (and thats like. crazy by the way) 🥲 I really feel for Yin Ci and he's definitely a new favourite character of mine. Very compelling. I love how he slowly positions himself from the high and cold Demonic Lord Yin to being Shi Jingzhi's 'elder' to eventually completely softening his heart and becoming attached.

Shi Jingzhi is crazy, and I love him. He's scarily clever and manipulative, which makes him a perfect opponent for Yin Ci as they test each other out. Shi Jingzhi himself goes from treating Yin Ci as a beloved 'toy', to a cherished friend, to Yin Ci being the only person in the world that can be equal to his love.

Their duo together is the birth of a team who can scam everyone and anyone. They both deserve an award for their acting in a few cases... They're not afraid of showing others what they want to see so they can pull the wool over their eyes. And of course you can't forget the Nian Zhong special, 'You are a monster, but I love you regardless of your fears'.

The side characters! Are fully fleshed out and formed! A variety of people make up the supporting cast, and no one gets left behind. I particularly adore Shen Zhu, who acts innocently for most of the novel before fucking Getting You with how she resolves her issues. I had theee biggest smile on my face when towards the end where everything was falling into place and she had some extremely important parts. Yan Qing and Su Si's brotherhood is also really nice, and despite other's complaints I'm glad they weren't shuttled into a pairing and stayed good friends.

Go read the book!!! I feel like if I had read this one first instead of Stray, Sendoff may have been my #1 of Nian Zhong's novels.

How was the translation? Perfect. I'd trust Kinky with anything and everything. They also translated Criminal Psychology, their website is easy to access, and they've translated almost all of Nian Zhong's works. Kinky also goes out of the way to explain certain phrases and concepts that may confuse viewers, and wrote a summary of the plot that helps you to wrap your head around everything when it comes to light. There may be like.. one or two typos.

Would I recommend this novel? YES! Please go read it. The novel is shorter than Stray so it may be a better starting point to getting into Nian Zhong's works!!

Would I reread this novel? YES. A Nian Zhong novel marathon may become a yearly thing for me. Idk. I love them all and could reread them forever.

Trigger Warnings: Gore, Parasites (Insects), Past child abuse/alcoholism/domestic violence, Human sacrifice/experimentation, Child death, Self harm, Mentions of previous suicide attempts

Arc names and specific triggers under the cut, along with some random gushing:

1) Exploring the Ghost Tomb

Gore, Trypophobia, Parasitic insects

2) Hidden Village

Past alcoholism, Past child abuse, Gore, Human sacrifice, insects

gross

3) It's Cold at the Top

Gore

4) Insatiable Desire

Gore, Child death

5) Seeing a Gentleman

Gore

6) Seeing the Light of Day Again

Gore, Self harm

YIN CIIIII ;;;

7) Heaven and Earth are Impartial

Gore

Su Si o_o

8) Kushan With no Tree

Gore

AAAAA ok though the entire novel is absolutely stellar and I once again say. Nian Zhong is an author after my own heart. Yin Ci ends up being placed gently next to X*e Lian and Chu W*nning as characters whose arcs kill me!! to pieces!!! Same kind of character (positive) please give me more of them.

I do think I need to up what I put my own OC Era through.... it really pales in comparison 🥲 Need to continue to brainstorm.