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You’re responsible for your own development. You don’t have to wait until others forgive or validate you. You don’t have to hold yourself to an impossible standard to ‘prove’ that you’re a better person. All you have to do is decide that you are and back that up with actions, because what truly makes you a good person is the fact that you care about being one. Not others telling you that you are.

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Today was a slow day. Homemade meal, museum visit and a sweet treat back home ✨ I love rainy spring days

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2.8.25

hello hello!!! going back to my roots. been writing on my planner + journal a lot and had been consistent in studying this week so! i am happy for that and proud of myself. ortho rot is ending soon and i enjoyed it, tho i know it’s not for me (everything’s too heavy for me). an ortho resi yesterday in OPD almost diagnosed spinal fracture when really, it was just musculoskeletal strain. i had to question that and he eventually saw my point. but it’s okay, it’s all part of the process/training and they are more tired than us.

for today, i have duty!!! in the wards. thank God I don’t have to think so i can do my anki during my downtimes (or nap!). atm i’m working out, then will go around noon after our microbio lecture.

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Yo creo que estoy enfadada con el mundo porque logro entenderlo pero nadie me entiende a mi

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Failure.

Hello guys...

I didn't get accepted to any school, It harder than getting accepted into University. (I got in, but i dropped out for many reasons) I wanted to go to school, to become a lab technician....

I guess I will have to pay... It's 500 euros each month...

Im working this summer... I have 940 euros in my back account... Its my paycheck from July... they still have to give me more money.... and it's 6k euros each year.... I hope my job gives me the opportunity to work each weeknd so i can pay my school... if there's any place in the school that I suggested I will know it by september....I'm going to email every school this month (But they come back on september) so i won't get a reply by then...

It's really sad guys, i dont really have any hope at this point. I wanted to work all summer so I could save up for bts concert in 2026...but i have to save up for my school... I must find other ways to get money.... i wanna start selling art and doing comissions... but im not getting any improvement... since im not trying to be better, because all i do is work, eat, sleep, watch .... i hate my life.

Ill update you by the end of the month... I know no one is reading this...

I just wanna live on my own apartment with 2 cats and study all day... while working by selling my art... I don't want any richness or fame... just that...

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This life is hard, im tired of living. I try to, but everything around me is worst than my own thoughts...

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02/06/2024

June. life. Future.

After the last few months of struggling with myself and striving to learn material, studying to go to preparation classes that were 2 hours away, my body has asked me to stop. I've never felt this level of anxiety and stress, not even when I first appeared for exams last year, which was when I wanted to study architecture.

I entered the architecture but from the first day I was embraced by a feeling of anguish, loneliness and failure. I felt a failure to understand anything, to call for help and to feel that no one could answer, I ended up leaving it in December, I didn't feel completely complete with myself and I was going through a bad streak, I had been feeling this way since high school.

With the anguish in my chest and the anxiety in my hand, I left it, I left something with which I had worked so hard despite my difficulties.

It hurt so much because I had a goal when I finished architecture, maybe I took it back in a few years, I don't know. After I was struggling with what I wanted to study, I decided, but the admission grade was very high, I spent days with thousands of questions in my head, unable to answer any of them, or anyone who did it for me.

I'm fighting in the same place again, I don't know what I want to do with my life, I prepared for the entrance exams since April, May... we're in June, the last week I have to study, the same feelings that have been dragging along with me all these years have taken me where I am now.

That's why I've decided not to take the exams, even if I've worked very hard, it won't be worth doing them because I know I won't get into the race, as much as I want, as much as I try I won't get in. I feel a failure to know what to do with my life or to be able to reach my own expectations or those of others. My dreams are not about money or luxuries or materialistic things, they are about being able to help people, to make a better world with what little I can contribute myself.

Maybe fate chose this for me so I could get to a better place than it would have ended, this doesn't mean I'm going to stop my dreams, I'm going to take a little break and come back.

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Change

Long time no see!

Helloo~

It's been months since my last post, my summer wasn't that great, I got into my desired uni and grade (I didn't know what was coming ahead) In summer I spent July going into Korean classes, later I found a job and worked in untill September (when I started clases) Every free day I had I spent it playing videogames like Resident Evil or watching videos on youtube (and more) I don't have many friends, but its fine.

The first day of Uni was horrible, and then horrible untill December I decided to quit, because it was bringing me nothing good, I love architecture but...there were MANY problems for me: I had to take 4 hours by train everyday (not a big problem) but I used to study in the afternoons, and I ended up coming home untill 22...23...sometimes...midnight (the train used to delay a lot) That caused me extreme anxiety everyday... And I had to stay overnight to study or finishing projects or I would just go to sleep because of my tiredness, has been horrible to me. I used to do every drawing late, I would always skip classes when I had an exam around the corner, I never studied because I always was feeling too tired and my mind was telling me to stop, plus i cant do anything on the train because i had to finish projects that were more manual...

Besides that, I didnt understand anything from classes and always felt dummier than others (still do)

So after a night of wanting to finish like 10 homework drawings from classes I missed from drawing subject, I ended up crying at 3 am. I didnt want to live like this everyday for 5 years. This isn't the uni experience I wanted; tiredness, bad anxiety and not taking care of my body. I had a goal with that degree, but I still can make It without It!

So after going to my parents room at 3am crying, I told them that I didnt want to continue going there, they knew i had been feeling down for the lasts months, so they understood. I had a talk with my father the next morning, while crying...

The nexts days and weeks I ended up worrying to much about what I wanted to study. It took me months to decide.

I like; science, phsyics, art, videogames, universe, math, design, biology, political science, sociology I like to talk about issues around the world...

I was between law, law and political science, criminology, engineering aerospace, biomedical engineering and more.

I ended up choosing biomedical engineering, I saw a girl explaining her degree and making videos about It. I'd loved It.

But when I saw the scord of admission... My world fell down... It was 12.611/14. It was imposible for me to go in. Besides, they only admited 20 people on the degree.

But I didnt give up, I wanted to retake the exam admissions. I decided to retake them even if i had to have a 10 on every exam.

Bad idea...

I ended up pocrastinating untill 2 months before, I studied on April and May like 300 hours... Not enough...i payed 360€ for these classes of preparation...not enough... (im saving the material, so its not a waste)

But this week... It has been horrible, I couldnt even study more, my body was telling me to stop working, i have bad anxiety and I have been diagnosed with adhd. I wanted to do the exams, but for what? I know I wont get the perfect scores, and I have been having this stress and anxiety for nothing! Im going to do a degree of tech lab and biomedicine, its not a uni degree, but this way I can get to my desired uni, or even go to study abroad the degree I want! Its another opportunity to get myself together and make my dream come true, no Matter if I have 21 years old. I always wanted to study abroad and im going to make It, even if I failed twice this year.

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Well, this is it. The long-awaited Dragon Age 2 Character Page! (Origins) (Inquisition)

Thank you so much for the support, everyone! Remember to check out my theme blog, for more than just Dragon Age related codes! It’s quite a small collection now but it will grow. :)

Choose your Champion Character Page

Static Preview // Code

Features:

► Responsive icon tabs for five different characters, or alternatively if you have a lot of information for just one character, five different sections ► Responsive show/hide headings; add as many as you want ► Description boxes for lots of information, with unlimited scrolling ► Relationship table with rivalry, friendship, or neutrality to choose from ► Two options for images: Transparent or not (shown in example) ► Designed for ease of use; requires minimal formatting on your part ► Clear instructions (At least I tried to be clear) ► Made with my own work and in-game screenshots modified in Gimp

You are free to edit and change things however you want, as long as you keep the credit somewhere. Please reblog if you plan on using, or just like it!

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Alice edit because everything makes me think of her

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𝖢𝖺𝗇𝖺𝗅 𝗂𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝗇𝗈𝗐

𝖡𝗒 𝖠𝗇𝗀𝖾𝗅𝖺 𝖳𝖺𝗒𝗅𝗈𝗋

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【☆】 Coding Study Tips

Some study info + tips on cramming coding/programming concepts~!

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Hoy hace 7 años que llegué a Tumblr. 🥳

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✦ 26. 2. 24 ✦ 📓 ✦ Monday ✦

The most effective way to study for me personally, is writing everything in (full) sentences, so my notes get absurdly long. (This is all for my history exam tomorrow...)

🌱🌿🪴 - 4h 43min on Forest ♫₊˚.🎧 ▷▷ Homeboy - Xikers

Have a great day/night !! ~ ♦️

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How to learn: HTML | Resources ✨

Sunday 10th September 2023

I have come back with a new resource I've made! This time about how to learn HTML! I'm starting from the basics right now and working my way up of 'how to learn' info resources!😅

I've made a HTML resource in the past (one | two) but this one is a bit more detailed and has tips of how I studied HTML. I use HTML on the daily so though I would share my knowledge with more people. Again, just like my previous resource "Starting your coding journey", this is more targeted towards absolute beginners or for people who want to learn how to customise their Tumblr blog/Neocite! 👩🏾‍💻

Anyhoo, check it out and let me know what you think: LINK

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I made a beginner coding resource! 👩🏾‍💻💗

Hiya! 👩🏾‍💻💗

I made a coding infographic/slideshow for anyone getting into coding and are stuck! I'm seeing a lot of new codeblr blogs coming up recently and they're all beginners and I have been getting a lot of asks which basically all ask "I'm new to coding, how do I start?", so I decided to make this at 1am in the morning real quick! 🥲😭

I genuinely hope that this resource proves beneficial to someone out there. And remember, if you find yourself still facing challenges or need assistance with anything else, please don't hesitate to reach out. I'm here to help! ✨

Link to the PDF: LINK

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21th September

Hello guys!! long time no see, I have been working this Summer after my uni entrance exams they did go well, but I got frustrated (and still I am) because I have put my time, energy, effort even my money! To get the grades I wanted, but I guess that doesnt matter...

Anyways, I wanna update you that I got into the degree I wanted, i've already gone to uni during 2 weeks, it's a little bit hectic and exhausting because theres a lot of lectures to revise and study, because I didnt get to study maths or physics these two years.

By the way, I have to travel every day two hours for a total of five hour classes! im getting STRESSED(btw im writing this in the train) I arrive home between 22-23 and Im so tired that I dont want to study or do any homework. So that's why on weekend I have to study a lot or get all the job done!

Im trying to get a job on weekends! but its hard :(

Sometimes I feel like my brain is going to explote from all the things that happen to me, I dont know If Im very sensitive or something but I feel like spending my day around people makes me feel very exhausted, or I keep thinking the things I have to get done or should be doing.

This is my blog so its kinda like a diary for me! (Btw I didnt get to eat my fruit, because I didnt have time!) :( Dont be like me and eat whenever you can. I must organice my eating schedule, because I dont get to eat anything all day and my energy is low, and our brains need the energy from food to work better so we can study better and get good results!! Bye untill bext time. I have a lot of things to say.