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I might as well post it so my friend does not post it for me.

(人^▽')～ ☆お誕生日おめでとう☆ ～('▽^人)

Happy birthday, to me this 17th.

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Today seems to be day of deity having a very bad time. The winds very bad and very scary. It seem that case lot of places in recent time.

I wonder what is upsetting deity and if all okay.

Sometime you just have bad week and I hope it just deity having some bad luck.

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My finger is starting to recover a bit better so I am more comfortable typing and I’m still not quite sure how to go about this whole blog thing.

The tarot idea I liked but it was very quick to notice how it didn’t really feel natural to perform and didn’t flow with me. I don’t usually use cards like that and it at least taught me that isn’t the way I want to use them in the future.

That isn’t to say I have nothing to speak on today. I have been trying to get advice on how to work on journaling my beliefs and how to start finding words for them. I was told to just ramble and post whatever and over time learn way to simplify them and more directly speak them. But just start with whatever. Let my self naturally just write.

I still am no good at that but something did come up that does make me want to speak a bit on to try to explain my believes but it is so complicated and make me realise how much I do not match others that it is scary to talk about.

This image came up.

And many people I keep interacting with seem to follow similar believes of this image. I do not. I may not know words for what I do believe or how it work but I seem very good at pointing at thing and go ‘no’. 😄

It is very awkward with how often the astral plane alone comes up in places I hang around and look. It very awkward and uncomfortable. Especially with the oftenhood I’d be told to ‘try out’ their believes. To ‘give it a shot’ as if I do not have right to simply stay with my own and say no and be sure of myself. I must be wrong to be against it for self.

I know I jealous to not have easy nice graphic to explain my believes! Some day maybe if I keep trying. 😄 I am doing the ramble thing at least. May not be perfect but I am rambling really badly but ramble ramble.

I admit I need to ask my friend who know my tongue and this tongue to explain this image in more detail to help me explain why I am so certain ‘no’ it but from what I do understand astral plane put together many thing that do not belong together by my believes and that is main reason why I do not feel comfortable when push to believes it. ghost, dream, spirit, fantasy, not same plane not same location. Very different.

And physical ‘real world’ ‘reality’ that make it sound like all other realities people experience not real. not affect people. Just as real as any other. I am getting worse at speak English right. Probably should stop here. Trying think on how to talk making it harder to fake English. 😳

will ask friend to explain and try to talk out when have chance.

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On this day The dice has stated to draw two cards.

Page of Wands | Reverse Judgement

Tomorrow will come a chance for understanding. The knowledge that locked up yesterday may be able to be grabbed today. There is potential to find it if only you have the will to try but be warned, the will needed may be great to over come the trials to grab your key, but if you able to do it is completely possible to finally escape the cage keeping you from the truth.

Tomorrow is your chase to grow both consciously and subconsciously. Don’t miss it if you can.

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Time for the first day of my daily plan. Let us see how this goes. Edit: It will go very delayed because of a friend showing up by chance so I’ll be posting day one and day two both at once. (笑)

On this day The dice has stated to draw one card.

Reverse 09 Wands

The world will seem locked beyond a gate today. The truth, a key, being held just out of reach. 

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Right when I was doing the first tarot post before I had gone to bed my friend happened to show up to bother me so I did not get to finish that post as intended, but I did do some of it.

Once I have food I will post the delayed posted, but at least I did start it before bed as I intended.

Friends sometimes! 😂

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The Tower Gate of a Ruined Mountain Temple in Japan A mountain temple at the summit. The tower gate, which was built from the end of Edo-era to the beginning of the Meiji-era, left a beautiful wooden structure even though it collapsed.

Saho. @Urbex_34 wrote : 山の頂きにある山岳寺院。江戸末期から明治初め頃に建てられた楼門が、崩れながらも美しい木組を残していました (via Twitter: Saho. @Urbex_34)

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⌠𝒪𝓅𝒽𝒾𝓊𝒸𝒽𝓊𝓈 ❦ ⌡

Disclaimer: I am a self-taught beginner regarding astrology and houses and this is only consisting of my own personal evaluations and analysis(es) and information I have gathered up from multiple internet sources. Please do not repost my work, feedback is always appreciated!

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Origin → The constellation of Ophiuchus lies + reposes in the southern sky area and along the celestial equator; where it’s epithet symbolizies the “serpent bearer,” in ancient Greek mythology. Ophiuchus is auxiliary with the exemplar of Asclepius; the preeminent meder, or “healer,” in Greek philosophy.

This constellation is very prominent for it’s history and representation of a “serpent bearer,” or snake holder, which also aligns with it’s Latin origin and name “Serpentarius,”. Famously depicted as a male figure clasping onto a snake, or in multiple stories, multiple snakes, which is also heavily represented by Ophiuchus’s neighboring/bordering constellations, which is divided into two different parts.

𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐬 𝐂𝐚𝐩𝐮𝐭 » the snake’s head or forefront

𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐬 𝐂𝐚𝐮𝐝𝐚 » the snake’s tail or appendage

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I still am not quite sure how to do this type of blogging and what I will post but there is one thing I thought of doing that at least will help me start posting some things a bit more.

I am very new to tarot and oracle cards and though I am still waiting for the deck that was bought for me months ago as a gift to arrive; it would seem because of all the stuff happening in the world the paper factory shut down so there is a need to find new materials so it is questionable when I will ever get that deck; I did get a couple decks to pass the time until then.

Looking on tumblr there is a tread for daily tarot readings, and that was the sort of idea I had decided to sort of mimic to help me start posting more.

There will be some differences from the norm. I will not be doing single card readings for the day, that sort of energy does not connect to me. At least, that is not the default. I will also not be doing these at the start of the day. These will be done a few hours up to right before I go to sleep.

For the first bit I plan to roll a four-sided die to tell me how many cards to draw for that day. Four is a very important number for me and I also used to use dice as a form of divination before I got these decks so it mixes a little of my old with the new.

For the second, I feel like grabbing a card to describe the day to come to sleep on feels more inline with what I think could be more important or useful to me. I do not experience dreaming but what one does before they sleep can affect their ability to rest and how their day can begin. To have advice on how to go into the next day, which starts with your waking, thus your sleeping, it feels more beneficial. 

It at least feels like something more inline with something I could see as my own practice.

As an additive, I want to try drawing the cards instead of taking a photo as many others do. A small sketch not of the face of the card directly but a sketch of what it feels like it is saying maybe including some aspects of the face.

I am trying to improve my drawing and my comfort trying new things and I feel some times my art may be a bit part of my spirituality in an odd way as well. So adding them together like this I think can really help me. This is why I drew the picture in the vent. That is my personification I will be using here to represent me. To work out my emotions, my feelings, to better try to understand them and put them on paper and to try to see me in direct connection to some of what I do.

So this is my sort of silly goal here to try to make a small plan to attempt doing a daily blog. Though it still isn’t the most useful to what I intend for this place and what I hope to do in the future, but a step is a step. I will not be upset if the step is very small. It is forward and that is all that maters.

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Normal Horoscope:

Aries: Hold close to the world. Press it into your skin. We are the ink and rubber for a stamp that says "I love you, no matter what."

Taurus: You are an abscess on the sternum. A nervous wound. The only thing to do now is to be left alone, healing takes time.

Gemini: Can you find what you lack, only looking from the inside out? What are friends really for?

Cancer: How much of the world goes on in your absence? What soft things drift in your wake?

Leo: When all you are is a nail, the whole world feels like a hammer.

Virgo: The body adjusts to its burden. For better or worse we learn to carry what we hold.

Libra: There isn't a turn of phrase that can make this better, but we all process in different ways.

Scorpio: What if it was safe? What if it was all okay? Aim your expectations between the best and worst options, right for the center.

Ophiuchus: Remember! To accept help is not weakness! Pride is only useful to a point.

Sagittarius: Fear is the mind-killer, but it is also a perfectly natural part of being a human. If anything, the real mind-killer is time.

Capricorn: Self care is non-negotiable. For all the slings and arrows of fate, eventually you will have to brush your teeth or suffer the consequences.

Aquarius: There is little else to be done. These things require a soft touch and sometimes even simple presence is enough.

Pisces: Love should be done with reckless abandon, but careful investment.

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Kulika does not seem strong enough today to keep me safe.

Being in a situation where my culture and language abilities does not allow me to understand certain things that, it would see, are expected as normal as put me in a stressful situation in regards to this blogs whole concept and many other things in general that makes me fear attempts at self exploration and community.

Some how I “did wrong” when simply trying to explain what I said in a conversation that was taken in areas I did not want or intend. It seems to be a consistent issue when my beliefs come up or when I ask for advice. I am not sure what I am doing wrong. I do my best to copy the attitudes and flow of others to do my best English, but it does not often come out right based on the responses I get to my words.

I make jokes with emoji and get apologies or arguments.

I ask for advice about topic and get jokes and laughter or I get advice on something to the side of what I asked but not what I asked.

Do I just phrase things very badly? Do I just have very bad luck? I try very hard to fit in and to speak as best I can to act literate and able and speak as calmly and smooth as I can but in text and spoken English it does not seem to work out more times than it does. I can count the times it turned out as I hoped on one hand for it was only a couple.

The point is it drives me into great fear to attempt English community and English blogging in a platform of communication like tumblr if I have such a bad streak and even being the most polite and kind and playful can come off as rude, aggressive, or demeaning, what will it mean when I get even deeper in talking and trying to work with others on something as personal as spiritual beliefs and religion?

Do words have connotations I do not understand but no one tells me?? I don’t know.

I want nothing more than to create friendship, understand myself, find words to describe my experiences, to find ways to speak my beliefs so I can talk and share them and better understand them myself. To join in conversation with others on these topics that are important to me instead of always watching because I had no words to join with.

Right now instead all I have is fear I will do something wrong. Again and not know what I did.

A important part of feeling and recovery is admitting the stuff hurting you. Having it consume without washing it away with running water can just attract worse things. So I am trying to be honest about both good and bad in this journey, but the bad kept separate as to not return when looking back but so it can be released in the waves on the way through instead of sitting on me festering.

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Johan Egerkrans, Idun, 2017. In Norse Gods, trans. Susan Beard (B. Wahlströms, 2017).

“Idun guards the golden apples that give the gods eternal youth. She keeps them in a box, and there are always enough apples for all the Aesir.”

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NGC 6240 is a nearby ultraluminous infrared galaxy (ULIRG) in the constellation Ophiuchus. The galaxy is the remnant of a merger between two smaller galaxies. The collision between the two progenitors has resulted in a single larger galaxy with two distinct nuclei and a highly disturbed structure, including faint extensions and loops. At the centre of NGC 6240 there are two supermassive black holes spiraling closer and closer to one another. ESA/Hubble

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I am a different person to different people. Annoying to one. Talented to another. Quiet to a few. Unknown to a lot. But who am I, to me?

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