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will simply never get over this 

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pups being pups ♡ for @taehyungsjuicybooty (cr. dwellingsouls)

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I am Sailor Moon, the champion of justice!

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Omg. Him and V... need.to.chill.with.THIS.

pls have some mercy laksaks

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no words can explain how handsome and hot taehyung is

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sailor moon merchandise eternal watches

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daechwita mv x practice

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@filterjimins​ and @dnaez asked: 16. who do you think has the best smile? ↳ MIN YOONGI

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namjoon trying make taehyung laugh while he was shooting their vcr 😆

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usagi’s room

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BTS + lyrics that make me yearn (1/2) | [insp.]

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Tumblr hiatus, but I’m back.

Soooo, I haven’t been on tumblr IN AGES. I made this new tumblr account, mainly for spamming or posting things I like that I wouldn’t post on my other socials, for *reasons*...  basically, where my head will be clear, and my mental health is at ease. 

VENT: I’ve dealt with people in the past (probably 15+ years ago? elementary/middle school days) who were judgmental or made me feel bad for liking certain music (their mindset was in a way where basically "well I like this music and you can’t” type of thing, and/or it’s infringing on their idk... lifestyle?). But anyway... my mental health has been a continuous roller coaster for the past year, in short... it’s good for a little bit at a time, then just bad. My whole family got COVID in April of last year, with my mom getting the brunt of it all and having to be in the hospital for almost a month. We struggled financially, mentally, emotionally since then, feeling it more so in the financial aspect. My dad has been working on and off (as of right now, he hasn’t been working for a whole month), my mom is now retired, my hubby is only on-call and has been struggling to get a full-time position, and basically I am the only one working full-time at the moment so it’s been really hard for me to cope these days.

 Around end of August is when I started getting into BTS and also back into the K-pop scene. I had a K-pop phase in my last few years of high school (which only very few people know), but for some reason I just stopped listening to K-pop after I graduated, and for a very long time. This was around the time when my depression started getting to me really bad, and I just lost interest in a lot of things I used to like. At the time, I was still undiagnosed and I wouldn’t go get help until my anxiety kicked in and got really bad in my early 20′s. So basically, since August of last year --- BTS and just listening to K-pop in general has been getting me through daily life and keeping me sane. Watching BTS videos on youtube, their V Lives, and content on Weverse, and overall just listening to their music has been my escape when things are just way too overwhelming (sensory overload)... which has been basically almost every day. I even feel bad for my husband a lot of times (and this makes me feel really shitty) because I’d rather just listen or watch BTS videos after getting home from work, but as much as I want to interact with him and everyone else in my house, mentally I just haven’t been in a good place, and it’s so hard and frustrating for me since I really don’t have energy or interest to do anything else. But anyway... to get to the point, recently I got triggered by some comments that someone said (someone I was close to before) and it brought me back to what I went through in my elementary/middle school years... and it really bothered me to the point where I ended up breaking down to my husband. These were comments from someone (out of all people) who I thought would understand and be supportive and someone I could “fangirl” with (one comment claimed [either directed to me or my husband, wasn’t sure, but still affected me regardless] that they were made fun of for liking K-pop (by me or my husband [who has said he was messing/joking around with this person in the past; and also I’d know if I did... I don’t know, but why intentionally make fun of something that I liked too? I don’t get it?]), and who I knew struggles with mental illness as well. I understand that this person was building boundaries for their own mental well-being, but (for me) to be told that they’re going to mute my posts and to basically not talk to them about anything K-pop related because it’ll give them anxiety and K-pop is their safe place and they don’t want to end up hating something they’ve loved for years, was extremely hurtful. This was all done subliminally by the way via social media (I know this was directed to myself/husband because we had just been talking to this person about BTS). Honestly, this person could’ve just muted me and be done with it without posting about it. It’s not like I or my husband regularly talked to this person outside of social media anyway; we just thought of talking to this person because we knew this person loved K-pop and liked BTS. After this, in my head I was thinking... you don’t want to hate what you’ve loved for years because of people who “made fun” of you for it, but you’re going to “attack” someone else’s mental health and try to make them hate and question the very thing that’s been making them happy (coincidentally something they like as well) and keeping them sane and is basically their safe place as well. A person is allowed to feel certain emotions when things are said to them that “hurt” them, yes... but that’s not a pass to use it against someone YEARS later to hurt them -- especially because people grow and change. Things could’ve been handled a lot differently, but things happen for a reason I guess. As this caused a lot of distress for me, I ended up just unfollowing this person on all social media for my own mental well-being. THANKFULLY, I have two friends that I regularly fangirl with daily (one of them being my best friend from high school that I recently reconnected with), and IT HAS BEEN AWESOME to not have to worry about being judged or criticized with them... because after all, we’re adults now, so none of that childish stuff. This was longer than I intended, but I just needed to get things out of my system as I can’t talk to my husband about this because he doesn’t want to talk about this person... at all. I feel like I rambled and was all over the place, but yeah.

Anyway, I’ll mostly be posting or reblogging BTS / BLACKPINK / K-pop / and honestly whatever tickles my fancy :)

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I will never not post Jimin falling off chairs :’)

Mochi vs. Chairs

A thrilling saga! 🤭😅

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Cr twt - JJMOCHIJJ

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black swan (james corden) for @seoulphiles ♡