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robe off before 6am should be considered capital punishment not an average feature of a busy day

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why do people feel entitled to changing shit when they visit other people's homes. like dude you came in to use the bathroom why are you turning off my fans and moving shit

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hey guys when you run into the inevitable assholes dont forget that theres someone softer and kinder around the corner and even if you have to take a few turns and fake a few more you'll make it

anyway this is to say IMMEDIATELY after the subtly-syscourse discord i found a kind one that doesnt harass over endo neutrality

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I got banned lmao. mfs cant even try to have a conversation. its their way or no way. neutral isnt enough, mutual isnt enough, all isnt enough. they need them and only them

this is why i want to leave america, btw. just think ab it

might get kicked from a server for being endo neutral and im like. bruh. this isnt even a system server, or a discourse server. why is there an endo screening question and WHY is "i dont care" not good enough for you? do I have to be filled with rage in order to talk ab agere with other ppl? god damn

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sysmeds can't even comprehend endo plurality as a different human system expression than disordered plurality. like, WE ARE ALL SAYING THEY ARE NOT THE SAME!!! and if you bring up the word IFS, everyone LOSES their minds because "Singlets have nothing to do with this!". You dense motherfuckers!!! thats who you're truly angry! and you only fakeclaim because you side chair diagnose strangers!

we all want to be understood. we already cant understand ourselves easier. it is not impossible to be kind to something you cannot understand. how can you diagnosis someone you dont understand? you dont need to understand someone to respect them as ALIVE.

but we can learn. and we can collaborate. and we can grow. but there are multiple discussions contained within the big one and we are getting too caught up in our identity withing our specifics that we just lose our goddamn minds when anyone even SUGGESTS we could be related to the others. Its almost like...we are all biological homo sapiens. our biology will have motifs. plurality is a human motif. it has different expressions for different reasons. get the FUCK over yourselves

might get kicked from a server for being endo neutral and im like. bruh. this isnt even a system server, or a discourse server. why is there an endo screening question and WHY is "i dont care" not good enough for you? do I have to be filled with rage in order to talk ab agere with other ppl? god damn

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sys "i shouldnt have to be a professional on my disorder just to live but if youre not a professional on yours I'll fucking kill you" meds

might get kicked from a server for being endo neutral and im like. bruh. this isnt even a system server, or a discourse server. why is there an endo screening question and WHY is "i dont care" not good enough for you? do I have to be filled with rage in order to talk ab agere with other ppl? god damn

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might get kicked from a server for being endo neutral and im like. bruh. this isnt even a system server, or a discourse server. why is there an endo screening question and WHY is "i dont care" not good enough for you? do I have to be filled with rage in order to talk ab agere with other ppl? god damn

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this is so sweet 🥺🥺🥺

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not to start syscourse but my therapist says all humans are systems* but not all are disordered aka everyone has parts of them (subpersonalities) that surround their core Self (think: work self, protective self, social self, etc. ppl have different codes based off their internal system and external system at that current point in time) but some people have experienced extreme circumstances that created distance, pain, and dissonance between those parts themselves, and the Self (if the Self even continues to exist at that point imo)

also yes the IFS documents use "internal system" and "external system", the word "system" is not DID/OSDD exclusive, but the words DID/OSDD are :)). "system" defines a process of operations. DID/OSDD are disordered systems. simple as that! respect ur fellow living things, plz :))

*corrected word

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more people should be listening to green day rn

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my baby's first word is gonna be a pokemon

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thinking about my therapist as a teen telling me I was genderfluid

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sometimes i think life is one big Vault 11 and God is just waiting for us to pass the test but we're too afraid to stop killing eachother

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not a drag queen or king but a secret third thing (dragon)

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I think there's something wrong with my vessel, and I have a good team and an unrelated appointment soon so im not super worried about access to treatment, but its something I cant fix.

I can slap a brace on my knee, or my wrists, and use a cane on the bad days. I can take pain meds of all sorts. I can afford to lay in bed while working when my back is too bad to sit in a chair, despite the bed not being much better. but a mass pressing against my ribs from the inside? I cant do anything. i cant fix it. I can't tech support my way through this.

i hope this turns out to be nothing

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oh no bros I might have to start posting more alterhuman shit