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Natal T-Square: 5H Sagittarius Pluto opposite 11H Gemini Venus, squared by 2H Virgo Jupiter

Venus-Pluto Opposition

Venus: Relations, love, value, taste, money. How we seek to make ourselves & others happy. The Artist/Diplomat -- designs, charms, negotiates, brings people together with beauty & harmony.

in Gemini: Verbal, inquisitive, dual-minded, quick-witted, flighty. Communicative Multitasker -- talks to everyone, gathers ideas, juggles tasks easily.

in 11H: Community, social ideals, friendship, activism, technology.

-> 11H Gemini Venus: Gravitates towards community & friendship for happiness. Communicating with friends brings enjoyment. Has a lot of friends.

Pluto: Compulsion, obsession, crisis. The Villain -- shadow worker, destroyer & builder.

in Sagittarius: Philosophical, expansive, nomadic. Visionary Planner -- brings big ideas, high energy, motivates with belief.

in 5H: Romance, self-expression, performance, play, children

-> 5H Sag Pluto: A compulsive need/desire to express oneself, especially as a person with meaning. A (hidden) part of self begging to be released

Gemini-Sagittarius: Amorality vs Morality, Scattered pieces of info vs The full picture, Reason vs Intuition, Knowledge vs Wisdom

5H-11H: For yourself vs For the greater than self, What I want to do vs Group consensus, Stand out vs Fit in, Creation (5H) goes to Audience (11H) for validation

-> Interpretation: There is some part of the native in conflict with how they interact & harmonise with the outside world. A dilemma between being true to oneself, the good and the ugly alike, vs hiding such truth in order to fit in with friends. If the native chooses to please the wider community, the hidden part of self continue to be repressed. But if the truth about themselves is revealed, people might not love them.

The conflict might lie in the fact that the native feels their friends/community are too superficial and lacking in beliefs. The native themselves have a strong urge to identify with something higher, to engage in meaningful experiences and to be with a cause. The act of simply 'communicating' with friends doesn't seem to satisfy this need, as they are constantly searching for more.

5H Sagittarius Pluto says: "I need people to know who I am and what I stand for. Even more so, I need myself to know that. Deep down, I know I am more, I am higher. There is a part of me that threatens to wreak havoc if I don't acknowledge it. If such a truth isn't recognised, am I even living? I will never lie to myself, right? I will step into the light and demand the recognition I deserve."

11H Gemini Venus says: "You can't do that. Think about the connections you have, the friends you keep by your side. They don't know about the things you feel. How do you guarantee they would stay? Connections and community are important, to risk them would be foolish. It's not that hard to continue the conversation anyway. You're good at it. You can do it. Don't act like you don't enjoy talking to your friends. Don't give in to those selfish temptations."

2H Virgo Jupiter

Jupiter: Beliefs, growth, expansion, vision, confidence. The Explorer -- life coach, widom-seeker.

in Virgo: Detail-oriented, analytical, dutiful, improvement-focused. Meticulous Planner -- precise, efficient, perfectionist, overthinking

in 2H: Values, resources, possessions, earning, self-esteem, self-worth

-> 2H Virgo Jupiter: Overcritical of self-worth or deriving self-worth through service. The belief that value is in things being done properly, practically, perfectly.

When square 11H Gemini Venus, native has the tendency to earn money in order to receive group validation, or spend (excessive) money on friends for recognition. A sense of self derived from being associated with service is native's safety net when interacting with people. Since the square aspect isn't as flowing as the trine, even though both planets are benefics, the meaning takes on a 'trying' feel. The tension between them requires effort and sometimes, too much effort (debilitated Jupiter).

When square 5H Sagittarius Pluto, the practical side of Virgo is highlighted as the tension lies between what the self believes is valuable: usefulness, efficiency vs what the self desires: to experience and explore to their hearts content. 2H Virgo criticises and hinders Pluto's progress in expressing itself. Pluto could also 'act up' in ways that throw off Jupiter, who feels the safest in the security it already knows.

In the T-square, Jupiter as the vertex shoulders the most stress. In order to balance the hidden truth of self and the need to fit in with community, 2H Jupiter tries to make money and spend money. It tries to 'help' 5H Pluto by earning a lot of money, so that the native can feel okay with themselves and temporarily soothe the compulsive urge to probe deeper. It tries to 'serve' the community by pouring energy and money into friends, hoping that would keep them around a bit longer, distracting them from the possibility of a dark, hidden self.

2H Virgo Jupiter says: "I just want to hold it all together. If I keep everything running smoothly—if I’m useful, responsible, needed—then maybe I don’t have to choose between truth and connection. Maybe I can earn enough, do enough, be enough to keep both sides satisfied. I know I overcompensate. I know I pour myself into effort and perfection, trying to soothe what's not so easily soothed. But what else can I do? Let chaos reign? Let people leave? I can’t afford to lose control, not when everything I value is built on being reliable. I’m trying to hold the line—but I’m starting to wonder who I’m doing it for.”