ladywore - Tumblr blog

[ladywore]

Look, I’m in A Soo Mood, so...hit that heart for a starter?

[ladywore]

wndflower· // baek ah :

❝I  LIKE  HER❞  repeated  words  and  he  nodded  again.  His  hair  no  longer  well  groomed  but  messy  &  strands  of  black  fell  into  his  face  while  he  held  onto  his  cup.  Still  full  but  did  he  want  to  keep  DRINKING ?  yes.  Cup  was  raised  again  while  she  talked  &  he  let  out  a  quiet  hiss,  it  still  was  BURNING.  ❝she  wanted  to  stab  my  father❞  again,  he  REPEATED  himself.  ❝she  got  me …  and  she  apologised  but …  EVERYONE  knows  who  she  wanted  to  kill …. hmh❞  cup  was  lowered  &  Baek  Ah  felt  the  need  to  lay  down,  slowly  but  surely,  it  was  getting  to  his  head.  He  wanted  to  lean  back,  realised  that  he  was  sitting  on  a  STOOL  &  just  barely  managed  to  keep  his  balance.  ❝aish …  really ?  I  am  not  so  sure❞  now  he  shook  his  head.  ❝the  ALCOHOL  is  speaking  through  you,  Soo …❞    

「 ❀ 」“THERE YOU GO - ” Tosses back her own cup before she can SPILL any more of it - holds on to the edge of the table in a lousy attempt to stay vertical, already tilting forward, swaying slightly  - “That’s all you need and damn everything else!” It’s fairly UNREASONABLE to call it treason, she thinks blearily through the haze of the alcohol - after all, the king hadn’t died, and aside from a particularly nasty scar nothing was wrong with Baek-ah either, if how much he drank was any indication - “It could be a SECRET - ” Mumbles, tossing back another cup - “Ah, a secret forbidden romance, it’s like I really am living in a drama now - ” Grimaces at the burn of the alcohol - she’ll probably start feeling that one too, soon enough. It’s much stronger than a pleasant buzz now - “Being in love doesn’t require COMPLICATED POLITICS.”

[ladywore]

「 ❀ 」” - DON’T say that. Don’t say that like you’re - ” Running out of time. Cuts off abruptly, biting lip - sets pot on table with more force than strictly necessary, leaving a ring of water glistening on fine, dark wood. Pain blooms in her chest, dark and dull. She knows he doesn’t trust So - knows that the brothers have not and perhaps will never be reconciled in this lifetime, knows that he only WORRIES. That she had accepted - as long as she trusts So, it doesn’t matter what the rest of the world thought - and she doesn’t want to fight with Yo, not when she knows more than anyone that there’s so little time left. 

It’s a reality she doesn’t want to face yet. The startling and terrifying knowledge that he’ll be GONE, a second time. 

Inhales slowly, willing her hands to steady as she turns to look at him. Smile stretched taut across face, she tries for something like teasing  - “If I ever get tired of your antics, I’ll ask you for a decree MYSELF, alright?” 

        Continued from here [ x ] with @ladywore

        Even if she hated him or found displeasure in his actions, Yo cared not. This was the only person he did not care if they hated him or loved him, so as long as he could keep Soo safe. He did not trust his younger brother, the one she currently stayed with, whose heart Yo questioned what love he held for her. He had tried for Soo’s sake to believe So would treat her well, would cause her no harm. But So’s demeanor could not be trusted, and Yo was certain their youngest brother felt the same way. Hence why he chose to give Jung a decree just as he desired so that he may marry Soo at any time. 

        And So would hate him for it, but So had also become a lost cause. 

        “I will do with my energy as I please,” Yo replied with a look of certainty at her, a pain inside his chest both physical and emotional. “All you must do is let Jung know when you want out of here. And he will do it as fast as he can.” 

[ladywore]

rp sentence starters taken from  r.h. sin’s  work  ,  planting gardens in graves 

“ i find comfort beneath the stars ” “ i am free from you ” “ loneliness was the reason i held onto you ” “ you felt like home ” “ all you ever gave them was a town filled with misery ” “ my best relationship was with myself ” “ when people let me down all i had was me ” “ fall in love with my soul first ” “ they’ll always request your trust while betraying you ” “ you are not difficult to love ” “ what is there to love about a person who doesn’t love you ” “ losing you was not a loss ” “ i think i’m better now ” “ all the things that make you happy are either harmful or temporary ” “ they left you when you needed them the most ” “ fuck this idea that you need them ” “ you deserve so much more than what you’ve had ” “ i wear my sadness beneath my smile ” “ i’m not trying to pretend to be happy ” “ i’m just trying to remain strong ” “ all those second chances but everything remained the same ” “ you failed to walk away ” “ i’m way too observant to be fooled ” “ i notice and discover things yet i say nothing ” “ you were my favorite vice ” “ i had to bury you with the rest of my bad habits ” “ you were no longer deserving of my effort ” “ i don’t believe that and neither should you ” “ remember all the things you’ve survived ” “ find your peace and protect it ” “ sometimes you have to choose yourself ” “ people leave too soon ” “ i guess we should bury them deeper this time ” “ you’ve always had value ” “ i was always fighting but no one fought for me ” “ you’ve been searching for peace in chaotic souls ” “ at first the loneliness stings ” “ there’s no reward for coming in second ” “ i no longer desire to watch from the sidelines ” “ the fear of being abandoned keeps us unhappy and alone ” “ i thought i deserved to be unhappy ” “ the worst feeling is not knowing what you’re feeling ” “ i fell in love with your potential ” “ my tolerance for bullshit seems to diminish with age ” “ life appears differently the more you live it ” “ all i’ve ever known is hate ” “ i left myself behind to search for you ” “ my anger is a mask that hides my pain ” “ your lies were so loud ” “ beware of devils who tell lies in an honest tone ” “ my father didn’t raise me ” “ you are just like your mother ” “ your insecurities are not burdens ” “ lonely people do lonely things ” “ my father was the first person to break my heart ” “ you are no one’s instrument ” “ be careful who you make your memories with ” “ they’ll do anything to destroy your peace ” “ i found salvation last night ” “ the truth is i’m drowning in silence ” “ i remember falling ” “ someone taught you to associate anger with passion ” “ what leaves doesn’t deserve to be kept ”

[ladywore]

「 ❀ 」 “Because YOU  -  ” Gestures vaguely at him with raised cup, drops of clear alcohol tipping over rim and spilling onto back of hand. She frowns for a moment, lamenting the mess - ah, she’s definitely had TOO MUCH - but plunges on regardless, words sticking together. “ - like HER - and how do you know she doesn’t like you anyway? Like you said, she didn’t want to stab YOU - ” Ah, but that would in fact make it treason, wouldn’t it? Soo frowns, suddenly realizing she’s talking herself in CIRCLES - waves it away quickly, downing her drink - “The point is - you should give it a shot if you think you’re going to regret it.”

❝SHE  STABBED  ME❞  confirmation  to  the  words  she  spoke,  head  nodding  and  god …  it  made  his  head  SPIN !  they  had  a  little  too  much  to  drink  but  they  were  still  good  to  go,  right ?  at  this  point,  he  didn’t  see  her  twice  yet,  he  still  could  handle  one  or  two  drinks.  ❝but  she  WANTED  to  stab  the  king -  so …  THAT  IS  TREASON❞  drink  was  raised  &  downed  quickly  with  his  face  scrunching  up  at  the  taste.  Alcohol  was  not  delicious  but  it  made  him  FORGET.  ❝she  does  not  like  me,  why  should  I  go  after  her ?❞

@ladywore​ continued ! 

[ladywore]

  ❛  any love i find will be treason  ❜ (from baek ah)

「 ❀ 」”Well, if it’s going to be treason ANYWAY you may as well go after her - ” Pink diffuses soft like watercolor, feathering across warm cheeks - girl leans face into hands, unable to stay upright in a TILTING WORLD. Arm heavy and loose as she reaches clumsily across to poke at her friend. “ - I mean, what did Woohee do anyway? - she stabbed YOU, not the King - ” Words tumble from rose petal lips curled in mild disgust - what she speaks is treason, but with wine hot and sweet like dragon fire on her breath she cares LITTLE what she says - clicks tongue, shakes dark head sloppily. “Tch - it’s not your fault your father’s her MORTAL ENEMY.”  

@wndflower / not here (poetry)

[ladywore]

❛ he looks like he will keep you safe ❜ (Yo is the second lead alt, about Jung)

「 ❀ 」FREEZES, unnaturally stuck to where she stands. On the tip of her tongue is exasperated frustration, shouting I don’t need anyone to keep me safe and for the love of god, think of yourself first. But her throat tightens painfully, deep ache tugging at the corners of heart - -  ah, still, still he must think of her - and she bites it back, she bites it back and inhales. BLINKS away blossoming tears, barely detectable tremor in voice. “ - You shouldn’t overextend yourself, Your Majesty.” They are neither of them NAIVE enough to believe anyone in the world can protect them except THEMSELVES. Hands still as she pours tea, the smell of herbs permeating the room - “Don’t waste energy worrying about me. I’ll be FINE.” 

@a-mighty-thunder​ / not here (poetry)

[ladywore]

starters  /  prompts taken from hieu minh nguyen’s work ,  not here .  feel free to change pronouns  /  tenses as necessary .

  ❛  it seems important to mention all the things that went wrong  ❜

  ❛  don’t ask if i’m a ghost  ❜

  ❛  i fled and did not return  ❜

  ❛  i cannot love you  ,  if i love you  ,  i will die  ❜

  ❛  for years i chose death  ❜

  ❛  i belong to my mother’s fear  ❜

  ❛  what do you do with tenderness when all you expect is fury ?  ❜

  ❛  he looks like he will keep you safe  ❜

  ❛  any love i find will be treason  ❜

  ❛  why did you bring me here ?  ❜

  ❛  i count the hornets that escape their mouths  ❜

  ❛  i only ask for your laughter  ❜

  ❛  look at me in the old way in this new light  ❜

  ❛  sometimes i wake up and my body does not follow  ❜

  ❛  it wasn’t the same without you  ❜

  ❛  i’m still trying to figure out what it means to stay  ❜

  ❛  it’s all very predictable  ❜

  ❛  how can i love something that isn’t ruined ?  ❜

  ❛  like all agony  ,  there are pleasant moments  ❜

  ❛  i want to be better at lying  ❜

  ❛  i’m afraid if i say it out loud i will cast a curse  ❜

  ❛  some men don’t know they’re hungry until they eat  ❜

  ❛  some spells take years to cast  ❜

  ❛  there are rules you have to follow if you want to survive  ❜

  ❛  i know you’re not supposed to smile back  ❜

  ❛  madness  ,  too  ,  can be cumulative  ❜

  ❛  trying to forget is not the same as leaving  ❜

  ❛  i really should get a sense of humor  ❜

  ❛  i understand no one  ❜

  ❛  i cannot stop him from disappearing  ❜

  ❛  her body was a dress i hung for motivation  ❜

  ❛  you were once and perhaps continue to be the myth you tell to scare yourself  ❜

  ❛  there are countless ways to justify company  ❜

  ❛  you are predictable in your longing  ❜

  ❛  i don’t want to explain a thing  ❜

  ❛  i knew if i just asked him to leave he would have  ❜

  ❛  there are countless ways to open a carcass  ❜

  ❛  all i’ve ever wanted to be was useful  ❜

  ❛  there’s still time to be saved  ❜

  ❛  shut up  ;  i know the story  ,  or at least the lesson  ❜

  ❛  you wont find it  ;  you won’t find whatever you’re looking for  ❜

  ❛  i could get away with being clumsy with knives  ❜

  ❛  i want to study the mechanics of leaving  ❜

  ❛  any adjective can be true if you cry hard enough  ❜

  ❛  i see little futures in the distance but none belong  ❜

  ❛  i am beginning to forget what i expect from the world i always knew  ❜

  ❛  you can’t think of regret as a town you move too when grief snores too loud  ❜

  ❛  in death we belong to everyone  ❜

  ❛  i want to return to my old body  ❜

  ❛  i think the life i want is the life i have  ,  but how can i be sure ?  ❜

[ladywore]

You are not ALONE   .                     NO ONE is alone   .

follows back from @storyblcd

[ladywore]

Extraordinary You + Trumpet Creeper

↳ Eun Dan-oh & Ha-ru

[ladywore]

‘What do you fear, lady?’ he asked. 'A cage,’ she said.

The Return of the King J.R.R. Tolkien (via theemperorshand)

[ladywore]

tag drop !