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some of my favourite dps shots...

(refraining from making a "shot" joke...)

they're all so beautiful 😭😭

there's so many more but I'll leave it there - feel free to reblog with your favs!!!

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I noticed something in dps

in film class last year they taught us that when shooting dialogue you show connections by putting the back of someone in the shot or smth i don’t really remember BUT

in the “I’m trapped” scene when Neil is telling Mr Keating about how his dad won’t let him act it shows Mr K, therefore showing that Neil feels like Mr Keating really understands

but right after Me Keating says that Neil should tell his father it no longer shows them together in the shot because Neil feels alone again, because he realizes that Mr K doesn’t fully understand his plight

so now I’m crying

thank you for coming to my Ted talk

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Never getting over when Keating says "every one of us will turn cold and die" and not only does it pan to Neil but istg you can see him getting akward cus he's definitely been suicidal for a while

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it genuinely makes me so uncomfortable the first time i watched dps i paused it and just silently screamed at knox bc WHAT IS HE DOINGGG

i have a confession. every time i rewatch DPS i skip the knox and chris scenes #speakingmytruth

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todd anderson when i don't know you

neil perry when i know you won't judge me

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we don't talk enough about cameron's first real scene, where he talks to neil outside his dorm before todd arrives. in case anyone doesn't know what i'm referring to, here's the dialogue from the scene:

Cameron: Hey, Neil, study group tonight?

Neil: Yeah, sure.

Cameron: Business as usual, huh? [turns to leave, then] Hey, I heard you got the new kid. Looks like a stiff. [laughs at his own joke] [Todd enters] Oops. [Cameron leaves]

so let's talk about it!!

cameron opens with the study group question. this is pretty straightforward to me-he knows he's none of the poets' favorite, and certainly not charlie's. neil is his foremost supporter, pretty much the only one who sticks up for him, so this makes sense. he's checking with neil, his 'in' to the group, to make sure he can hang with these guys. he wants to be part of their circle so badly, and that's pretty clear from the get-go.

and then he hits us with this whole "stiff" business. this is a major thing i've seen people use to justify their hate of cameron and i really struggle with that.

because, well...this is SO undeniably awkward. neil tells todd just a moment later not to mind cameron because he was "born with his foot in his mouth." so off the bat, that's not something you say about someone who's consistently rude or who you don't like. that's neil sticking up for cameron. he's saying, sorry todd, he means well, or at least, he doesn't have any ill intentions. cameron's just not got the best grasp of social cues, that's how he is. this is a pretty valid explanation in and of itself, but if you'll walk with me a little further, i've got a deeper theory about why cameron makes this comment.

more than just it being awkward, this casual friendliness, haha, new kid, a mild insult said with much bravado...this isn't really cameron as we see him for the rest of the movie. though he does remain relatively awkward, it doesn't really match his character of being cautious and trying to not stand out, to fit into the group (as we see in his first line). so how to explain this action (because i don't believe the explanation is just: cameron is being an asshole/being awkward)?

to me? this is what cameron thought charlie would say. isn't that almost exactly how charlie always talks about cameron, after all? for a great example, see later in the same scene:

Charlie, about Cameron: What's his specialty, bootlicking?

so maybe cameron believes that this is how friends treat each other. or at least, how they talk about other people to entertain their friends. charlie, while not a stellar student and clearly not liked by the administration, is the class clown, which makes him popular with students at welton. thus, cameron is probably jealous of charlie. he probably wishes he was more like charlie-confident, funny, well-liked, etc. and again, he clearly wants to be friends with neil, and part of their larger group, very, very badly. all of this to say:

i don't think cameron meant what he said about todd.

he's trying to get a laugh out of neil. so what does he do? he does what he thinks charlie-neil's funny best friend-would do. it's not a nice thing to say, but to me, it really just reads as someone who is trying to guess what the appropriate, funny thing to say in a situation is, but doesn't actually know. cameron might not have even really thought the 'stiff' joke was funny. but he thought neil would find it funny, which is really the whole point. cameron is, at the most fundamental level, an unpopular kid who wishes he was well-liked, and is fumbling around blindly trying to find his way there.

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this is just testing the waters, it's not going to be completely canon adherent buttttt it will follow canon events closely

here are the name changes (i spent an awful amount of time trying to figure something out for todd, it was terrible)

i attempted to try and keep them the same just in their feminine forms, or even just along the lines of the same meaning. (failed miserably) if you have any better ideas, and i'm sure you do please suggest them to me i beg, because geraldine and richelle do not sit right with me.

Neil -> Nielina (nay-lee-nah) Perry

Todd -> Odette (Dottie) Anderson

Charlie -> Charlotte (Charlie) Dalton

Knox -> Knox (Knoxious) Overstreet

Richard -> Richelle (most still call her Cameron) Cameron

Steven - > Stephanie (Stevie or Meeksie) Meeks

Gerard -> Geraldine (most still call her Pitts or Pittsie)

and heres a small snippet of the first chapter

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Odette swallowed down a flinch as the headmaster – Mr Nolan, she corrected herself, for she knew if she didn’t remember his name now she never would – rapped sharply on the lectern, followed immediately by piercing screeches of bagpipes. For what seemed like the tenth time that day Odette had to bite back an exasperated sigh.

It’s not that she didn’t want to be here, it’s that she didn’t want to be pressed against her stepfather for any longer than she had to – and she’s sure this school didn’t need all these theatrics to prove it’s a prestigious school. Odette brushed her fingers against the back of her hand, her teeth snagging on her bottom lip as she watched a well-rehearsed line of students and esteemed alumni file through the crowd. A few of the students carried large banners brandished with what she assumed to be the school’s values, which towered over their heads, looking more like comically large shields than a sign of prestige – but alas, Odette wasn’t the headmaster. 

Her eyes flicked down to escape the commotion for a few seconds before lifting her gaze back up, and then thoroughly wishing she had allowed her mind to wander instead of being respectful, for bright, sunny blue eyes had met her own and had rendered her practically motionless. Which is silly, considering that she’s just a girl who, coincidentally happened to be looking in her direction at the same time she was. But it wasn’t all that silly, actually, because this girl didn’t look away. 

Odette blinked once, twice, the sound of the bagpipes dampening as she became increasingly aware of the heat rising in her cheeks because she still hadn’t looked away, and Odette could make out the perfect part in the girl’s hair that was tied back in a loose, yet presentable braid, and the faint splash of freckles that adorned the skin around the bridge of her nose, and – Odette’s attention was torn away from a sharp nudge from her stepfather, and she realised with a pit in her stomach that half of the crowd were standing and reciting something. She stood up hastily, brushing her blazer down – which stuck out like a sore thumb compared to the uniformed girls, and remained standing awkwardly in silence until most people had begun to sit down again.

Scratch that, she didn’t want to be here.

Odette’s never been much of an extrovert. If the off chance came along that she was in a social situation, she preferred to sit on the outskirts and observe. She liked it that way. Everyone else liked it that way, too. If she’s quiet, who’s to protect her when someone takes advantage of that?

If there’s one thing about Odette that was unconditional, it would be how much she hated being perceived. If there were two things about Odette that were unconditional, they would be how much she hated being perceived and how much she hated that ache in her heart that scraped against the walls of her chest, begging – longing to be seen. 

Headmaster Nolan had begun speaking. Odette’s not sure when, but the crowd occasionally erupted into rushed applause, cutting through the harsh fog clouding her mind. It didn’t stop it from returning, though.

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how are we feeling about a genderbent anderperry + DPS fic??