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[lapandapoems]

[lapandapoems]

Why can’t you love me?

Was it something I could not be?

Was it something I could not see?

No! You could not love me because you could not love yourself.

You did not know your worth, and this was an issue for you since birth.

You were the problem and I tried to be your answer, but you ended up my cancer.

You only tore down, and let me carry us all with a frown.

You were not my support, and that is how we ended up in court.

12 years of marriage is gone, and now I get to move on. 😊

[lapandapoems]

[lapandapoems]

[lapandapoems]

[lapandapoems]

Why can’t someone love me?

Why can’t someone want me?

Why can’t I be the one?

Why can’t I be enough?

Why can’t I find the one?

Why can’t it be love?

Why can’t it be more then then sex?

Why can’t it be happiness?

Why can’t it be real?

Why can’t they see?

Why can’t they hear?

Why can’t the feel?

Why can’t someone love me for me?

-Amanda LaFond-

[lapandapoems]

As I sit and stare at the wall, I begin to fall.

I fall deeper and deeper, until I reach my doorkeeper.

I ask to enter, but the reply is not the center.

As I begin to ask why, I am left high and dry.

I take a step, but there is no pep.

The feeling hit, and the loneliness was lit.

I look around, and my heart fell to the ground.

Is that all I see? How can this be?

A wind rushes by and a voice says, “It’s time to die.”

I begin to shake, and I don’t know how much more I can take.

I run as fast as I can, but then I see a man.

The man of my dreams, but then I hear the screams.

“Love me! Love me! Why can’t you love me?”

Tears fill my eyes, and the memories begin to rise.

The time we shared, and the moment we were paired.

The pain is so real, I thought I gave myself time to heal.

I turn away, and all I see is gray.

I have reached the center, and I see why I wasn’t to enter.

I have reached my inner pain, and there was nothing to gain.

I am stuck looking at the past, every image looping fast.

I needed to move, and I have something to prove.

I yelled to stop, and the silence began to drop.

I went to the man and said, “You should be dead.”

You don’t deserve me, and I need to be free.

I don’t need your love, it was nothing to be proud of.

I grabbed him by the hand, and took him to the edge of the land.

I tossed him into the sea of the forgotten, and the memories will begin to rotten.

I turn to walk away, and start a new day.

-Amanda LaFond-