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Sobra akong nagsastruggle to the point na pati pagpili ko sa mental health ko kinekwestyon ko.

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Gosh, I feel useless every time I am having panic attacks. Each year since 2015, I always have a month of consistent panic attacks as in sobrang daming beses. I think, this year it will be this month, August. Wala pa sa kalahati but ilang beses na ko nagbreakdown, nagpanic and umiyak ng bongga. I can't breathe properly, I can't work, super stagnant ko. 😬

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Pero paano kung ayoko na?

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𝙹𝚞𝚕𝚢 𝟷, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟺, 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟺-𝟷𝟿𝟸𝟹

[ID: July 1. Too tired. END ID]

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Now I know why I am unsure!!!!

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1/365

First breakdown of the year.

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4th straight year na ang lungkot ko during Christmas season. 😥

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Fuck you for reliving all my trauma.

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Losing hope that our relationship will last. It gets tiring and tiring and tiring everyday.

I can't and I don't understand anything anymore.

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You will never be too much for the right person.

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“I hope you fall in love with someone who never lets you fall asleep thinking you’re unwanted.”

— Unknown

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Lalong nagdadalawang isip

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From 2019 up to now, palagi na lang akong malungkot at umiiyak pag birthday ko. Wala I just feel so helpless for the last 3 years.

I'm turning 25 siguro quarter life crisis ko na to

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One moment, we're okay, I'm okay. I think we're good, happy even..

But almost every night, I am questioning if I am still with the right person.. If I still love him the same. If I want to continue to build things with him. This doubt is eating me.. Alive..

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Its a big investment, ang laki na ng mga nagastos. Pero may doubt talaga ako. Hindi ko alam if itutuloy ko pa ba. Hindi ko nga maramdaman yung bare minimum eh, paano pa pag nandun na kami.

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2 months to go and gusto ko na magback out.

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When people expect you to treat them nicely, but can't treat you the same.