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[2:40pm]

— i guess this’ll be my last post in a while and i wanna talk about my current mental health. it’s been rocky for the past couple weeks after things seemed to be going well. i notice it’s little things that lead to me spiraling like not cleaning my room, not finishing my meals, not doing my homework, pushing all my energy into one thing knowing that my priorities should’ve been on something else. i constantly seek attention and validation from the people around me, and that stresses me out bc i want to please everyone. but i know that’ll never happen, yet i still want it to. i need to know that people don’t hate me, even though i won’t ever talk to them again in another year. lately i’ve been feeling like my body’s made out of sand, like i have no real control over what i do and i’m just letting the flow of my routine carry me. sometimes i’ll lie in bed at night and the stress of what i’ll have to do tmrw will force me to sleep bc i don’t want to deal with it. i know that however i cope with these problems aren’t enough. they never feel like enough. i always say that i’m busy and that i need more time for myself. but too much me-time is the reason i get like this. maybe i just need to get out more, stop living in my little bubble of my own filth and unhappiness and just see that everything sucks so i don’t need to worry as much 

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[1:46pm]

— i’ll be up at 7am playlist 

a lot of my music already comprised of sad, indie songs, and a lot of them would fit into a study mix of some sort. these songs would probably be the ones to play when i’m up late at night trying to finish some homework, fully knowing i still need to be up at 7 to get ready for school. some of the songs might be purely instrumentals or just chill bops 

Pillow Talk - Wild Child 

this gives off ultimate late night study vibes. it’s domestic-sounding, relaxing, and romantic. but it also has a weird flare to it that makes it really special. it’s the first song on this playlist bc it’s a nighttime bop that slowly gets you eased into the studying mood. it’s also the perfect song to have play over a romantic fort-building escapade 

Desiderium - Yuki Kajiura 

this song is an original soundtrack to an animated show that i have never watched. simply bc it seemed a little too childish for my taste, but this song slaps so hard. i think i cried the first time i heard it and i just immediately fell in love with it. also another great song to get you studying and perfect for a long night in by yourself  

Awoo - Lim Kim 

awoo has got to be the one song i can never get tired of hearing and is perfect for every sort of situation. it’s preppy and exciting, but chill and mellow. this is the part of the study session where you take a short break for yourself, your music is still playing but you just lean back in your chair and listen to this song. it’s a study break bop. ms. lim kim also has the most appealing voice of any r&b indie artist i’ve ever heard 

High Highs to Low Lows - Lolo Zouai 

this song is when you get back into studying and it’s peak nighttime hours. it’s now mega dark, 2:46am and you’re still writing your english paper. it’s face-paced but sung in a calming tune, a great combination for hustling and relaxing. this is also the type of song that you have to turn down the volume a bit lower just bc it is a little more bass driven than the rest of the songs on here. it’s bordering alternative so this one might be too exciting for sad study hour

A Town with An Ocean View - Joe Hisaishi 

i absolutely, positively adore this movie and ost. it makes me feel good and lighthearted and really motivates me. it’s purely instrumental but there’s a giddiness you feel when you listen to it. orchestral music is always people’s first idea of relaxing study music, but this one gets you pumped up. this movie made me want to be a teenage witch who struggles to find her niche but is always there to save the day and go some good 

My Funny Valentine - Frank Sinatra 

the final song doesn’t scream “i’ve been studying all night long and i still have my math homework to do” vibes, but it is chill. i would put this as the first song bc i’ve only ever wanted to listen to frank sinatra’s voice whilst taking a bath, or when i’m stressing out late into the night. i didn’t like this song at first but i grew to love it. this song is more like the song that comes on when it’s around 5-6 and the sky starts turning an orangey-blue color and the sun is rising soon. it’s the last hurray song and now you have to get up in an hour 

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[1:43pm]

— i think we all need to start seriously acknowledging that climate change is very much real, and is quickly approaching. studies say that we only have 12 years to reduce our carbon footprint enough so that we don’t reach catastrophic levels. 12 years, that’s 2031, which may seem like a long ways away but i’ll be 28 at the time. i’ll most likely have children and if we can’t reverse the major affects of climate change now, they’ll never get to have a white christmas. but there’s only so much we, as citizens, can do to make significant change. politicians and big corporations need to start getting involved bc they are core factors in how we can do smth about the warming earth. the paris agreement was the first big step to approaching the global issue of climate change, but some countries have made little impact with their involvement. trump even decided to pull out of the paris agreement, which puts the usa in a weird and complicated spot as they are one of the biggest producers of population. big corporations that control oil, plastic, mass production factories, even the beef industry have a lot of influence in the state of our planet. if they don’t change, nothing that we do will really matter. social media has been a great way to spread awareness of the issue and marches and rallies have been orchestrated to make it known that this is a serious problem. actors and actresses, governments, senators, authors, comedians, etc have voiced their concern with climate change and their support of making a difference if we ever want our children or grandchildren to experience what we have currently. greta thunberg, who made a big splash onto the climate change scene by being a sixteen year old swedish activist. has made tedtalks as to why we need to start changing our attitudes towards global warming, and that we should stop seeing it as smth that was always bound to happen. and yeah, the earth has always been warming, but not at the current rate it is now. a lot a young ppl, millenials and sentinials, have been actively protesting for change. but it’s not in our hands now, the big ppl in charge need to be the ones to meet us in the middle and decide on smth that will benefit all of us. 

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[2:39pm]

— concord park dreams playlist 

i got the idea to make this playlist bc a friend of mine made me a zine titled “obsession with co-existence” and concord park dreams was one of the pictures. i didn’t think about it a whole lot until i started working later shifts and would pass by concord park and the sea wall coming home and would see the sun set over the horizon. the songs in the playlist are ones for some late night relaxation or when you’re feeling particularly moody for a lazy, midnight adventure   Sleeping With The Television On - Billy Joel 

i’m not the biggest billy joel fan, but my boyfriend is and he showed me this song in class and told me that i’d like it. and i did, and still do. the song doesn’t exactly fit in with the rest of the songs on this playlist, but it does make you feel alive. especially if you’re playing this later in the day. props to you billy 

Death and Taxes - Daniel Caesar

another daniel caesar song in yet another sad playlist, shocker. it’s longer than an average song but there’s something there that makes you connect with it. the mood this song puts me in is absolutely indescribable. it kinda makes me feel like i’m slowly sinking away and that i’m doing it by making all the wrong decisions. the song title is also the name of the book that karen eiffel writes in the movie ‘stranger than fiction’, and the song reminds me of the premise of the book

PEACH PIT - peach pit 

a friend told me to listen to this band bc they were local and made good alternative music. but the first time i actually listened to them was in an 8track study mix and this song popped up. it’s another song that makes me feel eternally 16, sitting in on the curb of a corner store, feeling overly nostalgic about a past romance i never had. despite that, only good things come to me while listening to this song 

Moon Song - Karen O and Ezra Koenig 

i also found this song on an 8track study mix and i learned to play it on the ukulele. that’s how attached i felt to it the moment i heard it. after that, i finally watched the movie ‘her’ and this song played when theodore and samantha were on an impromptu vacation and they were playing around in a cabin. i listened to this song a lot on the ride back home from work and i think it was totally fair to put this on playlist  

I Was More Than - lontalius 

a sad little bop by the sad bop king. this song makes me feel good about myself, but not in an encouraging way, but in a coming to terms that i’ll never be enough, but i’m just me kind of way. this song came from lontalius’ album ‘i’ll forget 17″ and it was this album that also inspired me to make my “i’ll be 17 forever” playlist as a contrast to that

I Am Love - 47radar 

and the final song on the playlist is I Am Love, a song that i hold very close to my heart bc of the memories attached to it. this song is on repeat on my personal “laisez les triste temps rouler” playlist, just of how it makes me feel simultaneously sad, yet hopeful. i played this song late after school in the empty band room with all the lights off, i was laying on the floor, and played this song on the loudest sound setting and let it linger. warning: the horrible guitar intro lasts like 40 seconds before the actual song starts and it always throws me off 

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[3:10pm]

— i think we need to start redefining what it means to be a modern day feminist. bc it is really upsetting to see that ppl think it’s a dirty word, that ppl think we no longer need feminism, or that the third wave movement does nothing for women. that’s the glory in feminism, it’s very individualistic. you don’t need to follow what the loudmouth, self-proclaimed “feminists” believe, or what the majority believe. if you feel a certain thing should be advocated for, then you are allowed to raise awareness about it to the community. but i will admit there are problems within the feminist movement, that we aren’t being inclusive enough to muslim women, women of color, and especially trans women. though that is simple known as being a TERF or a white feminist. feminism has strayed away from the path a bit, but that doesn’t mean individual feminists are. i also think that the movement isn’t strictly for women, but also for men; it is very much for men. we need men to help amplify the voices of those who can’t speak or are being hushed. we need men so that we can raise each other up. men need to meet us in the middle so that we can come to a balance. i also - strongly - think we need to allow feminists to speak about things that are unconventional and may be uncomfortable for ppl to hear. topics of menstruating, mental health, lgbtq+ rights, religion in politics, sex trafficking, slavery, conversion camps, etc. we can’t shut those topics down bc it makes us feel weird or uncomfortable, they are simply things that need to be said. so in that case, be a feminist, do good, love people! 

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[2:51pm]

— lately, my main hobbies and obsessions have been astrology, zodiac signs, and witchcraft. there’s truly something fascinating about believing in the energy of things or that the stars could dictate who you are as a person. nevertheless, i got myself a little wrapped up in all this stuff and i have come to believe a bit of it now. maybe bc every aries i’ve ever met ended up checking off every box off the cliche aries attributes list. or maybe bc witchcraft revolves around feeling confident about yourself and letting positivity enter your life. nowadays, i’ll do things that make me connect more with my inner self, like taking rose water baths, or praying. setting up time schedules so that i have my alone time, and overall, committing to self-esteem boosting activities like doing my makeup in a new way, or dressing up. also, i don’t necessarily believe that everything the zodiacs say are correct and believe them wholeheartedly. but i do think they offer good advice pertaining to your natal chart. and i do think they reveal things about other people. at first i got into all this jazz bc i thought it would suit my aesthetic of being an art hoe / off-beat alternative tumblr girl. somewhere along the way, i did end up enjoying researching more about these topics and immersing myself into the culture. 10/10 would totally do again 

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[10:08pm]

— in my personal opinion, we should fundamentally raise boys and girls the same. basic respect, manners, household chores, cooking, fixing a tire, etc should be equally taught to both sexes. because neither one sex should be inclined to be taught one thing over the other. that’s what leads us to sexist beliefs like women should stay in the kitchen, make dinner, mend the clothing, clean. and that men can only hold masculine roles like protecting the wife, being the breadwinner in a nuclear family, only having -limiting- interests inside the realm of sports, hardware, or action films. on just the basis of being a good person and expanding the child’s fascination towards certain jobs. but i do believe that there are things that can only be taught to one sex. of course since men and women are different, we’re not completely the same. in this political climate, we can’t afford to not tell our daughters about this dangerous society for them. we can’t tell our sons that they can do any job a man can, because as a male already, they had that privilege from the beginning. we don’t need to tell our sons that if they were to ever go out or to a bathroom, that they need to go in groups of 2 or more. right now, there are certain inequalities that render us from raising our child with absolute equity. though, the fundamentals should all be the same. 

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[4:41pm]

— i love you in 5 different languages playlist 

since valentines’ day has passed, here’s a short playlist on some songs from around the world about one thing: love. it’s gonna focus on being lighthearted and sweet, something appropriate for a cute spring day. half of these songs i found by accident when listening to other songs 

Dean - Say Something 

this song is actually a cover from Zak Abel’s original, but i prefer this version. it’s sweet and fun, and more me, it envokes a lot of memories. this one time, last summer, i was on a date and afterwards we went down to this place we call the fountain. we took off our socks and shoes and just stuck our toes in as the sun set. and in the background, i played this song 

Galaxy - Bolbbalgan4

this was the first song this group ever released and i saw that people were talking about it like crazy. i gave it a listen and it’s been collecting dust in my player since it came out. but recently i started listening to it again and this song was the reason i wanted to make this playlist. the vocalist in this duo has a really unique but relaxing voice that suits the theme of this playlist; springtime love 

Tant Que J’ai le Soleil - MIKA 

i’ve listened to a few of MIKA’s songs before and they weren’t exactly my cup of tea, so when i heard tant que j’ai le soleil, i thought i had finally found something that would suit me. there’s no romantic memory or a sense of nostalgia that comes with this song, it’s just a cool melody with some cute lyrics. i do really enjoy listening to it though, it kind of makes me feel like i can live forever, like i’ll be eternally sixteen

El Latido de mi Corazón - Luis Angel Gomez Jaramillo

yes this song is from Pixar’s Coco, but that doesn’t stop it from being a whole bop. it’s fun, it’s lighthearted, it’s perfect background music for any sort of spring/summer date. all the songs here have a certain something about them that makes them work so well in a playlist. el latido de mi corazon has that something but doesn’t stray away from that traditional latin american sound

Everyday Love - SNSD 

i remember i wrote a short love story based around this song in the 7th grade because i was a loser. do i regret it, absolutely. but do i still love love love this song, 100%. it just makes me feel good inside, simple as that. though it does upset me to listen to it every now and then as this group broke up about a year ago. still a great springtime bop

Sunflower - Rex Orange County 

this is the only rex song i know and i flung this into this playlist last minute. it came on shuffle when i was doing some chores and thought it would sound nice with the rest of the songs. i’m pretty sure it does but i don’t know. it’s a good way to end the playlist because this song was originally an after-thought, but now it feels more like the cherry on top

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[6:53pm]

— this year, like last year, we should continue to make greater strides in bringing justice to those who’ve experienced sexual - or any sort of - abuse. we need to stop giving abusers a platform and attention. celebrities like chris brown, takashi69, lena dunham, etc have all done some pretty abusive and terrible things. yet they’re still acting on tv, still selling out concert tickets, receiving admiration from brainwashed fans. frankly, it’s revolting. i’m tired of hearing the “they’re changing” or “they’re trying to be a better person” card. unless the media visibly sees them trying to make an effort to learn from their mistakes (ie - advocating for those who have been abused, supporting women and men who have suffered abuse, etc), then they haven’t changed, they’re still disgusting. we can’t afford to be lenient with who we support just because we enjoy their music, or their skits were some of your favourites. no one’s art should be more important than someone’s safety and health. people being famous does not give them a pass on doing gross stuff to others. those celebrities need to understand and experience the repercussions that come with physically, sexually, mentally, and emotionally hurting someone. n e ways, stop supporting abusers and try to spread more awareness about the victims of abuse. 

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[11:25pm]

— i’ll be forever 17 mini-playlist 

just some songs to fit the outline of an angsty teen movie following the life of a gross, sad teenage lowlife and her even sadder sk8r boyfriend 

Japanese Denim - Daniel Caesar

this is the slow introduction song that plays over the main protagonist’s morning routine montage and her walk to school on her first day of senior year. she’s #different and #notlikemostgirls bc her childhood was kinda traumatic (but that’s ok bc we’ll romanticise it so the audience can relate). she also hates jocks and has never set foot in a house party, but whatever

Walking Disaster - The Wombats

we’re at school, and guess who we meet? the edgy, black curly-haired, pierced and tatted, sloppily-dressed, self-destructive, cigarette-smoking cutie from homeroom who’s gonna be our love interest. he’s gonna treat her poorly but performs like three romantic gestures and wins her over again. he’ll be our protag’s rude awakening into the real world where she does all this dramatic, cliche stuff with him 

Drive - Jai Wolf (ft. Chain Gang of 1974)

you know that thing where i said the protag has never been to a party before, sike! this is the song that comes on when probably the most popular guy in school has a huge party and she gets dragged to it with love interest. there are ppl dancing and drinking, but this song sounds more of a jumping into the pool with our clothes on type. at this point, she’s super into this guy and he takes her hand and they dip on the party. he takes her to his disgustingly run-down, old mustang and they go on a cliche teenage asshole drive

Bloom - Troye Sivan 

it’s montage time sis! our protags are driving around, screaming with the windows rolled down, and possibly making out in their car escapade. they go into stores and walk around trashing the place and eventually, he takes her to his favourite spot in the city: a cliche hill with the view of the city lights. he pulls her closer and they do that dramatic zoom-in to where they kiss. the next thing you know, the screen fades away as the scene gets progressively .... saucier

Cornerstone - Arctic Monkeys

now this song will immediately follow the last one. this is after they get frisky and sk8r boi decides to open up about why he's sad and edgy. they’re going through all their emotions, opening up about trauma or whatever. then they realise that they’re teenage soulmates who last like 2 months before something awful and abrupt happens. this part gets real sad but real comfy 

Galaxy - Ladies Code

the emo kids are in full swing love. they spiral into this kinda toxic, kinda romantic relationship where it’s just them drinking an insane amount of alcohol on school nights and smoking joints while talking about how everything in life is pointless. them talking out their hard pasts is euphoric for the both of them as they unravel the reasons they ended up where they are. everything is chill until he breaks the news to her that he’s moving in with his mom in the middle of nowhere montana or something. this breaks her heart and she runs away screaming she needs time, but sis ain’t got time, sk8r boi is leaving in a week 

Gambler - fun. 

the dust has settled, the movie comes full circle as the protag walks to school listening to this song, reminiscing about her wack romance with sk8r. she opens her locker and a small note falls out, it’s from him. it’s some dumb cliche note saying that his life will never be the same after they met and that one day, he’s gonna come back for her. the movie ends with a fade to black with her clutching the note because her emotional distressful boyfriend will return, blunt in hand

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[2:28pm]

— it’s now 2019 and we’re leaving toxic behavior behind. we honestly should’ve left it behind in 2010 or smth. no more pettiness, no more unnecessary drama, no more disgusting behavior in relation/friendships. i think the main thing we need to focus on in 2019 is ourselves and being kinder to others. let’s worry less about comparing your journey to other people’s, or what others are thinking about you. 2019 has no room for negativity, just self-love. i think 2019 should also be the year we acknowledge our own toxic behavior / habits and correct them. we can’t come into this year with the intent of continuing to hurt other people with your words or actions. learn what it is that you’re doing wrong and start to make an effort to correct it. if not for your sake but for the sake of other people. this year should be a year of loving yourself more. realising that you can be comfortable and beautiful in any skin color or tone, that giving yourself mental health days isn’t selfish, and that you matter more to someone than you believe. cheers to a fantastic new year kiddos!

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[2:14pm]

— the racism and harassment asian ppl receive is so swept under the rug and it’s quite frankly a little hard to talk about. we aren’t as oppressed as africans or indigneous ppl are, but there’s a level of disrespect we get that makes it hard for us to feel like we belong. the anti-asian, xenophobic, sinophobic, etc comments, remarks, and blatant harassment i’ve heard and seen is more than enough for my lifetime. i’ve seen the white majority not accept us bc we apparently eat cats and dogs and talk with funny accents. to them we’re just little chinks. and some ppl in other minority groups don’t consider us poc bc some of us have fair skin or that we don’t experience the same level of racism as they do. that doesn’t rlly matter, it’s not the oppressed olympics. all marginalized minority groups have faced homophobia, sexism, racism, colorism, etc. in the news the other day i heard that an asian couple on a train were harassed and yelled at by an older, caucasian man to “go back to their country” and that he was going to “f*cking kill those chinks”. racism is smth you learn, you’re not magically born racist. in this modern day, i rlly expected better. we’ve managed to progress this far for all minority groups, and yet somehow ppl backtrack it smh. there needs to be a change in ppl’s mindset or nothing will happen

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[5:46pm] 

— lately, i haven’t been feeling my best and that i’ve reached my all time low. i think that’s a lot to say when i’ve lost so many friends last year and almost had my very first heartbreak. mental health will always be an issue and sometimes i think that no matter how good i feel or how good my circumstances become, i’ll always go back to being that sad little girl. and it’s upsetting, it’s really upsetting. there’s times where i think i’ll never be able to succeed or i’ll never be good as everyone else. other times i know deep in my heart that i rlly will never be as good as everyone, but i am comfortable with where i am. lately, i’ve been missing my grandparents a lot and my home life isn’t the best right now. i feel like i can’t cry around family or talk about what i’m going through bc you can’t take back tears and breaking down in front of someone is an image they don’t easily forget. lately, i’ve been finding myself a little more annoying than usual and i’m not talking as much as i did a few weeks ago. and maybe things will get better and maybe they won’t. idk, it’s been rough, but i’m still here, so that has to be a good thing, right? 

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[12:29pm]

— you know what sucks? teachers are paid dirt to educate your kids for 15+ years and teach them life skills to last them a lifetime. these men and women are responsible for being able to get your kids into the universities of their dreams, to be able to teach them how to read, teach them how to take care of themselves. they put a lot out there to inspire children and to get them out of their shell so they can succeed. so why is their annual salary so low? why do annoying parents actually harass them when their kid doesn’t put in the effort for their class. it’s an occupation that not a lot of young people want to go into. that’s what makes it so difficult because they’re underpaid for their work, people don’t want to be teachers or educators, and the outside work they put in is too much for some people. teachers laugh about it all the time, like haha don’t become a teacher. i know a lot of people don’t think about it too much but i think it’s just hard for teachers and we need to give them a little more credit where it’s due. 

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[1:34pm]

— autumn time mini-playlist 

these songs don’t necessarily pertain to a common theme of autumn, these are just good songs to listen to when it’s all cold outside and you need a good rainy day bop. 

Cave Me In - Gallant, Tablo, Eric Nam this is more meant for cold fall nights when you’re feeling down but also in a phat mood to get all deep and emotional. i thought it was rlly cool to see a collab between a western artist and korean artists that still kept the integrity of all three musicians style.

Paris in the Rain - Lauv  also a cold fall night jam, but more falling in love and getting all cliche. i came on this song by chance, just letting the youtube suggested do its thing. i’ve heard to a few lauv songs before, but this is one that i rlly liked and repeatedly listen to.  

Benjamins - CVIRO x GXNXVS  also another weird song i found by chance but ended up loving. the lyrics are practically inaudible and mumbled, that doesn’t take away from it being a great autumn time song.

Cold War - Cautious Clay  i adore this song, period. the way clay sings is almost romantic ?? and a little desperate here and it honestly gave me the chills the first time i listened to it. i had always listened to the original audio for the song, but i finally took the time out to listen to his acoustic version, and he sounded so raw and passionate. i think it’s that type of song where you look out the window on the long bus ride home and just let it sit with you. 

Francis Forever - Mitski  my friend introduced me this song by blasting it in our hotel room at rockridge canyon and i kinda loved it. i have resonant memories of this song being played whenever i go out with her, or when we study together. it says a lot in just a few minutes. also another good bop to listen to on the bus back home on a dark autumn day.

Stolen Dance - Milky Chance despite this being on my autumn playlist, my fondest memory of this song was late august. me and a friend of mine went down to the train tracks, this song came on in shuffle, and he didn’t tell me to change it so we left it playing and watched the sunset. this one’s a good one, and i think it’s a good song to end the playlist with.

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[2:30pm]

— honestly i’m upset with the lack of representation in modern western films. whether it be lgbtq+, asian, latinx, or any sort of minority, casting has always been and will continue to be an issue for many up and coming marginalized actors and actresses. especially if it’s the case of straight, white, cis actors and actresses auditioning for these roles because they’ll most likely land it. notorious cases of white actors coming in and taking roles from originally minority characters are scarlett johansson and nearly the entire avatar the last airbender: the movie cast. those two were major oofs. in the movie feature, ghost in the shell, originally written and produced in japan, scarlett played japanese ai, major mokoto kusanagi. it was already a problem that a white actress was playing the role of an asian character with years and years of written work, animation series, and even a few movies prior to the 2017 release. but they worked on making johansson inherently more asian looking; using makeup to mimic the facial features of japanese people. when it would’ve have been so much easier to cast an asian actress. whatever, the movie ended up flopping in the box office anyway. the entire avatar the last airbender cast was dragged for being white actors playing asian roles. aang, who even though is a fictional character, was based off monks in nomadic tribes from around tibet and southwest asia. his actor, noah ringer, is english, german, and irish. ?? it doesn’t add up. katara was a blonde girl in a wig and sokka is american. i guess maybe i’m a bit sensitive, but it hurts to not have proper representation in hollywood. especially when your only options for idols growing up as an asian girl were mulan and the yellow power ranger. 

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[12:54am]

— i’ve been going to this cafe for a couple years now and it still manages to surprise me. it’s been passed on from owner to owner to owner, but i’m content with the new ones. i still remember the first drink i ordered from parker st cafe, the iced milk, because that was all i could afford with the loose change i had on me that day. this place has a special room in my heart and the key to it probably has a little bear chain connected on. i remember spending aimless saturdays studying here, writing notes and cheat sheets for tests and exams, just sitting by the heater after a cold day and ordering a hot chocolate. but now i’m getting older so i ask them to put shots of espresso in it; really wakes you up. i realize that it’s just a glorified mocha and i’ve been paying 50 cents more for it. i took the first guy i ever truly liked here once, it was after a long talk about what troubled us and how bleak the future seemed. despite this being a place of seemingly only pleasant memories, it’s had its fair share of hurt. i had my first date here too because i panicked on where we would go and this was the one spot i knew would never fail me. i was so nervous that day i spilt salad dressing on my jeans, oops. but life has been moving by so quickly lately, it’s difficult to find time to just sit down and enjoy a cup of coffee. all i know for certain is that i will always make time for parker st cafe.