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911 text posts pt 2

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To write Eddie/Tommy smut or to not write Eddie/Tommy smut... that's the real question rotting my brain.

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🔥+jealousy bc i need to fuel my anti-jealous eddie tag

godd, i hate fandom's obsession with jealous!eddie. mostly because it's not even true to his character, because 90% of the time, he actually doesn't give a fuck about buck's relationships (beyond being protective when he thinks buck is gonna get hurt). and i've seen people say that him being jealous of buck/tommy is the only narrative device that can be employed to get him to realize his feelings, but i just...don't agree? for one thing, i'm firmly of the opinion that eddie on some level recognizes what he feels for buck, he just genuinely does not believe that he has a chance, regardless of whether buck is straight or not. for another thing, even if eddie weren't aware, i don't think jealousy is the correct device to use here because then the question arises (for me, at least), why wasn't he this threatened by buck's other (more serious) relationships? because we're tipping dangerously close back into the rhetoric that buck's relationship with tommy is So Much More Special and Amazing because tommy is a man, which, i think i've made my feelings very clear on how biphobic and misogynistic i think that sentiment is. and i don't think eddie is gonna automatically start wondering why buck isn't considering him as an option just because he likes men. i think eddie's issues with self-worth run way too deep for him to reach that level of...conceited? i guess is the word. anyway, all this is to say i just don't think it's true to his character lmao.

send me a 🔥 + a topic for an unpopular opinion!

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in hindsight (tangled up with you all night)

15.7 | Explicit | Read on AO3

Summary:

“We’re gonna be stuck here for at least 5 months,” Buck said, his fingers tracing the bumps across Eddie’s back, the other man was nearly asleep, spent after going a few rounds in the hotel room, where they could be as loud as they wanted to be, “That’s a long time.” Eddie hummed, sighing as Buck kept touching him, relaxing further into the bed, Buck smiled and leaned over to place a kiss on his shoulder, not trying to start anything again, just a soft point of contact; Eddie smiled softly at the touch. “It is,” Eddie agreed. “Maybe we can keep doing this? Just this, it doesn’t need to be anything more,” Buck offered, he had learnt to not offer more than just sex, he had learnt that people didn’t want him for more than sex, and he was okay with it, he truly was. Especially in cases like this, shooting on site in a foreign country, people were usually just looking for an escape. Buck could offer that to Eddie. “Maybe,” Eddie replied, his hand reaching out to pinch the side of Buck’s hip, “Definitely maybe.” * Or as young actors Buck and Eddie fall into a FWB situation that develops into more, before walking away from the other. Years later they're given a second chance.

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illicit affairs

buddie | E | chapter 5 of 10 | 12k (of 35k and counting) | just a boy helping his boy bestie figure out gay sex, with a side of infidelity Eddie doesn’t believe in jinxes. But if he did, he would sure think he’d jinxed himself with what he said, and didn’t say, in his therapy session.

Chapter 5: so you leave no trace behind, like you don't even exist

“How are you, Eddie?” Frank asks.

They’re more than halfway through Eddie’s hour-long appointment. Frank has been patient with him, he always is. He’s been Eddie’s therapist for long enough to know when to let Eddie talk about something unrelated as a means of settling in, to know when it’s, in fact, an avoidance technique and he should be pushed.

Their appointments are less frequent than in the immediate aftermath of Eddie’s breakdown. Officially, they meet every two weeks. Oftentimes, with Eddie’s schedule, that’s just not possible. He and Frank occasionally do a phone call, if it’s hard to fit in a face-to-face appointment, but Frank prefers to meet in person. Eddie joked once it’s because over the phone Frank can’t see the fear in his patients’ eyes. Frank hadn’t laughed, but he’d smiled in a way that made Eddie think what he’d said was closer to the truth than is comfortable for said patients, Eddie included.

Eddie has spent the last forty minutes giving Frank an update on Chris’ dating life, his concerns and woes over it. And while that is legitimately something he should be allowed to talk about in therapy, it’s less pressing than a couple of months back when he had just found out about the two-timing — try five-timing — about the Shannon of it all. Now, he probably is using it to delay talking about himself, at least a little bit. And he’s come a long way that he can admit that to himself.

He shifts in his seat, pokes a hand back to prod at the cushion behind him. But he doesn’t need to. As much as everything else about therapy is uncomfortable, the seating in Frank’s office is anything but. And Eddie has been in here often enough to know this is the best cushion for him, works well for when he’s seated ramrod straight or when he’s slumped down. Across the room, Frank waits for Eddie to reply, ever patient.

“I’m good,” Eddie answers, truthfully. He is. Things are, generally, going well. As mentioned, Chris is doing better — he’s more secure and he currently seems to be talking to only one girl in a romantic capacity. Work is going as smoothly as it can for a first responder: Bobby back at the helm, Hen and Chim besties once more, Ravi freed from B-shift, so their core team is stable again. Eddie’s getting on well with his family, his dad consistently trying. He knows there are still sore spots there, and more so with his mom, but it’s the effort that matters to him. He summarizes as much to Frank, who knows all this already.

Frank nods, flips his pen over in his fingers. “And how are things with Marisol?”

read chapter 5 on ao3 or start at chapter 1

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Finally started the EddieTommy Smut fic!! Its called "What happens in Vegas doesn't have to stay in Vegas" get ready for snippets ;)

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Everybody thank Pinterest and clipboard buck for existing

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does he love you better than i can?

buddie | rated T | 10.8 k | outsider POV | character study

Summary: He can’t fault them for that, though. Evan has known Eddie for the past six years. Tommy has only been in the picture for about a month, give or take. Nothing has ever happened between us, Evan had insisted. You have absolutely nothing to worry about, Eddie had told him unequivocally. There’s no reason he shouldn’t take them both at their word, Tommy thinks, decisively. or, buck and eddie insist that there's nothing going on between them. tommy wants to believe them. he really, really does.

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tagging a few people under the cut:

@tawaifeddiediaz @bieddiediaz @athenagranted @therapized-eddie @911-on-abc

@chimchiminie98 @bucksbisexualawakening @edmundodiazz @caroandcats @akapotatogirl

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hi (said with all the love and affection in the world bursting out of me) please remember to take care of yourself first but also the "stay on your side or so help me god I will set this bed on fire" prompt is calling my name and also yours

mwah <333

tried and true blue

buck/eddie | 4k | rated t

It’s not even three minutes after he switches off the light that the door bangs open. Bangs open, not even an attempt at quietness. “Eddie,” Buck stage-whispers, “you’re not asleep yet, right?” “No,” Eddie grumbles, flicking on the light when Buck bumps heavily into something and swears. “But I could’ve been.” “Eddie, Eddie,” Buck sings breathily, shucking his trousers and clambering onto the bed in just his boxers and a button-down shirt. “Why is there only one bed?” “Um,” Eddie draws the comforter up to his chin, as if he can shield himself from the half-naked—oh, three-quarters naked, he’s pulling off his shirt now—Buck with just a duvet.

or, sharing a bed with your best friend is fine, usually, except for when your best friend is the particular combination of tipsy and stoned at his sister’s wedding that transforms him into 200 pounds of cuddlebug

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#3 please!

Everything hurt. Three broken ribs. One busted up shoulder. A body covered in bruises and lacerations that burned every time he stretched wrong which seemed to be every direction possible. Even his ankles hurt.

But nothing was as bad as the bruising where his harness had caught him. The deep black and purple bruises had wrapped around his hips and across his thighs. The straps under his butt had been the worst of it, making it almost impossible to sit without the ache turning into a deep throb that rocked him to his core.

Better that than at the bottom of a ravine, broken and gone, but still. Everything hurt and Eddie's pride most of all. He just wanted to go and lick his wounds until he could put it all away and be fine.

Too bad he had two very large worry warts that hadn't left his side since he'd walked out of the emergency room.

"Hey," Tommy said, his hands a hovering line of heat along his sides. "Just easy does it."

"I'm fine." Eddie bit out, trying to muscle back the prickling sting behind his eyes.

"So you keep saying," Buck said in front of him. He held out his hands and despite everything in Eddie wanting to prove to them that he could walk on his own, he couldn't help but settle his palms against Buck's. His hands were sore too, scrapped raw and bruised, but there wasn't much Eddie could deny Buck when he asked.

Buck rewarded him with a smile that made Eddie's heart skip three beats. He still couldn't believe he got to see that smile aimed at him.

Eddie clenched his jaw as he took one step then another before his toe caught on a crack in the pavement and he jolted forward. The pain lanced up through him white hot and nearly unbearable. He grunted as he tipped in the wrong direction and braced himself for impact. But Tommy's hands settled on his sides and caught him. He didn't squeeze but it was almost too much anyway.

Buck and Tommy's gentleness was almost too much.

The burn behind his eyes overtook him, lodging a knot in his throat, and Eddie couldn't tell which direction he was free falling again.

That's what it had been. A free fall that almost ended everything. Eddie hadn't hit the ground. His harness had caught him and the rope had swung him like a pendulum, twisting his world upside down. But he was alive! So why did it feel like he was waiting for impact still?

The warm, solid chest at his back was soft and steady as Tommy's scent cascaded around him, bringing him back down to earth.

"Hey," Buck said as he closed the distance at the front, sandwiching Eddie between them. He cupped Eddie's face with his hands as Tommy ducked down and kissed his temple and for once the touches didn't hurt. They were soft and gentle and somehow that was the thing that almost broke him.

"We got you," Tommy said and Buck stroked his cheek until Eddie opened his eyes.

"We got you." Buck repeated.

And Eddie sagged against them and let them catch him.

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buddietommy au where tommy has an onlyfans.... buck and eddie are already together at this point and they're politely ignoring the fact that they both wanna be fucked by their best friend until one day they're watching porn together and buck is like "wait stop scroll up that looks a lot like tommy" and eddie scrolls up and it IS tommy and he's riding a dildo (one of the long, thick ones) and it's... actually almost embarrassing how quickly they both come while watching him. and it becomes even more embarrassing when they remember they're supposed to be hanging out with him the next day. and so, they side bar in the kitchen because they're lame and eddie's like "ok just act natural" (spoiler alert: they do not act natural) and tommy is like "ok wtf is wrong with you guys 🤨" and eddie is like "nothingggg everything is great" but at the same time, buck is like "WE SAW YOUR PORN AND IT WAS VERY HOT." and there's a heavy moment where everyone is just kinda looking at each other. and then tommy smirks and he's like "oh. you guys see something you like?" and uhh well yes as a matter of fact they did. anyways he ends up fucking both of them and definitely makes at least one of them (eddie) cry. also they get together at the end because i am a sucker for love and tommy kinard deserves two boyfriends. the end.

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im going insane at how few fics eddie/tommy have😭 i NEED more fics, if you have any you love GUVE ME THE LINK I WILL REREAD THEM

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WIP Wednesday

Tagged by @wikiangela

So this is a direct continuation of my tease tidbit tuesday post from yesterday (sorry if i got anyone too excited for an upcoming buddietommy threesome, that’s not happening in this fic. But there will (probably) be a foursome.)

The difference between Buck and Eddie is when Buck tells a lie he immediately feels crushing guilt and has to tell the truth as immediately as possible. Meanwhile Eddie… Eddie has to double down.

The craziest thing is, Eddie actually considers it. Eddie’s pretty sure Josh fucked any remains of his weird little crush on Tommy out last night, but he’s self aware enough now to know he still finds him and his frankly obnoxious muscles and casual confidence very attractive. And Buck is- uh, Buck is objectively hot as well. Josh’s little comment on wanting to watch them in the bedroom was proof enough of that. It would probably be a fun time. An extremely hot time.

But just the idea of actually saying yes makes something in his chest tighten and curl up. So Eddie says the only thing that comes to mind.

“I can’t. I have a boyfriend.”

Josh is going to kill him.

It takes a second for Buck to process what Eddie just said, but after a moment, Buck’s eyes bulge and his mouth falls open. “You- wait- Josh?”

It’s too late for Eddie to back down. The only thing he can do is double down with a firm nod.

No pressure tagging: @cal-daisies-and-briars @aspecbuddie @pirrusstuff @jesuisici33 @steadfastsaturnsrings @lemonzestywrites @your-catfish-friend @inkmortal-trash389 @evanbegins @wildlife4life @eddiebabygirldiaz @diazsdimples @epicbuddieficrecs @kitteneddiediaz @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove @coatedpanda16 @nicotinewrites @estheticpotaeto @babytrapperdiaz @snowviolettwhite

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I can practically hear Eddie’s voice saying “Forgive me Father Kinard for I have sinned.”

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Hiiiiiii Maggie!! Sending you the first of many kiss prompts. I’m not sure which you’ve already done so just lmk if you want me to send you the next one haha

FIRST requesting number 72 please 💗💗💗

Hi Bazza💕💕💕

I hope this is along the lines of what you had in mind 🥰

Kiss Me Once Cause You Know I Had A Long Night 31/?

72. Accidentally bumping noses

Summary:

Eddie leans away and pulls his shirt over his head. He barely has his head free before Buck's diving back in for a kiss.

Only they both tilted the same way, bumping their noses together.

Eddie breaks into a fit of giggles, bright and bubbly and so beautiful. Buck can't help but laugh with him.

(read below!)

“Off,” Buck mutters against Eddie's lips, tugging at the hem of his shirt. Buck had his shirt off before they even got down the hall. Eddie needed to catch up.

They only have an hour to themselves, maybe. Chris is getting a ride home with a friend who's going to stay for the entire weekend. Buck wants as much alone time with Eddie he can get before then.

Eddie chuckles and cups Buck’s face in his hands. “You're insatiable.” He guides Buck into their bedroom and kicks the door closed, kissing him with slow, aching tenderness. Buck melts against him, basking in the moment of unhurried softness as long as he dares.

Eddie ducks to kiss the hinge of his jaw.

“Okay, now you're just procrastinating.” Buck tugs at the shirt again.

Eddie leans away and pulls his shirt over his head. He barely has his head free before Buck's diving back in for a kiss.

Only they both tilted the same way, bumping their noses together.

Eddie breaks into a fit of giggles, bright and bubbly and so beautiful. Buck can't help but laugh with him.

He winds his arms around Eddie's waist, his heart fluttering with how full of love he feels. He never in a million years thought he'd get to have this. Married to his best friend, able to laugh during the most absurd moments, completely comfortable and completely loved.

Eddie leans in again in an attempt to get them back on track. Buck, never missing an opportunity to mess with him, bumps his nose against Eddie's again, setting the giggles off once more.

Eddie calms down quickly, like he's in just as much of a rush as Buck. “Are you actually going to let me kiss you or are you just going to-”

Buck cuts him off with a hungry kiss Eddie smiles into.

An hour later, just before Chris and his friend arrive, Buck pulls Eddie in for a soft kiss. Only Eddie bumps their noses together with a wide grin.

“I love you,” Buck says with a fond chuckle.

“To the core,” Eddie says before actually kissing him.

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Eddie: something about saying “your honor” just doesn’t sit right with me. send me to jail, im not fucking dickriding you

Buck: in what situation have you ever had to say “your honor” to someone?

Eddie: two minutes ago in court

Buck: WHY WERE YOU IN COURT?

Eddie: punched a dude for being a dick

Buck: ANSWER THE PHONE EDDIE

Eddie: i can’t, i’m literally being sentenced to community service right now

Buck: WAIT YOU’RE STILL CURRENTLY IN COURT??

Eddie: uhm yes?

Buck: WHY ARE YOU TEXTING ME FROM COURT?!

Eddie: because you’re responding??

Buck: EDDIE

*2 hours later*

Bobby: okay Eddie, what did we learn today?

Eddie: Judge Rawley is a fucking power hungry snake

Bobby: *deep sigh*

Eddie: did i tell a lie?

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madney should make out on chim's hospital bed. just, maddie trying to climb in the bed, but she's still wearing her ruined wedding dress, and chim is injured, but they're finally married so chim helps her get in, and they're laughing, giggles against each other's mouth, and they're so fucking sweet, and I'm dissolving into a puddle in front of my screen