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saw a tweet about how showering with your significant other is at its core supposed to be an intimate and close experience to share and i wholeheartedly agree so imagine jean getting to a stage where he's comfortable taking longer showers now, especially if it's with jeremy so after a particularly energetic night in the bedroom they decide to take their aftercare to the shower. gently wash each other down. jeremy tilting jean's hair back and washing it out with loving hands. jean dragging the loofah down jeremy's back and pressing wet lips to his wet skin at his shoulders. jeremy almost slipping and jean shaking his head at his clumsiness as he catches him. jean getting down to his knees to scrub jeremy's legs and nipping at his ass. jeremy getting shampoo in his eyes bc he keeps moving while jean tries to wash his hair. soft loving kisses under the spray until jeremy slowly backs jean into the wall and they just lean there kissing under the steam. towelling each other's hair dry and getting into soft warm pj's after. cuddling up together and relaxing against each other. both falling asleep almost instantly because they feels that loved and at ease and safe

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was just thinking about jerejean and why i love them so much and you know what it is? there’s something so beautiful about getting to watch two people who do so much good for each other slowly fall together, and while there is attraction and romance there, their relationship is firmly rooted in a deep friendship based on trust and respect. over and over again they try to do right by the other, see through the other’s facades, are both a quiet support while also knowing when to give a not so gentle nudge when it’s needed. two people who are both broken in their own ways but who see the other one for everything they are and never turn away from the hard parts, from the sharp edges. they haven’t lived the other one’s trauma but they’re gently holding hands walking different paths of healing and helping the other grow.

and idk i just think that’s really lovely.

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tbh i survived by thinking about how it was a bit similar to playing exy if u rllyyyyy squint

been sooo inactive but i was in preseason for my sport and i actually had no time at all but the jerejean brainrot never once left - it consumes me actually

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been sooo inactive but i was in preseason for my sport and i actually had no time at all but the jerejean brainrot never once left - it consumes me actually

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Every day without the broken cage, the closer i get towards insanity and no amount of jeremy and jean first kiss/getting together fics will save me anymore

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You wanna talk about having RESPECT for someone? Jean heard all about Jeremy’s prev. cocaine addiction, the wild gay orgy he got caught in the middle of, his arrest and the awful way he had to find out about Noah… and his opinion of Jeremy didn’t change AT ALL. If anything he thinks MORE highly of Jeremy.

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the only time neil "picks fights and runs away from them" josten actually throws hands outside of a survival instinct is when he started beating the shit out of riko because he threatened andrew and when he hit aaron for suggesting he was taking advantage of andrew and i think about that a lot. when he said he didn't swing for anyone but andrew, he really meant that in every way possible

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thinking about long-distance andreil and actually crashing out because imagine the phone calls just to hear the other's voice, and the heavy stares across an airport crowd, and the weighty goodbye kisses and the welcome home ones that feel like a sigh of relief, and fingers hooked in belt loops and hands fisted in shirtfronts and an "i missed you" and a "shut up" in the dark of a hotel room UGH i can't do it anymore.

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Jerejean laying together in bed sometime in the future, facing each other, tracing each other’s features with their fingertips. But Jeremy keeps smiling and giggling when Jean runs his finger over his freckles, the slope of his nose, etc. and finally Jean tips his head a little in silent question. And Jeremy shakes his head and says “nothing, I’m just—really happy.”

And Jean stares at him, and cups Jeremy’s face, and says, “me too” . And Jeremy smiles the widest he has yet

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Forever and ever thinking about "The choice was death or hurting Adam, which wasn’t much of a choice at all."

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“i don’t have a brother, ma’am” PLS!!

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“Jean Moreau, defense. It is all I am.”

But then he joins the Trojans and discovers he’s SO MUCH MORE than just that. Jean Moreau the caring friend. Jean Moreau the future gardener. Jean Moreau the dog dad. Jean Moreau the cook in his kitchen. Jean Moreau the biker, riding open roads.

Now ask Jeremy Knox who he is, and I bet he falters there. Because do his hobbies really count? When he tries smth new each year and then leaves it all behind. Does his family define him? When he doesn’t really want to call himself neither Wilshire nor Knox. When they say he failed as a brother, and there’s no going back really. His English major (which was the lesser of two evils), unwanted law school. His whole journey is like this tangled yo-yo. If we think about it, Exy is all Jeremy is, not Jean. He’s one of the best strikers, he’s captain of the Sunshine Court, this is where he belongs. But now they want to take it away from him—

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kevin at the beginning of tgr:

jean at the end of tgr:

jean choosing his people over the ravens is so important to me

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the edible kicked in and now I’m stuck thinking about how the sunshine court series is just one large allegory for religious deconstruction

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your teeth are a gift from god and you can sink them into other people's flesh btw

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need him doing something terrible and violent and feeling sick with himself after

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girl help they're taking my fave's extremely thin veneer of swaggering overconfidence at face value