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Based off of @turbobyakuren’s amazing text post on twitter!

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basically I think that if your protagonist doesn’t want to fuck someone so bad it makes them look stupid, then there probably isn’t enough energy in your story. “Fuck someone” isn’t literal btw—they can want to uncover the secrets of their parent’s death, they can want to prove their worth, they can want a donut from one particular bakery—it can be anything so long as they want it so bad that they’ll make decisions that make any sane person go “are you a moron??”, with little to no forethought, or even tons of forethought and this is still the option they chose. Because they want to fuck that thing so bad.

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Hoi again

Hey-ah, me briefly dipping my toes here again =w=/

I have thought about it but I think Tumblr is better for me as a spot to talk about finished projects I've done or had an hand in. Let alone answer asks about them (if gotten any, if not, I may just talk about some things out of excitement and enjoyment, lmao)

So in this case, I haven't forgotten about my Tumblr, I just haven't gotten to use it for something I sooner may enjoy it for, pfft.

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Hey, sorry if you’ve been asked this before, but I have ADHD and I’ve been following your comic for years and just now have started to write my own comic (partially because you really inspired me). But I’m really struggling with staying on the project even when it’s boring and getting myself to work on it in the first place. Do you have any tips on how to keep your brain invested or just to make yourself do the work at all?

I have excellent news, I literally just figured out something really important about this.

So when you're an ADHD kiddo or otherwise have difficulty staying on task in a structured environment where Task is the Priority, the main way people try to MAKE you stay on task is by removing your access to anything that is not The Task. No phone, no TV, no doodling, no going outside, etc. In practice, this just makes us miserable because it takes the boredom that's always simmering around a 2 or 3 and cranks it all the way up to 11. In the same way that you would have difficulty staying on task if you were in physical pain, this crushing existential monotony makes it very difficult to work. The work might get done simply because you have no other options, but it will not be done quickly or well, and it will take a while to recover from how much it hurt.

What I realized earlier this week is I caught myself doing this to myself. I had 42 pages of background colors to do, and I thought to myself "this sounds really tedious, but I suppose I have nothing better I can do." And I realized what I'd just thought, and got very alarmed.

Because back when I was an ADHD kiddo imprisoned by school scheduling and a million little factors that keep children immobile and restrained, I couldn't stop thinking about how big and exciting the world was, and how much I wanted to be anywhere but here. When I was feeling really crushed in I'd pick a random spot on the maps on my wall and just imagine being there instead of my bedroom. This was the impetus behind almost all of my creative energy. I've said it before - anything is a prison if you can't leave, and being in a prison makes it easy to imagine how amazing things could be outside of it. Aurora's initial worldbuilding was forged in the crucible of fifth grade misery. My enthusiasm for art and my creative drive are inextricable from my sense of wonder and yearning for excitement in the real world. Not escapism, but appreciation. Wonders unimaginable are out there, and I gain just as much joy seeking them out as I do conjuring them up in my head and sharing them with all of you.

So now that I'm a grown-up with actual freedom in every way I've been able to get, the idea that I was staying on task by making myself believe the world was small and not worth seeing was extremely alarming. It could keep me on task for an afternoon, but at the cost of slowly extinguishing the thing that made me want to make art in the first place - the hunger to experience and draw inspiration from all the myriad complexities in the world.

So what I've been doing is I've been purposefully and intentionally taking excursions whenever I catch myself thinking "I could take a break but it wouldn't be worth it, it's the same outdoors as always, I'll be uncomfy and unproductive and tired." Because that is never true. Every time I've put down the stylus and gone out, I've been renewed in one way or another, and when I come back to comfort fully recharged I get a lot of shit done. Because it is easier to work on anything if you remember why you wanted to make it in the first place, and it is self-defeating misery to just lock yourself in with it and tell yourself you're a bad person if you can't get it done.

I honestly don't know how widely applicable this is. I have worse wanderlust than anyone I know, so for me this has always been modeled as imprisonment vs freedom. I've also been extremely lucky to find myself in a profession that lets me set my own pace on literally everything I do. But I genuinely believe that when it comes to making art with ADHD, you need to give yourself freedom to move laterally, not just in the direction of obvious forward progress. We don't think linearly in any other part of our lives - art is no different.

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Hey, sorry if you’ve been asked this before, but I have ADHD and I’ve been following your comic for years and just now have started to write my own comic (partially because you really inspired me). But I’m really struggling with staying on the project even when it’s boring and getting myself to work on it in the first place. Do you have any tips on how to keep your brain invested or just to make yourself do the work at all?

I have excellent news, I literally just figured out something really important about this.

So when you're an ADHD kiddo or otherwise have difficulty staying on task in a structured environment where Task is the Priority, the main way people try to MAKE you stay on task is by removing your access to anything that is not The Task. No phone, no TV, no doodling, no going outside, etc. In practice, this just makes us miserable because it takes the boredom that's always simmering around a 2 or 3 and cranks it all the way up to 11. In the same way that you would have difficulty staying on task if you were in physical pain, this crushing existential monotony makes it very difficult to work. The work might get done simply because you have no other options, but it will not be done quickly or well, and it will take a while to recover from how much it hurt.

What I realized earlier this week is I caught myself doing this to myself. I had 42 pages of background colors to do, and I thought to myself "this sounds really tedious, but I suppose I have nothing better I can do." And I realized what I'd just thought, and got very alarmed.

Because back when I was an ADHD kiddo imprisoned by school scheduling and a million little factors that keep children immobile and restrained, I couldn't stop thinking about how big and exciting the world was, and how much I wanted to be anywhere but here. When I was feeling really crushed in I'd pick a random spot on the maps on my wall and just imagine being there instead of my bedroom. This was the impetus behind almost all of my creative energy. I've said it before - anything is a prison if you can't leave, and being in a prison makes it easy to imagine how amazing things could be outside of it. Aurora's initial worldbuilding was forged in the crucible of fifth grade misery. My enthusiasm for art and my creative drive are inextricable from my sense of wonder and yearning for excitement in the real world. Not escapism, but appreciation. Wonders unimaginable are out there, and I gain just as much joy seeking them out as I do conjuring them up in my head and sharing them with all of you.

So now that I'm a grown-up with actual freedom in every way I've been able to get, the idea that I was staying on task by making myself believe the world was small and not worth seeing was extremely alarming. It could keep me on task for an afternoon, but at the cost of slowly extinguishing the thing that made me want to make art in the first place - the hunger to experience and draw inspiration from all the myriad complexities in the world.

So what I've been doing is I've been purposefully and intentionally taking excursions whenever I catch myself thinking "I could take a break but it wouldn't be worth it, it's the same outdoors as always, I'll be uncomfy and unproductive and tired." Because that is never true. Every time I've put down the stylus and gone out, I've been renewed in one way or another, and when I come back to comfort fully recharged I get a lot of shit done. Because it is easier to work on anything if you remember why you wanted to make it in the first place, and it is self-defeating misery to just lock yourself in with it and tell yourself you're a bad person if you can't get it done.

I honestly don't know how widely applicable this is. I have worse wanderlust than anyone I know, so for me this has always been modeled as imprisonment vs freedom. I've also been extremely lucky to find myself in a profession that lets me set my own pace on literally everything I do. But I genuinely believe that when it comes to making art with ADHD, you need to give yourself freedom to move laterally, not just in the direction of obvious forward progress. We don't think linearly in any other part of our lives - art is no different.

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Red, I'm bothered by how much I relate to Tess but even more bothered by me not having yet found my spark

Any words you can give?

There are many things in life you can't control, but the trajectory of your life will still be shaped by your choices, and nobody can make those choices for you.

If you feel powerless or aimless or generally lacking in self-determination, reach inside yourself right now and make an active choice - any choice, no matter how small. Choose to stand up and stretch, choose to go for a walk, choose to mitigate a discomfort you're feeling, choose to look up a skill you're curious about, choose to try something new.

Teach yourself that you have the power to move yourself, and teach yourself to feel the pull towards the things you want to achieve, and then teach yourself to follow that pull one step at a time. This is how we build agency from the ground up.

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(Edit, including the link here since either Tumblr did a oops or I did, pfft: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bv7w1n7jnDM )

Hi hi~

It's been a bit since a posted on here, back back in a college class and thinking about what I wanna use my Tumblr for will do that, lmao

But I come here with a post!

I took part in my pal @maplemoriko 's Lucas vs Everything Collab!

Through concept art PK Torremt (as shown, using the notes @kirb-crew gave me), along with use of PSI Shield Sprites I made for fun in my spare time! (They're the Blue Diamond [PSI Shield, Beta and Omega] and Pink Shaped Octagon with a small Diamond in it [PSI Counter/Reflect].) Along with something else I'll keep hush hush so y'all will sooner watch it, lmao

It's movie length, so if ya do, grab some popcorn.

Anywho, this was fun! I hope to continue doing stuff like this~

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"Yes Ted, it is me, Sabrina."

I uploaded this to Twitter and figured my Tumblr could enjoy this upload too.

Aight so context, since I doubt most folks will understand why this was 100% hilarious.

So yesterday, TheCharityRoom started their charity event yesterday to raise money. I missed Ape Escape live, so I decided to catch Mario Kart 8 when I was able to. But then I noticed something. I was able to join into the Friend Match since I had a friend in there. I stared at it for a bit and thought along the lines of "Maybe I shouldn't. It's for charity and such. I'm just a friend of a friend so most of them in there likely won't know me."

.....

"But maybe it'll be funny. They won't immediately notice me, right?"

Nah someone immediately fucking noticed, but that's not the funny part. The funny part was that Ted (ExandShadow) thought I was my pal Sabrina (CorithyMoon) without hearing my voice. (She was aiming to come in soon, that's why he assumed I was her before my username showed up before the game started.)

[Now for context: Viewers have confused me for Sabrina, along with a bud of mine who thinks we sound similar. While I kinda get it, I feel that sound raspier or so than Sabrina and now thinking about it, I feel like our laughing sounds different. If anything I often wheeze laugh, lol. So for Ted to do that, even for a second is so fucking funny to me.]

Me crashing into the session doesn't stop there.

So I get called a "Rando" (100% fair) but things keep getting funny. I had another friend in the room called Trav (ThatTavGuy), said at point near the end of the Balloon Battle Mode Match "I'm going to be upset if the Rando wins."

I fucking won XD

(Despite not personally caring for Battle Mode, pffft.)

The reactions after that were fucking funny but I did leave for a nanosecond after that (as I couldn't tell if one of them in the call saying "Kick them, kick them out." were being serious, joking or both; plus I shouldn't be in there anyways :"D) as Trav went, "OH THAT'S CHILLAX." and vouched for me. (Tbf on Trav, shockingly we didn't swap Switch codes so he didn't know my name on there.)

So after crashing I got to stay in for rest of the event, lol.

Also Sabrina did later come into the MK8 matches, asking Ted the story of how he somehow confused me for her, lmao

So that's the story of how I crashed a TheCharityRoom session and got confused for Sabrina (again). Got no idea if I'd be able to do it again XD

But I did have fun, lol.

And if any of the crew finds this post or the other one I made on Twitter, I won't do it again if that was a bad, even if it was entertaining. Apologizes if it was a bad :'D

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Learning to delete/mute/block before a negative comment takes root in your mind is a modern survival skill. If you're going to wander the overgrown countryside of the internet, you need to develop a quick eye for ticks.

It's deeply tempting to respond to the "well, actually," to the cruel assumption, to the unjust accusation, to the odious viewpoint. It's tempting because you're defaulting to the etiquette of dinner conversation. This isn't a dinner conversation. Someone is shouting at you from a moving car. Turn away.

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I slept in and just woke up, so here's what I've been able to figure out while sipping coffee:

Twitter has officially rebranded to X just a day or two after the move was announced.

The official branding is that a tweet is now called "an X", for which there are too many jokes to make.

The official account is still @twitter because someone else owns @X and they didn't reclaim the username first.

The logo is 𝕏 which is the Unicode character Unicode U+1D54F so the logo cannot be copyrighted and it is highly likely that it cannot be protected as a trademark.

Outside the visual logo, the trademark for the use of the name "X" in social media is held by Meta/Facebook, while the trademark for "X" in finance/commerce is owned by Microsoft.

The rebranding has been stopped in Japan as the term "X Japan" is trademarked by the band X JAPAN.

Elon had workers taking down the "Twitter" name from the side of the building. He did not have any permits to do this. The building owner called the cops who stopped the crew midway through so the sign just says "er".

He still plans to call his streaming and media hosting branch of the company as "Xvideo". Nobody tell him.

This man wants you to give him control over all of your financial information.

Edit to add further developments:

Yes, this is all real. Check the notes and people have pictures. I understand the skepticism because it feels like a joke, but to the best of my knowledge, everything in the above is accurate.

Microsoft also owns the trademark on X for chatting and gaming because, y'know, X-box.

The logo came from a random podcaster who tweeted it at Musk.

The act of sending a tweet is now known as "Xeet". They even added a guide for how to Xeet.

The branding change is inconsistent. Some icons have changed, some have not, and the words "tweet" and "Twitter" are still all over the place on the site.

TweetDeck is currently unaffected and I hope it's because they forgot that it exists again. The complete negligence toward that tool and just leaving it the hell alone is the only thing that makes the site usable (and some of us are stuck on there for work).

This is likely because Musk was forced out of PayPal due to a failed credit line project and because he wanted to rename the site to "X-Paypal" and eventually just to "X".

This became a big deal behind the scenes as Musk paid over $1 million for the domain X.com and wanted to rebrand the company that already had the brand awareness people were using it as a verb to "pay online" (as in "I'll paypal you the money")

X.com is not currently owned by Musk. It is held by a domain registrar (I believe GoDaddy but I'm not entirely sure). Meaning as long as he's hung onto this idea of making X Corp a thing, he couldn't be arsed to pay the $15/year domain renewal.

Bloomberg estimates the rebranding wiped between $4 to $20 billion from the valuation of Twitter due to the loss of brand awareness.

The company was already worth less than half of the $44 billion Musk paid for it in the first place, meaning this may end up a worse deal than when Yahoo bought Tumblr.

One estimation (though this is with a grain of salt) said that Twitter is three months from defaulting on its loans taken out to buy the site. Those loans were secured with Tesla stock. Meaning the bank will seize that stock and, since it won't be enough to pay the debt (since it's worth around 50-75% of what it was at the time of the loan), they can start seizing personal assets of Elon Musk including the Twitter company itself and his interest in SpaceX.

Sesame Street's official accounts mocked the rebranding.

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*looks at this late last week*

*sees a Toad OC*

Me: “OHHHHH MY RIGHT HAND’S A SHAKEN!”

*draws this today*

It seems during Mario's latest adventure, he went missing!

Now it's up to the trusty companions he's met along the way to find him, in an adventure all their own!

In Paper Allies: The Search for Mario!

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"I think X is a genius new name for Twitter."

"Really? Why's that?"

"Because after all these terrible new changes, it represents the people kissing this site goodbye!"

"DOHOHOHOHOHOHO"

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Actually also have this time I drew @maplemoriko​ as a Kirby since I was on a Kirby art kick during Early to Mid 2022, LOL

Posting the first main time I drew my bud @maplemoriko

MapleMoriko's Channel: https://www.youtube.com/c/MapleMoriko/videos

(Yes I like drawing big long hair and making hair longer than it normally is, lol)

I even streamed the finishing touches too, including a speedpaint if ya wanna see!

Speedpaint: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SIeobba1Lww

VOD: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8tMhciW7dlo

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Posting the first main time I drew my bud @maplemoriko

MapleMoriko's Channel: https://www.youtube.com/c/MapleMoriko/videos

(Yes I like drawing big long hair and making hair longer than it normally is, lol)

I even streamed the finishing touches too, including a speedpaint if ya wanna see!

Speedpaint: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SIeobba1Lww

VOD: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8tMhciW7dlo

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when designing characters, whats ur thought process behind them?

My first thought is personality, then occupation. Then try to incorporate that into the design. I’ll use my Beelzebub redesign for example. (Pulled this from insta because I don’t have the file on hand):

She’s described as a party girl and an animal trainer, so I tried to mash the two designs together. The typical uniform with fluffy boots and a uniform that is pulled back rather than around her body

Because she’s described as an animal trainer and very close to the hellhounds, I implemented animal elements while still keeping the bee design. A long tail to both emulate an animal’s tail and a whip (hence why it’s so skinny), She has tiger stripes instead of regular bee stripes to simulate animal patterns, 4 limbs instead of 6 when relaxed (like the hellhounds), and her wings function as a big cape when in its relaxed mode.

Big white fluff to emphasize the performer element, but also because Bees are very fluffy themselves. I wanted her to look like a Bee (even gave her a thorax in some very rough sketches), but decided not to go all the way, keep that animal/demon aesthetic to her.

Skull in the back as a badass design but also because the original Beelzebub fly had skulls on his wings. He was also beefy as hell as a human which is why (gestures to the left side).

Spiral eyes because… well tbh that was just pulled from my own lore. Spiral eyes represent power in Monsters in Girls, also they look cool.

Her hair turns into fire in her “big” mode because fire looks aggressive and powerful compared to the relaxed lava lamp vibe.

Her hair changes colors depending on emotions, to emulate those lava lamps that change colors

Shes also taller than Vortex because well. I mean come on she’s a female bug. She gotta be taller than the male.

I actually wanted to do an animal hybrid alt where she’d be a lion with lava hear, but making her half look would have made me alter the design way more than I had time for, because I still wanted to make it cohesive.

I also tend to do some sketches to really figure out how I want a character to look. Some roughs for example while planning out the design:

(I wasn’t kidding when I said I really enjoyed doing this)

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Hello i'm a normal person here's some stuff i drew to illustrate different traits different "person getting controlled" tropes can have

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2pm posting let's gooooo

Next up on the "Introducing my PMD-Outlaws Train", it's Team Prepensed Punchers!

My 2nd team in the group, both v1 and v2 (Sonia added) for the main team app! While Sonia didn't change too much (aside from more scars beyond her eye), Ninami changed more with better anatomy, her "hat hair" downwards (like from her PMDUnity sketch design) but still no visible clown nose. Somethings can change but liked keeping that quirky, lmao.

Ninami's teammate, Sonia later joined her team, whether Ninami likes it, or not! (Note, Ninami doesn't like it, she doesn't like it at all but she's gotta deal with it XD)

Ni, needs someone to be the team muscle because clearly this little Mime ain't that, lol

More info on both: https://www.deviantart.com/learn2chillax/art/PMD-Outlaws-Team-Prepensed-Punchers-890604170