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hi everybody! i’m xan/emi & some of you may know me from my roleplay blogs or my occasional arcana shitpost. do you see that overwhelming amount of art right there? well it’s because you’re about to have another person on your dashboard begging for your money! no, but in all seriousness i do have a very urgent, very important reason for making this post; my little brother, who is fifteen, was stabbed in his left abdomen. this wouldn’t be the sort of issue i would usually want to make public but i would also like you to keep in mind: this boy lives twelve hours away from me. this means in order to see him, i will have to find a way to get enough money to actually get there & back. i’m not comfortable publicly saying the locations where we are, but i am more than willing to share them if you would like to know in private. 

i need to raise $250 for a plane ticket to get there, so please consider: commissioning me. 

i will draw you whatever you want for the price that you name. i’ll take whatever you can/are willing to offer & i will draw you nearly anything you want. all i ask is that i get the money up front — this is more so that i can buy the plane ticket soon as possible & get to him even sooner. if, in the event, i don’t raise enough money to get to him i will refund every single donation or commission & still make whatever art you were going to commission me. 

please, even if you don’t want to commission me, consider donating to my payal. you can find it here, at https://www.paypal.me/xaniaemi . i try to help when people are in need, i really do, so please consider at least spreading the word. i really really don’t want him to go through this without the support of his family. thank you so much for taking the time to read this.

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wanna suck on a boys neck till his eyes flutter shut and he’s panting and grabbing onto fistfuls of my hair

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DID U GET UR PSD FROM VENUS BC I LOVE IT AND I ALSO GOT A SIMILAR ONE ;;;;))))

aHHHHHH!!!!!! YES!!!! I DID!!! i opened this while i was at work a few days ago & i just haven’t had the chance to reply but honestly venus owns my ass blessed be the psds that make my icons pretty

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sentence prompts ➝ rocky horror picture show

❝Are you having a party?❞

❝Oh, I just love success.❞

❝Do your worst, inferior one!❞

❝Madness takes it toll.❞

❝You killed them!❞

❝By night, i’m one hell of a lover.❞

❝You’re too kind.❞

❝I really love that rock n’ roll.❞

❝My life is a misery.❞

❝You liked it, didn’t you?❞

❝I’m going home.❞

❝Give yourself over to absolute pleasure.❞

❝He never caused her nothing but shame.❞

❝My feet! I can’t move my feet.❞

❝Don’t get hot and flustered!❞

❝I’ll put up no resistance, I want to stay the distance.❞

❝If there’s one fool for you then I am it.❞

❝I’m dressed up with no place to go.❞

❝I’m out of my head.❞

❝I loved you. Do you hear me? I loved you!❞

❝I grow weary of this world.❞

❝I’ll oil you up and rub you down.❞

❝Let me show you around.❞

❝That’s a rather tender subject.❞

❝Hahahaha - SHUT UP.❞

❝I’m frightened. What kind of place is this?❞

❝I could show you my favorite obsession.❞

❝I’d only ever kissed before.❞

❝I don’t want no dissension. Just dynamic tension.❞

❝Nothing can ever be the same.❞

❝I’ve got an itch to scratch. I need assistance.❞

❝When you knocked, he thought you were the candy man.❞

❝Your apple pie don’t taste too nice.❞

❝Do you have any tattoos?❞

❝They didn’t like me. They never liked me.❞

❝Don’t dream it, be it.❞

❝But it seems so unhealthy here.❞

❝Oh, dear, you’re hurt! Did they do this to you?❞

❝Your new playmate is loose.❞

❝I have never been a quitter.❞

❝I would like, if I may, to take you on a strange journey.❞

❝I’ve tasted blood and I want more.❞

❝It’s just a jump to the left.❞

❝Even smiling makes my face ache.❞

❝There’s no crime in giving yourself over to pleasure.❞

❝I’m prepared to forgive you.❞

❝Don’t be upset. It was a mercy killing.❞

❝Well, you got caught with a flat. Well, how ‘bout that?❞

❝A mental mind fuck can be nice.❞

❝That’s not way to behave on your first day out.❞

❝You’re like a sponge. You take, take, take and drain others of their love and emotion.❞

❝If only we were amongst friends or sane persons.❞

❝Don’t judge a book by its cover.❞

❝I thought there’s no use getting into heavy petting. It only leads to trouble.❞

❝I see you shiver with antici..pation.❞

❝You’re lucky. He’s lucky. I’m lucky. We’re all lucky!❞

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           by the time his back hits the wall, his mind is already working. every thought runs through a list of possibilities, retaliations, some way to get himself out of the situation. he had meant for it to be quick, to grab what he could & pocket it.t he would be gone before she even knew anything had happened... but of course, things were not that simple for fawn. they never would. there always had to be some unforeseen variable, something he hadn’t thought of; this was a great example. he still wasn’t sure what it was that had hit him, who it was that he had crossed. cognac eyes are alight with nervous energy as he freezes, waiting for another move. another reaction/ he feels his voice rise in his throat, though he knows it would be smarter to keep it locked away, “ you caught me! what now? “

@urltraviolences // sc 

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you hate me? wow u think ur hot shit and original huh well i hated me first so u can go grab a number and wait ur turn

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things i need: someone nearly killin’ fawn’s dumb ass because he is a dumbass

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what's a headcanon you don't talk about often?

              inhales. alright, so i have this super important headcanon that i don’t talk about often. it’s out of a mix of things, the biggest two being 1) i do not want to be disrespectful to anyone in real life who works in this line of work & 2) i do not want to make anyone think that i’m using the subject to be edgy… but, i’m gonna talk about it right now because an opportunity has presented himself.

fawn has always been heavily involved in sex work? it started when he was younger, before he joined the resistance. as a child he was able to beg to food/money or put people at ease long enough to steal something off of them in the name of survial, but when he got older he kind of lost that advantage…? he knew he was a relatively attractive guy & he’d never necessarily been modest? so he immediately put that on the table as a means of survial. the concept of sex work never effected him very deeply; to him, it was just a job, a means of making money. merchants sold goods, he sold other his skills. 

in the beginning, he wasn’t smart about it. he ran into more than a few really awful situations. he learned the trade through trial & error & eventually became pretty good at it. it’s a big part of how he & edessa saved up enough to get off planet. edessa was never fond of the idea, but knew that what she said wouldn’t stop fawn? & in the end, fawn was an adult & his body was his own to do with as he pleased.

when he joined the resistance, it’s pretty obvious it wasn’t necessary anymore so he put a stop to it. when he abandoned the resistance, however, he did resort to a lot of his old ways of survival. stealing, cheating, general law-breaking. sometimes when he’s in a tight spot he will resort to sex work but it’s just about the same as any other job to him? do what needs to be done, get the money, leave. 

this probably seems choppy but it’s just because??? i’m always spooked about sharing it with people. i just…don’t want to be disrespectful or anything close to it. my mother was involved in sex work & i just??? i don’t want this to feel like i’m doing it for the shock appeal or to be edgy. it’s just… a part of fawn’s life, you know?

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           um… starter call? starter call.

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fawn targon is 5′4″. thanks for listening to my ted talk.

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what's a headcanon you don't talk about often?

              inhales. alright, so i have this super important headcanon that i don’t talk about often. it’s out of a mix of things, the biggest two being 1) i do not want to be disrespectful to anyone in real life who works in this line of work & 2) i do not want to make anyone think that i’m using the subject to be edgy… but, i’m gonna talk about it right now because an opportunity has presented himself.

fawn has always been heavily involved in sex work? it started when he was younger, before he joined the resistance. as a child he was able to beg to food/money or put people at ease long enough to steal something off of them in the name of survial, but when he got older he kind of lost that advantage…? he knew he was a relatively attractive guy & he’d never necessarily been modest? so he immediately put that on the table as a means of survial. the concept of sex work never effected him very deeply; to him, it was just a job, a means of making money. merchants sold goods, he sold other his skills. 

in the beginning, he wasn’t smart about it. he ran into more than a few really awful situations. he learned the trade through trial & error & eventually became pretty good at it. it’s a big part of how he & edessa saved up enough to get off planet. edessa was never fond of the idea, but knew that what she said wouldn’t stop fawn? & in the end, fawn was an adult & his body was his own to do with as he pleased.

when he joined the resistance, it’s pretty obvious it wasn’t necessary anymore so he put a stop to it. when he abandoned the resistance, however, he did resort to a lot of his old ways of survival. stealing, cheating, general law-breaking. sometimes when he’s in a tight spot he will resort to sex work but it’s just about the same as any other job to him? do what needs to be done, get the money, leave. 

this probably seems choppy but it’s just because??? i’m always spooked about sharing it with people. i just…don’t want to be disrespectful or anything close to it. my mother was involved in sex work & i just??? i don’t want this to feel like i’m doing it for the shock appeal or to be edgy. it’s just… a part of fawn’s life, you know?

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me, yelling: fawn likes boys me, yelling: fawn likes girls  me, SCREECHING: LET HIM SMOOCH 

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“While we’re sharing surprises, you’ve done a lot less dancing naked in the moonlight than expected.”

          “ — hm, now isn’t that an idea? “ when he speaks, his words are bright. a smirk pulls ever so slightly at the corners of his lips… & he plays with the musing for half a moment, the thought dancing in his eyes. she may have just put an idea in his head, “ it would definitely be exciting. “

meme // highkey accepting tbh

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*moans when im stretching to let all the boys get a taste of what it is like to fuck me*

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fawn’s anthem tbh

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Dorian Pavus Quotes Starters

“Did I stutter? Men, and the company thereof. As in sex. Surely you’ve heard of it.”

“Did everyone act like this when the sword was invented? ‘Oh, my blushing butt cheeks! Round up everyone who can use these pointy things and lock them away!’”

“I always smile. People like my smile, and they should! I have excellent teeth.”

“I knew you would break my heart, you bloody bastard.”

“I prefer the company of men. My father disapproves.”

“I wanted to see you make flowers bloom with your song, just once.”

“I’m here to set things right. Also? To look dashing. That part’s less difficult.”

“I’m too pretty to die!”

“Just once, we should enter a cave and see normal-sized spiders.”

“Look at this profile. Isn’t it incredible? I picture it in marble.”

“My arse should open up a shop! Apparently it’s quite prolific.”

“Pretty, in a haunting, ‘this archway might collapse on me at any moment’ way.”

“Selfish, I suppose, not to want to spend my entire life screaming on the inside.”

“Some of my best friends are murderers.”

“Stranger things have happened. It would take work. And soap. Lots and lots of soap.”

“What a lovely forest. Kind of makes you want to retch, yes?”

“While we’re sharing surprises, you’ve done a lot less dancing naked in the moonlight than expected.”

“You tried to change me.”

“You wanted the best for you! For your fucking legacy! Anything for that!”

“You’d be surprised at the credit my tongue gets me.”

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Would you please send this to the first 10 people in your dash? Make sure someone gets a hug today and stay safe!

              bless your face, this is super sweet! i’ll be sure to send out all of the love <3