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its been an hour aha

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i wish he cared i wish they care whys dont they care about what theyve done to me

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i just want things to be okay again i cant cope

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i cant so this im trying i cant

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why am i doing this

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im going to explode if i have to keep this up any longer lmao i hate that im bot allowed to fucking have feelings and talk about them now i hate this

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ive taken 2 of my meds, and im doing some calming stuff. i can understand he wouldnt have been his best self, he was tired, i can understand that. i want to talk about it when he wakes up, i want to work this out.

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now i feel like i have to stick to it or hell get all smug like he predicted i was just being dramamtic

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youre so painfully unaware its fucking killing me how are you so fucking blind

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i know you dont care today and it hurts more

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meds taken hopefully i can sleep soon

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im back at how i felt before thw sick anxiety that makes me so nauseus i cant even sit up i cant breathe i cant calm down im fucking panicking

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i cant calm down ive gone from angry to fucking terrified i cant breathe

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they have tommys post notifs on i think oh fuckfuck aaaa i cant remember how tumblr post notifs show up if itll show the text or what

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posting on the wrong blog and having a physical heart attack this is amazing im having fun i love living like this

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i cant ever tell them this has hurt me or scared me i cant be upset or ask them anything because theyll blownup on me and i cant do this

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i knownhow they get drunk i know theyll be telling everyone everything i know theyll be messaging eli or doing something else idek and i dont wsnt to think about it but fuck im scared