legit-cwilbur

[legit-cwilbur]

replace one word of your url with bitch

[legit-cwilbur]

undeserving of your sympathy

[legit-cwilbur]

I hope any cTommy fictives/fictionkins are having a good day. And if they're not, I hope it gets better for them. Totally not because I'm being concerned over an Internet stranger's well being who I've never met before and that I definitely do not miss my own brother and are projecting these feelings them as a way to cope? Who would even do such a thing. Not me ahhaha

-some old fuck

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[legit-cwilbur]

Alrighty! :D

also, you mentioned copinglink. i thought i could’ve been copinglink at the start too, haha. basically copinglink is that you’re voluntarily choosing to identify as a character for the purpose of coping, to my understanding at least. i’d say that’s a little different from what you’re experiencing since it sounds like you’re just regularly feeling feels instead of actively maintaining a connection to a character. the thing that got me to realize that i was fictionkin instead of copinglink was that i saw someone say “coping mechanisms don’t require coping mechanisms.” no idea where i heard that, but i’m passing it on to you. coping could still be part of that original reason that got you to latch onto him, but that still puts you in fictionkin territory.

welcome to the bur club LMAO

Oooooh, I see, I see. Yeah, probably not me in that case as this certainly doesn't feel like a coping mechanism.

And ty! I'm... happy's not the word but I sure am here now LMAO

[legit-cwilbur]

Honestly, that would be great! I'd be happy to meet some others if they're both down for it

also, you mentioned copinglink. i thought i could’ve been copinglink at the start too, haha. basically copinglink is that you’re voluntarily choosing to identify as a character for the purpose of coping, to my understanding at least. i’d say that’s a little different from what you’re experiencing since it sounds like you’re just regularly feeling feels instead of actively maintaining a connection to a character. the thing that got me to realize that i was fictionkin instead of copinglink was that i saw someone say “coping mechanisms don’t require coping mechanisms.” no idea where i heard that, but i’m passing it on to you. coping could still be part of that original reason that got you to latch onto him, but that still puts you in fictionkin territory.

welcome to the bur club LMAO

Oooooh, I see, I see. Yeah, probably not me in that case as this certainly doesn't feel like a coping mechanism.

And ty! I'm... happy's not the word but I sure am here now LMAO

[legit-cwilbur]

I hope so! It's already been super helpful just chatting with you so :D

also, you mentioned copinglink. i thought i could’ve been copinglink at the start too, haha. basically copinglink is that you’re voluntarily choosing to identify as a character for the purpose of coping, to my understanding at least. i’d say that’s a little different from what you’re experiencing since it sounds like you’re just regularly feeling feels instead of actively maintaining a connection to a character. the thing that got me to realize that i was fictionkin instead of copinglink was that i saw someone say “coping mechanisms don’t require coping mechanisms.” no idea where i heard that, but i’m passing it on to you. coping could still be part of that original reason that got you to latch onto him, but that still puts you in fictionkin territory.

welcome to the bur club LMAO

Oooooh, I see, I see. Yeah, probably not me in that case as this certainly doesn't feel like a coping mechanism.

And ty! I'm... happy's not the word but I sure am here now LMAO

[legit-cwilbur]

also, you mentioned copinglink. i thought i could’ve been copinglink at the start too, haha. basically copinglink is that you’re voluntarily choosing to identify as a character for the purpose of coping, to my understanding at least. i’d say that’s a little different from what you’re experiencing since it sounds like you’re just regularly feeling feels instead of actively maintaining a connection to a character. the thing that got me to realize that i was fictionkin instead of copinglink was that i saw someone say “coping mechanisms don’t require coping mechanisms.” no idea where i heard that, but i’m passing it on to you. coping could still be part of that original reason that got you to latch onto him, but that still puts you in fictionkin territory.

welcome to the bur club LMAO

Oooooh, I see, I see. Yeah, probably not me in that case as this certainly doesn't feel like a coping mechanism.

And ty! I'm... happy's not the word but I sure am here now LMAO

[legit-cwilbur]

Finally found a trenchcoat that doesn't (entirely) swamp me, but alas, I live in a stupid fucking desert. I hate it here.

[legit-cwilbur]

You're right on the money with all of those stream guesses (along with a majority of Hitting on 16 and the bullshit apology streams, cuz that sure wasn't a fun time!)

And yeah, that's some advice I'll definitely take. I've always had a bad habit of over psycho-analyzing myself (which I'm sure isn't a surprise in the slightest) so to get this kind of reassurance seriously helps! I definitely feel pretty confident in saying I'm a fictionkin at this point (for better or for worse) :D

hello! i see that you’re questioning being fictionkin, so i thought maybe i could try to help at least a little because i was in your shoes not too long ago. best way i can sum it up for me is just that it all feels so fucking personal. it’s less about personality or memories or whatnot and more about how a sense of self is shared or something along those lines that you just can’t quite like go of, like they���re talking about you and not just a fictional character. just wanted to chime in my two cents; i’m happy to talk about stuff more in depth if you’re at all interested in comparing! best of luck with questioning :]

Thank you so much, this actually helps loads!

Honestly when you phrase it like that it does all seem to click into place a lot more. That was the main thing that got me thinking about all of this was that it did feel so damn personal. I remember back when the streams were still happening my mood would genuinely be effected based on what c!Wilbur experienced. There's a handful of streams/clips that I can't watch to this day because they genuinely make me so distressed and I always thought I was so odd for having that kind of reaction.

This genuinely is so helpful thank you heavily. I think that's the exact kind of explanation I needed to make it make it sense in my mind! Especially considering I think what was making me the most hesitant was all the information I first saw on fictionkins made me form almost a checklist of symptoms where if I didn't have all of them I didn't feel comfortable identifying with it. But when you phrase it that way it actually fits incredibly accurately!

[legit-cwilbur]

On my main account I currently have a disclaimer saying I don't condone William Gold and c!Wilbur is now my personal little OC

Idk how to feel about that anymore LMAO. Like do I change that??? He's not my OC, I am him, but also I have irls who follow my main so I dunno if I feel comfortable broadcasting that there hmmmmm

[legit-cwilbur]

The funny thing with c!Philza is like, I know in a sense he's my dad. I certainly have memories and opinions of that. But also, no the hell he isn't because my irl father is leagues better and I'm much happier w/ him as my dad, pls and ty.

c!Phil's the lesser dad in this situation, I suppose

[legit-cwilbur]

I'd like to promise I'll stop making so many long ass ramble posts, but you all know that is a blatant lie. I am the king of never shutting the fuck up and I wear that crown with honor

[legit-cwilbur]

Oh and to add onto this with another moment I didn't dare tell anyone: when c!Wilbur finally properly learned of c!Tommy's exile and had that whole daydream of beating the ever loving shit out of c!Dream, I broke into a fit of maniacal laughter.

I don't know how else to describe it. I literally sat there beaming and laughing in utter delight seeing that jackass be hurt for what he did. And immediately felt very unsettled with myself afterwards. So. Add that to the list of "reactions I had that prove I fs was not having a casual enjoyer moment"

Also, haven't discussed it here before, but I do think I'm... somewhat a Ghostbur fictionkin as well? Sort of. I've always viewed the two as separate people, and in lots of ways I don't feel connected to him as I do cWil

But something (honestly the BIGGEST thing) that even way back in 2021 told me I "wasn't normal" was Ghostbur's death/cWilbur's revival. To this day I can't watch the majority of that stream. When it first happened I had a meltdown, couldn't remember most of it, and when I went to watch it again I had to stop because I had a panic attack. Yet, in juxtapose of that, I felt nothing but pure euphoric joy watching cWil first realize he was alive and back in the living world

I always kept that to myself because it felt incredibly dramatic to say "I can't watch one of my favorite characters die because I'll have a legitimate panic attack." But it's true to this day. I have to scroll past clips, skip a video if it plays the audio, etc, etc. And then, again, in contrast, I screen-recorded cWil's first moments back and would often play it on loop because it made me so genuinely happy

That was always the biggest sign to me that things weren't "normal" with me and those characters. Only took me four fucking years to finally see why

[legit-cwilbur]

Also, haven't discussed it here before, but I do think I'm... somewhat a Ghostbur fictionkin as well? Sort of. I've always viewed the two as separate people, and in lots of ways I don't feel connected to him as I do cWil

But something (honestly the BIGGEST thing) that even way back in 2021 told me I "wasn't normal" was Ghostbur's death/cWilbur's revival. To this day I can't watch the majority of that stream. When it first happened I had a meltdown, couldn't remember most of it, and when I went to watch it again I had to stop because I had a panic attack. Yet, in juxtapose of that, I felt nothing but pure euphoric joy watching cWil first realize he was alive and back in the living world

I always kept that to myself because it felt incredibly dramatic to say "I can't watch one of my favorite characters die because I'll have a legitimate panic attack." But it's true to this day. I have to scroll past clips, skip a video if it plays the audio, etc, etc. And then, again, in contrast, I screen-recorded cWil's first moments back and would often play it on loop because it made me so genuinely happy

That was always the biggest sign to me that things weren't "normal" with me and those characters. Only took me four fucking years to finally see why

[legit-cwilbur]

While I now know having memories is not a requirement, I do think there are one or two things that stick out really clearly in my mind that I want to write down for the sake of "experiment". These are things that for years I always saw as my personal headcanons, but I saw them so strongly that even though there was no real evidence of it in canon I treated it as such because something in me was just so damn convinced it was real (so... memories, likely).

From age 14 onward I owned a poetry book. It wasn't necessarily good poetry, but I would try and write about anything and everything to conceptualize it in a more metaphorical way (big metaphors guy, I am). I remember it being a thick brown leather book filled to the brim with parchment. Thing was basically falling apart by the point of revival but I love it anyway

I think I remember living in a cabin when I was very little. It was in a secluded area, though there was a village somewhat nearby. I would be there alone a lot when Phil would travel (which was quite often I believe). Big ol' house, nature, and me. The grass was tall, a beautiful light shade of green. And there was some big cliche shady tree that I'd sit under all the time. Might've had a dog but idk, it's pretty fuzzy

I met Tommy when I was traveling on my own. I think I was like... 17?? the child was probably 9 or 10, just living in the surrounding woods I think. I don't believe Tubbo was there. Maybe he joined down the line, I can't recall. We traveled together for a good long while. We must've split off for a little cause I remember reuniting at the dsmp, but I can't remember why or how long or any of that

I have a very clear image of looking up at the stars in early day L'Manberg, guitar in hand, everyone gathered around a small campfire and talking quietly. Well, Tommy and Tubbo were loud, but the moment feels quiet. This one is odd to think about though because in irl (I don't know how else to refer to like... the life I've lived as my irl self?) when I was younger I went camping several times and looked up at the stars while sat at a campfire, so the memories almost overlap each other to the point it feels funny, if that makes any sense

That's all I can think of for now. Honestly kind of bizarre how real (for lack of a better word) these memories feel now that I'm taking the time to actually address them. All of this is so damn odd. Not bad though, just new.

[legit-cwilbur]

hello! i see that you’re questioning being fictionkin, so i thought maybe i could try to help at least a little because i was in your shoes not too long ago. best way i can sum it up for me is just that it all feels so fucking personal. it’s less about personality or memories or whatnot and more about how a sense of self is shared or something along those lines that you just can’t quite like go of, like they’re talking about you and not just a fictional character. just wanted to chime in my two cents; i’m happy to talk about stuff more in depth if you’re at all interested in comparing! best of luck with questioning :]

Thank you so much, this actually helps loads!

Honestly when you phrase it like that it does all seem to click into place a lot more. That was the main thing that got me thinking about all of this was that it did feel so damn personal. I remember back when the streams were still happening my mood would genuinely be effected based on what c!Wilbur experienced. There's a handful of streams/clips that I can't watch to this day because they genuinely make me so distressed and I always thought I was so odd for having that kind of reaction.

This genuinely is so helpful thank you heavily. I think that's the exact kind of explanation I needed to make it make it sense in my mind! Especially considering I think what was making me the most hesitant was all the information I first saw on fictionkins made me form almost a checklist of symptoms where if I didn't have all of them I didn't feel comfortable identifying with it. But when you phrase it that way it actually fits incredibly accurately!

[legit-cwilbur]

Alright I think I've met my spontaneous yapping quota for the night, I'm going to sleep (will probably continue to ponder[TM] just in the dark staring at a wall now)