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Salem invited me to Ethan’s house🥺❤️

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I love you Salem

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I’ve been working towards this form this version of myself for a very long time. A very long time. And I’m reaching it and I’m embodying it.

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Riley “you know everyone so intimately you’re so good at this” 🥺🥺🥺🥺”you’re fast you’re accurate and you know everyone deeply” butterfly out of cocoon remembering who I Aam

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Pile 3

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Watching Elmo in grouchland with Salem and he got me foot pads for my aching feet and an ice pack that I can strap to my foot🥹and he ordered my favorite pizza and said “do you wanna see the pizza I built?” And it was all my favorite toppings even though he could’ve gotten whatever. 😭my baby my sweetheart

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I can’t believe I ever think anyones above or below me it’s so natural it’s so Heinous and cruel . But I’m not here to be perfect I’m here to be Me 🥺and I can change if I want to. And I think having an element of darkness is important and healthy

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Blogging and being a Mercurial representative 🕊

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Mercury conjunct my Venus … loving to speak. Speaking and speaking. When I write my book when I write my book. I’m writing it and always have been to be honest.

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Kratom 🤝 writing

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It’s as vital as being humble and knowing your true significance as a blip on the radar so to speak. And “chiefly” it’s important to me

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Certain contexts and that I am fixed in parts of me that I am becoming much more open to. I do have beliefs that guide me. I do have anger when I feel wronged, and feel that certain things are wrong. Virgo. Salem is texting me about the lamb he’s eating and how delicious it is. I love him. He’s like me and I can feel that. Landing softly and promising not to judge each other. I think that is a Pillar of our relationship, and we bridge those sacred beliefs together. Sharing my vulnerabilities with him and my “imperfections” has genuinely had a positive impact on me and has helped me to grow and mature more solidly, his presence makes me feel more open to exploration and experimentation, even if it’s just my own “open the gate” mentality about it. Sometimes it is. But I feel his sacredness and I revere him. I respect him and I do see him as my equal. He has given me strength and I have given him strength. Even when it’s petty or we miscommunicate, I feel he’s someone I can show up better for every time. I think a lot of our fears come up together and at the same times. Mostly of rejection or judgement. Because we work best when we know that at the front our minds, that we are safe to be ourselves. 🥺I think that’s pretty universal (Pisces Jupiter retrograde—- aka not just his “something only he can give me”) but I honor it as if it isn’t. I think that’s a cancerian level of true love. Holding what is yours with care and attentiveness as if it cannot be replaced, even if it can. And I see that as a virtue. I hold it up in my 11th. I shine when I treat everyone this way. And I love to do it secretly. Make every person feel special and loved for the child they are inside. So many of us need that deeply, and we are starved of it. I love you Samantha. The specialness , the ego. It’s vital.

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Watching this in bed Salem just called me at his little sisters wedding while I wait for him at home in the air conditioning <3 just took a tinyyyy bit of Kratom just sprayed myself with some perfume. Learn about the single pillar symbolism . Thinking about dinner tonight and what I wanna eat … Salem’s big saggy energy adds so much to a room 🥺I hope we go fishing in the morning if it’s not too hot too early in the day. <3 cuddling with my baby tonight. Maybe having stuffed crust pizza 💭I hope and wish🤞how to use Symbols.. I feel so beautiful around Salem. Embodying that feeling more. Women attract things to them. The fact about Pasadena CA being founded on the health of the lungs and it’s a Gemini sun🥺the way everything is church……………… my home is the bridge the axis between heaven and earth 🌏……….. ritualizing more , trusting more. Every bridge needs a point of focus. Polar symbolism and symbolic studies gets me SO inspired… how to just study symbolism forever 👁💭history as it pertains. Stories as they pertain. Central pillar in the house of god🥺I connect all that is above with all that is below and I also separate all that is above and all that is below. As a human being. I can feel the Kratom now and it feels soooooo good and like a warm wave over me. Being sober is nice and good for me. I have so many thoughts about me and Salem but there’s only one real way to connect in and that’s by feeling and making choices. I don’t hold in my pee becos I’m the main character of my own life. Bless you Paul 4 times earlier. Symbolism is about finding the ways things are similar over the motivation of finding dissimilar. Taurus and Virgo. Reconciliation of the Prometheus story(eagle? Liver?) Ways scoprio and Pisces are similar and how Virgo and Taurus that axis. Healing that, not seeing myself as separate from . My Scorpio year feels so rewarding at the end of the day. I am a whole person not just one facet. Way too horizontal of a perspective—- totem as a reminder of the vertical axis. Every pilgrimage location is the representation of this. Even people. Polar. Feeling Kratom. Polar is where everyone’s eyes go. My relationship with polarity directly connected to my Virgo behind the scenes everything - my Leo. My Leo is very polar. Salem is down for dominos 🥺I can’t wait to talk with him about symbolism and the patterns . I can’t wait to show him what I really love and why. And for us to merge our worlds in a Piscean way—- my south node north node all that. Here’s my thing, there’s balance with everything, moderation to grapple with. Just because I’m 1st doesn’t mean no one else can be in my life. As a person I’m always going to need (and yes , need) human connection. It’s not an option. But I need myself the most. And I think I’ve had to come around to the idea that I do need to be myself , my own person, take actions that feel right to just ME… this will be a lifelong journey it’s not about accomplishing it tonight. And that’s my “fear” I guess with Salem and with ANYone with everyone. How much are you influencing me? Am I only myself when I’m alone? These things aren’t true. Whatever influences me out of my energy, I’m the one allowing that. Trusting my own discernment over all of it. And lessons will be learned no matter what path I take. I love Salem. I have Neptune in the 5th house and it’s cancer season and I would love to be a mother. But I’m open to whatever path because I’m so mutable. I could have faith in God that no matter what I am on the right path because I am truly me, experiencing all of it. I think I’m starting to understand that success is more important to me than I have been giving it credit for in the last 7ish years of my life … but The deeper work I’ve been doing is the simple understanding of different parts of my journey through not having that.. through choosing not to have it and delaying it. And seeing how that makes me feel. I feel like I’m not a static perosn by any means but a key to learning about myself is trying things until I KNOW what is from me. And I have learned that I am rigid in

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The way my cancer mother still believes in Santa Clause bcos of the power of faith🥺

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The day me and Taylor found out that Ernest scared silly was actually earnest scared stupid 🤯