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Rant

CW: This post will discuss RAMCOA (not in detail) and the mistreatment of RAMCOA survivors in the OSDDID community. Please read with caution.

RAMCOA survivors are treated terribly in the system community. Your trauma is seen as larger than life, not real/fictional, or too bad to talk about. Hell, I'm nervous to even mention this kind of thing because it's so heavily seen as taboo and dangerous to talk about to other people. We're not allowed to share our stories because our trauma(s) are "too severe" and "dangerous" that we're not allowed to share what we went through. I have seen people say not to Google it, and if they do that they'll be more likely to be a victim as well. Which.. just isn't true. Apply that to any other trauma where Googling the definition makes it more likely for you to experience it. Make it make sense! You don't have to share your story in any case scenario, but why are we not ALLOWED to? Why is our trauma that different? It's isolating us, which is what my abusers would've wanted. I've been told that my trauma is fake, and no wonder! We're not allowed to talk about it. Ever. Let us talk about it if we feel comfortable to, it's not your choice, it's OURS.

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Can people stop pushing the idea that you shouldn’t share information about RAMCOA at all? Yeah, sharing detailed information about programming publicly or with people who don’t need it can be dangerous, but it’s already such a taboo topic to the point where a lot of survivors feel like they can’t even speak up about what happened to them. And they have the right to, they endured it.

If you’re saying “be careful how much you share about programming” that’s valid. I’ve seen a lot of people saying that and that makes perfect sense. But “don’t talk about RAMCOA” do people not realize that’s what many of the perpetrators of this type of abuse want? They want total silence. They go to insane lengths just to ensure survivors can’t talk about this. They thrive off secrecy. They’re protected by people’s ignorance. This is a widespread issue that requires a societal effort to put a stop to. How will that happen if people aren’t educated on the fact that this happens, at the very least?

I know a lot of people can use this info to hurt people or get some sick pleasure from hearing about the abuse. But that doesn’t take away the need for the existence of this to be heard and known about. It happens, people need to know that part. They just shouldn’t go digging deeper if they don’t need to. Stop silencing survivors.

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A gentle reminder for systems with severe trauma:

It’s okay to exist in spaces meant for systems, even if other systems’ trauma is not the same as yours.

It’s okay if you know your trauma was severe but dissociative barriers prevent you from knowing details or being able to name exactly what happened.

It’s okay if you struggle to relate to other systems who do not have the same trauma as you.

It’s completely valid to choose to share your trauma in safe spaces, as long as you follow the rules laid out to keep that space safe (i.e. TWs/spoilers)

It’s completely valid to choose not to share your story online or even acknowledge online that your experience constitutes as “severe.”

Posts showing support for systems “without severe trauma” or whose trauma “wasn’t ‘that bad’” do not invalidate your trauma. You are valid.

It’s okay if you’re not as high-functioning as other systems seem to be. (And remember — the internet version of someone doesn’t usually show an accurate picture of someone’s struggles)

It’s okay if you’re really high-functioning when the world seems to think you shouldn’t be. Your trauma, your system, and your experiences are valid.

Having a very large or polyfragmented system is valid. Having a smaller system is valid. Not knowing the size of your system is valid.

Struggling with severe symptoms is really hard and even when you’re dealing with that, I see you, I hear you, I believe you.

It’s okay if you do not have the bandwidth to support other systems or hear their trauma history, even if their experiences are different.

It is not your job to educate people on severe trauma unless you choose to make it your job. Do not let anyone else assign that task to you.

It’s okay to feel left out, forgotten, or invalidated seeing posts circulating that leave you out specifically. Your feelings matter. Others have their posts. This is yours.

I believe you. I wish you healing. You deserve help. You can get through this.

Please drink some water, put on your favorite shirt, look for shapes in clouds, or do something else that makes you feel present and safe. You deserve to feel present and safe.

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START — here | NEXT — coming Friday !!

Silly Henry 🥲

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FIRST — you’re here, you silly goose! | NEXT — coming Sunday !!

…And so night terrors begins.

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Nick | he / they | creator

Heya, I’m Nick! I’ve been a FNAF fan since 2015 and have been in love with the series since. I’m a little dork, and besides from FNAF I also live laugh love Marvel, Pokemon and UK theme parks (yes I’m British, stop bullying me Lizzie). Michael Afton is my special little guy and I’m the original creator of the AU before my friend hopped in to help me out!! Also I’m a massive Henry simp, and I’m actually married to him he is mine (hands off Lizzie). My main is @beeffr

Hellshire | they/it or ask | artist

HI 💪 i’m lizzie i’m part of a sys but i’m gonna be like one of the only ones working on this =3 i’ve been a fnaf fan since like fnaf 3 came out and it’s been one of my biggest special interests since forever! i’m also in LOVE w RDR, bioshock, horror movies & vocaloid.. im also a film major 😯 my main is @lenzshires but i also use @hellshiresys for silly stuff

Jane | any pronouns | writer

[coming soon]

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the systems journey of discovery has certainly been interesting

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A system’s two moods……

Cluster fuck or AAAAAAAAA

endo/non-traumagenic DNI pls

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❝ horrorgirl ❞

✧ being a girl but in the way that your gender also relates to horror, whether it be analog, video games, movies etc!

╰╮requested by @knowkiwish and @lenzshires, made by me

— flag and term made by me﹕﹏

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Im crazy and will not recover👍

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Santa billy lenz and Brahms the elf

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I have only ever said I love you to two men in my life

Billy lenz

And a guy in a dark room who I mistook as billy lenz

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Martin Mathias & Billy Lenz are brothers by the way ‼️‼️‼️

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For some reason billy looks a lot like Martin Mathias’s insane horny twin

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fallen angel (1847) alexandre cabanel

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martin (1977) dir. george a romero