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reading a book with a protagonist that reminds me of TWOC leo (minus the fascism. and the homosexuality unfortunately) and it's so magical. i love characters who can't function if they're not on fight mode and that are forced by circumstances to stop fighting. and i love when they're allowed to be angry and miserable and bitter because their life fucking sucks... and the reason it sucks is mostly because of the consequences of their own actions.

it's such a joy to read a character like that, as depressing as it can get... but honestly a character making me think of leo always makes me happy, and it's a sure way for them to end up in my favourite characters list

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you are my conscience! when you cease to hurt me i shall be either perfect or dead! i wish i could lay my whole heart on your altar-table! this had always been one of the risks! he knew what sulien intended him to feel and he felt it! no enemy he had ever faced had been as hard as sulien could be!

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just thought about jaime lannister again. fuck. that rat monkey bastard. he is privileged, he’s richer than most bloodlines combined, he looks like a girl, he’s almost 40, he has mommy issues and daddy issues and sister issues and brother issues, his name means ‘i love’, he’s been unserious all his life, he used to be the best swordsman in the land, he is disabled, he is blond, he’s used to crossdress so that his twin sister can play with swords while he learned to sew, his fursona is a lion, he is greying, he’s in love with a girl he’s been bullying the entire time they’ve known each other, he wants to be topped by her, he used to fuck his sister, he’s washed up, he has body dysmorphia, he fought a bear, he’s the only reason his disabled brother is alive, he wants to save everyone, he can’t save anyone, he watched his children die, he killed his king, he kept his promises

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The Winter Prince, Elizabeth E. Wein

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i feel like i'm reading so many books i'm not passionate about lately. is this the universe telling me it's time to pick up gemini and finish the niccolò reread

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i finished cryoburn and it was fine. it was fun enough, a pretty classic miles adventure but i wish ivan had been there. kinda sad this is the last miles book and it didn't do anything interesting with his character, but i hope he gets some good writing as a side character in the next book? also i wish what happened after the ending was a novella or something (like i didn't need the flowers of vashnoi, this would've been so much more interesting 😭) but i guess it will be developed in the final book... anyway. a perfectly average vorkosigan adventure

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He thought that Beelzebub probably looked like Ludovico da Bologna, but that equally the Patriarch owned that penetrating, unsentimental form of insight which permitted him, if allowed, to nick the Achilles' tendon of the soul, and twist the remains to his purpose.

Dorothy Dunnett, The Unicorn Hunt

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He could be sweet if you completely erased his entire personality and exchanged it for a different one

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happy the disorderly knights part two: the eight-pointed cross francis/jerott to those who celebrate

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the fact that so much of ivan's character was shaped by the pressure he felt from his mother/barrayaran society to get married asap and the solution was... just getting married immediately to a woman who he likes and who likes him back and everyone wants them to stay married and is happy about it :) wow... amazing... who said stories needed conflict?

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diplomatic immunity was fine and captain vorpatril's alliance was a big disappointment... i hope this series sticks the landing because i do love it but i fear it peaked with mirror dance and memory and everything after is just like. whatever

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going back to this scene for no reason. they don't write men like this anymore

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the vorkosigan saga has the worst case of "let's pair everyone up real quick" i've ever seen since naruto

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imagine a romance subplot in which the fact that these two people are together, or were together, or want to be together, actually says something interesting about them as people and has a weight in their character arcs and in the development of their relationship. impossible. cannot be done. that's the stuff of myth

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once again utterly fascinated in a horrified sort of way about bujold nailing the romance in her series the first time around and never again. it needs to be studied how terrible some authors are at writing the development of an organic relationship between a man and a woman because most of the time they just make them seem like two dolls they're forcing together. he was a boy she was a girl can i make it any more obvious situation

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byerly vorrutyer i know what you are and i know what bujold will not let you be no matter what

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I reread that book ("The House in which..."/"Дом в котором") and draw him. Atmosphere is really comfy, I like it <3