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I think being autistic has made me realize how extremely hostile the environments we have designed are. And I don't mean "this environment is uniquely hostile to me because I am autistic" I mean that even normies are just existing in brutal, stagnant spaces, they have just internalized them as normal. We could have it all, we could live in such a beautiful and fascinating world, designed by humans and for humans who actually enjoy life and it's complexity and wonder. but even now it's like, seen as kinda hippy-dippy bullshit to have "excessive" indoor plants in a workspace or something

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unrestrained summer fun

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god i’m not even through one episode of paranormal home inspectors and it rules, this lady thought she was being haunted by the wails of the restless dead but she was just listening to raccoons fuck in her attic

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at a conference I attended recently, a researcher pointed to the difficulty of finding material in archives because so much depends on the metadata and the terminology used to describe things changes over time. "it would be so helpful," the researcher said, "if I typed 'lesbian' into the library of congress database, it would also show me results that were categorised in the 50s, when the materials were interpreted as 'intimate female friendships'"

which is what tag wrangles at Archive Of Our Own do incredibly effectively: searching for "omegaverse" also leads to "alpha/beta/omega dynamics" and "alternate universe: a/b/o" and so on. but ao3 achieves this frankly incredible categorisation and indexing system by the power of countless volunteers putting in hours and hours of unpaid and unthanked free time, and it's completely understandable that most archives do not have that kind of infrastructure, but also how incredible that a fan-run website has better searchability, classification, and accessibility than the library of congress

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(Sound on.) We’re all doomed.

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"my doctor is refusing to prescribe me this medication I need because they think I'm displaying 'drug seeking behavior'"

-> "it sucks so bad that the institution of medicine empowers people to be so ableist and just refuse treatment to addicts based on vibes" yeah it sure does

-> "addicts are to blame for this" bro is onto nothing 🔥🔥🔥

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nobody tears through library books quite as fast as a 12 yr old girl with no friends

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One thing that has made me a much more well-adjusted person is a clip I once saw of Hank Green saying that anyone can be in amazing shape as long as being in amazing shape is one of their top three priorities.

(This is obviously a generalization that isn't true for everyone. But it is true for most people and I'm proceeding from there.)

This "top three priorities" framing has genuinely reduced my tendency toward jealousy and self-comparison a lot. Now when I feel envious of someone’s spotless, aesthetic home, I think to myself, “Having a spotless, aesthetic home is probably one of their top three priorities. It’s definitely not one of mine, so I shouldn’t expect my home to look like that.”

Or when I see an influencer with a body that takes a ton of work to maintain: “Maintaining that body is obviously one of her top three priorities, because it’s her livelihood. My livelihood is my brain, so I’m never going to prioritize my body like that.”

It also helps me to identify areas that I actually DO want to prioritize more. I realized in recent years that my envy for my friends who prioritized writing more than I did was NOT going away, so I started to prioritize writing more. (Not top three, but higher priority than it has been in the past.)

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Some of you are going to have to realize really fast that posting on social media about your acts of resistance, or the acts of resistance of your workplace/student group, or things you're planning, or even about charitable actions like volunteering, is a stupid idea in the kind of climate where such acts are increasingly incredibly necessary. And that therefore you cannot and should not assume that someone is apathetic or not doing anything important based on their social media activity. And that some acts require secrecy to be effective and people might only be able to safely talk about them years later, if ever.

And then get off your high fucking horse about how people aren't doing anything, how no one is currently firebombing a Walmart, how "white women who say things like 'joy is an act of resistance' take no other acts of resistance" etc. I promise that right now many ordinary people you will never know about are taking actions that seem small on their own but will lessen harm in significant and tangible ways, and that those people are doing more good than anyone whose main revolutionary actions are snarkily complaining online. This is not the time to be tallying social media points and using them to judge each other.

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I do actually care marginally about the guy in that reddit screenshot who voted for Trump and is now worried that he might lose his medicaid funding because I did not fucking stutter when I said healthcare is a human right but the people losing their internships and job offers to the hiring freeze are straight up hilarious.

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How I join skeins

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Its obvious to me when people who post about canaries in mines have never met a canary. Like yeah the miners had a special device to revive the canary because canaries are one of the most adorable creatures on the planet and they make adorable little chirping sounds and honestly probably loved the sounds of machinery and people talking so it was probably loud and friendly with the workers. Whatever though maybe meet a canary sometime and youd understand

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Finally figured out how to permanently disable google assistant on phone

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I really don't understand how "without getting kudos or comments a fanfiction author is going to assume that people who clicked their fic didn't like it" became a controversial take.

I don't know why some people think an author should imagine, or guess that people who click their fic enjoyed it it when nobody is telling them that.

If you're re-reading a fic constantly, or leaving it up in your tab so that it re-loads every day for a hundred days the author is not going to know that unless you tell them. They'd love to hear it. It would make their day.

And if you don't tell them you liked their fic, there's no reason for them to assume you did.

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We love Eito in this household

Art by @wysprzz on Instagram [my fiancée, permission with posting]

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I really hope we get an update with new routes or something. Massive Spoilers (Zero, SF, Rebellion, Killing game, Slasher Route)

Don't get me wrong, I want my happy ending, I want them to be okay in the end, but the SF route really does just leave so much on the table. It doesn't even integrate the required endings or what you find out on that path well.

Like, why do we need the Exorcize Program ending? Maybe it does come up in some important way, but if it does, I couldn't figure it out.

Gaining the knowledge that Eito does want the cure for his 'defect' could've been done SO much better, and the fact that the brainwashing machine still gets used on him and Eva is just... What?

There's so, so much that just doesn't come up in that route. Sure, maybe every little detail doesn't need to come up, but at minimum, Kamyuhn and the true nature of the SDU's origins are massively critical, especially considering, y'know, they're going back to the Satellite and are certain to find out about that pretty damn quick?

(Also the fact that Sirei apparently had something called the Cerebral Glitch Repair Program and apparently never thinks to use it on Eito is utterly baffling. Maybe it comes up in some route I haven't done yet, I'm admittedly missing some bc this game is exhausting to play even if I love it, but fuck.)

There's also just some stuff that's required that doesn't feel super important for the true ending, such as Takumi's parasite infection and such. I could definitely see it as being part of a route required for the true end, but not the true end itself. As it is, you literally only need four routes to reach the 'true' ending: Slasher, Mystery, Box of Calamity, and SF, which leaves so, so much on the table.

Y'know what I'd love to see? An added route/ending that focuses on Takumi breaking through to Eito and discovering that he does, in fact, want to be rid of his cognitive distortion, how painful living like that has been.

And then, have Takumi, remembering his situation with the G'ie parasite and how the data of it was sent back with him, take a chance and use the program on Eito despite the loop likely resetting soon, in the hopes that the 'repair' carries back in time with Eito.

Which sets up a perfect third scenario: this time focusing on Eito as protagonist, who realizes that having all of the SDU survive isn't enough to break free. I think it'd be really interesting to see the effects of a timeloop from his point of view, as well as getting some interesting stuff with Takumi when the player isn't in control of him.

Get a true end where Eito finds a way to keep everyone alive, maybe even giving them some memories back from the loops so they understand what's been happening in the end, and yea, it doesn't resolve the war, but finishing out that way would likely at least mean starting to build that bridge, which leads to a more hopeful future for everyone.

I doubt it'd ever happen but damn that would be fun.