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Americanah...Nah~

I finally finished this book, which took me 2 months.

Now I just want this 2 months back.

I'm not saying it's not a good book, reading is very personal; It's just not my type. I'm one of these Americanah technically, having studied and lived in the US, and now back to my home country. There are a lot of details in this book I can relate to, agree to, and ashamed of. But I'm not interested in reviewing my life. I like books that will take me away from my life, showing me things I've never seen, heard, experienced, thought and felt before. The books open my eyes and mind. The books change me.

But wonder why I insisted on finishing it? For this little bit sense of achievement that will make me feel better about life, make it look less fruitless, like the way cleaning up the apartment does. Also because letters in English are EXPENSIVE here, don't want to waste any.

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有多少人是笑着过30岁生日的？

有多少人是笑着过30岁生日的？我在时针指向12点的时候，蒙头大哭。我的男朋友以为我还在因为他和别的女生过于亲密的事情不依不饶，在一旁无奈叹气。

人生并没有多么的不如意，只是30岁了。生活刚刚开始定型，而它还没有长成我想要的样子。想要改善它，没有能力；想要推翻它，没有勇气。

20岁的生日不会有眼泪，因为年轻，有的是时间和机会； 40岁也不会有，恐怕早已经放弃了挣扎，或者需要在儿子女儿面前强装乐观坚强了。但是30岁，年轻到还在为生活不甘心，年老到没有勇气重头再来。

所以现在能做些什么呢？对人好一点吧，这是唯一不费力就能达到，也会让我觉得好一点点的事情。