letterstodaphne

[letterstodaphne]

Dear Daphne,

It’s been a while but I’ve been visiting family for a week and was busy meeting up with old schoolmates. And I have spicy news.

Everyone is about to marry or is getting pregnant. Like sorry but we’re still in our early twenties pls chill. But yeah, it’s pretty common for people living on the countryside to start domestic life early. 

I really wish we could’ve been like this as well. You and me, a chalet in the alps and some chill job with home office option. Some cats and maybe in a few years a child. 

But anyways. So we’ll have lots of political elections coming up this month. And I am really intrigued how bad some parties do their marketing. Right populists are thankfully loosing their voters. For Vienna we have a pretty interesting new research which prognoses 40% for the reds and only 20% for turquoise. 15% for green, 7% for pink and 9% for blue. Seems pretty good, since I actually like the red chef this time, but I suspect there could probably be a red/green coalition. Whereas I’d wish for the pinks to enter as well. Like sure you need someone to look out for all the financial damages every commoner experienced through the crisis, but you have to look out for the BIP growth as well and that's where they’d need some pink help.

Historically we know that sure the reds did good things for everyone and helped people back up again after wartime and all. But during these periods the state did in fact make lots of debts which still weren’t repaid. More like it potentially could come to a huge financial burden later on for the younger generations. 

Since I’m not allowed to vote there, I’ll vote for Dusseldorfs new mayor. MASZ is an old hag and a liberal but at the same time she represents the younger generation of the FDP which is great. The FDP took lots of damage caused by their own harsh indecisiveness. It’s old white men vs new liberals which does tear the party apart. What a shame, since they could’ve had great potential this year. 

About my personal life? Well I took a few weeks off to do absolutely nothing and I’m living it. We’re building a sauna with mama, since the intercontinental vacay this year is cancelled. But from tomorrow I’m starting to establish a new Uni routine and maybe I’ll try to do some readings in advance. 

It’s just that I am infinitely tired of everything. It’s so hard to watch the biased news, reporters talking like rooters and the whole people mocking and denunciation stuff. Sure the world has lots of overbooking issues right now, but some people actually make stuff worse with their words. Why do they have to talk as if there are better than others? Yeah like sorry, but they don't have to wonder when others get aggressive because they insulted and mocked them for being/acting different or not obeying. And if a dog is cornered and has nothing else to lose, it will attack. 

As always, 

I hate it here and I miss you

[letterstodaphne]

Being on the internet feels like the whole world revolves around the US and that everyone else just plays a minor role. But we all know that those who shout the loudest are those who know the least.

Reading what US people post on twitter concerning the whole Covid situation is so staged for me. Like sorry but get your facts right, read some scientific articles and like watch how other countries handled that situation and if those who did differently took different or still the same damages. What were the common procedures before it happened? Where is which legitimation? Like y’all were having so much more time to prepare. And I’m not talking about the government but about the common people as well. Waiting for commands is just as pitiful as not doing anything.

Is it really worth it saving lives in exchange for the lives of others?

And why am I not allowed to die if I want to?

Oh Daph, I’m so annoyed that my study didn’t get permission. My group and I were planning on visiting retirement- and resting homes and asking the elders about their lives and how they feel about death. 

Okay maybe we did an unofficial online sample which is not representative. But it still got us some insight how the tendency might go:

Those who are in that kind of homes were indeed waiting for death. The majority doesn’t have any relatives who actively visit them and they already felt discarded by society. Sure there are enough people which found new friendships there (those were the healthier patients tbh) but the majority we asked were lonely and felt used. Cause you get lots of money from geriatric patients, that's how our system works. But just keeping them alive to milk money? Why can’t we make euthanasia legal? I really don’t know. I really wish to make this study next year, maybe I’ll use it as a reference in my next Bakk.

Being a scientist became a bootlicker job, no one can convince me otherwise.

You want a funding? Then search for those kind of evidences your sugar daddy wants to see. 

[letterstodaphne]

another day, another day, another day.

As long as you stay remembered, you won’t die.

I thought about visiting the old cottage your family owns. The one with Lasses art stuff.. maybe I could get into sculpting again.

A bust of you. Oh I will definitely build one. Maybe not now, but someday.

You deserve the prettiest gifts. 

[letterstodaphne]

I gotta be honest,

It’s cheat day and my ill mood mixed very baldy with beer and stuff. 

Complaining to others how much I love you seems very inappropriate for me, so I’ll just write it down. It won’t matter anyways.

Can you imagine? It’s been almost 5 years since we’ve met for the first time. And I really hated you. Like which bitch does even go to charity events? Charity events are a failed instance as much as the AMS is and we did enough field studies to prove that (and all those actual scientists with their PhD’s). 

But anyways I can remember that day so clearly because I was infuriated. 

During that time I just started dating your brother and was figuring out everything in my life or at least I was trying to. And this stupid charity event my mom forced me to attend with her was just another nuisance. 

Not being able to get some alcohol was pretty annoying back in time, so I guess thank you for being a schemer who could manage to get some?

Still.. the audacity you had while approaching me. I didn't even know Lasse had a sister. A friggin twin sister who apparently went to boarding school? Yeah, crazy how life’s going.

You were so annoying. Unbelievably. I hated you on the first sight. So I guess thank you for sticking around. 

I really don’t know what about you exactly made me fall deeply but you will just forever be the most fitting asshole I can imagine. Nobody can think the way you do and I deeply adore it. 

Whereas I love your brother, it won’t ever be the same feeling I experience while being with you. This is so unfair. 

I just wanted to life a normal life. And now I won’t ever get to experience it.

Anyways, I think I’m not in the state to elaborate anything further, but i miss you.

really do.

btw, i sold your Steinway. I’m sorry but I can not see this thing anymore. It’s just to painful.

forever yours.

[letterstodaphne]

Daph,

I always wondered how people justify their actings or sights of view. Of course this is a very complex matter.. putting it simple on common folks. Well okay, you got me, I'm just mad about some specific type of person. I sure know the common view of justice and some rebellion like views I can accept. 

But I’m talking about that kind of person who uses their trauma/mental illness/abuse etc. as an excuse for their common behaviour? Like.. I am really sorry that happened to them and I can relate to a certain degree to their inner pain and stuff. But this still doesn’t justify to actively drain the happiness out of others, especially if said others are having a good time.

There are enough good therapists and/or psychotherapists and no one can convince me otherwise. I know for a fact a lot of them (thanks to my own experience) and the most important part ist to try different therapists out and look for the best fitting person. 

Guilt-tripping others or just plainly using them for own therapy/attention or whatever (against their will, because they are just friendly people) is so unhealthy imo. And guess what. Calling them out on their bullshit/negativity or whatsoever makes me the villain. Like always.

Hey maybe I just should introduce myself as some poor soul who lost everything and makes the world responsible for it. 

“Hello, my fiancé died because the doctors weren't competent enough. I’m terrible and I hate everything, so give me all of your attention and listen to me complaining about everything everyday. So wanna be friends?”

I hate it here and I don't understand the 08/15 people. 

And how do you become friends with people you think are awesome but you feel like they don’t want to accept some random strangers? Asking for a friend ofc.

I will forever miss you deeply, xx

[letterstodaphne]

For the moment I am really very, very tired of everything — more than tired.

— Friedrich Nietzsche

[letterstodaphne]

Daphne,

I don’t know what fell over me, but since yesterday I fell into a deep pit of sadness. And as far as it feels, I won’t feel better anytime soon. This is so annoying because now I’m sure I can cancel every meet-ups and non-mandatory events, because I won’t leave my house anyway.

Maybe if I’m lucky I’ll get activated from standby on tuesday and wednesday so I can at least force me to get to do something. As you know my inner duty to fulfil work is extremely strong. 

The whole crisis is really nagging on my mental health. Without any physical labour I’m falling so easily behind. I need the exhaustion, I need the stress, I really need any tasks. Working only 10% a month is horrible, boring and so unsatisfactory. But there is really no other option.

I’m going so crazy, that I actually begged my and your mom for some extra tasks. Just easy accounting or controlling. I mean I got that work, obviously. But it’s just not the same. Boring bureau jobs. 

The wish of a never ending sleep is very tempting, you know? But I still have something to accomplish and see something accomplished myself. Two goals which are just too important for both of us and someone has to make them turn reality.

I may be moving slowly, but I’m still moving.

[letterstodaphne]

What if I slept a little more and forgot about all this nonsense.

— Franz Kafka

[letterstodaphne]

Sometimes it really makes me wonder if we’re really that special of snowflakes - at least compared to the average person our age - because we never thought of voting for a far leftist party at home. Far right parties can screw themselves to the dark side of the moon.

I mean we voted since possible for liberals and we won’t vote for right centred conservatives or left centred social-democrats. The green party doesn’t exist in our vocabulary.

Just alone stating that we vote for them makes many people scrunch their noses in dislike. Like?? Did ya read their election program?? Probably not. For example: they are one of the few parties which have a high priority in expanding our educational system and ensure a more qualitative and customised system, where more children can benefit from. They see education as an investment instead of an expense. And I am waiting since high school for an educational reformation. It can not be that the bavarians receive more and better education than others. They are in advantage and everyone knows it. And I won't start venting about the issues with teachers.

We always had different priorities than others and it shows I guess.

There is nothing wrong with the general concept of social-democrats, but imo they shouldn't be given the power alone. In my ideal constellation there should  be a coalition between social-democrats like those in Switzerland (not GER) and the new generation of Free Democratic Liberals (or more like those who are past old scarred tradition and assholery). Caring for everyone and encouraging the strive for more at the same time. 

I always felt left out from the social-democrats and if they actually want to make politics for everyone, they should listen to everyone. And I’m not talking about extremes or exploitive corporations etc., I mean real people who actually work hard and want to receive fair payment and recognition or at least better working conditions. 

Like I’m actually talking about professions like doctors who work at hospitals or advocates, the averages of their kind. They are exploited by way too much work and duties even if their payment is pretty decent, it is not enough. Studying for 6 years and starting with an average salary of ~2,4k monthly (after taxation)? Those poor clinical doctors may work on paper 42hrs a week but the statistics show they work in average at least 10hrs more than that. 1/5 even works twice as much. And not everyone gets compensation payment or extra free time (just 70%). Even worse are those all-in contracts of advocates, but I am no expert in the material. Advocates are more of your expertise, Daph.

Sure they earn more money than the average worker, but in relation to education, working hours and responsibility in their actions? unsatisfactory.

Sometimes I just imagine my life as a construction worker who officially works 20hrs a week and then unofficially 30hrs a week extra. Safes lots of tax and makes the salary per hour way above the minimum. And hey, it’s not like that this isn't common here at all..

But the actual enemy are the jobcenters. We need a reformation there asap, in GER, AT and CH. This trash of tax-waste is hindering jobless people to actually reintegrate in our working society instead of helping them. A failing instance. 

By the way, my austrian wish regime would be pink/red. Meinl-Reisinger and Rendi-Wagner working together? Oh my, that’s almost a wet dream. But no, people here are denouncing them as whiny-wannabe-chief-partyleader. Feminazis. I hate it here.

And the most funny fact is, that Pam actually is a virologist by higher education. You think the government let her have a word in the decision making? You think the common folk was willing to listen to her? Obviously no.

Better prez. shorty and freunderlwirtschaft. 

Oh Daphne, I miss being angry with you.

[letterstodaphne]

The newest addition to my anger:

“If we had the knowledge we have now back then, we wouldn’t have initiated a lockdown or the majority of those measures”

I knew it, they panicked. 

But my opinion doesn’t matter, nor does the opinion of any critic. We’re all heartless and cruel. 

Yeah, sure. Tell that Niclas’ dad, who died because the ambulance asked him if he was really sure he had a stroke, because they needed the empty beds in case some covid patients would’ve come.

Obv. Jürgen then became uncertain.. and then it was too late for any help.

Dear Daphne, 

It’s been a while since I wrote actual letters, but it’s just so much easier to write on laptop. Of course it will be in your liking to know that the aesthetics still remain simple yet elegant, I won’t ever to anything different. 

Anyways, the whole world is going insane right now and you probably would go just as mad as me watching the blatant lies and incorrect or non-verified “scientific” studies (more like methodically wrong simulations) Mr. Shorty tries to sell as the only truth, he received from his “experts” whose names he won’t tell. Your best friend from the 2008 epidemic is now back on top as Germanys apparent only intelligence. Whereas back then it was Tamiflu which promised to reduce a severe development it’s now Remdesivir. You know, rewatching the news back then and comparing them with now.. it’s pretty similar but yet slightly different. 

Whereas back then almost nobody did publish actual numbers or countings, now they escalate with daily updates and drive people insane. Watching people denounce and insult each other for months becomes tiring. At the same time I get really annoyed about the fact that everyone who does offer critique - which is essential in a scientific discourse - became ridiculed or mouthdead instantly. Everyone who offered critique was entitled as a conspiracist or stupid, no matter if they were right or wrong.

Not to forget the audacity to cut off our essential rights for a month. Like I really mean the most basic of the basic rights to p.e. going for a walk in the local gardens. I mean we both would definitely still go to Schönbrunn for a walk and just pay the fee. 

By the way, you’d be so proud of me. I got straight A’s in basic and advanced statistics.. even though multivariate are killing me. Still, I actually know what scientists are talking about when showing their ‘exponential’ graphs. And when even I (with profs approval) see mayor errors in the stats, it really was badly made. But why not, it’s just so easy to follow the truth one makes up themself. 

I won’t ever forget how Shorty threatened the country with about more than 250k deaths, because his “experts” did bad maths. They seriously calculated 8mio*0.37 instead of 0,0037. The 0.37% were in percent and they literally just forgot to convert. You’d like to know of the 0,37%? It’s from Hendricks field study of one city which was exposed to a super spreading event and the majority got infected. Of course I am aware that this study has flaws. But nevertheless they could actually test households and 60% of the cities population about the virus’ behaviour. But you know I am way too lazy to recount all results. The most important part in my opinion was the newly calculated lethality between ca. 0,37% (+/-0,1%) - compared to sessional Influenza which has a lethality between 0,2-0,4%. And I know of course that wE HaVe A VacCiNe against influenza. Nevertheless only 8% of the whole austrian population got this vaccine so stfu, it makes more sense to compare both stems in this regard than with any other. And the other important conclusion was, that the number of non recorded infections may be way higher than calculated. Which is good, means that the actual lethality may be even lower. Today 25% of the persons who got tested are without any symptoms, but you know they only test ~9k ppl a day. So the thesis of a higher dark number is really plausible. 

People really love to put words into my mouth I’ve never said, whereas I only state that some measurements actually endanger the (mental, financial, etc.) wellbeing of others more than the virus. Does it sound cruel? I hate it here. 

Evil Duffy is helping out at her local suicide hotline and she told me about the significant increased calls she’s receiving. Meanwhile stuff got better, but between March-May it apparently was really bad. By the way Duffy is doing pretty good, she quit her gang and it was the best to happen to her. She’s flourishing. I love it. Don’t be jealous, we still are just friendly enemies.

Well in case you’re wondering about the recent happenings here, it’s almost as if nothing really happened. Except that the clubs are officially closed but parties won’t ever stop, will they? Martin got caught in April and had to pay a 5k fee. 5k are for him like?? nothing. Of course rich people are not really affected by rules. And no, I hate him although I had to visit them since Ivana is pregnant. No one ever would’ve thought that her tiny body is once again 6months into pregnancy. 

Travelling became tiresome and troublesome. But it’s getting better in Europe. I wonder when intercontinental flights will be regular again. After my last BKK I gave up my LR license. I don’t care if I won’t be able to redo the license anytime soon, this was pure torture. They literally imprisoned us for 6 days in the hotel room. No room card. No balcony. No fresh air. Only room service and bad wifi. I am not one to complain so easily about work but this was beyond my comfort zone. For my sorry ass it’s only short range all the way. I’ll gladly do every nightlight of SS4. Still better than the regional fleet, Bless their poor souls. And about the service I don’t want to talk. It’s trash.

Yeah work is pretty bad, we’re actually just waiting when the company will begin to fire us. But since we’re on shortwork they are legally not allowed to to so, yet.

My studies are going badly as well, I couldn’t find the interest in anything lately. I just finished the i.p. seminars and wrote the respective scientific papers, but that’s it. Only 15ects, a shame. Well.. two gradings are still not finished yet but I am sure I passed anyways. 

Seems like I was mostly venting and complaining about my recent life, but you know.. I am so mad at everything. Maybe I should start fencing once again.

I promise the next letter will be kinder,

en garde! 

[letterstodaphne]

eu carinho,

I really miss talking with you about the opinions of others. 

So recently I’ve been seeing a lot of people calling themselves socialists but I am pretty sure that the majority actually wants more a welfare system than an actual socialist regime. Like sure, there are enough people who still love reading Marx and Engels and dream of utopia. But in my humble ex soviet opinion, communism and socialism are and will forever be trash. 

Even better when those said people give examples of “socialism” by naming the Scandinavian countries. Sorry to disappoint, but those countries are very much capitalistic. The exception to p.e. the US is, that they did add rules and regulations to keep things fair and dignified. 

Not everyone will get a gold medal or a nobel prize and not everyone wants to, we are all different and strive for different success in life. And this is imo incompatible with a socialistic regime. 

Sure, I can not fully imagine how it is to live in countries without any welfare system. And I can not understand how some countries can just ignore or get bribed by the filthy rich and grant them even more power - I mean I already have a grey moral on certain topics but this is even darker. When politicians talk about taxes or inheritance tax, that it is not fair to those small millionaires who did in fact earn all their money earnestly, paid their taxes and paid their employees the regulated fair salaries. We already pay 60% tax and extra fees omg, pls chill.

Imagine how much money we’d have, if we lives in Texas or some state with extreme low income tax. Like... wow? But the bright side of this would be, that we could decide ourselves where we invest our money to. And I’m talking about charity and welfare projects here.

You know that asshole Spahn just did buy himself a new home of 4mio€ worth with our tax money? Yeah, well done Mr. Minister of Health. 

Anyways, I have finally started the lecture on deduction management and I will finish the first book in the next few days, cause the 150 pages are nothing. I want to raise my income to 2k netto by the end of this year. We’ll see if LH will start firing employees soon, cause the aviation business is dying. Rip to my favourite jetset life. 

Everything is dying, except me. 

I miss you

[letterstodaphne]

Dear Daphne,

As promised this letter will be a kinder one. 

Did you know I recently went on vacation with your mother? This war more of a spontaneous decision from my side, since she was visiting your summer house on Crete and asked me to tag along. 

People ask me if I feel ashamed of going on vacation outside of the country and my answer is definitely no. I see no difference for me staying on the grecian estate without talking to anyone else except May or staying in the country and visiting another estate. The difference is just that there is an empty pool on Crete and in the capital every public bath or sea is extremely overfilled. 

What about flying? Well this is what I do for a living and just sitting on the plane without interacting with other passengers is even “safer”. 

Anyways. Your mother is an experience just like always but different at the same time. But she calmed down. Her divorce is finally finished and they said goodbye to each other in peace. She reopened her chancellery and hired someone to replace her position, only doing the management for the time-being. I guess her personal feelings are getting in the way to practice in desired standards. 

She changed her cold demeanour towards me and actually tries to get to know me.. and you. The lament about her past behaviour is showing and I am grateful that she actually tries to better herself. How things had to come for her to finally accept us. It’s a shame.

And it’s a shame we both never had the chance to come here together. I’d have loved to see you showing me your favourite hideouts and your funniest stories from childhood. 

The sunsets were beautiful and reminded me of out time when we had a stopover in Piraeus. Oh god the grilled octopus is always a delight in Greece. 

Do you remember when we did our sailing license just to steal a boat and sail through the whole aegaen sea? Renting a boat was out of question since we wanted to stop over on Naxos, the formerly autonomic island of pirates. Oh I still love to tell people that this is my biggest dream in life. 

I miss you madly

[letterstodaphne]

I have to add: just right now a commentary of the former chancellor undermined my words. Kern comments on the medial (almost)monopolised corruption which supports Shorty and his acting in this situation. Thank God there are still public people who dare say words of reason. 

Dear Daphne, 

It’s been a while since I wrote actual letters, but it’s just so much easier to write on laptop. Of course it will be in your liking to know that the aesthetics still remain simple yet elegant, I won’t ever to anything different. 

Anyways, the whole world is going insane right now and you probably would go just as mad as me watching the blatant lies and incorrect or non-verified “scientific” studies (more like methodically wrong simulations) Mr. Shorty tries to sell as the only truth, he received from his “experts” whose names he won’t tell. Your best friend from the 2008 epidemic is now back on top as Germanys apparent only intelligence. Whereas back then it was Tamiflu which promised to reduce a severe development it’s now Remdesivir. You know, rewatching the news back then and comparing them with now.. it’s pretty similar but yet slightly different. 

Whereas back then almost nobody did publish actual numbers or countings, now they escalate with daily updates and drive people insane. Watching people denounce and insult each other for months becomes tiring. At the same time I get really annoyed about the fact that everyone who does offer critique - which is essential in a scientific discourse - became ridiculed or mouthdead instantly. Everyone who offered critique was entitled as a conspiracist or stupid, no matter if they were right or wrong.

Not to forget the audacity to cut off our essential rights for a month. Like I really mean the most basic of the basic rights to p.e. going for a walk in the local gardens. I mean we both would definitely still go to Schönbrunn for a walk and just pay the fee. 

By the way, you’d be so proud of me. I got straight A’s in basic and advanced statistics.. even though multivariate are killing me. Still, I actually know what scientists are talking about when showing their ‘exponential’ graphs. And when even I (with profs approval) see mayor errors in the stats, it really was badly made. But why not, it’s just so easy to follow the truth one makes up themself. 

I won’t ever forget how Shorty threatened the country with about more than 250k deaths, because his “experts” did bad maths. They seriously calculated 8mio*0.37 instead of 0,0037. The 0.37% were in percent and they literally just forgot to convert. You’d like to know of the 0,37%? It’s from Hendricks field study of one city which was exposed to a super spreading event and the majority got infected. Of course I am aware that this study has flaws. But nevertheless they could actually test households and 60% of the cities population about the virus’ behaviour. But you know I am way too lazy to recount all results. The most important part in my opinion was the newly calculated lethality between ca. 0,37% (+/-0,1%) - compared to sessional Influenza which has a lethality between 0,2-0,4%. And I know of course that wE HaVe A VacCiNe against influenza. Nevertheless only 8% of the whole austrian population got this vaccine so stfu, it makes more sense to compare both stems in this regard than with any other. And the other important conclusion was, that the number of non recorded infections may be way higher than calculated. Which is good, means that the actual lethality may be even lower. Today 25% of the persons who got tested are without any symptoms, but you know they only test ~9k ppl a day. So the thesis of a higher dark number is really plausible. 

People really love to put words into my mouth I’ve never said, whereas I only state that some measurements actually endanger the (mental, financial, etc.) wellbeing of others more than the virus. Does it sound cruel? I hate it here. 

Evil Duffy is helping out at her local suicide hotline and she told me about the significant increased calls she’s receiving. Meanwhile stuff got better, but between March-May it apparently was really bad. By the way Duffy is doing pretty good, she quit her gang and it was the best to happen to her. She’s flourishing. I love it. Don’t be jealous, we still are just friendly enemies.

Well in case you’re wondering about the recent happenings here, it’s almost as if nothing really happened. Except that the clubs are officially closed but parties won’t ever stop, will they? Martin got caught in April and had to pay a 5k fee. 5k are for him like?? nothing. Of course rich people are not really affected by rules. And no, I hate him although I had to visit them since Ivana is pregnant. No one ever would’ve thought that her tiny body is once again 6months into pregnancy. 

Travelling became tiresome and troublesome. But it’s getting better in Europe. I wonder when intercontinental flights will be regular again. After my last BKK I gave up my LR license. I don’t care if I won’t be able to redo the license anytime soon, this was pure torture. They literally imprisoned us for 6 days in the hotel room. No room card. No balcony. No fresh air. Only room service and bad wifi. I am not one to complain so easily about work but this was beyond my comfort zone. For my sorry ass it’s only short range all the way. I’ll gladly do every nightlight of SS4. Still better than the regional fleet, Bless their poor souls. And about the service I don’t want to talk. It’s trash.

Yeah work is pretty bad, we’re actually just waiting when the company will begin to fire us. But since we’re on shortwork they are legally not allowed to to so, yet.

My studies are going badly as well, I couldn’t find the interest in anything lately. I just finished the i.p. seminars and wrote the respective scientific papers, but that’s it. Only 15ects, a shame. Well.. two gradings are still not finished yet but I am sure I passed anyways. 

Seems like I was mostly venting and complaining about my recent life, but you know.. I am so mad at everything. Maybe I should start fencing once again.

I promise the next letter will be kinder,

en garde! 

[letterstodaphne]

Dear Daphne, 

It’s been a while since I wrote actual letters, but it's just so much easier to write on laptop. Of course it will be in your liking to know that the aesthetics still remain simple yet elegant, I won't ever to anything different. 

Anyways, the whole world is going insane right now and you probably would go just as mad as me watching the blatant lies and incorrect or non-verified “scientific” studies (more like methodically wrong simulations) Mr. Shorty tries to sell as the only truth, he received from his “experts” whose names he won't tell. Your best friend from the 2008 epidemic is now back on top as Germanys apparent only intelligence. Whereas back then it was Tamiflu which promised to reduce a severe development it’s now Remdesivir. You know, rewatching the news back then and comparing them with now.. it’s pretty similar but yet slightly different. 

Whereas back then almost nobody did publish actual numbers or countings, now they escalate with daily updates and drive people insane. Watching people denounce and insult each other for months becomes tiring. At the same time I get really annoyed about the fact that everyone who does offer critique - which is essential in a scientific discourse - became ridiculed or mouthdead instantly. Everyone who offered critique was entitled as a conspiracist or stupid, no matter if they were right or wrong.

Not to forget the audacity to cut off our essential rights for a month. Like I really mean the most basic of the basic rights to p.e. going for a walk in the local gardens. I mean we both would definitely still go to Schönbrunn for a walk and just pay the fee. 

By the way, you’d be so proud of me. I got straight A’s in basic and advanced statistics.. even though multivariate are killing me. Still, I actually know what scientists are talking about when showing their ‘exponential’ graphs. And when even I (with profs approval) see mayor errors in the stats, it really was badly made. But why not, it’s just so easy to follow the truth one makes up themself. 

I won’t ever forget how Shorty threatened the country with about more than 250k deaths, because his “experts” did bad maths. They seriously calculated 8mio*0.37 instead of 0,0037. The 0.37% were in percent and they literally just forgot to convert. You’d like to know of the 0,37%? It’s from Hendricks field study of one city which was exposed to a super spreading event and the majority got infected. Of course I am aware that this study has flaws. But nevertheless they could actually test households and 60% of the cities population about the virus’ behaviour. But you know I am way too lazy to recount all results. The most important part in my opinion was the newly calculated lethality between ca. 0,37% (+/-0,1%) - compared to sessional Influenza which has a lethality between 0,2-0,4%. And I know of course that wE HaVe A VacCiNe against influenza. Nevertheless only 8% of the whole austrian population got this vaccine so stfu, it makes more sense to compare both stems in this regard than with any other. And the other important conclusion was, that the number of non recorded infections may be way higher than calculated. Which is good, means that the actual lethality may be even lower. Today 25% of the persons who got tested are without any symptoms, but you know they only test ~9k ppl a day. So the thesis of a higher dark number is really plausible. 

People really love to put words into my mouth I’ve never said, whereas I only state that some measurements actually endanger the (mental, financial, etc.) wellbeing of others more than the virus. Does it sound cruel? I hate it here. 

Evil Duffy is helping out at her local suicide hotline and she told me about the significant increased calls she’s receiving. Meanwhile stuff got better, but between March-May it apparently was really bad. By the way Duffy is doing pretty good, she quit her gang and it was the best to happen to her. She’s flourishing. I love it. Don’t be jealous, we still are just friendly enemies.

Well in case you’re wondering about the recent happenings here, it’s almost as if nothing really happened. Except that the clubs are officially closed but parties won't ever stop, will they? Martin got caught in April and had to pay a 5k fee. 5k are for him like?? nothing. Of course rich people are not really affected by rules. And no, I hate him although I had to visit them since Ivana is pregnant. No one ever would’ve thought that her tiny body is once again 6months into pregnancy. 

Travelling became tiresome and troublesome. But it’s getting better in Europe. I wonder when intercontinental flights will be regular again. After my last BKK I gave up my LR license. I don’t care if I won't be able to redo the license anytime soon, this was pure torture. They literally imprisoned us for 6 days in the hotel room. No room card. No balcony. No fresh air. Only room service and bad wifi. I am not one to complain so easily about work but this was beyond my comfort zone. For my sorry ass it’s only short range all the way. I’ll gladly do every nightlight of SS4. Still better than the regional fleet, Bless their poor souls. And about the service I don't want to talk. It’s trash.

Yeah work is pretty bad, we’re actually just waiting when the company will begin to fire us. But since we’re on shortwork they are legally not allowed to to so, yet.

My studies are going badly as well, I couldn’t find the interest in anything lately. I just finished the i.p. seminars and wrote the respective scientific papers, but that's it. Only 15ects, a shame. Well.. two gradings are still not finished yet but I am sure I passed anyways. 

Seems like I was mostly venting and complaining about my recent life, but you know.. I am so mad at everything. Maybe I should start fencing once again.

I promise the next letter will be kinder,

en garde!