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I only had one of those. I might’ve squandered it but I don’t think I said everything I needed to say. I would’ve said the same thing mostly but I do want to say it without anyone looking over your shoulder. I want you to know that I meant it. I do want you to be happy and I gave up whatever we had. I hope you don’t read this because I know you and you’re happier, and I just want you to know I really meant it when I said I’m glad you’re happier. But the point of this post is that I want to say what I felt I couldn’t say earlier. The first is that I’m glad you’re not following me or anything like that. You deserve the best and I’ve said it to you in our chat but I feel like I haven’t said it on my terms. Fuck Sara, you’re doing good and you need to keep going on. It’s probably not perfect but it’s good and that’s great you know?
The other thing I need to say is that when I said I’ll always love you and that you’ll always be my first, it doesn’t mean maybe or sometimes, it really means always. If you need something that you feel I can do, just mention it. We don’t need a long conversation about us, if it’s in my power, I’ll do it. Maybe it doesn’t mean much now that I’m just trying to qualify as a lawyer but who knows? It might be worth something in the future when and if I become something!
Love always,
Sats
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Dear Sara,
It’s been awhile! No, not drunk or in a bad place or anything like that. Stop being mean, okay? Ideally you won’t ever see this, because you shouldn’t want or need to check this blog. You seem to be doing amazing in all respects of life, and you’re happy! I don’t need you to see this either. All I want is just for you to be happy, and I still want that even after all this time. And not in an apathetic way. Keep going strong, Cakes. Don’t lose heart or faith, and keep being a strong sloff!
This next part is more for me. I know it seems like I didn’t care but I really really do. It sucks because I never got to say goodbye properly but I don’t think I really wanted to. In a typical Sats fashion I just sort of blundered along, but I’m glad I left you alone because you do seem to be in such a good place. After a lot of reflection I know now that it was me who wasn’t ready, not you. I had a ways to go. I mean we both did but I think I did a bit more than you. Thank you so much for the love. I hope you felt it from me as well, because it really was and is there.
I really hope I get to see you sometime in the future because even if we’ve moved on you will always be my first and I will always love you. Knowing you, this is probably the last thing you want to do but that’s fine. If you ever want or need anything from me, I’m always just a message away. There’ll be no need for a big talk about how we were or us, just ask and I’ll try my best to do whatever. I’m sorry I couldn’t be enough for you, but I hope our relationship helped you in some way.
Love,
Sats
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Normal
Dear Sara,
I just wanna stress what we talked about earlier - it’s normal to feel that most people don’t engage you especially if you’re really busy in life. It’s hard to find a genuine connection and that’s what makes a real friendship or relationship. I know you may think what I’m saying with bs but it’s something I’ve really found is helping me cope with everything: enjoy the process of finding the balance, and not just getting to the balance itself. You’re intelligent, funny, beautiful and yes, strong. You can manage and do it. Don’t be cynical and believe it.
Love,
Sats
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Listen to this
Dear Sara,
We haven’t spoken in a day and I’m wondering if this is drifting apart or if we’re both just really busy. Maybe those two things aren’t so different.
I’ve heard a song today that really makes me feel sad, though I can’t put my finger on it. I’ve got no idea why exactly. Give it a listen and reach out? Maybe you can tell me what it is. I’d love to speak to you.
The song is I Am Easy to Find by The National. It’s insane, I’ve never had a song that makes me feel this way.
No picture of Rocky as I’m sending this from work. But will put one in tonight!
Love,
Sats
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Busy days
Dear Sara,
We’ve not had a good chat in a while because it’s been so busy I’m guessing for you and also for me. I hope you are doing well and are working hard but also are happy!
Your amnesty international guy seems real annoying but don’t forget there are a lot of annoying people out there so it’s good to start learning to deal with these fuckers. You dealt with me for three years so that’s good practice I hope! Don’t lose your cool and keep being cool, because if people are incapable it’s only a matter of time before everyone else sees it. Catch you in a bit cakes!
Love,
Sats
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Confirmation
Dear Sara,
Hello cutie! It’s been a while 😔 though tbf you do seem busy in London which is great! You like keeping busy and it keeps you occupied.
Today was such a big milestone for my Sister and I was thinking too, how as we get older we have fewer and fewer obvious milestones. So maybe set a few! You’re busy but don’t let the tasks always seem endless. I think you’ve told me this before but keep in mind you’re going somewhere and count your big milestones, or make them yourself, so you can reflect and see how far you’ve come!
Love,
Sats
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La Pasíon
Dear Sara,
We’re just talking about your AMAZING soup right now and it’s made me think about the things I’m passionate about. I’ve decided I am hard gonna go after my transfer at the end of this month, so I have more time to pursue my passions. Which is just Rocky lol.
Don’t ever give up what you’re passionate about, or at least what you enjoy doing. You got your pictures put in the Albanian art gallery ffs! Keep doing things that keep you sane and that you love cakes.
Love,
Sats
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Hello
Dear Sara,
Hello! I hope you are well. I am fine.
Haha in school when we had compositions I’d always start mine off like that when we had to write a letter.
Today I wanna say everyone knows it’s important to be true to yourself. But what’s more important is actually knowing ourselves I think. Its applied to me because sometimes I feel I may know the truth but I don’t wanna see it or get to it because of comfort. Never let comfort be something that stands in the way of know who you are. Similarly, never get so used to comfort that peace becomes uncomfortable.
Maybe these letters are good for me to go read over sometime 😂
Love,
Sats
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Growth
Dear Sara,
Today was the first day I took a look at rocky and thought, “wow, he’s actually grown so much!” But I bet rocky doesn’t feel the same way at all. Even though he’s huge now in he’s head he’s still the same old pup, and this is evident because he’s always hitting himself on corners and things he used to zip around when he was smol 😂
We can be a bit like that too. We’re us, so we forget we’re always growing and getting bigger as people even though we feel we’re the same size. Don’t be like rocky, and don’t forget to take stock of where you are and where you’re going so you have a clear path forward!
Love,
Sats
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Post birthday
Dear Sara,
HELLO CUTIE CUTIE! I hope your birthday has given you a great start to the week which has continued to be great!
Hang in there little tax lawyer. The law has a steep learning curve and at the start things always seem complex. But persevere, and as your knowledge grows so will your understanding and confidence!
Love,
Sats
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