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i am the real actual worst lol (but also not lol bc im srs)

i suck so much holyyyyyyyyyyyy shit

i am so boring

i dont like going out

people hate me

im no fun

i care way too much about things that are boring and serious

i burden other ppl with my problems 24/7

im so theoretical and elitist

i suckkkkkkkkkkkk

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i dont know anymore

i just dont.

how the fuck am i the one who has to fix things all the time

i didnt even know that they were my problems to fix

its been a whole year on and i didnt even know the worst of it

but i was right all along.

you were

you were

you were

you were

i saw the whispers

the sideeye

the glances that slipped away

and yet

and yet

it was my problem

im sorry friend

but how the FUCK was i supposed to know

over a year ago

and i just cant seem to let myself move on

there is no symbolic fire for me

there is only regret and guilt

and i feel it all

i hold it all

i just cant seem to move on

every mistake

every action

every word

i knew

i knew 

i knew

i knew

i knew all along

i am not crazy

i was right

and i hate myself for still giving a shit about it at all.

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